I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take mind modifying substances whenever I feel “bad” about myself, wherein I look for specific mind altering substances that would make me “feel better” about myself because of the “addiction” that I have accepted and allowed myself to have towards “feeling good at all costs”, which has led me to consume substances such as alcohol and drugs, only so that I could “feed the addiction” further, not seeing or realising that through doing this, that I only deepen my dependency towards outside influences rather than being the self-directive principle in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “looking for an outside source/influence that would make me “feel better” about myself”, that I am to immediately stop my train of thoughts through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to return my awareness HERE as who I truly am as life as the physical, where no mind is necessary to experience what it truly means to live as life, one and equal with all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “let myself down”, within the perspective of having allowed myself to “fall back” within patterns of abuse, through me allowing myself to consume mind altering substances only for the sole interests of satisfying my selfish desires of seeking “pleasure at all cost”, even is such a cost is the disrespect and destruction of life within my surroundings – because of having accepted and allowed myself to be mesmerised by the creation of the mind as illusions, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to place the illusions in the forefront of life where illusions are given more credentials than life itself – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “seeking pleasure at all cost”, that I am to remind myself of the REAL costs of such a participation, such as the disempowerment of myself as the true authority of myself and the development of a dependency which would only further the enslavement of myself towards the mind and it’s addictions – and to immediately stop myself from further participating within the train of thoughts which are birthed from such a desire, through the constant application of tools such as breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, until such a pattern of thinking is completely removed from a reaction based response mechanism, so as to eventually stop myself from the pattern of self-abuse, and bring myself back to who and where I am here as life, so as to change my actions from a self-interested starting point only, to a starting point where I would consider all life before putting a thought into action, so as to become an example for all, as to what it is to be a responsible human being.
I commit myself to stop myself from participating and empowering the thoughts within me which seeks only pleasure as self-gratifying experiences, such as the thoughts which lead me to consume mind altering substances, through the realisation that as long as I will allow myself to be a slave to such desires, that I will remain trapped within the mind and forbid myself to express myself as life through my own allowances as an abuser of life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the intention/desire to “take mind altering substances for the sole purpose of pleasure seeking”, that I am to immediately stop myself from further participating within such a train of thought, through the use of breathing, so as to break the pattern of thinking within myself and bring myself back HERE within and as the physical as myself; self-forgiveness; self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to IN FACT CHANGE who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am HERE as the physical, as who we really all are within common sense.
I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “desiring to consume mind altering substances in order to reach the goal of “feeling better about myself””, remind myself that I am only thus allowing myself to fall further within the pattern of enslavement to the mind’s addiction, and thus stop myself from participating further within the thoughts that are linked to such an addiction through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop the patterns of abuse within me, and re-align myself to the expression of patterns which dignifies life and are life affirming, where I take full responsibility of who I am as life within the context of living with all other beings in this world, so as to act within the best interest of all life, and stop acting and limiting my perspective to that of my own self-interests, and thus take into consideration all living beings before deciding to act on a specific situation.
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