I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I do not have a job, that I have nothing else to do, wherein I participate within passive activities such as watching television or reading books and blogs over the internet, rather than taking care of my physical body through me simply applying myself into more physically demanding activities so as to remain healthy, such as simply taking walks in the morning or within the day so as to physically move/direct me into actions which are best for me, as taking care of my physical body is best for me and best for all, as it shows the example to others as myself, that one doesn’t have to be lazy when one isn’t motivated by outside influences, such as the outside motivation that usually comes from having to “work” for a living, but that one can take a stand within oneself and become the self-directive principle of oneself within one’s world, so as to become self-motivated rather than being motivated by outside sources/influences.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive the acts of “watching television” or “browsing the internet” or “reading books” as being “negative” within the perception that these actions are not “good for me” because of them not being “stimulating” for the “physical body” – instead of realising that through me allowing myself to participate within the judgement of negativity towards those activities, that I thus accept and allow myself to participate within the polarity as the mind, from within which I generate friction which maintains and nourish the relationship between the judgments that I have towards either the “good activities” or the “bad activities” that are thus determined by the friction that I generate within and as myself, in relationship to those “good” or “bad” activities. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge physically passive activities, such as reading, watching television or browsing the internet, as being “bad” for me, wherein I experience/generate negative energy within and as myself through me participating within passive activities, rather than remaining HERE stable within and as the physical as myself, where no emotions/energy directs me, but where I remain as the self-directive principle of me in my world without allowing myself to be directed by emotions/energy as I as the physical as all as one as equal isn’t dependent on energy. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge physically active activities, such as walking, running or playing sports, as being “good” for me, wherein I experience/generate positive energy within and as myself through me participating within active activities, rather than remaining HERE stable within and as the physical as myself, where no emotions/energy directs me, but where I remain as the self-directive principle of me in my world without allowing myself to be directed by emotions/energy as I as the physical as all as one as equal isn’t dependent on energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have nothing to do unless I am given an order by an outside source/influence such as the “orders” that are given within a working environment/job, wherein I participate within the expectations of the mind so as to get the motivation that will push me into action, instead of realising that I am the self-directive principle of me in my world and that all I need in order to “motivate” me into action, is the self-direction from within which I push myself into action through me moving my physical body as self-support, where no outside influence such as the mind generated expectations/energies, directs me into movement, but where I remain as the self-directive principle of me in my world through me acting in accordance with what supports me in my process rather than acting within what another sees as what I need to do within the context of a working environment/job.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I enslave myself within and towards the mind whenever I wait for someone or some outside influence to motivate me into action, wherein I wait for that motivating energy that comes from an outside source/influence before I start moving myself out of a rut, instead of being the motivation through me pushing myself from within myself in order to move out of physical inactivity and into physical activity as a support for myself within my process, so as to reacquaint myself with who I am as the physical body as physical activities so that I build real self-trust within the movement of myself as the physical body, rather than building self-trust within the illusion of the mind such as the “thrust” which is motivated by an outside influence, rather than being the only “trust” from within which I “thrust” myself into action.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my self-directed motivation to move, within the act of waiting for some outside source to motivate/move me, whereas I have supressed my intentions to move/be physically active within the depths of my being, because of my desires to be directed/controlled by someone else/outside influence because of the “positive feelings” that comes when I am motivated by an outside source than myself, because of having associated the act of being moved by an outside source as meaning that I am important for someone else/an outside source, and within this feeling of being important for someone else/an outside source, that I thus energise me into action – Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me being motivated by an outside source, that I allow myself to be manipulated/controlled by the mind as energy, instead of stopping my participation within the cycles of abuse whereas I wait to be energised by someone else/an outside source before moving myself to act, instead of being the self-directive principle of me in my world, where I remain independent of outside influences within the awareness of what needs to be done within self-support, so as to act in accordance to what is best for me, as what is best for me is best for all, equal and one with all living beings.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the mind motivations, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the motivation of the mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “being motivated by outside influences” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “waiting for someone to move/direct me”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “being motivated by another/outside source”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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