I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have generated the belief, throughout my childhood years, that I could become a being such as “Superman”, because of having idolised the “Superman” character from the movies, from within which I have actually brought myself to believe that, within the saying of “everything is possible”, that it was/is possible to become a being such as “Superman” and that one could “fly in the sky” and have “inhumane force” if one could chose to be so, because after all, like the saying said : “Everything is possible”. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the extent of actually believing that I could eventually “fly in the sky”, have “inhumane force” and be a superhero such as the character of “Superman”, because of actually believing the saying that said “everything is possible”, wherein I have imagined the possibility of becoming “Superman” within my secret mind, whereas I have constantly and continuously built the “Superman entity/character/persona” within the secrets of my mind, wherein I have stored and generated tremendous amounts of energy within the relationships of “hoping to become superman” and the “positive affirmations” within my own mind, from within which I have generated the “Superman Entity” within and as the secrets of my mind, and where I have actually come to express and embody within my first “psychosis” back in 2003, where I believed that I did in fact became “Superman” – but not within the universal picture of the Superman character, but rather within the principle of what the “Superman” character stood for – and that I allowed myself to delve deep within the delusions of the mind because of having attained a level of mental energy that made me believe that I was a “special being” such as what “superman” is.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience feelings of positive energy, such as the feeling of an overwhelming sense of grandeur whenever I hear the “Superman theme song” or whenever I see an excerpt of a past superman movie or a future superman movie, wherein I sense the energy swell up inside me to the extent/point where I become so overwhelmed by the “positive energy/feeling” that I completely lose focus of where I am within and as the given moment, and become entirely possessed by the “energetic entity” that is birthed from the relationship that I have built with the character of “superman”, whereas I start imagining myself flying in the sky, running faster than a “speeding bullet” and/or, just to simply visualise myself within the company of superman whereas I become emotionally unstable – instead of remaining HERE stable within and as my human physical body through the tools of BREATHING in order to interrupt my participation within the energy that is generated through the mind games that I participate in while relating myself to the “superman” character, so as to stop myself from feeding the delusions of the mind through my participation within the “superman” character, and return to who I truly am HERE within and as the physical as life, so as to eventually birth myself from the physical as life and to stop myself from entertaining the games of the mind which only entraps myself further into and as the illusions of the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience feelings of negative energy within and as myself, such as the feeling of longing, depression and sadness whenever I do not participate within the “superman” character within and as my mind, whereas the high energy that is associated with the superman character cannot be made present within and as my own mind, from within which the “thought of being more than who I am” is not made manifest, but where the thought of “being less than who I want to be” such as who I truly am within and as the physical, is made manifest through the “routine” that I have defined as being “boring” in comparison to the “routine” that could be if I were to be “superman”. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me defining my “routine” as being “boring”, that I have thus invited the negative energy to overpower me within and as the moments where my habitual “routine” is made manifest, whereas I constantly and continuously feed the sadness, depression and longing for something “more” because of not being able to “find something to like” about my habitual “routine” – instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the preferences of the mind, such as the likes and dislikes, that I thus allow myself to be enslaved by the games of the mind as polarity manifestations, which ultimately controls the sense of who I am within and as the emotions that my likes and dislikes generates within and as me, whereas I become the slave to my emotions rather than stopping my enslavement all together, through the application of BREATHING in order to stop the movements as energy within my own mind, self-forgiveness to peg the patterns that are continuing my enslavement towards my mind, self-honesty to actually see who and what I am within my own mind as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, and self-corrective application in order to stop participating within the patterns of enslavement that I have pegged within self-forgiveness – so that I can ultimately change myself in order to act towards what is best for all life, equal and one with all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get emotionally involved towards the prospect of the new superman movie that is to come out in June of 2013, whereas I have allowed myself to participate within an emotional uproar after having seen the firsts videos and music from the upcoming movie over the internet, where I actually experienced myself within an emotional high such as the feeling of an overwhelming joy because of the inner satisfaction that I have experienced within myself as I was watching those videos and images of the superman movie to come in June of 2013 – instead of stopping myself from participating within the emotional reactions within myself, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within emotions as energy as the mind, that I thus accept and allow myself to be governed and determined by the mind, which only enslaves me within a system of abuse which abuses physicality as life through the consumption of physicality for the own sustenance of energy as the mind as illusion, which is finite, rather than aligning myself towards the physical as life as all as one as equal, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so as to be and become that which I should have been from the beginning, which is LIFE itself as the physical as all as one as equal, so as to change the system of abuse of the world and bring about a system which honours life, one and equal with all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am and was equal to what I have defined as being the “Superman” principle, through the realisation that if I cannot become equal to the superman character, that I could at least become equal to the “Superman principle”, which I have defined as being the principle of being a “leader” which leads through the example that is brought through the relationship that the leader has with “high energy”, wherein I have perceived myself as being this “leader” through the accumulation and expulsion/manifestation of “high energy” through the constant accumulation of energy through meditative practices and through the feeding of the idea of eventually becoming equal to “superman” – instead of stopping myself from feeding this “superman principle” through the simple tools of Breathing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application so as to completely stop myself from participating within the delusions of the mind, and return to where I am HERE as the self-honest expression of who I am as life, which is equal and one with all of physicality, equal and one with all living beings.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the mind’s emotions in relation to the “superman” character, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the characters of the mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “desiring to be/become superman” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “the superman character”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “what it is to be superman”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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