I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within thoughts of sexual desires towards a young feminine friend of mine, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within thoughts and fantasies of me performing sexual activities towards that female friend of mine – instead of stopping my participation within such thoughts through the use of the tools of breathing, so as to bring myself back to where I am here within and as myself, so that I can direct what is busy occurring within myself so as to make me the self-directive principle of me in my world instead of continuing being directed by the internal programming whereas I react within sexual desires towards girls that I find attractive, and through the use of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so as to eventually free myself from the self-given control of who I am towards the mind, so that I can eventually birth myself as life from the physical here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fantasise about the young feminine friend of mine, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the imagination of me performing sexual actions towards that girl, such as fantasising about her naked body and fantasising about the possibility of eventually having sex with her, even if she is way younger than me – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from participating within the thoughts of me having sexual desires towards that girl, through the use of the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become such as the self-programmed entity who constantly and continuously reacts to the opposing sex through mind constructs of sexual desires, so that I can eventually completely stop myself from participating within the current system of abuse as the current world system of humanity, so as to eventually become equal and one with the principle of oneness and equality as life, so as to be able to bring about a world that is best for all life as the ultimate outcome of my participation within the process.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so infatuated with the young girl that has recently reappeared in my life, that I have become completely obsessed by her to the point where I spend hours upon hours just thinking about her – such as the amount of time I allow myself to wallow within the fantasies of the mind where I project myself within the act of having sexual interactions with that girl -, making it so that I have difficulties falling asleep at night recently, because of my new-born obsession towards that girl – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from participating within the obsessive thoughts towards that girl – whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately skip everything that I “know” about the mind and the process – as per Desteni – because of the positively charged reactions within and as myself, that were the outcome of the constant and continuous obsessive thoughts about that girl which incidentally brought me to experience positive emotions within and as myself, which fed the obsession towards that girl to the point where I completely discarded all common sense and allowed myself to wallow within the fantasies of the mind towards that girl, because I “wanted to” – instead of me taking a stand towards the system of abuse as the mind that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from participating within the desires of the mind through enslavement, so as to free myself from the shackles of the mind and re-birth myself as life from the physical.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within fantasises of me ripping the clothes off of the young girl that has reappeared in my life, when I see her next to me, because of being overwhelmed by energetic desires of me copulating with that girl, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the fantasies of the mind when with the company of that “girl”, instead of remaining “here” with her whenever she is with my company – and that if I am to find myself participate within the constructs of the mind such as the sexual desire construct, that I am to immediately stop myself from entertaining myself within such behaviours, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to bring about a version of myself who is free of all abusive behaviours within and without the mind, so that I may eventually be an example to others as myself towards what it is to be a responsible human being who acts within the interests of what is best for all.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “fantasising about a girl” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “sexual fiend”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “sexual character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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