I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse of “I am too tired to write” for me not to apply myself within my process, whereas the fact that I am currently experiencing myself as being tired, gives me difficulties in writing – instead of realising that the difficulties that I now experience as myself are of the mind alone, and that I am able to push myself to write in my blog through me realising that I am not of the mind, but of and as the physical as the body as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate difficulties within the wording of my current sentences through this self-forgiveness entry, because of the fact that I am currently experiencing myself as being tired – whereas the words within my mind seems to be stuck in glue making it difficult to extract and use the words as my mind is lacking in the energy to do so – instead of realising that I am not of the mind, thus not of energy as the energy is only made in the image and likeness of life as the physical, but is not life itself as life is the physical as all as one as equal = life is not the experience of energy but the experience of stability as the physical as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be affected by the medication that I took this morning in order to help me sleep, wherein I now experience myself as being too drowsy to concentrate and to generate sentences because of the effects of the medication upon my nervous system – where I even have difficulties in using the keyboard in order to write, as the extent of the effects of drowsiness coming from the medication is so extensive that it affects my motor abilities. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for the experience of my inner self to be determined by the medication and the effects thereof upon my central nervous system – as I am still to this day, so extensively influenced by the mind that I still cannot overcome the effects of medication upon my system, as the actions thereof are so deep within the chemical reactions of my brain, that I still cannot change the effects of such an outside influence within and as my central nervous system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as being too lazy to write, as I am now so out of energy that the simple task of writing seems like a chore, as my mind is being pulled towards sleeping/slumber through the drowsiness effects of the medication that I took this morning in order to help me sleep – instead of allowing myself to go into the sleeping mode naturally, as I had a headache which made the task of sleeping all the more difficult this morning.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by my environment, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be influenced by my environment, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “changing myself because of the darkness of a man made environment” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality sadness/depression, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of sadness/depression, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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