I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself be manipulated by the video game that I have started playing a week ago, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to spend the majority of my waking hours playing the video game, instead of constantly and diligently applying myself within being and becoming a responsible human being through the practice and application of self-forgiveness – because of having accepted and allowed myself to “fall” within past patterns of childish behaviour (where I do not take into consideration the responsibilities that comes with being a responsible adult in this world) where the desire to “finish the game” and “have a good time” overrule all other responsibilities of my life. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have applied the tools of self-forgiveness in a consistent fashion within the previous week, because of having accepted and allowed myself to be mesmerised by the video game – instead of stopping myself from participating within past patterns of the mind, such as the desire to “have a good time playing a video game”, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become in order to re-script myself into a responsible human being who cares and act in order to change the abusive nature that we have become as humanity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself believe that the application of self-forgiveness is not useful for me, because of having allowed myself to think and feel and emote the same way that I did previous to the time where I came upon the Desteni material – because of a “fed-upness” with the “process” within the belief and observation that the “process” haven’t “changed” me, whereas I held unto this observation because of not APPLYING MYSELF TO CHANGE but WAITING FOR THE PROCESS TO MAGICALLY CHANGE MYSELF through the simple application of the “process”, instead of realising that ONLY I CAN CHANGE and that the application of the self-forgiveness process is not a MIRACLE in itself, within that it won’t magically change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, but that it is up to ME to CHANGE ME – and that the “process” is only a “tool” which allows me to have a STRUCTURE to follow for me to re-script myself into a more effective human being – and that if I am to see myself move or think within the same mental parameters that were present within myself prior to the times where I became involved with Desteni, that I am to immediately stop myself from entertaining such mental patterns through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop the patterned behaviour which only sponsors abuse, so as to become a sponsor of life where no abuse exists, but only the principle of oneness and equality between all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed because of having recently realised that I spent the majority of my time playing the video game since about a week or so, and that this realisation has brought a feeling of depression within me because of the fact that I realised that I didn’t do much other than playing the video game for about a week. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from participating within the “playing of the video game” through the awareness that the more time I spend playing the video game, the more I separate myself from my “real reality” whereas I become more consumed and interested by the completion of the quests that are set upon me within the context of the video game rather than applying myself within the context of my real physical life, and that if I am to see myself fall within the same pattern of game addiction, that I am to immediately apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a slave of the mind’s addiction, and rebirth myself as the creator of my life where I become the self-directive principle of me in my life, rather than being controlled and directed by the “deamons” of the mind.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to stop my participation within energetically charged experiences through me, whenever I experience the movements of positive or negative energies within me, immediately stop such participations through the BREATH/BREATHING and place myself HERE within and as the physicality as me. If an opportunity to self-forgive arises, I apply self-forgiveness aloud or within myself. I remind myself that the energetically charged experience/thought/feeling/emotion is a pattern that I no longer want to participate in and as the mind.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “wanting to play games all day” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “game addict”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “gamer character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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