I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel different than those my age group because of not having what those my age group generally have/possess, as I do not have a job or a girlfriend or a personal family, wherein I thus separate myself from those my age group because of seeing myself as being different within my possessions in relation to what those my age group generally possess, instead of realising that that feeling of being different originate from the judgements/blame that I hold towards and within myself for not “fitting in” through me not possessing what those my age group generally possess, and thus that I can stop that feeling of being different through me stopping myself from participating within judgments/blame towards and within myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/blame myself as being inferior to those my age group because of not possessing what those my age group generally possess, such as a family and/or a job, and that from within this judgment, that I generate feelings of uneasiness within and as myself because of having accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned through the beliefs/thoughts/perception that has come from others as myself, wherein it is generally perceived that those who do not have a job or a girlfriend when reaching my age group, are generally sad and depressive people. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe/experience myself as being sad and depressive because of having subconsciously associated the fact of being alone at my age with the feelings of depression.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate feelings of negative energy within the fact/act of being alone, such as not having a girlfriend/family at my age group, instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within those feelings of negative energy within the fact/act of being alone at my age group, that I thus automatically generate feelings of positive energy that automatically emerges within the depths of me when I do have a girlfriend and/or family, which makes me thus a slave to the energies of the mind through me being directed/controlled by the emotions/feelings within and as my mind, instead of stopping such separation and becoming the self-directive principle of me in my life through me stopping my participation within energies as the mind through the tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate feelings of positive energy within the fact/act of being with someone, such as having a girlfriend and/or family, wherein those feelings of positive energy fuels my addiction to energy and thus only furthers my separation within and as the energy as the mind, instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within those feelings of positive energy within the idea/projection of myself being with a girlfriend/family, that I thus automatically generate feelings of negative energy that automatically emerges within the depths of me when I do not have a girlfriend and/or family, which makes me thus a slave to the energies of the mind through me being directed/controlled by the emotions/feelings within and as my mind, instead of stopping such separation and becoming the self-directive principle of me in my life through me stopping my participation within energies as the mind through the tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the games of the mind, such as the games of superiority and inferiority, through me comparing myself with the adults my age group – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the game of comparison with those my age group, wherein I would compare physical attributes and possessions between me and those my age group so as to “identify” my position within a spectrum of “good or bad” wherein I would judge myself as being “good” when I have “more than” what another person from my age group possess, and where I would judge myself as being “bad” when I have “less than” what another person from my age group possess – instead of stopping such participation within the polarity of the mind through the tools of self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my interpretation/appreciation of myself on the possessions that I have or do not have, wherein I experience positive energy within and as myself whenever I have possessions that are perceived as being positive within one’s life at my age and where I experience negative energy within and as myself whenever I do not have what is perceived as being positive within one’s life at my age.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be content within and as myself as I continuously seek to be with someone in order to generate the experience/feeling of contentment within and as myself, instead of realising that who I am as life as the physical is naturally content, not needing anyone to complete what is naturally complete within and as myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so extensively controlled by my mind, that I only feel content when I am with another. I now see/understand and realise that this natural contentment comes from and through the tools of self-investigation, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to release myself from the cultural conditioning from within which I have placed conditions to the experience of myself as being content, so as to release my natural inborn contentment of being who I am and thus express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind polarity such as the game of “haves” and “have not”, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as games of comparison, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling depressed because of being alone” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of being rejected by those my age group, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of loneliness, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people like me more when I am happy, wherein I would deliberately manipulate my behaviour so that I would project an image of myself as that of being happy, while being dishonest through feeling otherwise within myself, instead of realising that I am not here to make others feel better about themselves through me projecting an image of being happy, but that I am HERE to express who I am unconditionally within self-honesty so that the results of my actions would benefit all and everyone as that which is best for all life, is best for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek/desire/want others to feel better about themselves through me manipulating my expression so that I would project “high energy as myself” towards others, instead of realising the dishonesty in such expression as the expression would only be made existent in order to manipulate the feelings of others so that they could feel happy about themselves – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play with the feelings of others through me exerting myself as having “high energy”, because of the desire to see others as being happy around me, even if that would mean the suppression of the self-honest expression as myself because of being manipulated by my wants/needs/desires to make others feel happy about themselves, rather than expressing myself as who I am HERE in self-honesty – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that whenever I express myself within “high energy”, that I am expressing myself as being “superior” to another which I then silently within backchat perceive as being “inferior” to myself, from within which I suppress the feeling of inferiority within myself so as to project the image of superiority towards another, instead of stopping such participation of “superiority” and “inferiority” within myself, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others like me more when I am within the state of being manic, as the state I am in whenever I feel an excessive amount of energy within and as myself within a specific moment of self-expression, through me acting and behaving excessively within the presence of others, wherein I would exaggerate the meaning of what I would be expressing within the energetic flux and flow of my expression, instead of acting and behaving in accordance to who I am within and as stability, as the consequence of me remaining stable within and as the BREATH so that my expression becomes that of life, so that the words I speak and the expression of myself remains unhindered by energetic sub currents such as the energy that I am usually possessed of when I am within a state of manic/high energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people like me more when I have high energy, where I would take substances such as coffee only so that my expression becomes more energetic, wherein I would feel more confident about myself through communicating with another only if I would experience myself as having “high energy” such as the energy which is present within myself when I take substances such as coffee or sugar – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate my expression so that it would carry an high amount of energy, so as to feel as being in control of the situation through the confidence that the “high energy” brings into me, instead of realising that whenever I act in accordance with my desires to express myself through “high energy”, that I reinforce the accepted and allowed participation within my mind, such as the accepted and allowed participation within friction as spite/blame as the energetic origins of my expression, instead of stopping such expression of myself as they are games of the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for all as what is best for all is best for me, One and Equal.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am is not a being of energy, which is contrary to what I started believing in when I first discovered spirituality 12 years ago, but that who I am is the being as the physical as life, Equal and One with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel more confident within myself whenever I express myself through the flux and flow of “high energy”, because of the learned behaviour/belief that I only have a short amount of time to express myself whenever I am within the flux and flow of a conversation with another being, wherein I would force myself to express as much as I could within a “short time span” – because of the belief/perception that others would only allow/grant me a “short amount of time for my self-expression within a given conversation”, where I would “cram” as much information as I could within the perceived “window of opportunity” as the “short time span” that I perceived I was allowed to express myself within a given conversation – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “talk as fast as I could” and thus to “expense as much energy as I could” whenever I had the opportunity to express myself within the perceived “window of opportunity” that I believed others would grant me within a conversation, instead of realising that the act of me “talking as fast as I can” is the act of talking without awareness of who I am/was within the HERE moment, and thus, that I was dishonest within my expression – only expressing myself so that I could give out as much knowledge and information and energy as possible within a short time span, while remaining oblivious to the expression of myself within the HERE moment, which is/was a dishonest expression of who I really am HERE as the BREATH – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that knowledge and information without practical application is useless and thus, that my self-expression within and as knowledge and information only is useless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk as fast as I can when I have an opportunity to talk within the span of a conversation with another being, because of the perception that I only have a short amount of time to express myself when within a conversation with another being, because of the imprinted programming that I have accepted and allowed within and as myself as that of not being considered by others when within a conversation – unless my expression is swift/fast enough so that I could/can take the “window of opportunity” within a given conversation, so as to make my expression heard by others – instead of realising that who I am as an honest expression of myself, is not an expression of “swiftness” but is an expression of stability as calmness as who I am HERE within and as the BREATH within and as every moment in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately manipulate my expression when I am with the company of another, so that I would be perceived as having a lot of energy, because of the belief/perception/illusion that others only like/appreciate/love me when and if I express myself through the filters of “high energy” or happiness – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that whenever I allow myself to be manipulated by energy through the desire to have others like/appreciate/love me, that I accept and allow myself to participate within the polarities of the mind and the games of winners and losers wherein I would project myself as being a “winner” through the association/relationship/belief that only “winners” have “high energy” as “positivity” and that only “losers” have “low energy” as “negativity” – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that in order for me to express myself as a winner as “having high energy”, that I have to simultaneously suppress myself as a loser as “having low energy”, wherein that suppression as the “loser” as “having low energy” as myself will always return to my consciousness within another moment, thus making me manipulated by my emotions because of through me accepting and allowing myself to be the “winner as having high energy”, I also simultaneously accept and allow myself to be the “loser as having low energy”, wherein the “loser” will ultimately end up expressing itself as myself within another moment, as soon as I allow myself to express the “winner” as myself – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me expressing myself as the “winner” as the one “having high energy”, that I will automatically express myself as being the “loser” as the one “having low energy” within another moment as myself, instead of stopping such participation within the polarities of the mind through me returning to myself HERE within and as the BREATH, as the self-honest expression of who I am within any given moment.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire of making others happy” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “I need to make others feel happy about themselves so that I could feel happy about myself”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to make others feel happy about themselves through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

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Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I do not have hair, that people will find me ugly and will reject me, wherein I would feel bad/depressed about myself because of the accepted and allowed relationship with others, within which I have programmed myself to be defined by what others think of me, rather than realising that who I am is not to be influenced/defined by another’s perspective of me, but that within the principle of oneness and equality as who I really am, that I am the self-directive principle of me in my world, whereas I direct me within my world within self-honesty, from within which I do not accept and allow myself to be defined/influenced by what others think of me – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad/depressed when another judges me as being ugly and thus rejects me, instead of realising that it is me who judges and rejects me through my acceptances and allowances in regards to the power/influence that another has upon me instead of releasing that power and giving it back to myself within self-investigation through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be the self-directive principle of me in my world, through me being influenced by what others think of me, instead of realising that what I allow within myself when another judges me is my own reactions as judgments/spite/blame that I hold against myself – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within myself when another judges me – within which the reaction only shows me that I am still judging me as being “inferior” to another, thus still participating within the games of the mind as polarity, instead of releasing myself from this game of the mind from within which I do not want to engage any more, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others will think of me if I am to be seen without my hat, wherein I would fear others judging me as being “less than them” because of apparently being perceived as being “ugly” without my hat – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being ugly without my hat, thus perceiving myself as being “less than another” because of the values that I still have regarding my physical appearance as the picture presentation of myself that I project unto others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me perceiving myself as being “less than another” because of not having or losing my hair, that I show myself that I still participate within the polarities of the mind that I no longer want to engage in – within which I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within “superiority”, that I immidietaly invite the opposite polarity of “inferiority” within me, thus generating a battle within me between the two polarities of “superiority” and “inferiority” from within which I would do all in my power to supress the polarity of “inferiority”, not realising that the more that I supress the feeling of “inferiority” within me, the more I give power and control to those who want to control me – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me allowing myself to participate within games of polarities of the mind, such as superiority and inferiority, that I become a puppet which can easily be manipulated by the elite/those who are in power in order to be controlled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that no one would want to be with my company if I do not have hair any longer, because of the imprinted impression that I programmed into my being from within my teenage years, where I would deliberately think, over and over and over again, that I would rather be dead than not having any more hair, because of the fear that I had of showing myself without hair to cover the big forehead that I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the “big” forehead that I have is to be forever hidden from the sights of another, because of the stigma that have been imprinted within me from my formative years, where I was regularly teased, ridiculed and rejected because of being judged as being “less than the cool ones” because of my physical appearance – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to love me for who I am as an unconditionnal expression of myself as life, instead of seeking to “love me” according to the limited conditions of what “love” is culturally defined as, such as the conditions of being loved only if physically attractive to the opposite sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the love I have of myself through the interactions that I have with the opposite sex, wherein I would define myself as being loved and loveable and thus experiencing the feeling of love within myself, only if I would be loved/cared for by a member of the opposite sex, instead of realising that real love is yet to be existent within this world, and that the love I have for myself is not to be defined by another, but to be made real through self-investigation as writing, self-forgiveness and self-correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the gaze of another when I am seen without my “protective hat”, because of the fear I have of seeing the same disgust that I have against myself, through self-hate/spite and blame, when I look at myself in the mirror – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the game of comparison whenever I look at myself in the mirror, within which I would deliberately compare my picture presentation to that of another being perceived as superior or inferior to myself at a given moment of comparison – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I play the game of comparison whenever I look at myself in the mirror, whereas the only reason why I would feel bad about my image is because of my accepted and allowed participation within comparison, instead of realsing myself from such a game of the mind through stopping my participation within comparison, and that as soon as I see/perceive myself as participating within comparison through me experiencing highs or lows when I look at myself in the mirror, that I immediately stop, BREATHE, realise that it is a game of the mind I no longer want to engage in and apply self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application through writing or through saying it out loud until the point gets released from within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed because of having just cut my hair short, which was long before and where I had received positive remarks from others, wherein I now feel depressed because of not finding the way I look as “beautifull” as it was when my hair was longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being not as beautifull as I was when I had longer hair, wherein I now judge myself as being less attractive as I was prior to the time when I cut my hair, remembering the bad remarks/judgments from  others that I had when my hair was shorter – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fell “less than who I was when I had long hair” because of the judgment that I make towards my physical appearance as being “less attractive” than what it was when my hair was longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate breauty with long hear, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate “ugly” with short hair – wherein I now feel myself as being “uglier” than what I was when I had longer hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people will find me less attractive now that I have short hair, instead of realising that what I fear is not the judgments of others towards myself, but my own judgment as the feeling of “inferiority” within having short hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value my physical appearance, such as having long hair, as being more important than the value I have towards life, instead of valuing life as being of the utmost importance as the greatest value one can have – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value long hair as being more important than the value of life.

I forgive myself that I  have accepted and allowed myself to fear going out with a girlfriend because of the belief that she will find me ugly now that I have short hair, as I felt more confident within myself when I had longer hair than when I have shorter hair – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the feeling of “confidence” that I experienced within and as myself when I had longer hair, was a feeling that was the result of my accepted and allowed participation within polarity of the mind, as I then associated confidence with “superiority” towards how I look in comparison to the “past images” of myself and where the “past images of myself” as the images of me with short hair, was perceived as the “inferiority” point within myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, now that I have short hair, judge me as being less than who I was when I had long hair because of the negative remarks that I got from others when I had short hair as opposed to the positive remarks that I had from others when I had long hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the fact of having short hair as the inferiority point within myself, within the comparison of myself as the image of myself within a given moment as opposed to the image of myself within a past moment, and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as being “inferior” now that I have short hair, because of the value that I have towards and within the current image of myself as being less valuable than the image that I had of myself when I had long hair – instead of realising that the utmost value that I should have is the value of life as the unconditionnal expression of myself as life as the physical. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the fact of having long hair as the superiority point within myself, whereas I would feel superior to others as myself when I had long hair, not realsing that I was then accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity of the mind, through me feeling superior when I had long hair as opposed to feeling inferior when I  had short hair – and now that I have short hair, that I feel “less than” who I was when I had long hair, because the polarity game that I unconsciously played when I had long hair – as the game of perceiving myself superior to what I was when I had short hair – now became all of a sudden conscious, as the judgments that ressurfaced after I had finished cutting my hair short.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge me according to how I look physically, from within which I would silently judge myself instead of releasing myself from such judgments, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the game of judgments that I silently played within and as my mind were automated through unconscious addictions of playing the games of energy where I experienced myself as having more positive energy when I had long hair than the negative energy that I experienced when I had short hair. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was participating within games of energies when I looked at myself in the mirror when I had long hair as opposed to when I looked at myself in the mirror when I had short hair, instead of stopping such participation within the polarities of the mind through stopping such participation with BREATHING, the tools of self-forgiveness, self-corrective application, writing and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to built self-trust and self-love within and as myself, which are not dependant on what others judge me as being, but which is only dependant on my honest expression of myself, and that if my expression is not honest, to apply the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application so that my self-trust and self-love is internally driven rather than externally dependant.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “fair of losing my hair” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of fear as the thought of “I am losing my hair”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the fear arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the fear game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in fear as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about fearing losing my hair through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the fear of judgment and stop judgment within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I do not feel anything special within myself as a point to consider writing about within self-forgiveness, that I have nothing to write about, that I have nothing to face within and as myself, instead of realising that as soon as I place myself HERE within and as the moment, that points naturally emerges within and as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be/become as the mind – such as the point that I am currently facing of thinking/believing/feeling that I have hit a wall within my daily self-forgiveness application because of having difficulties in recognizing what I am currently facing as a point within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider not writing today because of not feeling/sensing/perceiving a specific point to write about within my daily self-forgiveness application, instead of realising that the very act of thinking about not having a point to write about within my daily self-forgiveness application, is a point within and as myself as what I have accepted to be/become as the mind – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the very reason why I do not specifically think of a point to face/consider/write about is because of my accepted and allowed participation within laziness, where I have accepted and allowed myself to hide myself from myself-as-the-mind because of the want/need/desire that I have to perceive/believe myself as being accomplished instead of realising that I always have a new point to consider within and as myself within self-honesty – such as the current point of “hitting a wall” in my process.

I forgive myself that I haven`t accepted and allowed myself to see/understand/realise that the 7 years to life process is a process that is to be applied daily within what emerges as points within and as myself as the mind – and that as long as I have not yet completed the 7 years to life process, that I still have a lot of points to face/consider daily within writing myself to freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish the process to be over because of the difficulties i sometimes find myself in finding specific points to write about within my daily self-forgiveness application, whereas I sometimes wallow within my mind in order to find a specific point to write about, instead of realising that the very act of “wallowing within my mind to find points to consider” is a point within and as itself that is in need of attention and correction through the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself when comes the time to face a new point which seems ambiguous to me, such as the point of “hitting a wall” that I am currently facing within and as myself, instead of realising that the very ambiguosity that I experience is a point to consider within writing myself to freedom, through the application of the tools given by Desteni of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application which helps me build self-trust, self-intimacy and self-love which are the basic foundations upon which CHANGE will become REAL.

i forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to trust myself within the process of finding points to write about, wherein I would go and have a look at what other Destonians have written in their blog so as to give me external inspiration, instead of trusting whatever is occuring within and as myself internally, within a given moment, as points that are asking for self-correction through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the state of mind I am in within any given moment, is an ambiguous point which can be transformed into a specific point to consider writing about within the tools of writing myself to freedom through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application – within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worship ambiguosity/vagueness as being the nature of me, wherein I would deliberately define my beingness as something which is ambigous and vague because of having associated myself within my past, as being the very essence of the present moment which can never be defined within an absolute definition because of the very nature of the present as being always CHANGING, within which a specific definition can never be true because of the fact that as soon as I define a moment to be as such, the next moment will bring about a new perspective/definition that will force myself to redefine the present – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that within the act of redefining the moment, from within the perspective of the present moment as never being alike the previous moment, exists new specific points to consider as the new and ever changing definition of the present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continuously look at the number of words I express through the application of writing myself to freedom, so as to verify/judge if my application is good enough to be published because of having associated a good post as being a post which have at least 1000 words written in contrast to a bad post which is a post which has less than 1000 words written – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarities of the mind, as the game of writing a “good post” versus writing a “bad post”, where I would deliberately write “more” whenever I would write a post about a specific point that I am considering within a moment, in order that I would reach the definition of a “good post” even if I have nothing left to write about within a given moment of written application – within this, i forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am participating within the polarity games of the mind, such as the game of gaining positive energy through me attaining the self-defined definition of “being good” – such as writing a post which has at least 1000 words – versus the self-defined definition of “being bad” – such as writing a post which has less than 1000 words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the “number of words written game” when writing posts about my process or when writing about any other subject that I desire, because of having been imprinted/conditionned throughout my formative years – school years – to reach a specific number of words per document so as to make my documents valid as an accepted evaluation by my teachers, which is the act of writing in self-dishonesty because of wanting to write only to reach a specific number of words, rather than writing from the starting point of self-honesty through me writing about what is relevant to any given point/subject which is being faced and sticking to the relevancy of what is written alone, instead of writing only to fill the empty spaces with irrelevant words – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to “re-program” my impressions/conditionnings concerning the act of writing within itself, through the application of the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to REDEFINE who I am within the act/application of writing so that it becomes the unconditionnal expression of myself as myself, where the number of words written becomes irrelevant and where the expression of myself as self-honesty as what is relecant becomes the only relevant aspect to consider.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become an example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “hitting a wall” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that I always have a point to self-forgive myself about and that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of doubt as the thought of “I don’t know what to write about”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the doubt arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the doubt game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in doubt as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about doubting myself through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the fear of judgment and stop judgment within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

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Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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