I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be distracted by the mind when I am standing up as myself through the application of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to watch television, play video games and or read dimensional articles to which I use as excuses for me not to apply myself through self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place self-forgiveness in second fiddle when I actually know that my regular activities, which are somewhat still considered as being primordial, are supporting the suppression of me instead of supporting the honest expression as me
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stop participating in the activities which are supporting my self-dishonesties through continuing in the participation of passivity instead of stopping within and as the passivity/apathy and stand up within and as myself and apply myself within and as self-forgiveness as me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and think that I am not well spoken and intelligent enough to apply myself within and as self-forgiveness with regularity
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not being intelligent enough to apply self-forgiveness effectively – thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a constricted condition as intelligence as the ability to express myself with clarity and directedness within and as the application of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a condition within and as myself for me to “fit into” if I am to express myself through Self-forgiveness and that if I do not “fit into” the condition within which have classified self-forgiveness within me, then I am not worthy of applying self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that it is me that I am judging as being unworthy of myself when I feel that I am unworthy of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition my self-expression so that it “fits into” a condition that I have placed before me within and as my perception of what self-forgiveness is through comparing myself with others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare me towards another human being who is expressing himself as “directedness” and “clarity” while I see/perceive myself as being unclear and undirected
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define clarity as being the ability to express myself in a rational and logical manner which is the way I perceive those that I judge as being clear and direct as being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from who I am as a rational and logical being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define logical as the ability to interpret one’s own life with clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to be one and equal to clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to express clarity, efficiency and directedness, only when I have met the conditions I have set within me for me to perceive myself as being the definition of what clarity, efficiency and directedness is
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define clarity, efficiency and directedness as what I experience when I find myself in a higher level of consciousness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define “higher level of consciousness” as being what I experience after moving through internally perceived levels of mind which only comes through the application of a meditative method that I have believed to be my personal “stairways to heaven”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have developed a special method of meditation that enables me to connect with the higher realms of consciousness, thus allowing me to express myself with confidence and assuredness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to express confidence and assuredness as me only when I have “reached” the perceived “higher levels of mind” which only comes after I move within myself through a meditative practice which implies the conscious and deliberate movements of energy throughout my body
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and perceive that I am within a special moment now, because of having had a flash of “déjà vu” in this moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to define myself as being special because of being able to connect to inner awareness of greater expression which comes through as an expression of myself which exerts a greater confidence and a greater assuredness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being special because of being able to connect to higher realms of consciousness through my meditative practices
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the practice of meditation grants me special powers
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive meditation as being necessary for my well being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the trap that is meditation as the practice of greater inner peace while closing my eyes to what is actually going on in this world within and as the outer REAL ALL ity as war, famine, abuse, rape and murder of me as all as one as equal
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seclude myself within the dishonesties of the mind as the practice of meditation while closing my eyes to what is actually going on in this world as who I am as all as one as equal as life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from others when others as myself experience situations that I haven’t personally experienced myself
I forgive myself that I have allowed to define myself solely based on the experiences that I have lived and to thus separate who I see myself as being from the others as myself who have lived or lives through experiences that I do not have experienced or are experiencing within and as this here moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am based on the mind consciousness system
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that who I am is HERE and that who I am not is THERE as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become through the past, present and future of the mind consciousness system
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that all that I am and all that I can ever be is HERE allways in all ways and includes all of existence as me within and as the breath as life as me HERE in self honesty
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project myself within the expectations and souvenirs of the mind instead of staying HERE stable and constant as who I truly am as all as one as equal as life
Friends of the past:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear coming face to face with a friend of the past
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project anxiety towards the moments where I meet acquaintances and friends of the past to which I haven’t seen for a long time
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to define myself as a loser when comparing myself to the friends and acquaintances of the past
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am based on society’s definition of success and failure
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I am participating within the ego of the mind when I accept and allow success and failure within me. I do not accept and allow success and failure to influence me. I do not accept and allow success and failure within me. Life is not defined by success and/or failure. Life is undefined. I am undefined. I remain undefined thus I am not defined by success and/or failure. I am life. I am here as life as all as one as equal. I breathe.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear meeting people whom I knew in the past, because of the fear of their reactions if I were to tell them that I do not work, that I do not have a family, that I do not make money and that I still live with my mother. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear the fear of the mind, through me participating in the fear of the mind of being ridiculed for being who I am as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I fear becoming that which I hide from others as myself if I were to meet someone that I knew in the past, and tell them what I have allowed myself to become as who I am as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the mind consciousness system. I am not the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear revealing who I am as what I keep from others as my current lifestyle because of the belief that I will be ridiculed and laughed at and rejected for leading such a lifestyle. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I have become which is an illusion thus I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that all that I ever was and that all that I will ever be as perceived through the mind is an illusion – who I am is HERE in self-honesty as me, in all ways and always.
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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be irritated when the activity that I have chosen for the purpose of entertaining the being that I invited, as mar andre, is  rejected by the being that I have invited at the house

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to entertain the guest which comes to my house instead of being self-honest as who I am here within and as the breath

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support self-dishonesty by accepting and allowing myself to entertain the mind consciousness system when I have a guest at my house

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to express myself in self-honesty when I am with the company of a guest at my house, such as marc andre

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my self-expression when I am  with the company of a guest because of being afraid of the reactions that my honesty might expose about myself to the other as the guess – thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear expressing myself as who I am within and as self-intimacy within and as self-honesty when I am with the company of another such as a guest.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise me when I am with the company of a “friend” and thus, express myself as the personality which is “known” within and as the relationship with the other as the “friend” instead of expressing the “unknown” as who I really am as self-honesty as who I am which is not pre-programmed but self honest as all as one as equal as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be irritated and frustrated and angry when a being as a guest at “my house” doesn’t like the activity that I have proposed which I have selected from the idea that I have about the preferences of the other as the guest

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be irritated and angry and frustrated when the idea I have about another being is refuted and proven wrong by the other being, such as marc andre

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the idea that I have about another being such as marc andre, which is who I perceive myself to be within and as the relationship with marc andre

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am is not the idea that I have constructed within and as my mind within and as the relationship that I have with marc andre

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am is not defined by the relationship that I have with another being as a friend such as marc ardre. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am is not define by a relationship. Life is not defined by any relationship whatsoever. I am one as equal as all as life thus I am not defined by a relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing a relationship if I were to express myself in self-honesty without supporting any dishonesties to which I support when I am not self-honest within and as myself towards another being as myself such as marc andre

 

The practical methods of stopping the mind within this process are the following:

  1. Self honesty in every moment – when a thought, feeling or emotion arise within you – to apply self forgiveness immediately
  2. Self forgiveness
  3. Self corrective application – to live self statements as who you are for that which you have applied forgiveness for – for instance if you did self forgiveness on judging another, comparing yourself to another, you make a statement which you live to not allow judgment or comparison within you again such as: I am equal and one as me – I do not accept and allow separation within me.
  4. Breathing

To be ‘free’ from the Matrix – is to be in this world but not be of this world – meaning that you are not defined as who you are according to anything or anyone in and of this world – but you stand absolute within you as you – not influenced, moved, controlled, directed by anyone or anything separate from you – this includes your own mind of thoughts, feelings and emotions.

Question: Ok a question I have about these “energetic experiences that trap” Did I create these. my impression is that yes I did, but of a starting point that was not me as one as life.

 

Perspective: Yes – correct – you as the mind did create the “energetic experiences that trap” from a starting point of separation.

 

Question: However when i think of overcoming these energies or letting go of them, a point of separation emerges.

 

Perspective: Have a look: You’re already in separation with you by the mere example that such ‘energetic experiences’ exist within and as you.

Energy was manifested by the mind consciousness systems to understand and comprehend ‘movement’ through friction and balance. Instead of self movement in every moment as the totality of you – no energy requirement – you moving you within and as you as who you are through self expression in every moment.

It’s not ‘overcoming’ or ‘letting go’ of the energies – it is to stand within and as oneness and equality with ‘energetic experiences’ and from here ‘transcend’ the ‘energetic experiences’ through self forgiveness and application: Until no more energetic experienced exist within and as you.

Thus – when an ‘energetic experience’ steps forth – integrate it within and as the entirety of you: This makes the statement that you realise that you’re not separate from the energy – but one with the energy. Then – as you experience the energetic experience – apply self forgiveness accordingly and see where in your world corrective self application is required and you’ll ‘notice’ (once self forgiveness and self application is effective) such ‘energetic experience’ disappear.

It’ll disappear because you as the energy realise that it is not energy – but life, constant and stable within and as oneness and equality. Thus – you’re ‘showing’ the energy as you who you as the energy really is through self forgiveness and self application.

 

Question: Is it a complete detachment from these energetic experiences that trap that is needed.

 

Perspective: I’d rather place it in this way: It’s a realisation that’ll take place within and as you – as you place this energy within and as you – apply self forgiveness with self application – you will realise that you are indeed not of energy.

 

Question: How can we separate ourselves from anything? Whenever talking or thinking about the mind consciousness system, I am under the impression that it is not me? How could this be, if I am one with everything?

 

Perspective: The mind consciousness system is indeed not ‘who you really are’. At the moment it is yes – it is who you have come to believe and perceive yourself to be – but not ‘who you really are’.

Yes – it is not to separate you from the mind consciousness system – because we have accepted and allowed its very existence – this process is for you to realise that you’re not the mind consciousness system – but life within and as oneness and equality – but you’re also not separate from the mind consciousness system. Because if you view the mind consciousness system as separate from you: You’ll get nowhere and continue in ‘time loops’.

Thus – how does it work: Realise that in this moment you have accepted and allowed yourself to be of the mind consciousness system within and as you. Now as this mind consciousness system you apply self forgiveness together with self honesty in every moment, self application – to reveal to yourself as this mind consciousness system – that you’re not a mind consciousness system – but life within and as oneness and equality – just like you do with the energy.

In this – you as all that has ever existed within and as you as all that is of mind consciousness systems: Will realise who you really are of life within and as oneness and equality as the expression of you in every moment.

Thus – as you stand within and as oneness and equality with you – as the mind consciousness system – your starting point of you is within and as oneness and equality and thus self forgiveness and self application will be effective as you apply forgiveenss as the mind consciousness system – to realise who you really are as life as oneness and equality as the expression of you in every moment.

And this is a process – because for many years you have believed yourself to be this mind consciousness system – so – don’t be hard on yourself – take it moment by moment with every breath of self honesty and self forgiveness and self application.

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Yesterday, I was supposed to do an activity with a girl that I met last Sunday. I was expecting to do something with her since she told me that she wanted to see me again, and do something with me at another occasion, in another context than that of our first date. After telling me that she had to go to a city which is about 2hours and a half drive from where I live from last Monday to yesterday (Wednesday), she told me that she wanted to do something with me when she would come back from the city, which was yesterday.

 

So, yesterday, I waited for her phone call but she never called. This situation left me feeling emotionally hurt since I thought that she hadn’t been honest with me after our first date, where she left me to believe that she was interested in pursuing our relationship. When the date ended, she was the one who first told me that she was interested in seeing me again – to which I emotionally reacted through feeling elated inside myself, since I honestly thought then that she was interested in me for having told me that she wanted to see me again.

 

So, since the call never came yesterday, and since I haven’t received any feedback from her since our last date, I started to turn and churn within my own mind within thoughts of insecurity towards and within myself. Thoughts of being rejected and of having been fooled by her came up within my mind, which made me feel depressed almost all of the evening and a bit of today.

 

I’ve had a lot of troubles accepting who I am physically throughout my life, mainly because of experiences that I lived through when I was a teenager which made me believe that I would never be able to have a girlfriend in my life because of my physical appearance – as I have been told many times that no girl would fall in love with me because of how I look. Even though I’ve had a few girlfriends in my life, I am still conflicted by this same belief and impression that I am unwanted by the opposite sex.

 

So, since she told me that she was interested in me, and since I truly sensed that it was probably true, considering the way she looked at me and how she laugh throughout our first date, I had high expectations with regards to building a long lasting relationship with her. However, the expectations that I have built met a wall yesterday since she hadn’t followed on her words in regards to what she told me that she would do after our first date.

 

This situation has reawakened slumbering demons within me, where thoughts filled with negatively charged energies brought me to feel depressed about myself and my situation in life – where I started thinking that I was doomed to be alone in my life because of the lingering impression that I am unwanted by the members of the opposite sex.

 

So, since I allowed myself to participate and be caught as a prisoner of my mind’s interpretation and impressions of myself in regards to the opposite sex because of her “silence” towards me – I will write out self-forgiveness statements so as to release myself from this “mind pattern” that kept me prisoner of my own mind.

 

Self-forgiveness statements:

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the girl that I met last Sunday, was truly interested in me because of having taken her words as true, where she told me that she was interested in seeing me again after our first date – and that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the creation of scenarios within my mind, where I imagined myself being with her; where I imagined myself having sexual activities with her; where I imagined scenarios where I believed that the time of my celibacy was finally over – only to allow myself to be eventually deceived if those scenarios were not to be made true, which is what I have started to realise recently, as I haven’t received any feedback from her since our date last Sunday. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel energetically drained today because of not having received any feedback from her, where I expected and hoped that she would explain to me a plausible reason for her lack of communication in my regards – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expectations towards her because of what she told me in the end of our date last Sunday – instead of stopping myself from participating within the mind as expectations, through me having stopped myself from entertaining the thoughts, emotions and feelings in regards to what I BELIEVED her to express towards me, which was that she was apparently interested in me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the mind through expectations, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within the thusly mind generated scenarios, through the realisation that what occurs within the mind is NOT REAL and that it is my responsibility not to participate within the mind as the mind only sells ILLUSIONS – and that if I am to see myself participate within the illusions as the mind’s interpretation towards something or someone, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within the mind, through the tools of BREATHING, so as to remind myself that I AM HERE as the physical as life, and not THERE within the mind where illusionary ideas and conceptions about reality are held as “true”, to apply the tool of writing so as to see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind; self-forgiveness; self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop myself from participating within the patterns of the mind which holds me captive within a delusion and illusionary fantasy world, and rebirth myself as LIFE through the common sense realisation that we are the physical as life and not the mind as illusion.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed for not having received any feedback from the girl that I met last Sunday, because of having accepted and allowed myself to participate within an elated feeling after I met the girl last Sunday, because of having been led to believe that she was interested in seeing me again – to which I interpreted as a sign that she liked me, to which I emotionally responded through me feeling elated within myself because of the fact that she made me believe that a girl was finally interested in me – instead of stopping myself from participating within the polarity manifestation of the mind, such as a positive feeling or negative feeling within me, and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within a mind generated feeling, whether positive or negative, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating further within my mind, through the application of the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from the automated pattern of participating within my mind’s interpretation of reality, and rebirth myself as life as the physical, so as to act towards changing what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the limited mind, and realise ourselves as life as the physical, so that we can bring dignity into our world where life is being taken for granted.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel elated within myself after having been told by the girl that I met last Sunday, that she was interested in seeing me again, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to feel elated within myself because of the fact that the worlds that the girl spoke in my regards, went against the belief that I still hold within my mind that “I can’t have a girlfriend because of not being attractive enough” – instead of stopping myself from participating within the elated feeling within me, through me feeding and nurturing the feeling through me allowing myself to think and generate many scenarios within my mind where I projected myself in the company of the girl, where I allowed myself to feed the elated feeling within me – instead of stopping myself from participating within this feeling through the realisation that such an allowance only allows the occurrence of the opposite side of this feeling within myself, which is depression, if what I was brought to believe revealed itself to not be true – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within a feeling of elation towards what someone tells me, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within such mind constructs through the tools of writing, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to completely stop myself from participating within the patterns of the mind, and change so as to re-align myself towards the physical as that which is truly life, so as to stop being controlled by my thoughts, emotions and feelings so that I remain stable no matter what happens around me, and become a responsible human being in this world which acts in order to change the nature that we have become so as to act within the interest of all life instead of only my own.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and perceive that I am and will always be rejected by the members of the opposite sex in my life, because of apparently having been rejected by the girl that I met last Sunday, because of the fact that I haven’t got any feedback from her after our date, after she had helped generating the expectation that there was a probable future between us – instead of stopping myself from participating within the belief that “I will always be rejected by the member of the opposite sex because of my appearance”, through me applying the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop myself from participating within such thoughts/feelings/emotions when they emerge within me, and re-align myself to who I am as life as the physical, which is not bound to any mind constructs.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire being with the girl that I met last Sunday, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the thoughts of me having sexual activities with the girl and general thoughts of being with the company of the girl, where I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the positively charged feelings and emotions that are linked to those thoughts, rather than stopping myself from participating within such mind generated energies through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to release myself from the grasp that the mind holds within me, and return to who I am HERE within the awareness of the physical as life.

 

I will continue on this point tomorrow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not care for the state of the world because of the fact that I do not “feel” like if I am “one with the world”, whereas the “sensation of oneness and equality” seems “foreign” to me within that I honestly do not “sense myself” as being “one with the world” or “one and equal with everyone” – and that because I do not experience or “feel” myself as being “one and equal with everyone”, that I bring myself to “not care” about the “state of the world” because, after all, “I am only aware of me, myself and I” and that what another experiences as himself/herself  within his/her life is honestly “foreign” to me within the fact that “I do not experience what another experience in his life” as we are all “unique” and apparently “separate” within our proprioceptive sensation of ourselves. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on my own little experience of myself in order to “judge” and ascertain what is “good for another” as I base my perception of “what is good for another” only on my own knowledge that has been birthed from my own lifetime experiences – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the perception that “I only care about that which can personally affect me”, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within the thoughts which ensue, and apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to remind myself that within who I am as life, underneath the “façade” of my apparent physical uniqueness and separation from another, that I come from the “same” source as that which is “life” within and as us all, and that it is from this starting point of that which makes us all related as one and equal, that I am to “see” myself as, as who I am really is one and equal with all human beings.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to base my understanding of who I am strictly on that which makes us all akin, such as the fact that we are all “physical beings” and that within this, we all have the same fundamental “needs” which cannot be overlooked in order to have a dignified life, such as having enough food, enough money and a place to live in in order to live – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the limited perspective of that which only affects me within my own little bubble as the mind within which I “believe” and “perceive” myself as being “unique” and therefore “separate from each and everyone else”, that I am to immediately stop myself from entertaining the idea that I am separate from each and all living beings, and re-align myself to the truth of who I am within a simple and ostensible observation that we are all alike thus ONE AND EQUAL within the base and fundamental fact that we are all PHYSICAL BEINGS and that within this, we are all ALIKE and ONE AND EQUAL.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate “caring” with an inner “feeling” as an inner “mind generated experience” within myself, which ultimately leads to separation within the fact that the “feelings” are generated by “unique life experiences” which are fundamentally “unique” to the individual, which makes it so that a “feeling” can never be universally acclaimed as universal truths, since each and every single beings experiencing life within this planet that we call earth, have very unique and different “feelings” regarding any point of one’s experience of life – and that “feelings” can never be accounted as and for the “ultimate truth” since a feeling is in essence, unique to an individual perspective and thus can never be universally shared with all and every living beings in this existence – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the limited perspective of basing my understanding of life strictly on the “feelings” that are “mind generated” within me, that I am to immediately stop myself from allowing myself to participate within such “beliefs” and return my attention and awareness back to HERE as that which is OBVIOUSLY and UNIVOCABLY universally shared with ALL LIVING BEINGS, which is simply to relocate my awareness HERE within and as THE PHYSICAL as that which is UNIVERSALLY SHARED WITH ALL LIVING BEINGS, and from there, base my perspective of life as who I truly am, so that I stop entertaining the false belief that I am separate from another because of the erroneous interpretation of the mind towards LIFE as that which we truly are = one and equal as life as the PHYSICAL. If I see myself participating within thoughts of separation, I am to immediately stop myself through the simple tools of breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from participating within that which perceives itself as being separate from life, the mind, and return myself to who I truly am as life HERE within and as the PHYSICAL as who I truly am as LIFE, which is universally shared and COMMON with ALL LIVING BEINGS.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not care about others which do not experience what I directly experience as a factual life experience, such as all the personal experiences that I have lived through throughout my lifetime, wherein I only “relate” to those around me who have lived life experiences which are akin to my own, and that I automatically discard all of the beings who have not personally lived similar life experiences – only because of the fact that I have accustomed myself to live within the enclosure of my mind, where I wallow within circular thought patterns which are fed through my own personal experiences, instead of stopping myself from trapping my self-awareness within my own mind, and re-align my self-awareness to that which is obviously universal to us all = THE PHYSICAL – through the tools of breathing so as to bring my awareness back to HERE instead of letting my awareness roam aimlessly within the enclosure of my own mind; writing so as to SEE MYSELF for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the FIGMENT OF MY MIND’S IMAGINATION; self-forgiveness so as to release myself from the points and inner turmoil that are keeping me locked within the darkness of my mind; self-honesty so as to CLEARLY SEE WHO AND WHAT I HAVE BECOME as the mind and self-corrective application so as to CHANGE what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and REBIRTH myself as LIFE as the PHYSICAL, which is EQUALLY AS ONE SHARED with ALL LIVING BEINGS ON THIS PLANET or on any other location within the universe.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by the mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

I commit myself to stop my participation within energetically charged experiences through me, whenever I experience the movements of positive or negative energies within me, immediately stop such participations through the BREATH/BREATHING and place myself HERE within and as the physicality as me. If an opportunity to self-forgive arises, I apply self-forgiveness aloud or within myself. I remind myself that the energetically charged experience/thought/feeling/emotion is a pattern that I no longer want to participate in and as the mind.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “not caring” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “carelessness”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “careless    character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to stop myself from not caring for the state of the world, through the remembrance that I am responsible for the state of the world through my actions, whether I act or do not act as each and every moment of breath passed within this world, is a statement made of who and what I am to the universe, whether I do or do not do something, and that in order for me to live a life within full awareness such as the awareness of myself as LIFE as that which I truly am, that I am to completely stop myself from participating within the mind as separation, and re-align myself to the simple, common and obvious observation that who I truly am is a PHYSICAL BEING and that whatever happens to the PHYSICAL as the only real REALITY, ultimately AFFECTS EACH AND EVERY LIVING PHYSICAL BEINGS – and that this world is in dire need of a CHANGE so that the PHYSICAL as LIFE returns to DIGNITY and UNIVERSALITY so that each and every single beings living in this world, may live a life that is worth living.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

The following is a text i have copied and pasted as a reminder for myself and others as myself as to the reasons why i apply self-forgiveness. It has been written by Aldin, an active Destonian, and I find that it reflects perfectly my own experience with writing self-forgivenesses, especially in regards to the motivational aspect of writing when it comes to the application of the tools brought about by Desteni (self-forgiveness). So, I have placed the text here in my blog, so that other as myself understands what it takes in order to do effective self-forgivenesses.
Self Forgiveness

How I apply Self Forgiveness:

If I find a Resistence due to applying Self Forgiveness I look at it and I FORCE me to apply it.

In other words, if I do not ‘want’ to apply Self Forgiveness I find it’s BECAUSE OF something, be it

– because of wanting to do something else
– because Self Forgiveness is boring
– etc.

and in this I know that it’s a Excuse/ justification and reason.

So I FORCE me to apply Self Forgiveness = I stand up AS my Physical Body, thus I stand up Physically and I take Paper or a CollegeBlock or whatever to write on and a Pen and I sit down and I start writing.

Just start writing something and Points to apply Self Forgiveness on will emerge, you will see.

Of course then I have to Forgive myself that I have not wanted to apply Self Forgiveness and then continue.

Thus in this I STAND AS THE PHYSICAL and ACT PHYSICLY = I stand up with and AS my Physical Body and MOVE me PHYSICLY to APPLY SELF FORGIVENESS.

How I motivate me?

Well motivation is a big factor I find, though it’s easy to be motivated by and through something outside of yourself like Wants and Needs and Desires you have.

Though SELF WILL is SELF WILLING SELF — in this there exists no outside thing/seperate thing to be motivated but only SELF AS ALL AS EQUAL AS ONE.

And SELF WILL implies SELF like in the words ‘SELF WILL’

So I/me/Self WILL me/I/SELF.

To give an example on how I motivate myself and WILL myself is as follows:

If I find a resistence due to Applying Self Forgiveness in every moment of breath when and as necessary to be applyed — then I take the ‘status’ of Existence into consideration — not only myself as how I experience myself at the moment, no I take ALL Life into Consideration — I ‘think of’ the Children who are being abused/molested/raped/murdered – who starve, etc.

I take into Consideration the animals who are being abused/killed just for Mans GREEDY and FUCKED UP NATURE of CONSUMMERISM — GREEDY PIGS AS MAN.

I take into Consideration the Dimensions and their ‘Work’/Dedication and Commitment to this Process/to LIFE — to get LIFE born from the Physical — to STOP the SYSTEM/CONSCIOUSNESS — to STOP WAR/MURDER/RAPE — To stop cruelty – to stop the rape/molestation/beating/killing/molesting of Children in this world.

I take LIFE into consideration as LIFE being ABUSED extensivly and I place myself into ALL these and AS ALL these beings/expressions and ‘forget’ about myself as ‘my LIFE’ ONLY — I ACT AS ALL — I ACT FOR AND AS MYSELF AS THE DIMENSIONS — as The Animal Kingdom –AS The Childs at the very moment being molested/raped/beaten/killed — The Childs who cry out of Pain – out of having nothing to eat — out of being raped — I ACT AS ALL LIFE — ALL LIFE TAKEN INTO CONSIDERATION and then I PUT myself into the SITUATION of when I DIE and STAND before ALL LIFE or even HERE STANDING before ALL LIFE and ask myself ‘What would I say – What shell I say because I did not unconditionally STAND up for ALL AS ALL and applyed the tools provided for me to stop the SLAVERY, to stop the cruelty in this world/reality/existence — Would I be ashamed of myself? Could I look all into the eyes and say and know that I have acted in every moment to the ULTIMATE to STOP what is HERE as SYSTEMS for LIFE to STEP forth to be DIRECTED by and AS SELF’

In this — There cannot exist any exuse – there cannot exist any reason and any justification — because I know what IS to DO and if I do not do it — if I do not act in every moment of breath to the ULTIMATE to STOP what is HERE — but consider and take only myself as ‘my Life’ into Consideration and act as EGO I will be ASHAMED of MYSELF LATER — this SHAME will not be Experienced IMMEDIATELY but as EVENTS open this SHAME will step forth and then What is my EXCUSE????

I KNOW that I will STAND before ALL LIFE — FACE MYSELF AS ALL LIFE — and in this I WOULD not LIKE to have to be FACED with the QUESTION Why I did not STOOD UP and ACTED in every MOMENT of BREATH to the ULTIMATE as I have had all the tools Provided but did not acted as I took only myself as ‘my Life’ into Consideration and gave a Fuck onto ALL others.

Then another ‘Motivation Factor’, to call it so is — if I do not want and/or experience a resistence to apply Self Forgiveness on because I take only myself as ‘my Life’ into Consideration is that I take into Consideration that WE ALL have ALREADY FALLEN 10 times till now, and that we are CURRENTLY in the 11th CYCLE of THIS PROCESS OF BIRTHING LIFE AS ALL AS ONE AS EQUAL.

And in this I TAKE ALL LIFE INTO CONSIDERATION AS MYSELF.

I ask myself if I would really like to experience all the shit again from beginning till now, over and over and over and over AGAIN — Loop yet AGAIN more than 350 Billions of Years to get to the Exact same point and see if I/WE WILL get through it this time?

I take into Consideration ALL of Existence not only myself to have to LOOP over again.

I put myself into the Situation as Standing before ALL of EXISTENCE — infront of ALL LIFE and being asked the question why I have had not STOPED AS I have had the Opportunity to, as ALL the tools were provided to and for and AS ME — and that BECAUSE of ME ALL HAVE FALLEN because I HAVE FALLEN and yet to LOOP ALL and EVERY THING from the very ‘Beginning’ again to get to the exact same point to see if we/I will get through this this TIME — ALL
EQUALLY AS ONE.

In this I SET my ASS into GEAR and MOVE/ACT no MATTER WHAT because I know what there IS to do and must be DONE — and so I ACT.

Sure there are moment where one says ‘Ah, man fuck it, I dont want anymore. It’s to hard’.

Sure, but I know that this is not me and I have to MOVE/PUSH through it and I have tools to assist me with and these Are SELF FORGIVENESS applyed within and as ABSOLUTE – BRUTAL SELF HONESTY AS SELF AS ALL LIFE AS EQUALS AND AS ONE –

Then SELF Corrective Application

Writing and Breathing — to MOVE PRACTICLY THROUGH the MANIFESTED CONSEQUENCES of THE PAST because I know that I have CREATED these Consequences which I have to WALK THROUGH otherwise I will FALL for EVER and NEVER be LIFE — experience myself AS LIFE and therefor no one will because ALL WILL FAIL because if ONE FAILS ALL FAILS — therefore I am RESPONSIBLE FOR MYSELF AS FOR ALL LIFE EQUALLY AS ONE.

So in this NO exuses – NO REASONS and NO JUSTIFICATION cann be and are valid — because I know what it is to be DONE and if I do NOT do it — I will FALL for EVER.

This I have to prectice over and over and over because there are some moments where you ‘forget’ about this and do take only yourself and ‘your Life’ into Consideration.

~ Aldin

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself believe that I don’t care about others, myself and the state of the world in general because of the overwhelming weight that the responsibility of caring implies on my shoulders, whereas I would rather do as if I am unaware of the problems of the world rather than do something to change it – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from participating within the behaviour of apathy, such as the behaviour of not caring, because of me not wanting to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, because of the overwhelming task that is in front of me within the act of changing what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the abusive mind – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the patterned behaviour of apathy towards myself and others as myself, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within such behaviour through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the apathetic character, so that I re-script myself as a caring character who acts within the best interest of all involved, so that dignity may return to what we call life and so that I stop the abusive behaviour that has made of this world what it is currently, which is a world of abuse.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com