I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone with myself in the near future, because of the fact that the couple who are currently living with me, will leave my apartment in about a week or so, which will make it so that I will find myself alone again – after having spent the last month in their company because of having offered my help towards them, as they were then looking for an apartment to go to because of the fact that they have been booted from the apartment where they were previously living -, wherein I fear that I will become depressed through the transitional period because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to “feel” comfortable in their company, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to nurture and “appreciate” their company while they were with me – and that now that I think about the reality of the fact that they will leave me in about a week, that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “depressed” about the idea that I will find myself alone again, whereas I have forecasted a “return” to hold habits and a “return” to a solitary way of life, which – in contrast with what I have lived when with the company of the couple – is making me “feel” depressed because of the thought that I won’t have a life which will be equally interesting as when I was living with their company – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to nurture the thoughts which are associated with what I forecast my future to be like as that of being a return to a “negative way” of living, and stop those patterns of thinking within me so that, as they arise within me, I am able to stop myself from furthering my fall within the mind through the use of breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-honesty so as to change the patterns of thoughts within me, which are only interested in protecting my own self-interests, into a pattern of thinking/acting that will be reflective of a being who is one and equal with life as the physical, so that my focus remains within where I am as HERE as life as the physical within all given moment in time, such as to become an example of what it is to be a responsible human being in this world, which actually and in fact cares for all life as one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sexual experiences with the “girl” in the couple who is currently living with me, because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain secret desires within the secret mind as she was living with me for the past month or so – where I have accepted and allowed myself to use the fact that I have seen her countless amounts of time in her underwear, to nourish and nurture the secret sexual desires within me – where I have accepted and allowed myself to fantasise about her being naked in front of me, where I would be able to touch and caress her naked body – where I would allow myself to let the sexual tensions built up within me – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to fall within the energetic tensions that built up within me as I am and was within her company, through the use of breathing so as to remind myself that all that is occurring within myself within such instances is of the mind and not me; writing so as to see myself, in writing, through the patterns and mind constructs that are at the foundation of my enslavement towards the mind and it’s patterns; self-forgiveness so as to release myself from the points of separation within me, which manifests themselves whenever I find myself in a situation where I am within the same vicinity of a girl/women that I secretly physically desire/appreciate; self-honesty so as to actually truly see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and self-corrective application so as to change myself from the patterns of the mind which only enforces my relationship to the illusions of the mind so as to change myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and rebirth myself as life as the physical, so that I will be able to stop acting within the sole perspective of the mind and it’s self-interested patterns which are responsible for the state of separation the world currently is in, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am as the physical here, so that I can be an example to all and myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being who actually cares for life on earth and does whatever it takes to bring back life as equality and oneness for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sex with the girl who is currently living with me whenever I look into her eyes, and where I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to “manipulate her” into wanting to have sex with me through the mere eye contact, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to try to manipulate my sexual energies towards her, so that I could be able to “influence her” into wanting to have sex with me — where I would project the sexual energies towards her through my imagination, within my secret mind – instead of stopping myself from attempting to secretly manipulate her into “desiring me” through the use of “mind tricks” that I have stated above – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of trying to manipulate her with my sexual energies whenever I am within a moment where I am communicating with her, that I am to immediately stop myself from furthering such a patterned behaviour within my mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to release myself from the grasp that I have accustomed myself into being subjected to whenever I find myself in a situation where I am within the company of a girl/women that I secretly desire, so that I remove the cloud which obscures my observations in order for me to remain stable here within who I truly am as the physical as life, so that I may be able to realise myself as life as who I truly am here as the physical and become an example to all and myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being who actually truly ACT within the perspective of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive the experience of me being alone with myself, as being a “negative thing”, wherein I would accept and allow myself to be manipulated by the thoughts, ideas and memories which comes to mind whenever I think about the times where I was alone with myself,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the times that I have lived while the “couple” was living with me in my apartment, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to “judge” the times spent with the “couple” as being “entertaining” thus “good”, while judging the opposing experiences, such as the experiences of me being alone with myself in my apartment as being “bad” even if that was not the case when I was living alone with myself – only because of having accepted and allowed myself to use the experiences that I have lived while living with the couple in my apartment, as a contrasting point within myself, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to “judge” the past experiences of me living alone with myself in my apartment as being “bad” even if that was not the case – instead of stopping my patterned behaviour of “judging” my experiences in contrast to other “past experiences”, only so that I may continue with my patterned abusive behaviour of labelling my experiences as being “good” or “bad” even though I am aware of the fact that it is those judgments that are responsible for my instability in life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within such a patterned behaviour of judgment, that I am to immediately stop myself from entertaining the self-abusive path where those patterns are leading me to, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from being trapped within the mind through its self-inflected patterns of abuse and enslavement which are responsible for the state of the world as it currently is, and change myself from being an irresponsible human being to being a responsible human being who actually and in fact cares for the state of the world and work/act in order to bring about a world which is best for all life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the feelings that emerged within me as I was thinking about the fact that I will probably find myself back as being alone in about a week or so, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to become “depressed” about the idea of returning to living a life of loneliness and boredom, even if that was not the case when I was living alone with myself, only because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached to the way of life that has been my own ever since the “couple” started living with me about a month or so ago – instead of stopping myself from being manipulated by the feelings within me, through the realisation that I am not my feelings, thoughts or emotions, and through the constant application of tools such as breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, so as to methodically change all the points within me which keeps me enslaved to the conditionings of the mind, and rebirth myself as life HERE as the physical, where the mind is only burdening my perception of life as who I am truly and is therefore, completely unnecessary.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging my life as being negative because of the fact that I live alone, to immediately stop myself from participating within such a destructive and abusive pattern through the use of breathing, so as to STOP myself from falling within the mind and remain here within the stability of myself as life as the physical and act in order to bring about real change in my life.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining secret sexual desires within the secret mind whenever I find myself within the company/vicinity of a woman/girl that I secretly appreciate, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to, when I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “fantasising about having sexual experiences with a girl”, change the patterned behaviour which keeps me enslaved to the mind’s constructs, and rebirth/rescript myself so as to be and become one and equal to who I truly am as life as who I am within and as the physical here.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of having my thoughts/perception of myself be influenced by the inner feelings that I have about a changing situation, immediately stop myself from participating within the thought pattern which emerges from those feelings, through – if possible – immediately going in front of my computer or finding a piece of paper and a pen in order to write about what I am currently going through, so as to see the patterns in front of myself so as to be able to remove the cloud within my mind which keeps me enslaved to patterns of enslavement and abuse of the mind, and change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application throughout my writings.

I commit myself to actually write daily in my blog so as to reinforce the patterns of change that I want to instil into me, through the constant and continuous daily use of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, and stop making self-commitment statements that I am not committed into making through the actual application of “small” self-commitment statements that I am actually able to commit myself to.

I commit myself to stop myself from making judgments about being alone as being something which is inherently negative, through the perception that I have copied from society and those that have come before me, and actually realise that I have always only been alone within myself and that there never was “another” within myself throughout all of the experiences that I have lived through in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the patterns of judging myself based on whether I am or am not alone with myself, to immediately stop myself from participating within such patterns through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a “mind program”, and re-establish life as who I truly am as the physical HERE, where no judgments or mind is necessary.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within a pattern of judgment, to immediately remind myself that such a pattern filters my perception to the point of extreme limitation where the ability to enjoy life is hampered – and to stop myself from the act of judgment through the realisation that all judgments made are only further limiting myself within my own mind, where who I am as life as the physical remains forgotten.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed because of the fact that summer is now over, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to express the feeling of depression towards that fact, because of having associated my moods with the weather, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “good” when it is sunny and warm outside, and where I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “bad” when it is dark and cold outside – instead of stopping myself from participating within those associations through me not allowing myself to participate within the mind and the secret mind as the thoughts which are triggered by the weather, and that if I am to find myself participating within those thoughts – i.e., the thoughts which are associated with the weather outside – that I am to immediately apply the tools of self-forgiveness, breathing, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change my inner reactions towards the weather outside in order that I eventually remain stable within and as myself, whatever the outside circumstances such as the weather conditions.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “good” when it is “sunny and warm outside”, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity of the mind in relation to the weather conditions, because of having associated “good times” with “warm and sunny” conditions, wherein I usually spend almost all of the “warm and sunny summer days” outside within environments that makes me “feel” good, such as a park or a forest or a field, because of the “physical pleasure” that the “warm and sunny” days effect towards my human physical body, such as the physical sensation of warmth and the physical “beauty” of “summer life” –  within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly and continuously participate within the thoughts and back chat of the mind within the internal relationship towards “warm and sunny summer days”, instead of stopping myself from constantly and continuously participate within the mind when faced with “warm and sunny summer days”, through the tools of breathing, so as to focus my attention back to who and what I am HERE, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from participating within the patterns of the mind, and rebirth myself to who I am HERE as the physical as life as all as one as equal, where no mind is necessary for me to function.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “bad” when it is “dark and cold outside”, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity of the mind in relation to the weather conditions, because of having associated “bad times” with “cold and dark” conditions, wherein I usually spend almost all of the “cold and dark autumn/winter days” inside within environments that makes me “feel” bad, such as any enclosed environment (home, mall, theatres, etc), because of the “physical pain” that the “cold and dark” days effect towards my human physical body, such as the physical sensation of coldness and the physical aspect of “autumn/winter life”, where the “seasonal cycles of death” are in full force – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly and continuously participate within the thoughts and back chat of the mind within the internal relationship towards “cold and dark autumn/winter days”, instead of stopping myself from constantly and continuously participate within the mind when faced with “cold and dark autumn/winter days”, through the tools of breathing, so as to remove my attention towards the vacuous mind and focus my attention back to who and what I am HERE as the physical, self-forgiveness so as to see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, self-honesty so as to see myself for who and what I truly am and self-corrective application so as to change and stop myself from participating within the patterns of the mind, and rebirth myself to who I am HERE as the physical as life as all as one as equal, where no mind is necessary for me to function.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the weather conditions affect my moods, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to become depressed when it is cold and dark outside, and where I have accepted and allowed myself to become happy when it is warm and sunny outside, because of having spent a lifetime associating “good experiences” with being outside in the open because of good weather conditions (warm and sunny sunlight), and having spent a lifetime associating “bad experiences” with being inside because of bad weather conditions (cold, dark, rain, snow) – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly and continuously feed the polarity of the mind through me reinforcing the “good feelings” through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the thoughts which are triggered by “good weather conditions”, and through me reinforcing the “bad feelings” through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the thoughts which are triggered by “bad weather conditions” – instead of stopping myself from participating within the polarity of the mind through me stopping myself from participating within the thoughts, feelings and emotions which are triggered by the outside weather conditions, and that if I am to find myself participating within such thoughts, feelings and emotions, that I am to immediately and consistently apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and rebirth myself to who and what I truly am here, within and as the physical as life where the realisation of being equal and one with all living beings, becomes fully realised.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wallow into depression because of the fact that it is getting darker every day, as we are approaching the winter solstice in the northern hemisphere, wherein this fact means that daylight gets shorter by the day and where darkness gets longer by the day – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the amount of daylight and darkness of a day, instead of remaining stable within and as myself HERE, without me getting into the games of the mind where the good and bad feelings are entertained, and that if I am to find myself participating within the polarity of the mind in regards to the amount of daylight or darkness that befalls upon me through the natural cycles of the seasons within the northern hemisphere, that I am thus to immediately apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and rebirth myself as who I truly am HERE within and as the physical as life, where no outside phenomenon has any power over who and what I am here as life eternal.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to stop my participation within energetically charged experiences through me, whenever I experience the movements of positive or negative energies within me, immediately stop such participations through the BREATH/BREATHING and place myself HERE within and as the physicality as me. If an opportunity to self-forgive arises, I apply self-forgiveness aloud or within myself. I remind myself that the energetically charged experience/thought/feeling/emotion is a pattern that I no longer want to participate in and as the mind.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling good or bad about the weather conditions” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “depression/happiness towards the weather conditions”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “weather affected character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to define myself as heaviness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ‘try to look’ for a ‘specific’ point within me for self-forgiveness. I forgive myself that i haven’t allowed myself to realise that ‘i am’ here as the ‘feeling’ as the ‘heaviness’ within and as me. I forgive myself that i haven’t allowed myself to ‘see myself’ as what i have accepted and allowed myself to be through the ‘feeling’ that i ‘feel’ in the here moment of breath

I forgive myself that i haven’t allowed myself to realize that ‘i am’ the feeling of heaviness

I forgive myself that i haven’t allowed myself to realize that the ‘point’ that i am looking for is ME as ‘WHO I AM’ HERE as the ‘feeling’ that i have accepted and allowed myself to be

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am the feeling of ‘heaviness’

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am the feeling of ‘lightness’

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to give power to the ‘feeling of lightness’ and that it is me that is feeling the feeling i experience as ‘lightness’. I forgive myself that i haven’t allowed myself to realize that the ‘feeling of lightness’ is a polarity equation within and as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to give power to the ‘feeling of heaviness’ and that it is me that is feeling the feeling i experience as ‘heaviness’. I forgive myself that i haven’t allowed myself to realize that the ‘feeling of heaviness’ is a polarity equation within and as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to define myself as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to participate within the polarity of the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to participate within the ego of the mind consciousness system. I am not the mind consciousness system. I am not the polarity equation of the mind. I am not the ego of the mind. I am not of the mind. I am not the mind. I am not the feeling of heaviness i experience as myself. I am not the feeling of lightness i experience as myself. I am here as breath as life; life does not equate with polarity manifestations; life does not equate with ego of the mind; life is not polar; life is not bipolar; i am life; i am one as equal as all as life as breath

I am directness

I am confidence

I am movement

I am mover

I am creator

I am self-reliant

I am self-trust

I am self-honesty

I am self-forgiveness

I am breath

I am life

I am one as equal as all as life as breath

I feel depressed tonight, so i will apply self-forgiveness accordingly

 

The depression which i experience is what i have accepted and allowed myself to experience through allowing myself to be controlled and directed by my mind. It is my mind that is depressed and wants to kill itself so that i can release myself from an existence that my mind judge as being ‘not worth it’ – and i am not the mind, so therefore, i am not depression, nor am i the desire to kill myself

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to define me as depressed

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to believe and expect to experience depression when i am alone with myself for an extended period of time

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to accept depression instead of standing up within and as the experience of depression and realizing that it is not who i am, it is of the mind, and i am not the mind – i am life, and life does not experience depression, i am not depressed

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my body only requires me as one as equal as life, and that the experience of depression is my mind wanting company other than me

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to want company of others because i do not accept being with my mind, alone, having to face the process without anyone’s help but my own self-reliance and self-trust and self-honesty

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to define depression as being too hard to stop and transcend

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be apathetic about applying myself to depression, because me as the mind really wants to stay depressed – but i am not the mind. I am here as breath as life, standing within and as my body. And i stand, i move and walk and direct me as life direct me as my body within and as this manifested world

I am here – i am always here

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be enslaved by my mind

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be controlled by my mind

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be directed by my mind

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to be influenced by my mind

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to perceive and believe that it is difficult to stop my mind, to stand up within depression and say NO I AM NOT THIS PERCEPTION, I DO NOT ALLOW IT TO CONTROL ME

I STOP all perception of depression – depression and high is a polarity manifestation of the mind, of consciousness and i am not consciousness, i am life, living awareness of me as all as one as equal, and I STAND as i am HERE in every moment of breath in every moment of me here

I walk through all, as all

I walk through the mind i direct the mind as the mind, not of the mind

I am in this world, i am within and as my body, within and as my mind, but i am not of this mind

I am not of perception i am only here as all as one as equal as life as who I AM AND I STAND UP I DIRECT ME AS ALL as one as equal here as breath in every moment

I do not accept or allow compromise

I do not accept or allow doubt

I do not accept or allow hesitation

I do not accept or allow procrastination

I do not accept or allow myself to slip into the mind when bored

I give myself permission to remain here in every moment, as me as presence as breath as life as me here always here, in every way and in every moment

I am in all things, me as life – and i stand within and as all things as life as who i am in every moment, always new, always moving and yet still, silent – expressing me as all existence here, directing me as me here in every way within and as this wold, within and as my life perspective here in this body

Right now as I am writing, I am currently feeling a bit depressed for a reason that seems to be unknown to me. I have thus decided to write about what I currently feel/experience within myself as this slight feeling/sensation of depression in order to try and figure out where that feeling stems from, from within myself. Although I am currently unaware of the starting point of this feeling of being slightly depressed, I sense that the simple act of writing such as I am busy doing at the moment, will lead me to the starting point as the root of my slight feeling/sensation of depression.

 

So, let’s say that this feeling originates from within the contrast that I experienced today between the activity that I did with a friend of mine this afternoon, within which I played “ball” in a field near my house, and that the feeling has originated with the contrast that I experienced within myself between the state of activity I was in when I was playing “ball” and the state of activity I am currently in, as the state of being relatively inactive, within the perspective that I am currently not dispensing as much energy as I was while playing “ball” this afternoon with my friend. Thus, as I am currently looking at the cause/origin of that slight feeling of depression, I could affirm that it has been generated through what I just described as the possible/plausible cause for that feeling/sensation of slight depression, such as the experienced contrast between the two states of activities that I experienced within my day.

 

Within self-trust, I thus realise that the explanation that I have just exposed concerning the plausible origins of my slight feeling/sensation of depression is in fact true – as it is the spontaneous assessment of my current situation that I did within the act of “self-investigation” through writing myself out. Thus, within this current self-investigation of myself, I have just realised that the origin of my slight feeling/sensation of depression in fact originated from the contrast that I experienced within myself between the two experiences of me being physically active within the activity of me playing “ball” with my friend, and the other side of that contrast as me experiencing myself within the relatively inactive physical expression of myself that I currently am expressing myself as.

 

The fact that I dispensed a lot of adrenalized energy while I was playing “ball” with my friend, has burned – I suppose – a lot of physicality as the chemicals in my brain which is responsible for one’s state of mind as happiness, such as the through the generations of neurotransmitters of dopamine and serotonin. Thus, the current experience of myself may be the effect of the cause of me having burned those neurotransmitters as I was playing “ball” with my friend – and the contrast experienced between the state of mind I was in as I was playing “ball” and the state of mind I am currently in as I am experiencing myself as “writing through typing on the keyboard”.

 

So, in retrospect, I could say that my current state of mind such as feeling slightly depressive is connected to the differences of mental and body activities that exist between the two states of acting.

 

Thus, I will do self-forgiveness statements regarding what I have just unearthed through the self-investigation that I just expressed through me writing myself out of what I have experienced as myself today, as the two polar opposites of states of mind activity that I have gone through as the day went by.

 

Self-forgiveness on feeling depressive:

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience depression within and as myself, because of having burned a lot of energy while I was playing “ball” with my friend, which has generated the contrast as the origin of myself feeling depressive in the moment because of not existing within and as adrenaline within and as my current state of mind – Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on adrenaline in order to determine the state of mind I am in within a particular moment of expression, instead of realising that such a dependency towards states of the mind as the amount of adrenaline that my mind can produce, is enforcing the enslavement of who I am as the expression of myself here as the physical, towards and within the modulating states of the mind such as the different states of adrenaline that the mind produces within and as a specific moment of physical activity, and that through me accepting and allowing myself to be defined/determined by the levels of adrenaline that is to be found within and as my brain within a given moment, is me stating that I am enslaved by the mind because of the feeling/sensations of myself as being depressive whenever I do not participate within the build-up and accumulation of adrenaline through the expression of myself within physically demanding activities, such as playing “ball”.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel good about myself when I was playing “ball” with my friend this afternoon, because of the generation of adrenaline that was busy being produced by my brain when I was playing ball, and that because of the dependency of my sense of self being determined by the amount of adrenaline produced by my brain, that I have automatically experienced myself as being depressive within the moments which followed my physical activities of playing ball with my friend, whereas I have experienced myself as being depressive when the amount of adrenaline within my brain begun to deplete within and as the relative physical inactivity that I experienced within myself when I came back to my home, whereas I sat and watched tv/browsed the internet while the levels of adrenaline in my brain went down so as to reach an equilibrium within the chemicals that my brain produces. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me generating good feelings within and as myself as I was playing ball, from within which I felt fulfilled within and as the fact that I was being physically active rather than being physically inactive, that I would thus immediately experience myself as feeling bad when I would be physically inactive because of having unconsciously related the fact of being physically active as being “good” towards the fact of being inactive as being “bad” – instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within good feelings, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within bad feelings, because none comes without the other as this is the foundation upon which the games of the mind as polarity is constructed upon = one cannot come without the other, and that as soon as I accept and allow myself to participate within the “good feelings” that I generate within and as the relationship with a given physical activity, that I automatically will generate “negative feelings” when the relationship to the “good feelings” as physical activity, will be removed from the equation.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the adrenaline that I experienced within and as my brain when I was playing ball with my friend, was and is an addiction of the mind as a drug that the mind/brain produces in order to make sure that I remain enslaved to the mind as the purveyor of my desires, instead of stopping such addictions and enslavement as the dependency towards the drug as adrenaline as the giver of the “good feelings” that is produced whenever I participate within demanding physical activities, and to return to myself HERE as the self-directive principle of me in my world, wherein I accept and allow no mind addictions as chemical reactions to control/direct me, through me stopping such addiction through the tools of BREATHING, self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to release myself from all of dependencies of the mind and to return HERE as who I am as the physical as life, one and equal to all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed within and as myself when the levels of adrenaline begun to shrink in relation to the levels of adrenaline that was busy being produced when I was playing ball with my friend, wherein I experienced myself as being depressive within the perspective of suddenly stopping my intense physical activity and returning to a “calm” state whereas I as the brain wasn’t producing adrenaline any longer – instead of realising that through my expression being dependant on the levels of adrenaline within my brain, that I am thus only furthering the enslavement of myself towards the system of the mind, instead of stopping all participation within the products of the mind/brain through the tools of self-investigation through writing in order to see the origins of me as the mind, and through the application of self-forgiveness in order to release myself from the programming of the mind, self-honesty in order to directly see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, and through the tools of self-corrective application in order for me to correct my behaviour in order that it may come to reflect what is best for all life within the principle of Oneness and Equality, rather than continuing within the disease of reflecting only my self-interests as ego as that which separates itself from life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad/depressed when I was back home, wherein I participated within less intensive physical activities, such as watching television or browsing the internet, because of having unconsciously related intense physical activities such as playing ball with my friend, as being “good for me”, while unconsciously relating non intense physical activities such as being home while watching tv or browsing the internet, as being “bad for me” – instead of realising the accepted and allowed participation within polarity as games of the mind as enslavement, and stopping such enslavement towards the mind as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a character in this world, through the simple tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application so as to stop all participations within separation as the mind and to return to oneness and equality as who I truly am as life HERE as the physical, one and equal with all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate good feelings with “being physically active” and bad feelings with “being physically inactive”, whereas I experience feelings of happiness within and as myself when I participate within physical activities, and where I experience feelings of unhappiness when I am not participating within physical activities – because of having been conditioned by my parents and teachers to see physical activities as being “good for me” thus generating good feelings when active, while at the same time saying that to be physically inactive is “bad for me” thus generating bad feelings when inactive, instead of realising the enslavement of myself towards and within such experiences of myself where I become directed by the mind through self-interest alone, rather than being and becoming the self-directive principle of me in my world, through the usage of common sense wherein I as the physical as life determines what actions that is in need to be done so as to bring about a world that is best for all life, rather than continuing with the system of abuse as the enslavement of the mind which only acts for the self-interests of the individual alone without considering what is best for all life, equal and one with all living beings.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind polarity such as the accumulation of positive energy through being physically active, and the release of negative energy through being physically inactive, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as games of polarity, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “generating adrenaline within and as my body because of being physically active” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of an “adrenaline junkie”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of goodness when I am physically active and badness when I am not physically active, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed today because of the accumulation of days passed where I was alone in my home, whereas I have spent all week alone with myself with no one with whom to communicate with, instead of realising that I am always alone with myself, whether I am with someone or not – that I am never more than alone with myself and that as long as I do not feel comfortable with myself, whatever circumstances, that I am thus still controlled by the perception of the mind as being made of energy where I seek/need to feed the energetic entity as personality within myself so as to feel “secure” and “comfortable” and “positive” whereas I participate within the exchange of positive energies when I am in a relationship with someone and that I don’t participate within the exchange of positive energies when I am alone with myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to feed myself through the intake of “positive energy” through the relationship with another, whereas I participate within exchanges of energy when I am with someone else, rather than realising that whenever I accept and allow myself to participate within the positive exchange of energy with another being, that I am permitting through my acceptances and allowances as my participation within the exchange of positive energy with another, that I am thus permitting myself to experience myself as “negative energy” whenever I find myself being alone with myself, without the supportive exchange of positive energies that I experience within myself when I am with another.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive the accumulation of positive energy that occurs when I am with the company of another being, as being something which is supporting me, instead of realising that what the company of others supports within myself in such circumstances, is only the belief/idea that I am of the mind as being a being made of energy, and that such a perception is truly not supporting who I really am as the physical as life and that as long as I believe/perceive/feel the experience of myself as positivity when I am with another being, that I am thus reinforcing the illusion of me as that of being the fruit of the mind as energy, instead of releasing myself from such an illusion through the stopping of all of my participations within the exchange of positive energies with another, so that I stop myself from being controlled by feelings/emotions/thoughts and to become a real human being which is equal and one with and as the physical as life as who I truly am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to energy, to the extent where I feel bad/negative within myself when I do not experience the positive charge of positive energy, whereas I have become addicted to energy to the point where I experience myself as being “negative/depressive” whenever I do not experience positive exchange of energies within myself, such as when I am with another person – instead of realising that because of my addiction to positive energy experiences, that I automatically invite negative energy within myself so as to balance out the energy equation that gets unbalanced as  I participate within the exclusivity of positive energy, and that in order for me to stop experiencing negative energy within myself, that I have to stop all my participation within positive energy through me returning to who I am HERE within and as the breath as that which doesn’t need energy to exist/survive as the eternal foundation of myself as myself as physicality/life.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that because I accept and allow myself to participate within the positive exchange of energies when I am with someone, that I thus automatically will experience myself as being negative when I am alone with myself – because of the balancing act that occurs within the energies as the mind within myself, where my mind automatically seeks balance wherein as I experience myself as being positive in a moment, that I will automatically experience myself as being negative in another moment, and that because I accept and allow myself to “swell up” as the accumulation of positive energy within myself when I am with someone else, that as soon as I remove from the equation the fact of being with another person, I will eventually surely experience myself as being negative within myself when I am to be found alone, because of having associate the surge of positive energy when I am with someone else which automatically associate the release and dispersing of positive energy when I am alone with myself, thus experiencing myself as being negative when there is no one around and with me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like if there is a ball of negative energy within and as my solar plexus area when I am alone with myself for a too long period of time, because of the accumulative effect of negativity which compresses and compresses and compresses within and as my subconscious/unconscious mind/physicality as the accumulation of time when I am alone with myself, which results in me feeling like shit when I have accumulated too much negative energy which is experienced when I spend too much time alone with myself – such as the case of this week when I have passed more than 5 days all alone with myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be fulfilled within myself as I should be within and as the physical alone = without the interference of the games of the mind of positive and negative energy exchange – but that I am not because of my allowed participation within the games of the mind as the exchange of positive energy when I am in a relationship with another person and the release of negative energy when I am alone with myself = no direct relationship with another person.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like shit within myself when I am alone for too long with myself, where the accumulation of negative energy becomes so overwhelming, that I “fall” towards and within the negative energies within myself so that to become depressive with the company of myself all alone – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am always alone with myself and that the feeling of negativity that I experience within myself when I am alone without anyone to exchange energies with, is only a symptom of my participation within the games of the mind as the exchange of energies with others, and that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within such games of the mind, that I will remain enslaved to the mind as the mind will remain the self-directive principle of me in my world, as the abuse and misuse of physicality/life will thus continue – unless I stop myself from participating within such games of the mind, through me stopping myself from experiencing positive energy when I am with another person, through the tools of breathing, self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application. If and when I see/experience myself about to move into the feelings of positivity when I am with someone, I stop, breathe and I remind myself that it is a game of the mind that I no longer want to participate in and apply self-forgiveness in the moment within and as self-honesty as who I am as the breath.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be comfortable within self-intimacy as myself when I am alone with myself, instead of continuously seeking to be with someone so as to satisfy my culturally inserted definition of intimacy and thus feeling bad/depressive within myself whenever I am unable to satisfy the conditions of that self-imposed definition of intimacy, instead of building my self-intimacy up from within the starting point of self as all as ONE as Equal – whereas the full realisation is absolute within the fact that I am and will always be alone as self – through the tools of self-investigation, writing and through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, whereas the more I apply myself within those tools, the more I will build self-intimacy and self-trust as myself and return to the innate comfort of being with myself alone, rather than my comfort and self-fulfilment being dependant on others, which is only furthering my enslavement towards and within the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/perceive/believe that to be alone = to be sad and depressive, because of the copied perception of others as those that educated and influenced me as I was growing up in this world, instead of releasing myself from such erroneous programming through me applying the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, so as to see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the programming as the mind, so that I may, from oneness and equality as myself as the mind, understand what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind and stop my participation within such programming and return to who I truly am as life as the physical, so that I may act within the interest of what is best for all, instead of continuously acting for the sole interest of myself as separate from everything else, wherein I am only concerned to reach the goals of my personal interests, instead of working/acting in order to ensure the happiness of all living beings in this planet, as we are all as one as equal as life as the physical HERE.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite life for the predicament I am in as that of being alone with myself, whereas I spite life for giving me attributes which seemingly makes me undesired by others, because of the perception that I am not entertaining or good looking enough for girls to be with me, instead of realising that no one outside of myself will change and stop the feelings/energies/negative thoughts that I have when I am alone with myself, and that the only one who can change me by stopping such reactions of the mind is myself alone and that the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application gives me the tools in order to build self-trust, self-intimacy and self-love of myself so that I may CHANGE myself so that to become comfortable with myself, whatever the circumstances, so that I may act unchained and free of the controls of the mind so as to bring about a life that is dignified for all through actions which will become one and equal to who I truly am as life as the physical, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind polarity such as the experience of myself as being positive when I am with someone and being negative when I am alone with myself, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as positivity/negativity, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling depressed when I am alone” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of depression as the reaction of negative friction experimented when realising that I am alone with myself, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of depression, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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Earth’s Journey to Life

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to control others with my mind, whereas I would modify the frequencies of my mind through me practicing meditation within the goal of controlling my brainwaves, wherein I would when able to change the frequencies of my mind, control the reactions of others within the control of my energies – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was deceiving myself and others as myself through me manipulating my brainwaves in the goal of changing the perception others had on me through me changing their mind state as mirrors to the mind states I was busy manipulating/changing within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind/energies to control other’s mind/energies around me, wherein I would express myself through laughter and excessive reactions only so that I could influence the reactions of others when with my presence, whereas I would present myself as having “high energy” through me modifying the state of my mind when with the company of others, while when alone with myself I would experience myself as having “low energies”. The contrast between my behaviour when with others and my behaviour when with myself would mean that I was deceiving myself and others as myself through the false projection of myself when with others, in comparison to who I was when with myself alone, which were different expressions because of the desire to “control how others would think of me” that manifested within myself when with the company of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want to control how others feel/think about me, wherein I would spend tremendous amounts of time in meditation in order to learn how to control my brainwave states so that I could control the brainwaves states of others, only because of the fear I had of knowing what others truly felt/thought about me – wherein I would practice meditation only so that I could learn techniques in how to control others through the mind, within the only goal/SOUL purpose to eventually be able to control others – all the while being driven by the fear of knowing what others truly thought/felt about myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the driving force behind my motivation to meditate was so that I could learn techniques to control others through the control of my mind state because of the fear of being “rejected” and unloved by others, instead of realising that effective self-trust and self-love is built and comes through self-honest self-investigation through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty wherein I apply myself to CHANGE so that my behaviour reflects what is best for all instead of what is best for only me as myself alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to control the mind of others through the modification of my mind states wherein the control occurred within the mirroring of the behaviour/reflections of others towards my mind state, wherein I would project a dishonest image of myself because of the forced projection of myself to others as myself as something which I am/was not in fact as I was not in fact “high in energy” when with my company alone, but that this projection of myself as “high energy” was manufactured through the countless amounts of hours that I spend in meditating only so that I could reach levels of control of my own energies/frequencies within the only goal to eventually control others.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of polarity as the projection of myself as high energy/positivity when with the company of others, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “low energy/negativity/depression” when back alone with the company of myself, which I absolutely do not want to experience any more.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to use energy to control others” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to live experiences of high energy”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring experimenting feelings of high energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com