I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire copulating with girls/women that catches my attention when I am casually walking down the street or when I am casually participating within a social activity, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to fantasise about having sexual experiences with girls/women from within the depths of my secret mind, thus allowing myself to participate within the patterns of enslavement as the mind – instead of stopping such participation through me refocusing my attention to who and where I am HERE through the use of the simple application of breathing, plus the use of self-forgiveness to see where I am allowing myself to be enslaved by the mind, point by point, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change the patterns that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within as the mind, to create new patterns which are in tune and aligned with what is best for all as life, one and equal to the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sexual experiences with girls and women which are younger than me, through me participating within fantasies such as imagining myself having sexual experiences with girls/women who are younger than me, through the perceived preferences of desiring a young and firm female body rather than an older and less firm female body such as the females which populate my age group – instead of stopping myself from participating within disruptive patterns of the mind such as having sexual fantasies to and towards girls/women who are too young for me, and thus through me stopping myself from participating within such abusive patterns of the mind, through me re-aligning myself as the mind, to and towards that which is best for all life – meaning to re-align myself into a being which stops participating within all forms of abuse in order to bring back the awareness of life as myself, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, to eventually change what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the mind as the collective whole, so as to bring about a new system where life will be honoured and dignified instead of continuing with the destructive system that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to participate in, such as the current system of the world – and that for me to bring about such a system of life and equality, that I have first to stop myself from participating within the abusive patterns of the mind, through the simple constant and/or daily application of the tools of breathing ( so as to bring myself back HERE rather than remaining caught within the endless worries and wallowing within the mind ), self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to CORRECT what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become through me having imitated what I have learned from those who have come before me within this world, such as my parents, teachers and all of the social authority figures which influenced me while I was growing up, so as to CHANGE the behaviours that I have unconsciously copied from those who have come before me, to consciously recreate myself as that which acts within the starting point of life itself, as the act of behaving within what is in the best interest for all life within this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become anxious and fearful when a girl/women which I find attractive/beautiful talks to me, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to become so hypnotised by the presence of the girl/women which I find beautiful/attractive, that I completely lose myself within the internal emotional reactions such as starting to “stutter” within the presence of a beautiful/attractive female, having my heartbeat increase or starting to sweat, only because of the personal interaction of the beautiful women with myself – instead of stopping myself from participating within the debilitating reactions of the mind, such as what I have described above, and to change myself so as to re-script myself so that I remain calm and assertive when within the presence of a women/girl which I find particularly attractive/beautiful, through me applying the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so that I remain stable within my expression, equal and one with the physical, when I am personally interacting with a women/girl which I find particularly attractive.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “desiring sexual relationship with a female stranger” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “sexual desires”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “sexually depraved character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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