I feel depressed tonight, so i will apply self-forgiveness accordingly

 

The depression which i experience is what i have accepted and allowed myself to experience through allowing myself to be controlled and directed by my mind. It is my mind that is depressed and wants to kill itself so that i can release myself from an existence that my mind judge as being ‘not worth it’ – and i am not the mind, so therefore, i am not depression, nor am i the desire to kill myself

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to define me as depressed

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to believe and expect to experience depression when i am alone with myself for an extended period of time

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to accept depression instead of standing up within and as the experience of depression and realizing that it is not who i am, it is of the mind, and i am not the mind – i am life, and life does not experience depression, i am not depressed

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my body only requires me as one as equal as life, and that the experience of depression is my mind wanting company other than me

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to want company of others because i do not accept being with my mind, alone, having to face the process without anyone’s help but my own self-reliance and self-trust and self-honesty

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to define depression as being too hard to stop and transcend

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be apathetic about applying myself to depression, because me as the mind really wants to stay depressed – but i am not the mind. I am here as breath as life, standing within and as my body. And i stand, i move and walk and direct me as life direct me as my body within and as this manifested world

I am here – i am always here

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be enslaved by my mind

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be controlled by my mind

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be directed by my mind

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be influenced by my mind

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to perceive and believe that it is difficult to stop my mind, to stand up within depression and say NO I AM NOT THIS PERCEPTION, I DO NOT ALLOW IT TO CONTROL ME

I STOP all perception of depression – depression and high is a polarity manifestation of the mind, of consciousness and i am not consciousness, i am life, living awareness of me as all as one as equal, and I STAND as i am HERE in every moment of breath in every moment of me here

I walk through all, as all

I walk through the mind i direct the mind as the mind, not of the mind

I am in this world, i am within and as my body, within and as my mind, but i am not of this mind

I am not of perception i am only here as all as one as equal as life as who I AM AND I STAND UP I DIRECT ME AS ALL as one as equal here as breath in every moment

I do not accept or allow compromise

I do not accept or allow doubt

I do not accept or allow hesitation

I do not accept or allow procrastination

I do not accept or allow myself to slip into the mind when bored

I give myself permission to remain here in every moment, as me as presence as breath as life as me here always here, in every way and in every moment

I am in all things, me as life – and i stand within and as all things as life as who i am in every moment, always new, always moving and yet still, silent – expressing me as all existence here, directing me as me here in every way within and as this wold, within and as my life perspective here in this body