I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use substances such as drugs, alcohol and sugar because of the desire/need/want to experience myself as being “more than” who I am as an energetic entity/experience of “positivity”, instead of realising that the experiences gained from the intake of such substances are completely illusionary and that nothing coming from those experiences is real, because of only happening within the confines of my mind – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within polarity as the mind and that I have used such experiences as definitions of who I am. I now see, understand and realise that the energetic expressions of myself as the positive experiences coming from the accumulation and discharge of the “positive energy” coming from the intake of such substances, are illusionary and only keep me enslaved within and as the mind, instead of releasing myself from such addictions of the mind, and return HERE as the physical within and as the BREATH as who I truly am within self-honesty.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my physical body through me not considering the quality of the food that I take, whereas I regularly eat fast food and food which are not of high quality which often results in physical feelings of being nauseated, wherein I would discard such warnings of my physical body and continue eating that which my body is directly telling me as being offensive to my system, because of only being interested in the experience of eating food which makes my mind “feel good”, not considering the input of my physical body which is clearly showing me the mistake that I make in eating such foods through the pains and nausea that I often experience after eating such poor quality foods – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the desires of my mind to experience the good feelings that comes from eating junk food, wherein I would oftentimes experiment pain and nausea within and as my physical body because of having a hard time digesting those types of food, wherein I would discard those warnings and continue eating the junk food only for the purpose of satisfying my addictions as energetic highs coming from eating such food, instead of listening to the warnings that my body is giving to me through the pains and nausea that comes after eating such poor quality foods, and thus to stop myself from continuing eating those foods because of clearly not being best for my physical body.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that my physical body is the only one who knows what is good for my body, and that what the television, adds, publicities and media tells me as that which is good for my physical body is mostly bullshit because of only being interested in self-interest as the profits it seeks to gain from the gullible human beings, and that whatever those mediums are telling me as being good for me is mostly garbage – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my authority away as that which knows what is best for me, to those who project themselves as authority figures in my world, whereas the only authority of myself is myself, as I am the only one who is always with myself and that I know what is good for my physical body simply because my body tells me what is good for me, and that whatever some media is trying to sell to me as being good for me should come second to what my body is telling me, such as stopping eating foods which hurts my physical body even if it pleases my mind, because the true author as the one “who knows” is my physical body, not my mind.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the pains that i experience within my physical body after eating too much sugar, or after eating too much junk food, is me telling me that the food I eat is not good for my physical body – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop eating whenever my body tells me that what I eat is harmfull to my physical system, wherein I would continue eating even through the physical pains because of wanting/desiring to fulfil the addiction of “sugar” or the addiction of “good feelings” that comes with eating junk food – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “good feelings” that comes with eating junk food/sugary foods is a pre-programmed design, designed by the system to keep me enslaved to the consumerism mentality, whereas I would seek to satisfy the desires to consume more and more even if that would mean to harm my physical body in the process.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to eat junk food” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to eat food which my body tells me is bad for me”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to eat junk food, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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