I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear coming face to face with a friend of the past

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project anxiety towards the moments where I meet acquaintances and friends of the past to which I haven’t seen for a long time

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to define myself as a loser when comparing myself to the friends and acquaintances of the past

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am based on society’s definition of success and failure

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I am participating within the ego of the mind when I accept and allow success and failure within me. I do not accept and allow success and failure to influence me. I do not accept and allow success and failure within me. Life is not defined by success and/or failure. Life is undefined. I am undefined. I remain undefined thus I am not defined by success and/or failure. I am life. I am here as life as all as one as equal. I breathe.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear meeting people whom I knew in the past, because of the fear of their reactions if I were to tell them that I do not work, that I do not have a family, that I do not make money and that I still live with my mother. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear the fear of the mind, through me participating in the fear of the mind of being ridiculed for being who I am as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I fear becoming that which I hide from others as myself if I were to meet someone that I knew in the past, and tell them what I have allowed myself to become as who I am as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the mind consciousness system. I am not the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear revealing who I am as what I keep from others as my current lifestyle because of the belief that I will be ridiculed and laughed at and rejected for leading such a lifestyle. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I have become which is an illusion thus I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that all that I ever was and that all that I will ever be as perceived through the mind is an illusion – who I am is HERE in self-honesty as me, in all ways and always.