I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my future, because of the belief that I will have a hard time when I will be in a working environment, as I am currently unemployed and looking for a job, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine my future out of the foundation/starting point of fear – instead of stopping myself from accepting and allowing myself to participate within the fear of the mind, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from being controlled by my fears, and re-script myself so that I become the self-directive principle of me in my world, where no fear will be allowed to control me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will have a hard time when I will find myself in a working environment, because of having accepted and allowed myself to base my fears out of my past experiences as a “worker” in society – instead of realising that I am not the same person as I was when I was working in the past as I have changed through time and through the application of the “process” in my life, and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “fearing to be in a working environment”, that I am to immediately stop myself from being controlled by my fears, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the “fruit of the mind” as illusion, into becoming one and equal to who I am truly as the physical as life, where I will stop allowing myself to participate within the fear of the mind so that I become the self-directive principle of me in my world – and not my fears – so that I may become a living example for myself and others as myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being in this world, which acts within the interest of all life so as to bring about a world which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of projecting myself into the near or distant future through the lenses of fear, to immediately stop myself from entertaining the idea that I will experience something which I have deemed as being negative, through the realisation that I have in fact changed since the last time I worked, and that if I am to see myself live experiences that are akin to those that have formed the belief that I “fear my immediate or distant future”, that I am to immediately stop myself from further reinforcing the belief within me, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application – so as to change the patterns that I have accepted and allowed myself to be equal to as the mind, and re-birth myself as life as the physical where no fears exists, but only the self-directive principle as me in my world, so as to be able to ACT according to the principle of oneness and equality, so as to bring about a world which is best for all life in this world.

 

I commit myself to actually write daily in my blog so as to reinforce the patterns of change that I want to instil into me, through the constant and continuous daily use of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, and stop making self-commitment statements that I am not committed into making through the actual application of “small” self-commitment statements that I am actually able to commit myself to.

 

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Yesterday, before I started writing my blog concerning the pattern that I have programmed into myself as the pattern of “finding the exact word”, I wanted firstly to write about the concept of “time” and how “time” has been programmed into me through my daily participation within “time” as perceived through the lenses of the mind, but I went for the point of “finding the exact word” because that was the point which ressurfaced at the moment. This “concern of time” has been playing out particularly within me for the last few months, where I frequently find myself mesmerised at the speed at which time passes away – seemingly being now “faster” than what it was when I was younger. Through this, many factors comes into play where I find myself being manipulated by my own acceptances and allowances as time such as “how long do I have to write today” and “how much time will it take for me to be able to finish my daily blog”.

The concept of time and the pressure to attain a specific “dead””line” for the completion of a specific work/task has been playing within and as myself from the microcospic to the macrocospic levels. What I mean by that is that “time” within the macrocospic levels has been playing out within my mind as a “concern for what my future holds” and that “time” within the microcospic levels has been playing out within my mind as a “concern for completing a task before a specific “dead””line” that I set out for myself. As an example in order to display this pattern within the microcospic levels, whenever I am at the begenning of a written document, or more specifically when I am at the beginning of my daily blogs, I always firstly ask myself if I will have the “time” to complete the projected task of writing before a specific “dead””line” such as the next hour or before the start of a particular program on television. What this concern has brought within my daily participation in writing myself to freedom through my blog is that I often find myself looking at the time, let say at 20 minutes intervals, so as to see if I am near or far from the specific “dead””line” that I have set out for myself at the start or prior to the start of writing my document/blog. This pattern of “constantly looking at the time” generates blocages within my attempt to fluently “write myself out”, as the pauses that I take in order to look at the time, often brings me to states of mind where I am out of focus and thus lose the train of thought that I was busy exposing prior to the moment I looked at the clock.

Thus today I want to look more specifically at the concept of time and how it affects me in my daily activities.

Self-forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with the amount of time a task takes before reaching completion.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with the amount of time it takes before a task is completed not realising that this “concern of time” pushes me as the mind to works which are half-assed rather than being fully realised through a full investment of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the mind control me through me letting the pressure of attaining a speficif “dead”line” affect me throughout my works.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise that a “deadline” invites the thought of “death” as the concept of reaching an “end” that knows no future thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown as the future through me letting myself be controlled and manipulated by a “dead””line” which evokes the concept of “death” as a “fear-controlled mechanism” in order for me to obey the orders set out by the “deadline” without question.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to obey the “deadlines” that I set out for myself as authoritative orders that I set out for myself through and as the mind because of the fear of not obeying to specific orders that evokes the same subconscious reactions as that of facing “death” through the fear of “what will happen next for myself if I do not follow the orders” given to me by the deadline.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to reach a deadline because of the fear I have of the authoritative figures in my world which have pressured me to complete a specific task in my past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by my past through me following the thought of the authoritative figures in my life which have given me deadlines in the past and through this, be manipulated by the thoughts of the dire consequences of the deadlines that I did not met.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with time, such as the time it takes for me to complete a specific task, and through this, lose the unconditional expression of me as life as the physical HERE because of placing my attention as the I of the mind to the time it will take me to complete a given task, rather than the experience within and of itself as an opportunity to express myself fully HERE as who and what I am as the physical, equal and one as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself be pressured by the amount of time it takes for me to complete a specific task, not realising that the pressure that I generate within myself in order that the goal is reached is in fact keeping me locked within the mind as a bubble which will only burst when the “deadline” will be met.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that a “deadline” is a “bubble” that I lock myself into, which will only “burst” when I will have attained the specific perimeters of the bubble as the “deadline” that was set out before the beginning of the task – thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lock myself into a bubble which separates me from the world as the physical whenever I am concerned with a specific “deadline” of some sorts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned by what my future holds, as the macrocospic levels of time that plays out within and as me as the mind, which removes me from that which i can apply HERE, one and equal as the physical so that real CHANGE can be made possible.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the pattern of being concerned with “time” generates blockages within the flow of my expression, thereby inviting the ego of the mind to interfere with what I am doing/writing/saying at a given time rather than remaining stable HERE as self and letting the words/actions/expressions come out naturally without any concern with “time” as an object of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “bring me out of focus” whenever I look at the clock in order to verify the “time” and the amount of “time” left or done regarding a specific task at hand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let “time” influence my ability to express myself through the insertion of “spaces of comparison” within my mind whenever I look at “time” in relation to a specific task at hand, such as writing.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that time acts as a “space of comparison” within which I lose myself, for a moment, within an empty space which is enough to bring me out of focus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose my focus whenever I look at time in relation to a specific task at hand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive time as an “empty space of comparison” from within which I lose myself within emptiness, for a moment, where I am on the lookout for comparisons as thoughts/ideas which are as vacuous as the mind itself, rather than stopping the comparison game within and as the concept of time through me remaining HERE stable as the breath.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “concern of time” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of fear as “Do I have enough time to reach the deadline”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the fear arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the fear game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in fear as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “fear of taking too much time” and from blaming myself and others as “giving me the deadline”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

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A few days ago, I was at my friend’s house watching a playoff hockey game. Although I wasn’t found of the two teams who were battling it out, I found myself surprised at feeling anxiety for a specific team. I felt especially anxious when the opposing team were menacing the goalie of the home team – within which I found myself rooting for the opposing team because of grudges that I maintained for the home team. I did not like the home team primarily because of the lack of support the team have from its home fans. When watching a hockey game that doesn’t feature my home team, the personal benchmark that mostly determines if I will root for a team or not remains the amount of support the team has from its home fan base. As an example, if the arena of the home team remains mostly empty, I do not root for the team whereas if the arena is full or near being full, I root for the home team because I then see that the team has the support from its home fan base.

The reason why I always root for the team, other than my home team, which has the most support from its fan base is because hockey as a sport isn`t doing that well in the united states, as opposed to other team sports like baseball. Being from Canada and having always rooted for hockey as a sport in general, I want it to succeed in the United States. The fact that hockey isn’t amongst the top 5 sports in the United States is a bit of a letdown for me, because I see hockey as being a great team sports, mostly because I have been living in a culture that has a rather religious relationship with hockey. To me, when I see an American arena filled with fans while attending an hockey game makes me feel good inside. The opposite is also true when I see an American arena filled with empty seats when an hockey game is played. The reason why I felt anxious when the home team were menacing to the visiting team while watching the hockey game a few days ago, was because the home team lacked in support from it’s fan base as there were many empty seats while the game went on.

Thus, I felt anxious when the home team was in attack mode. This feeling of anxiety while watching an hockey game on T.V. has been with me for most of my life and it is now the time to look further into it through the process of self-forgiveness and self-correct myself in order to stop participating in the mind as the manifestation of anxiety when I watch an hockey game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel anxious when watching an hockey game on television.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel anxious when watching an hockey game on T.V. because of the grudges that I maintain within the silences of my mind towards a specific team in general.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to maintain grudges towards the specific teams for which the home fan base do not show its appreciation towards its team.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to concern myself with petty little things such as the amount of fans a team is able to have in it’s home arena while playing the sport of hockey.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to despise the teams that plays in front of almost empty arenas because of the apparent lack of interest towards hockey by the home team fan base.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel affected by the successes or failures of hockey franchises according to the amount or lack of fan support for the home team.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the reason why I feel affected by the successes or failures of a hockey franchise comes from me projecting myself as my own wishes and desires towards a team that I place my attention upon.

I forgive myself that I
haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the feeling of happiness that comes whenever I see a hockey team being successful within its home fan base is directly related to the happiness that I feel whenever I succeed in whatever field of interest or endeavour of mine.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the feeling of sadness that comes whenever I see a hockey team being unsuccessful within its home fan base is directly related to the sadness that I feel/experience whenever I fail in whatever field of interest of endeavour of mine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my attention on sports rather than on the real problems of this world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the existence of sports is mostly interesting to the rulers of the world and it’s current system because of the diversion that it creates within the global population – within which people prefer placing their attention on petty little games rather than placing our attention on the greater problems of this world, so that we can resolve them once and for all.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the rulers of this world only wants us to be as entertained as possible – throughout sports and the entertainment industry in general – so that we become oblivious to the sufferings in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the entertainment industry while watching sports in television and thus continue on with the abuse in this world as my attention is brought elsewhere than where it has to be in order that we can fix the problems of this world so that the abuse of life may stop once and for all, one and equal as life.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of anxiety of ‘watching an hockey game on tv’, I stop, breathe, see if I have missed an opportunity to self correct into Oneness and Equality from which the anxiety arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the anxiety and self correct, if not I stop, self forgive my participation in anxiety as an automated response to a pattern of self Abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “winners and losers” and from judging myself and others as ‘winners or losers’, through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of Illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every Living Being.

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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Desteni.org

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