I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed after having visited my mother’s home, whereas I accepted and allowed myself to express and experience the feeling of sadness/depression through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the memories of the mind, whereas I remembered the times when I lived at my mother’s house and realised that most of the times that I spent living in that house, were times of depression.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have connected the feeling of sadness/depression to the colours that the walls in my mother’s home were painted, whereas I associated the earthy colours that were layered in my mother’s home walls, as signifying depression because of the fact that the colours didn’t reflect much light, as they were sombre/dull/dark and that within me experiencing myself in relation to those colours, that I allowed myself to feel sad/depressed because of the fact that my mother’s home is generally sombre/dark within the colours of its walls, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced/defined by the colours which surrounds me such as changing the experience of me within myself towards the experience of feeling “dark” – meaning sad/depressed – only because of the fact that my mother’s home is generally dark because of the dark/sombre colours of it’s walls.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined/influenced by the colours of my surroundings, whereas I experience myself as feeling “good” – meaning not necessarily great or anything as extreme as that, but simply that I experience myself as being “comfortable” within myself – when within the environment of my apartment mostly because of the fact that the all the walls in my apartment are painted white, and that I experience myself as feeling “lively” within such an environment simply because of the fact that the colour white allows natural light to be reflected within the apartment – making the apartment livelier because of being brighter within it’s colour palette.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate a positive energetic experience towards the fact of being surrounded by bright colours, and have associated a negative energetic experience towards the fact of being surrounded by dark colours.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity of the mind through me accepting and allowing myself to define bright colours as being good, and dark colours as being bad, simply because of the fact that bright colours such as white, reflect more natural light than dark colour such as dark – and within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced/changed by the colours that surround me in a given environment, instead of remaining stable HERE within and as who I am as the physical as life, where I remain unchanged/unmoved by the colours of an environment which surrounds me – especially a closed man made environment such as a house or apartment – and that if I accept and allow myself to be moved or changed by the colours of a man made environment, to immediately apply the tools of BREATHING so as to return my self-awareness to HERE, self-forgiveness so as to stop myself from participating within the points of movements within me, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop my participation within the points as the movements of the mind within and as me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a feeling of sadness/depression when I found myself in the room which was my bedroom when I was living in my mother’s house, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the memories which resurfaced as I was standing in the room – seeing me play video games and play on the computer as those were the main activities other than sleeping that I participated in when I was living in that house -, instead of, as the memories came up, stopping myself from accepting and allowing myself to participate within those memories and from accepting and allowing myself to participate within the outflows of those memories, such as the emotions and feelings that I accepted and allowed myself to delve into, because of me WANTING/DESIRING to experience those feelings/emotions as I was standing in the room, as I WANTED/DESIRED to re-live those outstanding moments that I experienced in that room, rather than stopping myself from participating within those feelings/emotions through the memories that came up, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire to re-live the emotions/feelings that were connected to the memories that came up as I was standing idly in my past bedroom, rather than stopping myself from participating within the feelings/emotions that came up un relation to the memories which resurfaced because of me actually not WANTING/DESIRING to stop myself from re-living those feelings/emotions as I wanted to experience a “special” connection to the room I was standing in, whereas I wanted MORE to experience the feelings/emotions connected to my previous bedroom, rather than not experiencing those feelings/emotions through me actually stopping myself from re-living those experiences through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to experience myself as the mind as the feelings and emotions that came up as I was standing in my past bedroom, rather than to have continued with my commitment to stop myself from participating within the mind through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop the enslavement of myself towards the mind as the system of abuse, and rebirth myself as life as who I am as the physical, one and equal to all living beings.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by my environment, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be influenced by my environment, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “changing myself because of the darkness of a man made environment” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality sadness/depression, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of sadness/depression, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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