I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take mind modifying substances whenever I feel “bad” about myself, wherein I look for specific mind altering substances that would make me “feel better” about myself because of the “addiction” that I have accepted and allowed myself to have towards “feeling good at all costs”, which has led me to consume substances such as alcohol and drugs, only so that I could “feed the addiction” further, not seeing or realising that through doing this, that I only deepen my dependency towards outside influences rather than being the self-directive principle in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “looking for an outside source/influence that would make me “feel better” about myself”, that I am to immediately stop my train of thoughts through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to return my awareness HERE as who I truly am as life as the physical, where no mind is necessary to experience what it truly means to live as life, one and equal with all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “let myself down”, within the perspective of having allowed myself to “fall back” within patterns of abuse, through me allowing myself to consume mind altering substances only for the sole interests of satisfying my selfish desires of seeking “pleasure at all cost”, even is such a cost is the disrespect and destruction of life within my surroundings – because of having accepted and allowed myself to be mesmerised by the creation of the mind as illusions, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to place the illusions in the forefront of life where illusions are given more credentials than life itself – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “seeking pleasure at all cost”, that I am to remind myself of the REAL costs of such a participation, such as the disempowerment of myself as the true authority of myself and the development of a dependency which would only further the enslavement of myself towards the mind and it’s addictions – and to immediately stop myself from further participating within the train of thoughts which are birthed from such a desire, through the constant application of tools such as breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, until such a pattern of thinking is completely removed from a reaction based response mechanism, so as to eventually stop myself from the pattern of self-abuse, and bring myself back to who and where I am here as life, so as to change my actions from a self-interested starting point only, to a starting point where I would consider all life before putting a thought into action, so as to become an example for all, as to what it is to be a responsible human being.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from participating and empowering the thoughts within me which seeks only pleasure as self-gratifying experiences, such as the thoughts which lead me to consume mind altering substances, through the realisation that as long as I will allow myself to be a slave to such desires, that I will remain trapped within the mind and forbid myself to express myself as life through my own allowances as an abuser of life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the intention/desire to “take mind altering substances for the sole purpose of pleasure seeking”, that I am to immediately stop myself from further participating within such a train of thought, through the use of breathing, so as to break the pattern of thinking within myself and bring myself back HERE within and as the physical as myself; self-forgiveness; self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to IN FACT CHANGE who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am HERE as the physical, as who we really all are within common sense.

 

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “desiring to consume mind altering substances in order to reach the goal of “feeling better about myself””, remind myself that I am only thus allowing myself to fall further within the pattern of enslavement to the mind’s addiction, and thus stop myself from participating further within the thoughts that are linked to such an addiction through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop the patterns of abuse within me, and re-align myself to the expression of patterns which dignifies life and are life affirming, where I take full responsibility of who I am as life within the context of living with all other beings in this world, so as to act within the best interest of all life, and stop acting and limiting my perspective to that of my own self-interests, and thus take into consideration all living beings before deciding to act on a specific situation.

 

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self-responsibility because of having fallen for the trap of smoking pot again, even if I know that smoking pot only reinforces the control of the mind over myself, because of having accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by my desires of “wanting to have some fun” wherein I have abdicated my self-responsibility towards myself and others as myself, only because of having allowed the desire to “have some fun” have precedence over my will to stop myself from entertaining the constructs of the mind, such as the “inner chatter” and “sense of relaxation” that pot enables me to experience within myself – instead of stopping myself from smoking pot and from participating within the constructs of the mind that pot enables, through the application of breathing, so as to return to who I am here whenever I sense the desire of smoking pot rise again within my mind, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the “slave of the mind” so that I realise myself as who I truly am as the physical as life, which is one and equal with all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about smoking pot when I have nothing to do, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain the idea/thought of smoking pot whenever I find myself unoccupied, because of the still present desire of “having some fun within my own mind”, rather than stopping myself from participating within the mind as desire, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from repeating the same pattern of self-abuse such as the pattern of smoking pot, on an on and off pattern, and so that I can change from the abusive nature that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so that I release myself from the stronghold of the mind and realise myself as life as one as all as the physical HERE, instead of remaining THERE within the patterns of abuse of the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for smoking pot, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain negative thoughts about myself because of having allowed myself to smoke pot again, thereby participating within the polarity manifestation as the mind, rather than stopping myself from participating within the polarity as the mind through the application of writing, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to really change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and rebirth myself as life as the physical, so that I can really start living and change the abusive nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as humanity, and rebirth ourselves as life, one and equal with all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for stealing the pot of my sister’s boyfriend, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my sense of self within my mind, through the awareness of the fact that my sister’s boyfriend knows that I have stolen his pot for personal use, knowledge which have brought me to seek to evade and feel uncomfortable within the presence of my sister’s boyfriend – instead of stopping myself from participating within the constructs of the mind as the “feelings” and “emotions” that keeps me locked within the confines of the abusive mind, rather than stopping myself from participating within the constructs of the mind such as feelings and emotions, through the use of the tools of writing, so as to see myself for who I am within my own mind, breathing so as to bring myself back to who I truly am HERE as life as the physical, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind, to who I truly am as the creator and created as the physical as life, where no mind is necessary to exist.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by my friend’s abusive behaviour of smoking pot, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to “fall back” within an abusive nature towards and within myself through me smoking pot again – instead of stopping myself from smoking pot, through the awareness of the fact that smoking pot never has led me anywhere that is constructive, having always experienced nothing but deception through smoking pot – and that if I am to find myself entertaining the desire of smoking pot again, that I am to immediately apply the tools of breathing, so as to stop myself from entertaining the desires of smoking pot, writing so as to see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become within the mind, self-forgiveness so as to release myself from the points which keeps me locked within my own mind, self-honesty so as to reveal myself to myself without hiding anything from myself and self-corrective application so as to change myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so that I can rebirth myself as life as the physical, where no mind is necessary in order to function/live within this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feelings that I have associated with the act of smoking pot, such as the feeling of “vastness” and “openness” that I have deluded myself into having through the act of smoking pot, and that if I am to find myself entertaining thoughts and ideas about smoking pot again, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within those thoughts, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the abusive nature of the mind, and eventually rebirth myself as life where no mind is necessary.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from participating within the act of smoking pot through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to smoke pot, that I will never get anywhere in life, as it has been clearly shown to me, throughout my numerous experiences of smoking pot in the past, that pot leads to nowhere, as the only place that pot leads to is greater confusion and greater states of self-abuse.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to stop my participation within energetically charged experiences through me, whenever I experience the movements of positive or negative energies within me, immediately stop such participations through the BREATH/BREATHING and place myself HERE within and as the physicality as me. If an opportunity to self-forgive arises, I apply self-forgiveness aloud or within myself. I remind myself that the energetically charged experience/thought/feeling/emotion is a pattern that I no longer want to participate in and as the mind.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “wanting to participate within the act of smoking pot” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “pot addict”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “pot dependant character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend my time wallowing in video games, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within energetic reactions such as fear, anxiousness, worry, exaltation and others when I play video games with myself or with friends of mine – instead of stopping my participation within the constructs of the mind through me breathing through the energetic reactions within, and applying the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to re-script myself from being automated by the robotic mind reactions that I have copied from those who have come before me, to being a self-directive being whereas I reclaim my self-directive principle as the self-movement of myself within myself, whereas I become the one who moves within me instead of merely reacting to the pre-programming as the mind habits that I have come to mistakenly claimed as being my own – and thus change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so that Who I am as life is rebirthed out of the physical, so as to change what I, and by extension we, have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the current system of abuse of the world, into a system which honours and dignifies life as what it should have been from the very beginning.

 

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “anxiety or nervousness” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “competition”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “gamer character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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Today I went to the clinic in order to check on a problem that i’ve been having with my physical body for about a week or so. The problem i’ve been having concerned a bursted pimple which is located at the base of my spinal colomn, just next to the coccyx. Since about a week or so, the pimple bursted and there’s been a liquid consisting of puss and blood which have been seaming out of it ever since. The liquid flows constantly without any form of suture around the area of the wound, making it an open wound, and I have to continuously replace a cotton swab just to make it so that the liquid doesn’t stain my underwear. It is rather uncomfortable since I have to think about the ways that i sit whenever i am sitting down, in order to make sure that the cotton swab doesn’t move even if i have placed gummed paper around the cotton swab.

As I was sitting down waiting for the doctor to call my name, I was wondering on the gravity of my situation – not thinking that it was grave per say, but just wondering if it would mean that I would need an intervention such as an operation in order to remove the abscess completely. I have surfed the net prior to the visit at the clinic in order to get some information on my wound. There I found out that this type of wound, especially if it remains open, generally need an operation in order to remove whatever is causing the puss to form from within the wound itself. Thus, the necessity of an operation where a doctor would open the abscess, remove the material that is causing the formation of puss and then put a mesh of some sorts in order to make sure that the puss wouldn’t come out.

So, i was sitting down wondering about all this stuff when I finally got to see the doctor – after having waited for about an hour before being served because of a mistake that the doctor made concerning my family name ( he believed that my appointment had been cancelled because there had been a mistake in my appointment where it was believed that my sister was the one who was supposed to meet the doctor and not me… ). Whithin my appointment with the doctor, he determined that it would be best for me to take on a cream and some medication in order to see if they could heal my abscess. He told me that this type of situation would generally mean an operation, but that before we reached that conclusion, that it would be best for me to take a medication and a cream to see if it could heal the wound. After about a month or so, if the abscess is still there after having taken this method of treatment, then I would need to consider having an operation. The doctor warned me though that if I would need an operation, that it would mean that I would have to wait about 6 months for the wound to close. So right now, the viable solution is the medication and the cream he prescribed to me. I will see in about a month or so if I still need a medical intervention. For now though, I will use the treatment that the doctor suggested to me and hope that it will be enough to heal the wound.

Self-forgiveness on the harm done towards my physical body:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my physical body through the usage of substances which are harmfull to my physical body.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to eat sugar in great quantity, not realising that sugar is harmfull for my physical body – therefore, i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek the pleasure as the energetic addiction/temptation towards and within the substance abuse of sugar, only so that I may experience a positive energetic experience within myself without considering the harm that the substance such as sugar creates within and as the physicality of and as me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse substances such as smoking mariuana, only so that i could experience the energetic high that comes with the intake of that substance, not realising that through me taking on that substance, I allow myself to participate within energetic temptations/highs only so that i could experience the positive energy as the friction generated within and as the mind – within this, I forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that by me using substances such as mariuana, i allow myself to participate within the nature of the mind as energy and through this, I allow myself to continue on with the abuse of phisicality as life for the expence of mind generated possessions such as the positive entity that is generated through the intake of marijuana, which only lasts for a moment while the damage done to my physical body lasts longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my physical body through me taking on substances such as alcool only because of the addiction that I have generated within myself as the temptations of the mind, to within that temptation only seek personal interests/goals of experiencing an energetic experience such as the feeling of being drunk, which is a disgrace and a deliberate attempt at harming my physical body – within this, I forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that alcool is harming my physical body and that as such, is to be forever forbidden for it allows the abuse of the physical as life to continue with my allowed participation in the intake of alcool.

I forgive msyelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my physical body through the peer pressure that is generated whenever i am within a situation where I am asked to take on such abusive substances as alcool only so that I may “fit in” with the group – within this, i forigive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bend in front of peer pressure whenever I am within a situation of abuse towards the physical body, where from within which I would take on the abusive substance such as alcool only so that I would “fit in” with the group.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to arm my physical body through me taking on excessive amounts of sugar even if my body is telling me to STOP within the awareness that sugar is harming my physical body – within this, i forgive mysefl that I have accepted and allowed myself to blind myself from the common sensical reaction/words as the body telling me through pains of all sorts, that the abusive substance such as sugar is harming my physical body and through this, selecting to not listen to my physical body at the expense of the “high” that is awaiting me through the substance abuse of sugar.

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately harm my physical body through the smoking of cigarettes because of the blind addiction towards nicotine which is an absolute harm towards my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek pleasures of the mind while being in total disrespect for my physical body, through me seeking highs from the intake of abusive substances such as marijuana rather than seeking to ground myself within and as the reality of me as the physical body as life – through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application – within this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to “wait for things to get worse” before I decide to actually change in order to do what is best for all through me stopping my participation within the games of polarity as the mind, as the games of winners and losers and re-align myself to and towards the true nature of me as the physical as life as one and equal to all living biengs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as the human physical body to be and become a disgrace to and towards life through me accepting and allowing such participation such as the intake of harmfull substances only so that I can reach new energetic highs at the expense of my physical body – within this, i forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the hights as the energetic experiences that i seek to have only hurts the physicality as me through the constant and continuous consumption of physicality as the energetic highs that I experience within and as my mind.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire for abusive substances” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as “I want sugar/marijuana/alcohol/abusive substances”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “desire” through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

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