I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I do not have hair, that people will find me ugly and will reject me, wherein I would feel bad/depressed about myself because of the accepted and allowed relationship with others, within which I have programmed myself to be defined by what others think of me, rather than realising that who I am is not to be influenced/defined by another’s perspective of me, but that within the principle of oneness and equality as who I really am, that I am the self-directive principle of me in my world, whereas I direct me within my world within self-honesty, from within which I do not accept and allow myself to be defined/influenced by what others think of me – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad/depressed when another judges me as being ugly and thus rejects me, instead of realising that it is me who judges and rejects me through my acceptances and allowances in regards to the power/influence that another has upon me instead of releasing that power and giving it back to myself within self-investigation through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be the self-directive principle of me in my world, through me being influenced by what others think of me, instead of realising that what I allow within myself when another judges me is my own reactions as judgments/spite/blame that I hold against myself – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within myself when another judges me – within which the reaction only shows me that I am still judging me as being “inferior” to another, thus still participating within the games of the mind as polarity, instead of releasing myself from this game of the mind from within which I do not want to engage any more, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others will think of me if I am to be seen without my hat, wherein I would fear others judging me as being “less than them” because of apparently being perceived as being “ugly” without my hat – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being ugly without my hat, thus perceiving myself as being “less than another” because of the values that I still have regarding my physical appearance as the picture presentation of myself that I project unto others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me perceiving myself as being “less than another” because of not having or losing my hair, that I show myself that I still participate within the polarities of the mind that I no longer want to engage in – within which I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within “superiority”, that I immidietaly invite the opposite polarity of “inferiority” within me, thus generating a battle within me between the two polarities of “superiority” and “inferiority” from within which I would do all in my power to supress the polarity of “inferiority”, not realising that the more that I supress the feeling of “inferiority” within me, the more I give power and control to those who want to control me – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me allowing myself to participate within games of polarities of the mind, such as superiority and inferiority, that I become a puppet which can easily be manipulated by the elite/those who are in power in order to be controlled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that no one would want to be with my company if I do not have hair any longer, because of the imprinted impression that I programmed into my being from within my teenage years, where I would deliberately think, over and over and over again, that I would rather be dead than not having any more hair, because of the fear that I had of showing myself without hair to cover the big forehead that I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the “big” forehead that I have is to be forever hidden from the sights of another, because of the stigma that have been imprinted within me from my formative years, where I was regularly teased, ridiculed and rejected because of being judged as being “less than the cool ones” because of my physical appearance – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to love me for who I am as an unconditionnal expression of myself as life, instead of seeking to “love me” according to the limited conditions of what “love” is culturally defined as, such as the conditions of being loved only if physically attractive to the opposite sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the love I have of myself through the interactions that I have with the opposite sex, wherein I would define myself as being loved and loveable and thus experiencing the feeling of love within myself, only if I would be loved/cared for by a member of the opposite sex, instead of realising that real love is yet to be existent within this world, and that the love I have for myself is not to be defined by another, but to be made real through self-investigation as writing, self-forgiveness and self-correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the gaze of another when I am seen without my “protective hat”, because of the fear I have of seeing the same disgust that I have against myself, through self-hate/spite and blame, when I look at myself in the mirror – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the game of comparison whenever I look at myself in the mirror, within which I would deliberately compare my picture presentation to that of another being perceived as superior or inferior to myself at a given moment of comparison – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I play the game of comparison whenever I look at myself in the mirror, whereas the only reason why I would feel bad about my image is because of my accepted and allowed participation within comparison, instead of realsing myself from such a game of the mind through stopping my participation within comparison, and that as soon as I see/perceive myself as participating within comparison through me experiencing highs or lows when I look at myself in the mirror, that I immediately stop, BREATHE, realise that it is a game of the mind I no longer want to engage in and apply self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application through writing or through saying it out loud until the point gets released from within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed because of having just cut my hair short, which was long before and where I had received positive remarks from others, wherein I now feel depressed because of not finding the way I look as “beautifull” as it was when my hair was longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being not as beautifull as I was when I had longer hair, wherein I now judge myself as being less attractive as I was prior to the time when I cut my hair, remembering the bad remarks/judgments from  others that I had when my hair was shorter – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fell “less than who I was when I had long hair” because of the judgment that I make towards my physical appearance as being “less attractive” than what it was when my hair was longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate breauty with long hear, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate “ugly” with short hair – wherein I now feel myself as being “uglier” than what I was when I had longer hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people will find me less attractive now that I have short hair, instead of realising that what I fear is not the judgments of others towards myself, but my own judgment as the feeling of “inferiority” within having short hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value my physical appearance, such as having long hair, as being more important than the value I have towards life, instead of valuing life as being of the utmost importance as the greatest value one can have – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value long hair as being more important than the value of life.

I forgive myself that I  have accepted and allowed myself to fear going out with a girlfriend because of the belief that she will find me ugly now that I have short hair, as I felt more confident within myself when I had longer hair than when I have shorter hair – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the feeling of “confidence” that I experienced within and as myself when I had longer hair, was a feeling that was the result of my accepted and allowed participation within polarity of the mind, as I then associated confidence with “superiority” towards how I look in comparison to the “past images” of myself and where the “past images of myself” as the images of me with short hair, was perceived as the “inferiority” point within myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, now that I have short hair, judge me as being less than who I was when I had long hair because of the negative remarks that I got from others when I had short hair as opposed to the positive remarks that I had from others when I had long hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the fact of having short hair as the inferiority point within myself, within the comparison of myself as the image of myself within a given moment as opposed to the image of myself within a past moment, and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as being “inferior” now that I have short hair, because of the value that I have towards and within the current image of myself as being less valuable than the image that I had of myself when I had long hair – instead of realising that the utmost value that I should have is the value of life as the unconditionnal expression of myself as life as the physical. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the fact of having long hair as the superiority point within myself, whereas I would feel superior to others as myself when I had long hair, not realsing that I was then accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity of the mind, through me feeling superior when I had long hair as opposed to feeling inferior when I  had short hair – and now that I have short hair, that I feel “less than” who I was when I had long hair, because the polarity game that I unconsciously played when I had long hair – as the game of perceiving myself superior to what I was when I had short hair – now became all of a sudden conscious, as the judgments that ressurfaced after I had finished cutting my hair short.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge me according to how I look physically, from within which I would silently judge myself instead of releasing myself from such judgments, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the game of judgments that I silently played within and as my mind were automated through unconscious addictions of playing the games of energy where I experienced myself as having more positive energy when I had long hair than the negative energy that I experienced when I had short hair. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was participating within games of energies when I looked at myself in the mirror when I had long hair as opposed to when I looked at myself in the mirror when I had short hair, instead of stopping such participation within the polarities of the mind through stopping such participation with BREATHING, the tools of self-forgiveness, self-corrective application, writing and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to built self-trust and self-love within and as myself, which are not dependant on what others judge me as being, but which is only dependant on my honest expression of myself, and that if my expression is not honest, to apply the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application so that my self-trust and self-love is internally driven rather than externally dependant.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “fair of losing my hair” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of fear as the thought of “I am losing my hair”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the fear arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the fear game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in fear as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about fearing losing my hair through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the fear of judgment and stop judgment within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

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