I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out entertainment as a means to live strong emotions, such as watching a television sport program or going to the attraction park, wherein I would deliberately indulge into superficial entertainment activities, rather than applying myself within regaining the power that I have given away to my feelings/emotions/desires through me actively stopping such participations within addictions of the mind, through the simple tool of BREATHING in order to remain HERE stable within and as the physical body, wherein I would regain the power to decide/direct my actions in full awareness and responsibility within the destination/outcome of acting within the interests of that which is best for all living beings in this world, so as to act in accordance to the will of the physical through the strict consideration of what the physical needs within this world in order to ensure a dignified life for all.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to question the desires/wants/needs which pushes/controls me to act in accordance to the will of the mind, such as the desires to live/experience high emotions with whatever means possible, wherein the only interests in mind would be that of self-interests alone, instead of aligning myself to change within self-honesty through the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that my actions may reflect that which is best for all life within the consideration of the needs of the physical alone, such that my actions may come to fulfill the direct needs of the physical as life, such as changing my behaviours so that I may act in accordance to what I need to do as a responsible human beings in this world – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to completely change within the act of completely stopping my participation within the polarity of the mind, through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, wherein the simple act of BREATHING would replace me HERE within and as the BREATH as who I am in self-honesty, so that from within the starting point of BREATH, my actions become one and equal to life as that which needs to be done in order to change this world so that heaven may be real, in fact, for all living beings in this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge within activities propagated by the inner workings of the mind, such as all activities which are motivated by emotions, feelings, thoughts and ideas that I copied from those who came before me within what they perceived as being “activities which were worth my while” through my relationship within the identities in the mind (parents, teachers, authority figures of the world), rather than question/delete/change such inner motivation through the realisation that those inner motivations are not motivations which comes from who I really am as the physical as life, but that are motivations which comes as manipulations of the mind in order to ensure the full enslavement of who I really am as life to/towards the control of the limited mind as that which I have come to accept and allow myself to be/believe – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am as the totality of myself, is not some mystical idea that is constructed from my thoughts/beliefs/ideas about my true self, but that my true self is simply that which is perceived/experienced as my human physical body alone, which is One and Equal to all living beings in this world, as the true image and likeness of life as physicality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to copy the behaviour of my father, as the behaviour of spending endless amounts of time in front of the television, seeking for entertainment and diversions so as to keep my mind occupied, while those who are in control – the elite of this world – continue their abuse and misuse over the resources of the world for the sake of the survival/upgrade of their self-interests alone while the totality of this world goes to shit – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to wake up from the dream which is induced by the few who are in control of this world, whereas the world goes to shit as I keep myself entertained/enthralled within the addictions of the mind as the participation within polarity, rather than stopping such dream like slumber through me becoming a responsible human being as a custodian of this world, through the tools of stopping the mind through BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I may become a living example of what is best for all life to others as myself, One and Equal to all living beings as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend enormous amounts of time playing video games, through me keeping my mind occupied and preoccupied while those who are in charge of this world, continue their abuse and misuse of the world resources rather than stopping such occupations and preoccupations so that I may become a responsible human being who acts for the interests of what is best for all rather than continuing on this dead end path of acting for the sole purpose of the self-interests.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to get entertain myself through games of polarity” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to entertain myself at all cost”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to be more than who I truly am as the physical, through the participation within the addictions of the mind as the games of polarity, thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as a living example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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