I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone with myself in the near future, because of the fact that the couple who are currently living with me, will leave my apartment in about a week or so, which will make it so that I will find myself alone again – after having spent the last month in their company because of having offered my help towards them, as they were then looking for an apartment to go to because of the fact that they have been booted from the apartment where they were previously living -, wherein I fear that I will become depressed through the transitional period because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to “feel” comfortable in their company, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to nurture and “appreciate” their company while they were with me – and that now that I think about the reality of the fact that they will leave me in about a week, that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “depressed” about the idea that I will find myself alone again, whereas I have forecasted a “return” to hold habits and a “return” to a solitary way of life, which – in contrast with what I have lived when with the company of the couple – is making me “feel” depressed because of the thought that I won’t have a life which will be equally interesting as when I was living with their company – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to nurture the thoughts which are associated with what I forecast my future to be like as that of being a return to a “negative way” of living, and stop those patterns of thinking within me so that, as they arise within me, I am able to stop myself from furthering my fall within the mind through the use of breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-honesty so as to change the patterns of thoughts within me, which are only interested in protecting my own self-interests, into a pattern of thinking/acting that will be reflective of a being who is one and equal with life as the physical, so that my focus remains within where I am as HERE as life as the physical within all given moment in time, such as to become an example of what it is to be a responsible human being in this world, which actually and in fact cares for all life as one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sexual experiences with the “girl” in the couple who is currently living with me, because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain secret desires within the secret mind as she was living with me for the past month or so – where I have accepted and allowed myself to use the fact that I have seen her countless amounts of time in her underwear, to nourish and nurture the secret sexual desires within me – where I have accepted and allowed myself to fantasise about her being naked in front of me, where I would be able to touch and caress her naked body – where I would allow myself to let the sexual tensions built up within me – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to fall within the energetic tensions that built up within me as I am and was within her company, through the use of breathing so as to remind myself that all that is occurring within myself within such instances is of the mind and not me; writing so as to see myself, in writing, through the patterns and mind constructs that are at the foundation of my enslavement towards the mind and it’s patterns; self-forgiveness so as to release myself from the points of separation within me, which manifests themselves whenever I find myself in a situation where I am within the same vicinity of a girl/women that I secretly physically desire/appreciate; self-honesty so as to actually truly see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and self-corrective application so as to change myself from the patterns of the mind which only enforces my relationship to the illusions of the mind so as to change myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and rebirth myself as life as the physical, so that I will be able to stop acting within the sole perspective of the mind and it’s self-interested patterns which are responsible for the state of separation the world currently is in, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am as the physical here, so that I can be an example to all and myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being who actually cares for life on earth and does whatever it takes to bring back life as equality and oneness for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sex with the girl who is currently living with me whenever I look into her eyes, and where I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to “manipulate her” into wanting to have sex with me through the mere eye contact, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to try to manipulate my sexual energies towards her, so that I could be able to “influence her” into wanting to have sex with me — where I would project the sexual energies towards her through my imagination, within my secret mind – instead of stopping myself from attempting to secretly manipulate her into “desiring me” through the use of “mind tricks” that I have stated above – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of trying to manipulate her with my sexual energies whenever I am within a moment where I am communicating with her, that I am to immediately stop myself from furthering such a patterned behaviour within my mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to release myself from the grasp that I have accustomed myself into being subjected to whenever I find myself in a situation where I am within the company of a girl/women that I secretly desire, so that I remove the cloud which obscures my observations in order for me to remain stable here within who I truly am as the physical as life, so that I may be able to realise myself as life as who I truly am here as the physical and become an example to all and myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being who actually truly ACT within the perspective of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive the experience of me being alone with myself, as being a “negative thing”, wherein I would accept and allow myself to be manipulated by the thoughts, ideas and memories which comes to mind whenever I think about the times where I was alone with myself,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the times that I have lived while the “couple” was living with me in my apartment, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to “judge” the times spent with the “couple” as being “entertaining” thus “good”, while judging the opposing experiences, such as the experiences of me being alone with myself in my apartment as being “bad” even if that was not the case when I was living alone with myself – only because of having accepted and allowed myself to use the experiences that I have lived while living with the couple in my apartment, as a contrasting point within myself, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to “judge” the past experiences of me living alone with myself in my apartment as being “bad” even if that was not the case – instead of stopping my patterned behaviour of “judging” my experiences in contrast to other “past experiences”, only so that I may continue with my patterned abusive behaviour of labelling my experiences as being “good” or “bad” even though I am aware of the fact that it is those judgments that are responsible for my instability in life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within such a patterned behaviour of judgment, that I am to immediately stop myself from entertaining the self-abusive path where those patterns are leading me to, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from being trapped within the mind through its self-inflected patterns of abuse and enslavement which are responsible for the state of the world as it currently is, and change myself from being an irresponsible human being to being a responsible human being who actually and in fact cares for the state of the world and work/act in order to bring about a world which is best for all life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the feelings that emerged within me as I was thinking about the fact that I will probably find myself back as being alone in about a week or so, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to become “depressed” about the idea of returning to living a life of loneliness and boredom, even if that was not the case when I was living alone with myself, only because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached to the way of life that has been my own ever since the “couple” started living with me about a month or so ago – instead of stopping myself from being manipulated by the feelings within me, through the realisation that I am not my feelings, thoughts or emotions, and through the constant application of tools such as breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, so as to methodically change all the points within me which keeps me enslaved to the conditionings of the mind, and rebirth myself as life HERE as the physical, where the mind is only burdening my perception of life as who I am truly and is therefore, completely unnecessary.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging my life as being negative because of the fact that I live alone, to immediately stop myself from participating within such a destructive and abusive pattern through the use of breathing, so as to STOP myself from falling within the mind and remain here within the stability of myself as life as the physical and act in order to bring about real change in my life.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining secret sexual desires within the secret mind whenever I find myself within the company/vicinity of a woman/girl that I secretly appreciate, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to, when I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “fantasising about having sexual experiences with a girl”, change the patterned behaviour which keeps me enslaved to the mind’s constructs, and rebirth/rescript myself so as to be and become one and equal to who I truly am as life as who I am within and as the physical here.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of having my thoughts/perception of myself be influenced by the inner feelings that I have about a changing situation, immediately stop myself from participating within the thought pattern which emerges from those feelings, through – if possible – immediately going in front of my computer or finding a piece of paper and a pen in order to write about what I am currently going through, so as to see the patterns in front of myself so as to be able to remove the cloud within my mind which keeps me enslaved to patterns of enslavement and abuse of the mind, and change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application throughout my writings.

I commit myself to actually write daily in my blog so as to reinforce the patterns of change that I want to instil into me, through the constant and continuous daily use of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, and stop making self-commitment statements that I am not committed into making through the actual application of “small” self-commitment statements that I am actually able to commit myself to.

I commit myself to stop myself from making judgments about being alone as being something which is inherently negative, through the perception that I have copied from society and those that have come before me, and actually realise that I have always only been alone within myself and that there never was “another” within myself throughout all of the experiences that I have lived through in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the patterns of judging myself based on whether I am or am not alone with myself, to immediately stop myself from participating within such patterns through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a “mind program”, and re-establish life as who I truly am as the physical HERE, where no judgments or mind is necessary.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within a pattern of judgment, to immediately remind myself that such a pattern filters my perception to the point of extreme limitation where the ability to enjoy life is hampered – and to stop myself from the act of judgment through the realisation that all judgments made are only further limiting myself within my own mind, where who I am as life as the physical remains forgotten.

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Earth’s Journey to Life

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