I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value into my physical appearance, especially my facial appearance, whereas I spend enormous amounts of time looking at my mirror reflection just so that I can make sure that I look good enough to be presentable – all the while worrying about how others would perceive me and thus making sure that I won’t be judged negatively by others – instead of stopping my participation within worrying about how others perceive me, through me simply allowing myself to breathe and remain stable as who I am here as an expression of life rather than as a picture presentation of life, which is subject to be judged by others as myself – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the fear I have of other’s judgments against me are my own judgments that I maintain against myself within the secret mind – where I worry about others discovering the “bad angles” of my picture presentation of myself, instead of remaining stable HERE within and as the physical through breathing through those feelings of worrying so as to stop all participation within the movements of the mind as worrying, and focus myself as who I am HERE within and as each moment of breath as life as who I am HERE within self-honesty.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about my facial appearance, especially the “bad angles” that I have defined as some of the angles to which I may be perceived by others, as I constantly and continuously worry about being seen by another as myself, through the angles that I have judged as being “bad” for me, whereas I perceive myself as being “less than myself” when seen through those angles thus becoming unstable as the feeling of insecurity overwhelms me, instead of stopping my participation within the feelings of insecurity which I have associated with the “bad angles” of my facial appearance, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop myself from moving within my mind within feelings and emotions, and start moving as the physical as life so as to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feelings of insecurity that I allow to overwhelm me when I worry about being perceived through the “bad angles” of my facial appearance/presentation, whereas I churn within my mind within the fear of being perceived by others as myself as being “ugly”, from within which I become “less than myself” through the generation of negative emotions/energy which locks me into the insecurity feelings, rather than me taking a stand within and as myself and stop my participation within feelings/emotions/energy in relation to how I am or may be perceived by others, so as to release myself from the mind, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, and finally express myself as who I am HERE within and as stability as the self-honesty expression of who I am here as life as the physical as all as one as equal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within negative energy through me participating within the idea that I am “ugly” when seen through specific angles, instead of me stopping myself from participating within negativity as a polar manifestation of the mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to bring myself back HERE as who I truly am as the physical as life as the unconditional expression of who I truly am, rather than limiting my expression to the limits and illusions of the mind to which I participate in whenever I allow myself to participate within the generation of negative energy such as the feeling of insecurity which is manifested when I perceive myself as being “ugly”.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within positive energy through me participating within the idea that I am “pretty” when seen through specific angles, instead of me stopping myself from participating within positivity as a polar manifestation of the mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to bring myself back HERE as who I truly am as the physical as life as the unconditional expression of who I truly am, rather than limiting my expression to the limits and illusions of the mind to which I participate in whenever I allow myself to participate within the generation of positive energy such as the feeling of security which is manifested when I perceive myself as being “pretty”.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity of the mind, through me allowing myself to participate within negative energy when I am seen or when I perceive myself as being “ugly”, and through me allowing myself to participate within positive energy when I am seen or when I perceive myself as being “pretty”, instead of stopping myself from separating myself within the polarity of the mind, through stopping all of my participation within energy through the simple tools of breathing so as to stop my focus within energy as the mind, and re-focus myself to who I am HERE within and as the physical as life as who I truly am so as to finally express myself as Life as the unconditional expression of who I truly am as all as one as equal as the physical as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that who I am is determined by how I look, whereas I have spent enormous amounts of time defining myself according to how I look or to the picture presentation of myself, having thus spent and participated within tremendous amounts of energy where I have fuelled and energised myself towards and within the thought of the picture presentation of myself, rather than stopping my participation within the properties of the mind, through me applying the simple tool of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to relieve me from the mind and return to who I truly am HERE as the physical as life as all as one as equal.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within energy, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “worrying about my appearance” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “worrying about my facial appearance”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “worrying about my appearance”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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