I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so hypnotised by watching television, that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend a lot of my free time watching television, rather than doing more constructive activities, such as preparing myself to go back to work, or spending my free time studying to prepare myself to go back to work, or simply going on the internet/computer in order to write myself out so as to clear myself from any points of friction within and as myself, so as to free myself from that which is holding me back and to eventually get on with my life and earn a living for myself – and that if I am to find myself wallowing within the activity of watching too much television, that I am to immediately stop and ask myself if I have more constructive things to do than to watch television and go into such an activity – and to apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to remove all of the points of dishonesty within and as myself so as to eventually become one and equal to life as the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being “bad” because of the fact that I have spent most of my free time this summer, watching the television instead of participating within activities which would have been more constructive for me in my life – Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity of “good” and “bad” within me judging myself as being “bad” for watching too much television, and to have as such continued within my participation within polarity as the mind, rather than to have stopped myself from participating within polarity as the mind, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being “good” when I do not spend my time watching television programs and when I am participating within what I deem as being constructive activities and that within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me judging myself as being “good” or “bad” for whatever activities or reason, that I am in fact accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity as the mind, which only furthers my enslavement to and towards the mind through my own accepted and allowed participations, instead of stopping myself from participating within the polarity as the mind – which only abuses life within the constant and continuous friction that is generated within the mind which is responsible for the experience of “polarity” – through the use of the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to rescript myself from being a slave to the mind, to being the self-directive principle of me in my world, such as that which life is within the principle of oneness and equality within and as the physical.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “judging myself as being good or bad” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “judgment”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “judging character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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Scripting myself into what is best for all - Alex's 7 year journey to Life 
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