I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad because of the fact that the Olympic games are over, because of not having anything that I have deemed as being “good” to watch on television now that the Olympic games are over, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within feelings of joy and ecstasy when I was participating within the act of watching the Olympic games – instead of realising that such a feeling as that of feeling sad, is a feeling that is thus controlling and directing me through the fact that such a feeling changes my behaviour and renders me subject to the whims and movements of such a feeling – instead of being the self-directive principle of me in my world, through me deconstructing what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to eventually re-script myself into that which acts within the interests of what is best for all life, as what is best for all life is best for everyone.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that this “process of writing myself down through the use of the self-forgiveness structure” amounts to nothing, as I am still accepting and allowing myself to participate within thoughts and mind constructs that I thought, when I first started with the process, would be gone by now – after having been writing steadily and in the “process” for more than 3 months now – instead of realising that for me to see and experience change from within the application of the “7 years to life process”, that I have to practically and effectively apply myself, daily and moment to moment, so as to stop myself from allowing myself to participate within the constructs of the mind that are creating the perceived mess as my mind in the first place, and that for me to realise that change, that I have to remain focussed and diligent within my application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so that I may eventually free myself from the machinations of the mind so that I may release myself as life and act within the interests of what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think “again with that same old bullshit” whenever I write my self-forgiveness statements, because of the fact that the practice has seemingly become a robotic pattern that I participate within daily, such as a ritual, and that I have yet to see any clear changes within my behaviour since I first started with this process – instead of realising that in order for me to see the change, that I have to FIRST BE the change, and that in order for me to BE the change within what I have expected the tool of self-forgiveness to facilitate for me, that I have to diligently apply myself within each moment of breath, so as to effectively change the robotic nature that I have become as the mind as the imitation of those that have come before me, to be and become the self-directive principle of me in my world so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, in order to eventually reflect what is best for all within all of my actions.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the competition character through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “fear of working” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “competition”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “competition character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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