I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a lonely character, where I become depressed through being alone, whereas I experience negative energy within and as myself because of not having anyone with whom I can exchange/communicate with but my own “consciousness”/mind – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the activity of communicating within my own mind/consciousness, wherein I have created a character within and as my mind from within which I participate within the exchange of energies between the “me” character and the “consciousness” character, through me participating within the acts of “communicating” with a character that I have created within my mind such as the “consciousness” character, with whom I communicate with whenever I am alone wherein I have created an invisible character such as the consciousness character in order to keep me “entertained” within and as myself, through the exchange of energies with another “entity” as the “consciousness” character so that I do not “feel” lonely with myself, so as to always have the “illusion” of “being with someone” within the act of “exchanging/communicating” with another “being” than myself – even if that “being” is created within my own mind, such as the “consciousness” character – so as to remove me from the feeling of being “lonely” so that I can keep myself within “positive energy” so as to not feel depressed for being alone with myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “lonely” within and as myself, such as the feeling of negatively charged energies, whenever I experience myself “alone” with no presence of a physical entity to communicate/exchange thoughts with – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel so depressed within myself for the fact of being alone with myself, that I have gone to the extreme of creating an “invisible character” for me to communicate with such as the “consciousness character”, whenever I am “alone with myself” such as when I find myself with no other physical entity other than myself, whereas I have created an illusionary entity within my own mind from within which I have separated myself from, only so that I can/could maintain the illusion/delusion that I am not “alone” with myself, such as the creation of a “consciousness entity” through the act of separating myself as different compartments within my own mind, from where one compartment acts as “another being than myself” and the other compartment acts as myself within my own mind, so that I can entertain myself within the illusion/delusion of communicating with another being when another real physical being is not present within my company – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me creating a consciousness character within my own mind, from within which I experience myself communicating with “another entity” as “another compartment” within my own mind, that I have thus created a separation within my own mind which only furthers the enslavement of the mind within the self-interest of “being with someone other than myself at all cost”, because of not appreciating being left alone with myself, with no other physical/real entity to communicate/share intimate relationship with – instead of realising that the intimacy that I am looking/aiming for, is the self-intimacy that comes from the tools of writing so as to build self-trust through self-investigation which will allow me to finally understand myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to become within the separation of myself which feeds the mind consciousness system as the feeling of loneliness/yearning whenever I am alone with myself, rather than realising that I am and always will be alone within and as myself and that as long as I don’t experience silence as stability within myself within all circumstances, that I am thus still controlled/directed by the mind, and that it is up to me to stop such control/participation with the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty, self-corrective application and breathing, so as to stop/interrupt my participation within the emotions of loneliness within the mind, and re-stabilise myself as who I am HERE within and as stability as the physical as life as equal and one with all living beings, so as to finally become a responsible human being in this world and bring about real CHANGE so as to bring about a world which is best for all life, equal and one with all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to yearn to be with someone other than myself alone, because of the feeling of loneliness and boredom that I experience within and as myself whenever I find myself alone for a too long period of time, whereas I accumulate and accumulate and accumulate the negatively charged energies which are related to me being alone with myself, so much so as to generate depression within and as myself from within which the will to live becomes less and less and less present because of the gradually overwhelming feeling of the negatively charged energies as loneliness – instead of me stopping myself from building and building and building and accumulating and accumulating and accumulating negatively charged energies whenever I find myself alone with myself and through time, through the simple tools of stopping the negative reactions with myself through the act of BREATHING so as to interrupt the process of accumulating negatively charged energies and re-focus my attention to who and what I am as the physical as HERE within and as the breath as me, wherein no negative or positive energies remain, but silence as stability as who I truly am remain HERE within and as stability as the physical as life as who I truly am within the principle of oneness and equality as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build and build and build and accumulate and accumulate and accumulate positively charged energies whenever I find myself within the presence of another physical being, and thus to have allowed myself to participate within the polarities of the mind, from within which I thus automatically and instantaneously accept and allow myself to participate within the accumulation of negatively charged energies whenever I find myself alone with myself, instead of stopping such participation within the polarities of the mind where I experience positively charged energies as myself whenever I am with another physical entity and where I experience negatively charged energies as myself whenever I am not with another physical entity, through the use of BREATHING so as to interrupt the experiences of the accumulation of negative or positive energies within and as myself, so as to stop myself from being manipulated/controlled by the mind and return to the self-directive principle of me in my world as the physical as life as one and equal to all living beings, and to from HERE, express myself within the principle of what is best for all life, so as to bring about a system/behaviour which is best for all life.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within positive energy when I am within the presence of another being, and to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within negative energy when I am not within the presence of another being, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling lonely/generating negative energy for being with alone with myself” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “feeling depressed for being alone”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “depression for being alone with myself”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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