I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire taking drugs because of the belief that drugs will help me like my life more, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to desire taking drugs because of the appeal to have an “extraordinary experience” in relation to how I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive my reality, such as that of being a “boring” reality because of the fact that I judge my life as “not entertaining enough”, instead of stopping myself from seeking and desiring to take drugs through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a slave to the mind’s programming, and from there, stop myself from participating within the patterns of the mind through the tools stated above, so that I can change what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as a slave of the mind, into becoming one and equal to life as the physical, where no mind is necessary to function.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by past experiences where I have taken drugs, because of the pattern of me looking for “extraordinary experiences” that would make me perceive my life differently, wherein I would look into my past for experiences that suit my prerequisites so that I could find something somewhere that would allow me to experience my life “differently” because of the lingering feeling of boredom that overshadows my perception of my reality, instead of stopping myself from participating within the patterns of the mind where I would look into reproducing past experiences for the sole purpose of “entertainment” – discarding all the care in the world for the consequences of such an abusive behaviour – through me using the tools of writing daily in my blog, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a  CONSISTENT fashion so as to make sure that I do not fall back into past abusive behaviours and re-align myself into becoming a responsible human being who stops acting only for the purpose of self-interest, and start acting within the interest of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “try” a drug that I have “taken” in my past because of my inner desire of wanting to “experience something out of the ordinary” that would take me out of my “feeling of boredom” and into a “feeling/perception” of a “drug induced alternate reality” where I would see and feel my life differently than that of being bored, instead of stopping myself from participating within such a destructive behaviour through me applying the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a CONSISTENT FASHION so that I change my ways IN FACT so that i stop myself from allowing myself to take such substances in the future as they are dishonest and abusive in nature and are not one and equal to LIFE. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within behaviours which are abusive towards the physical as life as who I truly am, only because of the lingering programming within my mind which seeks to only satisfy the sole interest of myself, wherein I would disregard the consequences of my actions at large, because of the appeal of “self-gratification/pleasure” that is at the heart of the mind’s programming, and thus CHANGE what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind who only reproduces the “sins of the fathers” that have come before me, so that I become equal and one with life as all as one as the physical, where the abusive mind as that which I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become through copying and imitating those that have come before me, and re-birth myself as life as the physical so that I become a responsible human being IN FACT, where my actions would be made within the consideration of all life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be misguided by my feelings of boredom, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to fall back within past abusive behaviours, such as taking drugs, because of my lack of self-will and self-dedication towards myself as life, where I would allow myself to think of myself as not being able to CHANGE MY ABUSIVE WAYS because of the fact that everyone around me continues on with their abusive ways, regardless of the progress that I might have made within the application of the process – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the desire of reproducing a behaviour that is abusive in nature, through me allowing myself to “forget” about the “common sense” of a dignified living, because of allowing myself to be influenced by those who are around me – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to be influenced by those around me who are not applying themselves in order to change, and to continue applying the tools of writing, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a CONSISTENT FASHION – day in and day out – so that I truly and in fact change all of the abusive patterns that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into, and stop myself from reproducing them cyclically within my life, and re-align myself to a pattern of living which is supportive towards life, so that I may return to who I truly am as life as the physical, so that I may serve as an example to others as myself of what it is to be a responsible human being who acts within the interest of all living beings, so that a dignified life for all may become a reality for all.

To be continued tomorrow…

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate a feeling of ecstasy, such as the feeling of positive energy, whenever I win while playing a game with my friend, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain the feeling of energetic high, instead of stopping myself from participating within the mind as energy, through me, when I sense the movement of energy build up within myself, stopping my participation within energy as the mind, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to re-program myself into a being which acts within the interest of what is best for all, instead of constantly and continuously acting within the interest of the self, such as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, through me imitating what I have learned from those who came before me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feeling of positivity whenever I win a game with my friends, such as any board games that I have accustomed myself into playing with my friends, whereas my behaviour changes from that of being silent and stable within and as myself, to a behaviour which is unstable through me becoming ecstatic thus me becoming subject to any movements of energy within and as myself, thus being controlled by the movements of energy within and as myself, instead of stopping my participation within energy through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to gradually stop myself from participating within energy as the mind so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical, so as to become equal and one with life as it should have been from the very beginning.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feeling of negativity whenever I lose a game with my friends, such as any board games that I have accustomed myself into playing with my friends, whereas my behaviour changes from that of being silent and stable within and as myself, to a behaviour which is unstable through me becoming introverted, whereas I turn and churn within my mind out of being frustrated for not being able to win, thus me becoming subject to any movements of energy within and as myself, thus being controlled by the movements of energy within and as myself, instead of stopping my participation within energy through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to gradually stop myself from participating within energy as the mind so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical, so as to become equal and one with life, as it should have been from the very beginning.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within backchat whenever I play a board game with my friends, whereas I plan and manipulate what I say to others as myself which are playing the board game with me, only so that I can protect my self-interested goal of winning the board game, all the while still participating and continuing my enslavement towards and within the mind, through my accepted and allowed habit/participation of using the secret mind in order to plan and manipulate whatever is around me so that I can manipulate the situation in my advantage – all the while participating within spite and blame and justification within my own mind, so as to justify my position of “winner” or “loser” whenever I am involved in playing a “board game” or any other games of the mind based on winning and losing, instead of me applying myself within my commitment to stop the mind through my active participation within the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change myself IN FACT, so as to stop the system of abuse I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the systems of the mind, and birth myself as a system of LIFE from within which my actions would reflect that which is best for all life, such as being honest with myself and others as myself whenever I am involved in a mind game, such as playing a board game with my friends, and thus change my behaviour so as to stop all of my self-allowed characters of the mind, so that I become equal and one with the only character which acts for the interests of all life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to appreciate winning whenever I play board games with my friends, whereas I have developed a dependency to the adrenaline rush and positive energy that overpowers me whenever I win a board game or any other game that I play with friends, as I thus become possessed by the desire of gain whereas my behaviour changes from being stable to being unstable through the constant flow and movement of positive energy that occurs within and as myself when I win the games that I play with my friends, such as board games – instead of me constantly applying myself within the act of stopping my participation within the system of abuse as the mind of energy, through me applying the tools of breathing – so as to stop the movement of energy within whenever they occur -, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical and thus become equal and one with life and all living beings.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the energetic rush that occurs when I “win something”, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling an energetic rush that occurs when I win a game” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “winner or loser”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “winner or loser character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have fallen back and smoked pot, as I swore to myself that I would not smoke pot any longer as it does not stand for what is best for all, as it only serves to further the enslavement of the mind through generating frictions which feeds the polarities of the mind, only enabling oneself to experience the delusions of the mind within experiences of high energy/positivity, whereas I become possessed by the “energy entity” from within which I allow myself to get lost within movements of energy which only entrap me further down the mind – instead of actually stopping smoking pot through the realisation that pot does nothing else than enslave one further into the mind, and thus use the tools of breathing in order to interrupt the thought/desire of smoking pot and remember that I do not need it as it does not support myself in any way whatsoever, and thus effectively apply the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in order to stop myself from being directed by an addiction such as smoking pot, rather than releasing myself from all addictions through committing myself to who I am as life as the physical rather than to continue within the delusions that I am the mind as energy.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the mind’s addictions, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the addictions of the mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “suddenly desiring smoking pot” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “desiring to delve into an addiction”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “desiring to fulfill an addiction”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to control others with my mind, whereas I would modify the frequencies of my mind through me practicing meditation within the goal of controlling my brainwaves, wherein I would when able to change the frequencies of my mind, control the reactions of others within the control of my energies – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was deceiving myself and others as myself through me manipulating my brainwaves in the goal of changing the perception others had on me through me changing their mind state as mirrors to the mind states I was busy manipulating/changing within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind/energies to control other’s mind/energies around me, wherein I would express myself through laughter and excessive reactions only so that I could influence the reactions of others when with my presence, whereas I would present myself as having “high energy” through me modifying the state of my mind when with the company of others, while when alone with myself I would experience myself as having “low energies”. The contrast between my behaviour when with others and my behaviour when with myself would mean that I was deceiving myself and others as myself through the false projection of myself when with others, in comparison to who I was when with myself alone, which were different expressions because of the desire to “control how others would think of me” that manifested within myself when with the company of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want to control how others feel/think about me, wherein I would spend tremendous amounts of time in meditation in order to learn how to control my brainwave states so that I could control the brainwaves states of others, only because of the fear I had of knowing what others truly felt/thought about me – wherein I would practice meditation only so that I could learn techniques in how to control others through the mind, within the only goal/SOUL purpose to eventually be able to control others – all the while being driven by the fear of knowing what others truly thought/felt about myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the driving force behind my motivation to meditate was so that I could learn techniques to control others through the control of my mind state because of the fear of being “rejected” and unloved by others, instead of realising that effective self-trust and self-love is built and comes through self-honest self-investigation through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty wherein I apply myself to CHANGE so that my behaviour reflects what is best for all instead of what is best for only me as myself alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to control the mind of others through the modification of my mind states wherein the control occurred within the mirroring of the behaviour/reflections of others towards my mind state, wherein I would project a dishonest image of myself because of the forced projection of myself to others as myself as something which I am/was not in fact as I was not in fact “high in energy” when with my company alone, but that this projection of myself as “high energy” was manufactured through the countless amounts of hours that I spend in meditating only so that I could reach levels of control of my own energies/frequencies within the only goal to eventually control others.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of polarity as the projection of myself as high energy/positivity when with the company of others, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “low energy/negativity/depression” when back alone with the company of myself, which I absolutely do not want to experience any more.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to use energy to control others” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to live experiences of high energy”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring experimenting feelings of high energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to control how others would feel about themselves when within my company, whereas I would deliberately project myself as being happy, whatever the circumstances, only to ensure that others around me would feel happy too, because of being dependant on the energies of others wherein I usually mimic the emotions/feelings/behaviours of others in order to have a “feel” on how I “feel” within my relationship with others around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest within how I present myself to others, wherein I would usually present myself as a false image of what I feel within myself only to make sure that I would fit within what was expected out of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the “energy mind game” with others when I am within the company of others because of wanting/desiring that others see me as being a “good/happy person” because of the belief that if I am not perceived as being a “good/happy person” when within the company of others, that others would reject me because of not having a lot of things to give of myself other than the “good feelings” that I would manipulate myself into being only to ensure that others would perceive me as being a good/happy person, while I would feel like shit when I would be back alone with myself – wherein I would feel the reverse effect of the projection of myself as being a “good/happy/energetic person” through me becoming all of a sudden “sad/lonely/negative energetic person” because of having used all of my energies to make others feel good about themselves through burning high amounts of physicality as chemical substances within my mind, wherein I would give “all  of myself as energy” only to realise that, when back with myself all alone in my apartment, that the effects of this participation within projecting myself as “high energy/good/happy person” generated the feelings of “sadness/depression” because of not having been given the amounts of energy I gave out to others and thus realise when back with myself, that I have burned myself out for others while not receiving the same amount of energy in return.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was playing within the polarity game of the mind through me projecting myself as having/being “high energy/good/happy person”, not realising that through me participating within this game of positive energy/projection as the mind, that I would experience the negative side of this projection as the “low energy/depression/sadness” that I would feel within myself when back with myself, all alone in my apartment through the realisation that I have burned myself out for other’s perception of me, which was all for naught because of always returning to the “low energy/depression/sadness” that I would experience within myself as being alone in my apartment with no one to share my energies with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the best that I have to give to others as the “high amounts of energy” that I can muster within myself for the benefit of generating a “good atmosphere” when around with others, wherein I would “energise my mind” prior to the moments where I would be seen with others, only to ensure that I would be perceived as having “high amounts of energy” as I have defined that state of myself as being the “best that I can give to others as myself” as a gift that I would force myself to project unto others, for the benefit of their good feelings and perception of me as being a good/happy/special person who has high energy thus is a good person to be around with.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the desire to be perceived as being a good person to be around with, manipulates and controls me form within so as to become the projection of happiness/high energy even if that isn’t how I normally experience myself from within – only manifesting myself as having “high energy” when within the company of others to ensure that I have the best chance as being perceived as being a good/happy person that is beneficial to be around with, because of my unconscious desire to be “loved by others” and that the only way that I have found to be loved by others, is through me exerting myself as “high energy/positivity” at the cost of the deception as sadness that I experience within myself when back as being alone with myself – wherein I would feel depressed within myself after having expended high amounts of energy when with the company of others, only to realise that it was all for naught, as I am still to be found all alone with myself when back in my apartment – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me exerting/projecting myself as having “high amounts of energy” through me manipulating/energizing my mind prior to the moments when I am found with others, that as soon as I am to be back with the company of myself alone, that I will immediately experience myself as being negative/depressive/sad because of the re-occuring state/realisation that it was all for naught, as I am still all alone with myself, with no one to be around with within the intimacy of my home – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have my state of mind be dependent on the presence of others, as I feel happy when with the company of others and sad when back alone with myself, instead of realising that what I have to do first is build self-intimacy, self-love and self-trust first through the tools of investigating myself as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the mind, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I stop my participation within the cycles of “high energy” that I project of myself when with the company of others, and “low energy” that I experience within myself when back alone with myself, and CHANGE effectively so that I stop participating within these patterns of the mind and bring myself back HERE as the physical as life as that which is best for all as what is best for all is best for myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that every time that I accept and allow myself to project myself as having “high energy” when within the company of others, that I will automatically experience myself as having “low energy” as negativity/deception/depression when I will be back and alone with myself because of the secret mind desire as self-interest to “attract” a “female” to my home, wherein I would feel depressed/deceived/negative every time that this desire is not satisfied, which is almost all the time – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that every time I accept and allow myself to participate within such games of energy as the positive projection of myself as “high energy” in order to satisfy the secret desire to “attract a female to my home”, that the negative experience of myself as the realisation of doing all of this mind game manipulation for nothing, accumulates over and over and over and over again within and as my subconscious mind, whereas I experience the accumulated and layered negative polarity charge of this mind game which manifests within and as myself as deep levels of negativity/depression/sadness through the realisation that I have yet again failed at bringing a partner with me to share and live intimate experiences with at my apartment, whenever I find myself again and again and again all alone with myself, with no one to share my life experiences with.

Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me participating within such games of “mind projections” as me projecting myself as having “high amounts of energy” only so that I have the possibility to attract a female to my home so that I may not be alone anymore, is a game/pattern of deception that I maintain within and as myself because of deceiving others as myself within the projection of myself as being of “high energy” which is ultimately false as I normally am calm and stable within and as myself when I am alone with myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise the pattern that I keep on participating within as the cycle of “high energy as forced happiness” turning into “low energy as forced depression” and then going back to “high  energy as forced happiness” only to return to “low energy as forced depression”, going on and on and on as cycles in my mind that I accept and allow myself to participate in because of the subconscious driven desire to attract a female back to my home, even if I know of the low chance of me succeeding, wherein I press the “reset” button every time a new opportunity of attracting a female to my home presents itself to me, because of the hopes that “this time will be the good one” even if my life has proven to me that “this time will be the good one” almost never happens. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to not realise that all of this is a pattern that I have enclosed myself within and as the mind as a pattern of self-abuse that I keep on participating in because of the desires/hopes that I will eventually find someone to share my life with, within which I would deliberately manipulate myself and others as myself from within so as to project the best image of myself as possible so that others may feel good about themselves when within my company, only to realise over and over and over again, that it was all for naught as I almost never get anything in return for the burning of my energies engineered to attract others to myself, whereas at the end of the day, I always find myself back alone with myself with no one to share my existence with in intimacy – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be self-intimate with myself, through self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to with self-intimacy, be able to take back the control of my life and stop being manipulated by the games of the mind that I know of being all for naught.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from entertaining others as myself through me projecting a false image of myself as that of having “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others, while I would always experience myself as the direct opposite of that projection as soon as I would be back and alone with myself, whereas the negative energy as depression would always be experienced in full force every time I would be back and alone with myself – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/understand/realise the futility in me participating in such games of energy with others, through me being self-honest with myself through the time and time again realisation that I do this for nothing in return, whereas I only get nothing in return of all of my expenses/burning of myself/physicality to “please” others. I forgive myself that I  haven’t accepted and allowed myself to listen to common sense through me stopping such destructive/abusive behaviours to and towards myself through me stopping projecting myself as “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others because of the constant realisation that I do all of this for nothing as I only burn myself/physicality for an energetic experience that never comes.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that as soon as I participate within feelings of high energy/positivity/happiness when with the company of others, that I automatically generate the feelings of low energy/negativity/depression when with the company of myself alone – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I absolutely do not want to experience myself as low energy/depression/negativity and that the only way to stop me from experimenting myself as low energy/depression/negativity is through me stopping my participation within high energy/happiness/positivity when with the company of others.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of polarity as the projection of myself as high energy/positivity when with the company of others, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “low energy/negativity/depression” when back alone with the company of myself, which I absolutely do not want to experience any more.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to use energy to control others” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to live experiences of high energy”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring experimenting feelings of high energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to controls others, wherein I would use the energies within my mind in order to control how others would perceive me, as I was able to attain levels of energies which were extreme from within which my “presence” alone would be able to mesmerise others!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind’s energies in order to control others as myself, as through me experimenting high levels of energy as high positivity, I would at the same time control the levels of energies that others as myself would “feel”\experience within themselves as they mirrored my own, wherein the levels of energies I would be experimenting within myself within that time as high energy/positivity, would be enough to modify the levels of energies within those who contacted me, as they would thus reflect within themselves, the “high energy/high positivity” that was “my own” – Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/perceive that the “high levels of energy/positivity” that I experienced within myself within those “special” occasions were my own, wherein I would experience the levels of high energy within myself after having “moved myself” as energy from within the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define those experiences of me experimenting/living high levels of energy as being “special” within which I would “place upon a pedestal” the “experiences of high energy/positivity” because of perceiving the experience of me living out extreme levels of high energy, as being the “goal” of my life, as the “goal” upon which all other achievements are measured.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as my potential, as being equal and one with the experiences of “high energy/positivity”, instead of realising that my “potential” is not something to attain, as some “special” energy which propulses me within spheres of “high consciousness”, but that my potential as Equal as One as LIFE as physicality, is already HERE – all that I have to do, is to stop being “there” as the mind as that which I experience whenever I ride the waves of “high energy/positivity” and use the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application to stop my participation in such patterns of enslavement to energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind as energy to control others through me exerting myself as my mind as high energy to others as myself, wherein I would deliberately participate within sessions of meditation where I would specifically exercise my mind to perform such “acts of control”, as I began to be aware after experimenting such a high for the first time, that I was able to manipulate the behaviours of others through changing my own – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have wanted/desired to control others through the energies of my mind, wherein I would deliberately “play” with the energies within my mind, in order to attain “high levels of energy” as I was addicted to the experience after the first time where I experienced such a degree of level of high energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mermerised in front of the experience of me living out “high levels of energy” for the “first time”, wherein I would be so high within the energies within my mind, that I would be mesmorised by what was always busy occuring in front of me as the flow of time as now.

To be continued tomorrow…

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to use energy to control others” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to live experiences of high energy”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring experimenting feelings of high energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use substances such as drugs, alcohol and sugar because of the desire/need/want to experience myself as being “more than” who I am as an energetic entity/experience of “positivity”, instead of realising that the experiences gained from the intake of such substances are completely illusionary and that nothing coming from those experiences is real, because of only happening within the confines of my mind – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within polarity as the mind and that I have used such experiences as definitions of who I am. I now see, understand and realise that the energetic expressions of myself as the positive experiences coming from the accumulation and discharge of the “positive energy” coming from the intake of such substances, are illusionary and only keep me enslaved within and as the mind, instead of releasing myself from such addictions of the mind, and return HERE as the physical within and as the BREATH as who I truly am within self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my physical body through me not considering the quality of the food that I take, whereas I regularly eat fast food and food which are not of high quality which often results in physical feelings of being nauseated, wherein I would discard such warnings of my physical body and continue eating that which my body is directly telling me as being offensive to my system, because of only being interested in the experience of eating food which makes my mind “feel good”, not considering the input of my physical body which is clearly showing me the mistake that I make in eating such foods through the pains and nausea that I often experience after eating such poor quality foods – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the desires of my mind to experience the good feelings that comes from eating junk food, wherein I would oftentimes experiment pain and nausea within and as my physical body because of having a hard time digesting those types of food, wherein I would discard those warnings and continue eating the junk food only for the purpose of satisfying my addictions as energetic highs coming from eating such food, instead of listening to the warnings that my body is giving to me through the pains and nausea that comes after eating such poor quality foods, and thus to stop myself from continuing eating those foods because of clearly not being best for my physical body.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that my physical body is the only one who knows what is good for my body, and that what the television, adds, publicities and media tells me as that which is good for my physical body is mostly bullshit because of only being interested in self-interest as the profits it seeks to gain from the gullible human beings, and that whatever those mediums are telling me as being good for me is mostly garbage – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my authority away as that which knows what is best for me, to those who project themselves as authority figures in my world, whereas the only authority of myself is myself, as I am the only one who is always with myself and that I know what is good for my physical body simply because my body tells me what is good for me, and that whatever some media is trying to sell to me as being good for me should come second to what my body is telling me, such as stopping eating foods which hurts my physical body even if it pleases my mind, because the true author as the one “who knows” is my physical body, not my mind.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the pains that i experience within my physical body after eating too much sugar, or after eating too much junk food, is me telling me that the food I eat is not good for my physical body – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop eating whenever my body tells me that what I eat is harmfull to my physical system, wherein I would continue eating even through the physical pains because of wanting/desiring to fulfil the addiction of “sugar” or the addiction of “good feelings” that comes with eating junk food – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “good feelings” that comes with eating junk food/sugary foods is a pre-programmed design, designed by the system to keep me enslaved to the consumerism mentality, whereas I would seek to satisfy the desires to consume more and more even if that would mean to harm my physical body in the process.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to eat junk food” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to eat food which my body tells me is bad for me”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to eat junk food, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com