I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want/need to please another when I am with the company of another, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self-responsibility as a responsible human being in order to become whatever it is that is asked of me by another, so as to make sure that I please another even if in disregard of that which is best for all, such as being and becoming that which another wants me to be, because of the fear that I have of not pleasing another when I am with the company of another – instead of stopping myself from participating within such enslaving behaviours through the usage of the tools of writing, in order to sort myself out, self-forgiveness in order to free myself from the mind constructs which keeps me enslaved within the mind, self-honesty so as to see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a mind robot, so as to eventually free myself from the enslavement of who I am within the mind, and release who I am as life so as to eventually change what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as humanity in order to bring about a new system which honours life and gives dignity to all living beings on this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate who and what I am within the practical knowledge and common sense of who I am as life, because of having accepted and allowed myself to do whatever I can within my power to make sure that when I am with the company of another human being, that that other human being remains happy as much as possible, even if the behaviour expressed within the manifestation of happiness disregards whatever negative consequences as outflow, because of only being concerned with the happiness that is expressed within the self alone – instead of stopping myself from exerting such behaviour when I am within the company of another, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to re-program myself from a self-interested robot into a self which acts within the interests of all life, one and equal to all living beings.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not pleasing another human being when I am with the company of another human being, especially when I am with the company of friends and acquaintances, because of the fear that I have of being alone with myself, even if I have learned through life that all that I am and all that I ever will be is alone, and that when I am with the company of friends or acquaintances, that I am willing to abdicate the common sense within me – common sense within the sense of acting within the interest of what is best for all life – only to make sure that I “fall into” what another wants me to be, so as to make sure that that other remains “happy” within my company, even if that means that I have to abdicate my responsibility towards life and act within limited frames of awareness, such as changing my eco-conscious behaviour into a non-eco-conscious behaviour because of being with acquaintances and friends which are not as eco-conscious as myself – instead of remaining loyal to the principle that I stand for, which is the principle of being “life aware” such as acting upon my awareness of the state of the world, in order to make sure that I won’t reproduce the errors of the past so as to bring about the establishment of the foundations upon which I will stand in order to bring about a world which is best for all – and that if I am to find myself continuously acting within the limited ecological and humanitarian awareness of those who are around me, that I am to immediately apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from constantly and continuously reproducing behaviours of abuse towards life, and reformat my behaviours within what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so as to eventually constantly and continuously act within the awareness of bringing a world which is best for all life.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “fantasising about a girl” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “sexual fiend”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “sexual character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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