I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate a feeling of ecstasy, such as the feeling of positive energy, whenever I win while playing a game with my friend, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain the feeling of energetic high, instead of stopping myself from participating within the mind as energy, through me, when I sense the movement of energy build up within myself, stopping my participation within energy as the mind, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to re-program myself into a being which acts within the interest of what is best for all, instead of constantly and continuously acting within the interest of the self, such as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, through me imitating what I have learned from those who came before me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feeling of positivity whenever I win a game with my friends, such as any board games that I have accustomed myself into playing with my friends, whereas my behaviour changes from that of being silent and stable within and as myself, to a behaviour which is unstable through me becoming ecstatic thus me becoming subject to any movements of energy within and as myself, thus being controlled by the movements of energy within and as myself, instead of stopping my participation within energy through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to gradually stop myself from participating within energy as the mind so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical, so as to become equal and one with life as it should have been from the very beginning.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feeling of negativity whenever I lose a game with my friends, such as any board games that I have accustomed myself into playing with my friends, whereas my behaviour changes from that of being silent and stable within and as myself, to a behaviour which is unstable through me becoming introverted, whereas I turn and churn within my mind out of being frustrated for not being able to win, thus me becoming subject to any movements of energy within and as myself, thus being controlled by the movements of energy within and as myself, instead of stopping my participation within energy through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to gradually stop myself from participating within energy as the mind so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical, so as to become equal and one with life, as it should have been from the very beginning.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within backchat whenever I play a board game with my friends, whereas I plan and manipulate what I say to others as myself which are playing the board game with me, only so that I can protect my self-interested goal of winning the board game, all the while still participating and continuing my enslavement towards and within the mind, through my accepted and allowed habit/participation of using the secret mind in order to plan and manipulate whatever is around me so that I can manipulate the situation in my advantage – all the while participating within spite and blame and justification within my own mind, so as to justify my position of “winner” or “loser” whenever I am involved in playing a “board game” or any other games of the mind based on winning and losing, instead of me applying myself within my commitment to stop the mind through my active participation within the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change myself IN FACT, so as to stop the system of abuse I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the systems of the mind, and birth myself as a system of LIFE from within which my actions would reflect that which is best for all life, such as being honest with myself and others as myself whenever I am involved in a mind game, such as playing a board game with my friends, and thus change my behaviour so as to stop all of my self-allowed characters of the mind, so that I become equal and one with the only character which acts for the interests of all life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to appreciate winning whenever I play board games with my friends, whereas I have developed a dependency to the adrenaline rush and positive energy that overpowers me whenever I win a board game or any other game that I play with friends, as I thus become possessed by the desire of gain whereas my behaviour changes from being stable to being unstable through the constant flow and movement of positive energy that occurs within and as myself when I win the games that I play with my friends, such as board games – instead of me constantly applying myself within the act of stopping my participation within the system of abuse as the mind of energy, through me applying the tools of breathing – so as to stop the movement of energy within whenever they occur -, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical and thus become equal and one with life and all living beings.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the energetic rush that occurs when I “win something”, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling an energetic rush that occurs when I win a game” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “winner or loser”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “winner or loser character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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