I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need a universe where polarity exists in order for me to experience myself as who I am truly, where I have created a world and a universe where polarity exists in order for me to experience myself as a particular point within the spectrum of polarities, only so that I can have the opportunity to experience myself as the point of perspective within creation which sees itself as being “different” from another “point of perspective” within creation, and that I have especially created a system of the mind which have counterfeited the basic polarity which is at the heart of the creation of this universe, wherein I have created and manifested within myself, judgment so that I have the power to decide whether an experience is “good” or “bad” for me, while strictly basing my observation on the limited perspective of my mind’s conditioning which have been birthed out of my innate tendency to copy/mimic those that have come before – where I have never questioned or considered that the perspective that I have copied from those who have come before me, is fundamentally biased and can never represent the true nature of who I am within life/universe, such as who I am truly HERE within the absolute acceptance of who I am within this very moment HERE, so that I STOP judging the experiences that who I truly am as life has set out before me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging an experience as being “good” or “bad” that I am to immediately remind myself that all experiences that I live are willed by who I truly am as life, so that I relinquish the tendency to judge life, so that I can realise myself as who I truly am as life – where no judgements exists but only the joy of being HERE as life as the physical remains.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret as “good” or “bad” a manifestation of an event/experience in my life, because of the judgments that I have towards that experience as being “good” or “bad” for me – instead of stopping myself from judging an experience as being “good” or “bad” for me, through the realisation that I cannot exist without that which is “contrary to who I am”, as “that which is” cannot exist without the existence of “that which is not”, and that if I am to “judge” an experience as being “good” or “bad” for me, that I am simply limiting the expression and experience of who I truly am HERE within the manifestation of myself as this physical entity, because of the filters of my judgments which filters reality so that it complies to the limited nature of my judgments, and thus, where I have no opportunity to truly know who I am here as the physical as life, because of the self-imposed limits that I have accepted and allowed myself to have as judgments, out of having accepted and allowed myself to “believe” that which I have been thought of being, by those who have come before me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging an experience that is here for me to experience as a specific moment in time, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within the patterns of judgment, through firstly breathing, so as to bring myself back HERE as who I am within the physical as life; then apply the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a self-abusive robot as a figment of the mind consciousness system, and re-script myself as who I truly am as life here, where no judgments exists which disables me from appreciating the experience of who I am here as life, one and equal with all living beings.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the patterned behaviour of judgment towards a particular experience that I have, to immediately remind myself through breathing, that I am not the mind, but here as the physical as life, and that any and all judgments that I may have about a person or a situation, is merely a filter that disables me from experiencing myself as who I truly am as life.

I commit myself to remind myself that all experiences that is manifested for me to have by my true nature, is exactly what I need to experience in any given time or context – and that all I have to do is to say “yes” to the experience, so that I may realise myself as who I truly am as life = where there is no judgments as filters limiting our perception of who we truly are as life.

I commit myself to remove all filters as judgments towards myself, life, or any events in-between, so that I may come to fully realise who I truly am as life, so that I become an example for all as myself, as what it is to be a responsible human being in this world.

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 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear applying myself towards experiences and patterns of myself that I have defined as being “good”, because of the fear that I have of losing that which I have defined as being “good experiences” in my life, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without “the good experiences” or without that which I have defined as being “good for me”, that I will find myself in a state of constant sadness and/or depression because of the belief that I will thus only be defined and/or confined within the “bad” in me – instead of stopping myself from participating within the polarity manifestation of the mind, through the application of writing, so as to see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a surrogate of the mind; breathing, so as to bring myself back here as who I am within and as each moment; self-forgiveness, so as to relieve myself from that which is keeping me locked within the mind through various states of emotions; self-honesty, so as to truly see in fact that which I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a product of the mind and self-corrective application, so as to bring about a new pattern that will honour life within the expression of myself as a physical being.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the pattern of thinking about past experiences that I have judged as being “good” whenever there is a time where I find myself living a moment of melancholy or nostalgia, whereas I find myself wallowing within my mind because of a “feeling” of “loss” of whatever form – instead of stopping such a patterned behaviour of “sinking-deeper-into-the-mind-in-the-hopes-of-finding-some-form-of-relief-through-past-experiences-in-relation-to-the-loss-that-have-just-been-experienced”, through the immediate application of, firstly, breathing so as to STOP myself from focussing my attention within the mind in search of “good-times-gone-by”, and re-focus my attention to who I am HERE as the physical as life, where no influences of the past should control or direct me; then writing so as to clear the mind from any wallowing thoughts that keeps me locked within myself in search of “good times gone by” in the hopes of finding something from my past that would give me a sense of “comfort” as a deceptive support coming from the mind’s perspective of the situation; self-forgiveness so as to forgive myself from the self-created habit that keeps me locked within the same self-abusive pattern of seeking help within the mind’s perspective of a situation, as a return to past experiences that I have judged as being “good” in order to attempt a balancing act between the moment of melancholy/nostalgia and the feeling of “goodness” within me; self-honesty so as to truly realise who I am within what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and self-corrective application so as to instil a new pattern within me where I would not allow myself to fall back within the same traps of the mind, such as the pattern of wallowing within the mind’s past in order to find “peace” within a moment of hardship, and re-align myself towards a new self that would not give the mind a precedence over who I am as life as the physical, as the true self-directive principle of who I am within this world.

 

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “seeking help from the past” whenever I find myself in a situation of hardship, immediately apply the simple tool/reaction of BREATHING so as to at the very least, stop myself from participating within the downward spiral whereas I suck my attention inwards in search of something from my past to “make me feel better” about a situation; through the realisation that I only thus empower the mind to have control over me, such as being emotionally unstable, and that there is no one other than me that can do anything to CHANGE the situation – that I am the sole director of my life and that whatever is happening to me within the confines of my mind, that I am the sole one who is responsible and that only I alone can change me.

 

To be continued tomorrow…

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take mind modifying substances whenever I feel “bad” about myself, wherein I look for specific mind altering substances that would make me “feel better” about myself because of the “addiction” that I have accepted and allowed myself to have towards “feeling good at all costs”, which has led me to consume substances such as alcohol and drugs, only so that I could “feed the addiction” further, not seeing or realising that through doing this, that I only deepen my dependency towards outside influences rather than being the self-directive principle in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “looking for an outside source/influence that would make me “feel better” about myself”, that I am to immediately stop my train of thoughts through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to return my awareness HERE as who I truly am as life as the physical, where no mind is necessary to experience what it truly means to live as life, one and equal with all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “let myself down”, within the perspective of having allowed myself to “fall back” within patterns of abuse, through me allowing myself to consume mind altering substances only for the sole interests of satisfying my selfish desires of seeking “pleasure at all cost”, even is such a cost is the disrespect and destruction of life within my surroundings – because of having accepted and allowed myself to be mesmerised by the creation of the mind as illusions, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to place the illusions in the forefront of life where illusions are given more credentials than life itself – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “seeking pleasure at all cost”, that I am to remind myself of the REAL costs of such a participation, such as the disempowerment of myself as the true authority of myself and the development of a dependency which would only further the enslavement of myself towards the mind and it’s addictions – and to immediately stop myself from further participating within the train of thoughts which are birthed from such a desire, through the constant application of tools such as breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, until such a pattern of thinking is completely removed from a reaction based response mechanism, so as to eventually stop myself from the pattern of self-abuse, and bring myself back to who and where I am here as life, so as to change my actions from a self-interested starting point only, to a starting point where I would consider all life before putting a thought into action, so as to become an example for all, as to what it is to be a responsible human being.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from participating and empowering the thoughts within me which seeks only pleasure as self-gratifying experiences, such as the thoughts which lead me to consume mind altering substances, through the realisation that as long as I will allow myself to be a slave to such desires, that I will remain trapped within the mind and forbid myself to express myself as life through my own allowances as an abuser of life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the intention/desire to “take mind altering substances for the sole purpose of pleasure seeking”, that I am to immediately stop myself from further participating within such a train of thought, through the use of breathing, so as to break the pattern of thinking within myself and bring myself back HERE within and as the physical as myself; self-forgiveness; self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to IN FACT CHANGE who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am HERE as the physical, as who we really all are within common sense.

 

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “desiring to consume mind altering substances in order to reach the goal of “feeling better about myself””, remind myself that I am only thus allowing myself to fall further within the pattern of enslavement to the mind’s addiction, and thus stop myself from participating further within the thoughts that are linked to such an addiction through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop the patterns of abuse within me, and re-align myself to the expression of patterns which dignifies life and are life affirming, where I take full responsibility of who I am as life within the context of living with all other beings in this world, so as to act within the best interest of all life, and stop acting and limiting my perspective to that of my own self-interests, and thus take into consideration all living beings before deciding to act on a specific situation.

 

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire taking drugs because of the belief that drugs will help me like my life more, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to desire taking drugs because of the appeal to have an “extraordinary experience” in relation to how I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive my reality, such as that of being a “boring” reality because of the fact that I judge my life as “not entertaining enough”, instead of stopping myself from seeking and desiring to take drugs through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a slave to the mind’s programming, and from there, stop myself from participating within the patterns of the mind through the tools stated above, so that I can change what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as a slave of the mind, into becoming one and equal to life as the physical, where no mind is necessary to function.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by past experiences where I have taken drugs, because of the pattern of me looking for “extraordinary experiences” that would make me perceive my life differently, wherein I would look into my past for experiences that suit my prerequisites so that I could find something somewhere that would allow me to experience my life “differently” because of the lingering feeling of boredom that overshadows my perception of my reality, instead of stopping myself from participating within the patterns of the mind where I would look into reproducing past experiences for the sole purpose of “entertainment” – discarding all the care in the world for the consequences of such an abusive behaviour – through me using the tools of writing daily in my blog, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a  CONSISTENT fashion so as to make sure that I do not fall back into past abusive behaviours and re-align myself into becoming a responsible human being who stops acting only for the purpose of self-interest, and start acting within the interest of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “try” a drug that I have “taken” in my past because of my inner desire of wanting to “experience something out of the ordinary” that would take me out of my “feeling of boredom” and into a “feeling/perception” of a “drug induced alternate reality” where I would see and feel my life differently than that of being bored, instead of stopping myself from participating within such a destructive behaviour through me applying the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a CONSISTENT FASHION so that I change my ways IN FACT so that i stop myself from allowing myself to take such substances in the future as they are dishonest and abusive in nature and are not one and equal to LIFE. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within behaviours which are abusive towards the physical as life as who I truly am, only because of the lingering programming within my mind which seeks to only satisfy the sole interest of myself, wherein I would disregard the consequences of my actions at large, because of the appeal of “self-gratification/pleasure” that is at the heart of the mind’s programming, and thus CHANGE what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind who only reproduces the “sins of the fathers” that have come before me, so that I become equal and one with life as all as one as the physical, where the abusive mind as that which I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become through copying and imitating those that have come before me, and re-birth myself as life as the physical so that I become a responsible human being IN FACT, where my actions would be made within the consideration of all life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be misguided by my feelings of boredom, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to fall back within past abusive behaviours, such as taking drugs, because of my lack of self-will and self-dedication towards myself as life, where I would allow myself to think of myself as not being able to CHANGE MY ABUSIVE WAYS because of the fact that everyone around me continues on with their abusive ways, regardless of the progress that I might have made within the application of the process – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the desire of reproducing a behaviour that is abusive in nature, through me allowing myself to “forget” about the “common sense” of a dignified living, because of allowing myself to be influenced by those who are around me – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to be influenced by those around me who are not applying themselves in order to change, and to continue applying the tools of writing, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a CONSISTENT FASHION – day in and day out – so that I truly and in fact change all of the abusive patterns that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into, and stop myself from reproducing them cyclically within my life, and re-align myself to a pattern of living which is supportive towards life, so that I may return to who I truly am as life as the physical, so that I may serve as an example to others as myself of what it is to be a responsible human being who acts within the interest of all living beings, so that a dignified life for all may become a reality for all.

To be continued tomorrow…

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I have been diagnosed as being bipolar ever since 2003, where I then experienced my first psychosis. There are a lot of self imposed definitions that came from that diagnosis when I was 25 years old. Today, I have to live with the hinderance of medication since I have been court ordered to take medication. I will do self-forgiveness on the beliefs that I have associated with the medication that I take to treat my bipolar disorder.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need medication in order to equilibrate my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the meditation that I take are slowing my mind down as that is what I have been told by the psychiatrist in regards to the antipsychosis medication that I have to take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the “slowing down of the mind” that I experience while taking the medication as the antipsychosis drug that I am imposed to take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to end my life because of having to take medication for the next 3 years as ordered by the court within which I fear having to live as a dumbed down version of what I am through the dumbing down effects of the medications upon my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to live as a dumbed down version of myself because of the belief that if I am to be “less than who I was” prior to the time where I was medicated, that life will be too difficult for me to handle because of not being able to express myself the same way as before because of the “expression blocking inducing effects” of the medication that I am forced to take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to express myself through the filter of the medication through the belief that the medication do in fact slow the processes of my self-expression down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the medication take effect upon my mind as the effect of me being slowed down through the processes of my self-expression as the medicated effects of the medication that i am forced to take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to die because of having been imposed to live the next 3 years through the experienced difficulties of self-expression that I currently experience because of the medication that is acting within my body/mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to live through the inherent difficulties that the medication imposes upon my self-expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to kill myself because of not living the life that I want to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience confusion within my mind as I am expressing myself when within the influence of the medication because of the belief that the medication has an effect upon me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the medication have an effect upon my expression from within which I allowed myself to want to kill myself because of the excuse as the effect of the medication that it has limited my self-expression which makes me feel uncomfortable being me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable being me because of living as the effects of the socially imposed medication from within which I feel as if I am but a shadow of what I was before.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret the life that i created for myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having listened to those that warned me of my erratic life style when I was young.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having listened to my computer science teacher when he told me to be careful not to let my random life style lead me astray from the path.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having followed the recommendations of Redha when I was working for Bell Sympatico, where he warned me that my naivety will cause me pain in life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having taken my studies seriously, in particular when I was studying in communications and in computer sciences.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having studied in communications only so that I could “pass the time”, only so that I could fill the time that separated me from the removal of my braces, so that it could past faster – not taking any of my studies seriously, but only as a “time filler” to reach my goal of removing my braces. I forgive myself that I haven’t taken the time of my studies in communications more seriously. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret having taken the time where I had braces for granted.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret the time where I had braces as being “without importance”. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret the time where I had braces as being inconsequential in my life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the time where I had my braces as being a time where I wasn’t really myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that the one who I really was, wasn’t there yet when I was within the time of my life where I were braces – I let every remarks and bad experiences flow right through me because I held onto the belief that who I was wasn’t there yet, and that whatever happened to me that was bad within this time frame, was irrelevant and didn’t affect me because I convinced myself that I wasn’t myself throughout that period, only because I had braces and that I hadn’t had my “jaw operation” yet, to which I used as the foundation of the belief that who I was was only the one who would come out of the operation and of the wearing of the braces in the future.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse consisting of the belief that the one who I really am is contained within the hopes of the one that I was going to be once I would be rid of the braces.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having lured me into the belief that I would a prettier human being when I would get rid of the braces.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the person who I really was within the time frame where I had braces on, under the pretext that I wasn’t” myself “ and that all that I did within this time frame was inconsequential to the one who I really was, since I imagined my true self to be within the future expectations that I kept within my mind – the one who I was within my head as the one which I saw myself to become, couldn’t be attained or touched since he was in my head, thus unknown and unassailable and invincible to all that tried to hurt me, since who I was was unknown thus unseen.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having lost myself within my future hopes and to not have allowed myself to express myself for who I really was here, within the time frame where I wore my braces.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that I would have had a better life if my jaw would be corrected.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having said that I were going to kill myself if I were not going to have the operation that consisted of changing my face so that I could correct the perceived deformity of my jaw that I perceived as being one of the great cause of all of my sufferings.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having blamed my jaw as being the cause of all of my sufferings in life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret blaming my face as being the cause of all of my sufferings in my life, which presented themselves more often than not within the form of rejection from my peers.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having given power to the opinions of those, in particular within my school years while I was a teenager, which told me that I was ugly and that I was an extra-terrestrial.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having given the benefit of the doubt to those that told me that I was ugly and because of that, that I was inferior to others.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having expanded my inferiority complex upon all of humanity because I haven’t had the courage to live self-honestly as who I really am, instead of living a life of shame by hiding myself underneath a mask of appearances only.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having lived a life hiding behind a mask because I was terribly afraid of being seen for who I really was without my mask.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen for who I am without my mask.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that my mask is who I am and to have suppressed and neglected my true identity which was hiding behind my mask.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having suppressed and neglected who I am as the honest expression of myself behind the mask.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having stood up in front of the oppression from the students who bullied me when I was a teenager.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having submitted myself to the fear of being ridiculed if I were to express myself for who I felt myself to be within myself when I was oppressed by my classmates while I was in high school.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having stood up when classmates threw stuff at my head while screaming insults towards me simply because I was “different” than others.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having defined myself as being ugly, thus inferior to others because that is what the others made me feel when they were insulting me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having given my power of expression to the feelings of inferiority that I felt when I was being ridiculed by my fellow classmates when I was a teenager and thus, to have closed myself within myself instead of taking position and self-responsibility as all as one as equal and stood up for who I am as all as one as equal as life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given myself permission to stand up against the oppression when people insulted and ridiculed me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given a greater effort to succeed when I was studying.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having been popular in the eyes of girls when I was a teenager.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having had sexual relationships with a girl when I was a teenager.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having had sexual relations with Sandra Bérubé when I was at the end of my teenage years.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having asked the younger friend of Sandra Bérubé of 11 years old, to have sex with me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have sexual desires towards the 11 year old friend of Sandra Bérubé because she was affectionate with me when I was 19 years old.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having listened to my feelings and my emotions when I felt within me that an opportunity to develop a relationship with a girl was being presented to me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having known when to pass into action when my emotions and my feelings informed me that I was desired by the girls/women who were within my presence.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having neglected my feelings and my emotions when they informed me that I was desired by girl/women.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having put my confidence only within my reasoning skills and not my inner feelings as emotions and feelings, to determine if I had a chance or not with a girl/women.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having listened or act on my emotions when they informed me that I was desired by a girl, unequivocally.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret to doubt my emotions and my feelings towards a girl when they were so intense that they left no doubt within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given reason to my feelings and emotions when they informed me that I was desired by the girl to which was placed my attention.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having continuously relied on my reason uniquely to identify if I had a chance or not with a girl/women.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having permitted myself to separate myself from my emotions and my feelings so that I could only listen to my rational and empirical mind when the opportunities came where I felt that I had a chance with a girl/women to have sex.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having seized the opportunities to enter in relationships with girls that made me feel desired when they presented themselves to me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having given reason of doubt only to what I listened coming from the mouth of others as being the only version of truth that I was to follow.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having seized the opportunity to tell Sandra Bérubé that I wanted to make love to her.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having seized the opportunity to tell Isabelle Martelle that I loved her and that I would have liked to be her “boyfriend”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that all those that I loved while I was growing up, would come back to me later in life to admit their love for me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having seized the opportunity to tell Christine Charlebois that I loved her and that I found her attractive.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having found the courage to tell Christine Charlebois that I loved her and that I wanted to go out with her.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having allowed my fears and my status of being rejected get the better of me when I was within the company of Christine Charlebois and because of that, that I considered myself as being unworthy to even consider the idea that I could be loved and appreciated by her.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let my rational fearful mind get the best of my intentions when I was within the company of Christine Charlebois.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having lived a love story with Christine Charlebois.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having left the fear of what others would have thought and say – those that bullied and ridiculed me in high school – if I would have expressed to Christine Charlebois how much I was in love with her.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having feared the reactions of the other students if they were to know my feelings towards Christine Charlebois.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having feared the reactions of Christine Charlebois if I were to tell her how much I was in love with her.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having repressed and suppressed my sexual desires and loving desires by the fear of being rejected by those that I found attractive/desired.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having suppressed my sexual desires and loving desires under the belief that who I was as a spiritual being is “greater than” those “lower” “bestial impulsions”.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having allowed myself to refrain myself from seizing the opportunities when they presented themselves to me to get into a relationship with girls, under the pretext that this was not what I wanted to be, under the pretext that the idea that I made myself to be was “greater than” those desires which churned within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given reason to those desires that I felt as energetic impulsions, when they were manifesting within and as me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given reason to my sexual desires, but have given reason to my “imagined self” which told me that I was “superior” to those desires.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having limited my expression to ideas of spiritual superiority instead of living what I really wanted to live from the depths of my guts when I was within the company of girls that I desired.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given more effort to succeed in my primary school studies.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given more effort to succeed in my high school studies.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given more effort to succeed in my collegial studies.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given more effort to succeed in my university studies.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having lived a life under the idea that I am not popular enough to give worth to my life as a human being.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having lived a life watching the life pass by me instead of actively investing myself within it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having imposed upon me, mental conditions to reach before expressing myself without restrain and actively in life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having imposed upon me, the condition to have to be within a relationship with a girl before allowing myself to actively participate within this world/society.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having waited all my life for a girlfriend before investing myself within society.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having a passive life because I never was able to have success with having a girlfriend for a time period which was sufficient for me to give me the impression that I have had a girlfriend.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having reduced my self-expression to having or not having a girlfriend.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having lived a life looking passively for the company of others because I didn’t want to invest myself in “looking to improve my life” before having reached the conditions that I fixed within myself – i.e., having a girlfriend, having a family, having a job, being popular, having a car, etc.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having defined myself as being too ugly to work.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having defined myself as being too ugly to exist.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having defined myself as being too ugly to expose myself within a working environment with other employees.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear exposing myself within a working environment with other employees.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear reliving the rejection that I have lived when I was within a “common closed environment”, like where I found myself within when I was within the scholar institutions, within which I lived experiences of rejections.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by others, and thus, not fear not being accepted by others as myself. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I was looking for my own acceptation instead of looking for the acceptation of others. I accept me as all as one as equal as life. I am life. I am Here.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having given all my power away to the mind picture presentation of myself, before considering the “true being” that I am in self-honesty as who I truly am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having separated myself between the mind picture representation of myself and the “being” as myself, to eventually lose myself within the illusion of the “mind picture representation of myself” and denying “who I am as all as one as equal as life within and as the moment here”.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having had a sexual relationship when I was a teenager.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having had a sexual relationship with Fannie Labrosse, my cousin.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having had sexual fantasies towards my cousin, F and my other cousin M.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having desired to have sexual relationship with young girls who looked like my cousin Fannie Labrosse.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having imagined Fannie Labrosse naked and making love to her while she was still a young girl.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that one day I would make love to my cousin.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret still having sexual desires towards young girls when I think of younger naked girls.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have some time ago, downloaded naked pictures of young girls within my computer.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having masturbated in front of videos where naked girls where making love to older adults.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having hid this problem to all those that knew me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having thought that I would one day make love to a young girl.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret wanting to go to the beach or to the water park, only so that I could look at the bodies of young girls walk in front of me in small outfits.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having imagined the bodies of naked girls that was walking in the street, or in the beaches or in the aquatic parcs.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having dreamed of sexual fantasies where I was making love to young girls.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to continue to masturbate while watching images of naked young girls in front of my computer screen, all the while knowing that it was wrong and despicable.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having listened to the voice of reason while I was masturbating in front of images of naked girls on the computer screen.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having listened to the voice of reason when I was masturbating in front of images of young girls as well as when I was masturbating in front of naked women in front of the computer screen.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having realized when I was masturbating, that masturbation contributes to the actual situation of abuse and rape in the world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having hid my “nature of mind” when I was confronted to my own dishonesties.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having feared to express and expose the monster that I am within my thoughts/mind consciousness system, for having had thoughts and actions – masturbating while watching naked young girls making love to adults – as despicable as what I have allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having allowed myself to hide myself from my own shadow as myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that I was a being of light.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having allowed myself to realize that I wanted to be a being of light only to balance the negative and despicable thoughts that I had towards myself and towards others and life as myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed in spirituality as being who I truly am because of me not wanting to face all of the dark thoughts that I have accepted and allowed to hide with myself within the secluded abyss of my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was the despicable thoughts that ruled within the abyss of my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the thoughts that are within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having secluded myself within spirituality to hide the shame that I had of all that I allowed to think and do within my isolation from others .

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the hypocrisy of the world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be a hypocrite through the fear of being ridiculed and rejected by the honest expression of who I have accepted and allowed myself to become as a mind consciousness system. I am not the mind consciousness system. I am not the thoughts that I keep within the secluded spaces of my mind. I expose myself for who I am. I expose myself to re-define myself as all as one as equal as life as awareness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having thought that to make love to a young girl would render me happy.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having thought that to make love to a young girl would purge me from my sufferings of rejection.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having thought that to make love to a young girl would give me the power that I was looking for.

Je me pardonne de m’avoir permis de regretter m’avoir permis de définir le pouvoir comme étant ce qui s’applique et s’atteint qu’avec la force physique.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having allowed myself to define power as being that which applies to physical/overpowering strength.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having allowed myself to stand up within my mental condition and stop all behaviors and all thoughts that are not of who I am, but are of the mind as programs which recycles themselves within my subconscious mind until I decide differently – until I decide to definitely stop my participation within and as them. I am not the programs within my subconscious mind which desires to have sexual relationships with women as well as young girls. I stop the mind. I stop the desires. I am here. I breathe.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that I would only be liberated when I would die.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that death is the only thing that could liberate me from the hell which is my life on earth.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that I would be more able to fix myself only when I would be in the hereafter instead of here within and as this body. Life is here as who I am as all as one as equal as my human physical body. I do not accept and allow myself to believe that I can only fix myself in the hereafter. I am fixing myself here as who I am within and as this physical body so that I birth life from the physical. I accept nothing less than who I am as all as one as equal as life as here.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that death is the only thing which can save me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having allowed myself to take responsibility of my actions here, and stop once and for all to participate within and as the mind consciousness system which consists of all that I believe myself to be. I am not my mind. I am awareness which is constant and undefined, HERE.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed all of that which I was told to be.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having defined and having limited myself to be that which I was told to be.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that I was incapable to have that which I wanted to have in this life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that I was stupid because of the weak grades that I obtained when I was in primary, high, college and university school.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having believed that I was inferior to my sister because she is apparently better looking than me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having expressed an expression of inferiority – within my behavior, within my demeanor, within my voice, within my words, within my attitude, within my presentation – when I was within the company of those that I considered as being “better looking” than me, thus superior than me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define those that I considered as being prettier than me, from the comparison of the mcs, as being superior than me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having let myself down even before I stood up when I was confronted to beings who ridiculed me, to which I judged as being prettier than me and thus, allowed them to insult me and do nothing about it because they were apparently superior than me because of their appearance.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be paralyzed within my expression under the reign of fear when I was in front of beings whom I judged as being prettier than me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having used the mind picture presentation of others and of myself as being the barometer through which I expressed myself as self-confidence.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having studied and participated with greater determination than when I was studying in computer sciences in order to become a computer scientist.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given a greater effort when I was studying so that to assure myself a better future than the one within which I am currently in this moment, financially.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having given my all to the subjects and exercises that were destined to forged myself a greater future.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having allowed myself to live the present moment, without considerations for the future because I was afraid to think of what I would become – knowing all to well that I was heading for “social and economic failure”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take my future more seriously and only live for the present moment.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret fearing the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do anything to change the place where I was heading for as the future that I knew I was building for myself, as a poor class human being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my future for granted because of the having a life where my mother took care of everything for me – numbing my senses to her care and not allowing me to take care of my own responsibility within this society as an independent adult.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on my mother’s presence to always give me what I need out of life – and thus, accept and allow myself to be dependant on my mother for my own survival in this world as the source from which I get all the basics that I need to live – not wanting more since I settle for the bare minimum.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to settle for the bare minimum.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret settling for the bare minimum.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having used the excuse of “I love for the present moment because the present moment is all there is” to hide my fear of the futur.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having feared the future because of fearing being an adult. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having the desire to kill myself instead of living within and as an adult in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret preferring death to the life of an adult.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having inserted all of my fears within what I perceived as being an adult when I was growing up. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become my own fears. I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by my own fear. I am HERE as all as one as equal as life. Life is not fear. I am life. I am unconditionnal self-expression as life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret not having known when to stop my thoughts when I was aware that I was plunging within madness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having nurtured the belief that I am a superior being, by influencing my friends to believe that the “project code consciousness” was really possible to realize, while I knew all the while I was working on it, that it was impossible through my methods.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having built my identity around this lie where I was so far within my mind, that I actually perceived myself as being god, but without the proper ‘step by step’ realizations that only come through the process of forgiveness with corrective action in self-honesty as me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret to have separated myself from the others around me as all as one as equal as who I really am as life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regret having isolated myself from others through the fear of being ridiculed and rejected by others as me. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the rejections the others have towards me are the own rejections that I nurture towards myself within my own mind consciousness system.

I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by a thought
I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by the word “reject”

I expose myself for who I have accepted and allowed myself to become, so that i can stop the bullshit i have allowed as myself. I expose myself to re-define myself as all as one as equal as life as awareness through stopping the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be distracted by the mind when I am standing up as myself through the application of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to watch television, play video games and or read dimensional articles to which I use as excuses for me not to apply myself through self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place self-forgiveness in second fiddle when I actually know that my regular activities, which are somewhat still considered as being primordial, are supporting the suppression of me instead of supporting the honest expression as me
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stop participating in the activities which are supporting my self-dishonesties through continuing in the participation of passivity instead of stopping within and as the passivity/apathy and stand up within and as myself and apply myself within and as self-forgiveness as me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and think that I am not well spoken and intelligent enough to apply myself within and as self-forgiveness with regularity
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not being intelligent enough to apply self-forgiveness effectively – thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a constricted condition as intelligence as the ability to express myself with clarity and directedness within and as the application of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a condition within and as myself for me to “fit into” if I am to express myself through Self-forgiveness and that if I do not “fit into” the condition within which have classified self-forgiveness within me, then I am not worthy of applying self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that it is me that I am judging as being unworthy of myself when I feel that I am unworthy of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition my self-expression so that it “fits into” a condition that I have placed before me within and as my perception of what self-forgiveness is through comparing myself with others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare me towards another human being who is expressing himself as “directedness” and “clarity” while I see/perceive myself as being unclear and undirected
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define clarity as being the ability to express myself in a rational and logical manner which is the way I perceive those that I judge as being clear and direct as being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from who I am as a rational and logical being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define logical as the ability to interpret one’s own life with clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to be one and equal to clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to express clarity, efficiency and directedness, only when I have met the conditions I have set within me for me to perceive myself as being the definition of what clarity, efficiency and directedness is
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define clarity, efficiency and directedness as what I experience when I find myself in a higher level of consciousness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define “higher level of consciousness” as being what I experience after moving through internally perceived levels of mind which only comes through the application of a meditative method that I have believed to be my personal “stairways to heaven”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have developed a special method of meditation that enables me to connect with the higher realms of consciousness, thus allowing me to express myself with confidence and assuredness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to express confidence and assuredness as me only when I have “reached” the perceived “higher levels of mind” which only comes after I move within myself through a meditative practice which implies the conscious and deliberate movements of energy throughout my body
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and perceive that I am within a special moment now, because of having had a flash of “déjà vu” in this moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to define myself as being special because of being able to connect to inner awareness of greater expression which comes through as an expression of myself which exerts a greater confidence and a greater assuredness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being special because of being able to connect to higher realms of consciousness through my meditative practices
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the practice of meditation grants me special powers
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive meditation as being necessary for my well being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the trap that is meditation as the practice of greater inner peace while closing my eyes to what is actually going on in this world within and as the outer REAL ALL ity as war, famine, abuse, rape and murder of me as all as one as equal
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seclude myself within the dishonesties of the mind as the practice of meditation while closing my eyes to what is actually going on in this world as who I am as all as one as equal as life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from others when others as myself experience situations that I haven’t personally experienced myself
I forgive myself that I have allowed to define myself solely based on the experiences that I have lived and to thus separate who I see myself as being from the others as myself who have lived or lives through experiences that I do not have experienced or are experiencing within and as this here moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am based on the mind consciousness system
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that who I am is HERE and that who I am not is THERE as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become through the past, present and future of the mind consciousness system
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that all that I am and all that I can ever be is HERE allways in all ways and includes all of existence as me within and as the breath as life as me HERE in self honesty
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project myself within the expectations and souvenirs of the mind instead of staying HERE stable and constant as who I truly am as all as one as equal as life
Friends of the past:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear coming face to face with a friend of the past
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project anxiety towards the moments where I meet acquaintances and friends of the past to which I haven’t seen for a long time
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to define myself as a loser when comparing myself to the friends and acquaintances of the past
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am based on society’s definition of success and failure
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I am participating within the ego of the mind when I accept and allow success and failure within me. I do not accept and allow success and failure to influence me. I do not accept and allow success and failure within me. Life is not defined by success and/or failure. Life is undefined. I am undefined. I remain undefined thus I am not defined by success and/or failure. I am life. I am here as life as all as one as equal. I breathe.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear meeting people whom I knew in the past, because of the fear of their reactions if I were to tell them that I do not work, that I do not have a family, that I do not make money and that I still live with my mother. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear the fear of the mind, through me participating in the fear of the mind of being ridiculed for being who I am as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I fear becoming that which I hide from others as myself if I were to meet someone that I knew in the past, and tell them what I have allowed myself to become as who I am as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the mind consciousness system. I am not the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear revealing who I am as what I keep from others as my current lifestyle because of the belief that I will be ridiculed and laughed at and rejected for leading such a lifestyle. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I have become which is an illusion thus I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that all that I ever was and that all that I will ever be as perceived through the mind is an illusion – who I am is HERE in self-honesty as me, in all ways and always.