I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take mind modifying substances whenever I feel “bad” about myself, wherein I look for specific mind altering substances that would make me “feel better” about myself because of the “addiction” that I have accepted and allowed myself to have towards “feeling good at all costs”, which has led me to consume substances such as alcohol and drugs, only so that I could “feed the addiction” further, not seeing or realising that through doing this, that I only deepen my dependency towards outside influences rather than being the self-directive principle in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “looking for an outside source/influence that would make me “feel better” about myself”, that I am to immediately stop my train of thoughts through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to return my awareness HERE as who I truly am as life as the physical, where no mind is necessary to experience what it truly means to live as life, one and equal with all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “let myself down”, within the perspective of having allowed myself to “fall back” within patterns of abuse, through me allowing myself to consume mind altering substances only for the sole interests of satisfying my selfish desires of seeking “pleasure at all cost”, even is such a cost is the disrespect and destruction of life within my surroundings – because of having accepted and allowed myself to be mesmerised by the creation of the mind as illusions, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to place the illusions in the forefront of life where illusions are given more credentials than life itself – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “seeking pleasure at all cost”, that I am to remind myself of the REAL costs of such a participation, such as the disempowerment of myself as the true authority of myself and the development of a dependency which would only further the enslavement of myself towards the mind and it’s addictions – and to immediately stop myself from further participating within the train of thoughts which are birthed from such a desire, through the constant application of tools such as breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, until such a pattern of thinking is completely removed from a reaction based response mechanism, so as to eventually stop myself from the pattern of self-abuse, and bring myself back to who and where I am here as life, so as to change my actions from a self-interested starting point only, to a starting point where I would consider all life before putting a thought into action, so as to become an example for all, as to what it is to be a responsible human being.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from participating and empowering the thoughts within me which seeks only pleasure as self-gratifying experiences, such as the thoughts which lead me to consume mind altering substances, through the realisation that as long as I will allow myself to be a slave to such desires, that I will remain trapped within the mind and forbid myself to express myself as life through my own allowances as an abuser of life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the intention/desire to “take mind altering substances for the sole purpose of pleasure seeking”, that I am to immediately stop myself from further participating within such a train of thought, through the use of breathing, so as to break the pattern of thinking within myself and bring myself back HERE within and as the physical as myself; self-forgiveness; self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to IN FACT CHANGE who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am HERE as the physical, as who we really all are within common sense.

 

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “desiring to consume mind altering substances in order to reach the goal of “feeling better about myself””, remind myself that I am only thus allowing myself to fall further within the pattern of enslavement to the mind’s addiction, and thus stop myself from participating further within the thoughts that are linked to such an addiction through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop the patterns of abuse within me, and re-align myself to the expression of patterns which dignifies life and are life affirming, where I take full responsibility of who I am as life within the context of living with all other beings in this world, so as to act within the best interest of all life, and stop acting and limiting my perspective to that of my own self-interests, and thus take into consideration all living beings before deciding to act on a specific situation.

 

 

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 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear living without energy because of the addiction that i have within and towards energy, whereas I constantly and continuously seek energy as a positive experience of myself because of being addicted to the experience sof me swelling up inside of me through the accumulation of positive energy, where I become gradually possessed by my own desires as self-interest to the extent where I close my eyes to what is actually happening within my environment as the physical because of being caught within my personal experience/desires of positive energy within and as my mind – within this, I forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the experience of me when within the accumulation of positive energy is only the experience of me as the mind of energy, as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, and that whatever I experience within and as energy as the mind is always an illusion for the simple reason that the energy is dependent on outside influences because of being finite, rather than realising that who i truly am remains forever HERE as stability and infinity within and as the physical as life as the truth of me, and that when I am caught within the experiences of myself as positive energy, that I stop through the application of BREATHING and the tools of self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I stop all participation within energy as the mind and realise myself as LIFE as the physical as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the games of “energy exchanges” when I am participating within whatever activities with the company of a friend, such as my accepted and allowed participation within gossiping and blame and judgments that I participate in whenever I am with a friend because of the habit that I have created of participating within such activities when within the relationship with another, instead of realising that the games that I play when with the company of others as friends of mine, are games that doesn’t stand for oneness and equality as they are a statement of separation as the perceived differences in the mind, whereas I am and become completely unstable because of being manipulated and governed/directed by the energies within and as my mind – instead of stopping such participations through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to build self-trust and self-will so that to CHANGE what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as a system of abuse, and become equal to the system of life which is the system of oneness and equality between all living beings.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to build a habit of participating within games of energies when I am with the company of others, such as friends, wherein i have conditioned myself into behaving in ways where I allow myself to generate situations of “laughter” so as to build the positive energies within and as myself and another as myself, instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of gaining positive energies, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within negative energies within and as myself because of the equal and one relationship between positive energy and negative energy, whereas as I experience positive energy within and as myself, I automatically invite negative energy within and as myself within another moment of self-expression – which are specifically the moments where I experience the “other side” of the conditions that I have generated within and as my mind in order to experience/exchange positive energy, such as when I am alone with myself rather than being with the company of another, wherein I experience the negative discharge of energy when the condition of the manifestation of the positive energy within me is not present anymore = such as when I am alone with myself I tend to experience the “other side” of the positive energy that I experience when I am with the company of another. Within this, i forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the exchange of positive energies when I am with another, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within the exchange of negative energies when I am not with another, such as when I am alone with myself and that through this, that I accept and allow myself to be possessed by thoughts of negativity such as thoughts of “killing myself” because of not having built self-love and self-trust when within the company of myself alone. I now see/understand/realise that for me to stop myself from participating within negative thoughts that comes from / are birthed from the experience of myself as the mind as negative energy, that I have to stop myself from participating within positive thoughts that comes from/are birthed from the experience of myself as positive energy, wherein I become possessed and delude myself into thinking/believing that everything is fine with the world, whereas this is far from the truth as the system of abuse as the system of the world is based on such desires of “gaining more positive energy”/”gaining more money” at all cost, where life gets left to rot only because of the selfish desires of humanity to always gain more and more and more positive energy/money at the expense of life/god/the physical, and that for me to come back to my senses and be HERE as equal and one with the physical, that I have to stop myself from participating within the games of energy as the mind, through the tools of self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “charge myself up” through the practices of meditation techniques from within which the purpose of the practices is to gain as much positive energy as possible, for the soul purpose of satisfying the desires of my self-interests – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blinded by my desires as self-interests, whereas I only seek to satisfy my self-interests of becoming as happy as I can be through the accumulation of positive energy, while i accept and allow this world to be destroyed through the greed/abuse of self-interests as the system of mankind, only because of my personal and separate desires to have my own personal heaven as separation from all and everything, rather than realising that through me separating myself from all and everything within the self-interested purpose of constructing/gaining my own little heaven, that I am actually separating myself from who I truly am as life as the physical as all as one as equal and that I will eventually face the dire consequences of that self-separation at death – instead of stopping such self-interested behaviours through the investigation of myself as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as abuser of life, so that I may come to see the constructs within and as my mind so that, from within the starting point of self-awareness, that I stop all of my participation within the system of abuse as the system of self-interest only, and become equal to the interest of all as one as equal as life as the physical, so that we/I can CHANGE what we/I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as humanity and become the living examples of what we truly are as life which acts for the best interests of all living beings as equals and one.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear presenting myself to another human being without first being energised within and as my mind consciousness system, because of the fear of not having the energy to be able to “find the words to communicate with” when with the company of another, because of having conditioned myself to “perform better within my conversations with others as myself” when I am under the influence of a positively charged accumulation of energy, wherein the “words to communicate with” comes easier/faster when I am positively charged with energy – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear communicating with another human being, such as communicating with a sales clerk, when i am not firstly charged with and as energy because of the fear that I have of others seeing/thinking that I am strange for “talking too slow” because of the fact that the words within my mind doesn’t come as easily when I am not firstly charged with positive energy. Within this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the energy as the mind when within the act of communicating with another, wherein the words comes more easily when I am firstly charged with positive energy in contrast of the words not coming as easily when I am not firstly charged with positive energy. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I don’t need the accumulation of positive energy to be able to talk with another human being as myself, within the perspective of having words come easily within and as my being, and that if the words are still directed/governed by the presence or lack of the presence of the accumulation of positive energy within and as my mind, that I am thus still directed by the mind as energy and that for me to stop myself from participating within such a limitation within and as my expression of myself, that I have to firstly STOP myself from participating within the accumulation of positive energy within and as the mind, through the tools of self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I can free my expression from the conditions that I programmed into my being such as the need to generate/accumulate positive energy within and as my mind before talking to another as myself, and thus allowing myself to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and perceive that i need energy in order to be able to express myself to others, wherein I have programmed myself into acquiring/manipulating the energies within and as my mind so as to accumulate as much as positive energy as possible before allowing myself to communicate with another being as myself, because of the accepted and allowed belief as condition that I have placed within and as my expression, that in order for me to be able to be listened to, that I have to express myself with as much as energy as possible so that the people to whom I am expressing myself to, doesn’t get distracted by other things around them so as to keep them “locked into me” for the purpose of them satisfying my self-interest of being listened to/being given attention to, rather than them placing their attention on other things than my expression as my desire to be listened to. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to control/manipulate others as myself through the usage/expression of myself as “high energy” so that I may be given attention to within the belief/perception that people around me are as addicted as me to energy and that because of expressing myself within the starting point of high energy, that I thus automatically attract and maintain the attention of others around me – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the act of manipulating others around me through me projecting myself as the “reserve of high energy” as the mind, that I thus automatically enslave myself and others as myself within and as the system of abuse as the system of gaining/attracting as much energy as possible without considering the consequences towards life as the physical because of only being controlled/directed by self-interest alone, instead of stopping such participation within self-interest through the tools of self-investigation that comes from writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I can free myself from the programming of the mind and so that I can script myself as my new behaviour within the starting point of acting within the interest of what is best for all life, Equal and one with all living beings of this world.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind polarity such as the game of competing for “positive energy” as the mind, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as games of competition, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “seeking to accumulate as much positive energy as possible before communicating with another human being” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of seeking to project myself as having high energy to others, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of high/positive energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed because of not having received the call from a new girlfriend that I was expecting to call me, wherein I would churn within my mind, asking myself the question if I was good enough for her, if my voice was good enough for her because of only having communicated with her through the phone and where I haven’t met her yet – wherein I have judged her only based on her voice and what she told me over the phone and at the same time by the same token, wherein she have only judged me based on my voice and what I told her over the phone, considering that I had not expressed myself in a good enough fashion so as to “please her” over the phone, because of the fact that she hasn’t called me at the time where she told me that she would have called me – and where I was brought to believe, because of that fact, that she wasn’t interested in me anymore – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge her rather than not participating within judgment through me remaining stable within and as the breath. I now see/realise/understand that who I really am is not the fabric of judgments and that such a fabric is only dependant on the acceptances and allowances of the mind as who I believe myself to be rather than who I really am as life as the physical, One and Equal with all living beings – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was participating within the polarity of the mind within me feeling depressed because of not receiving her call when I was expecting it, thereby expressing myself as the negative energy experience of myself as the feeling of depression in contrast with the positive energy experience of myself as the feeling of being ecstatic.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that by me accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as being ecstatic/positive that I automatically allow myself to experience myself as being depressed/negative within another given moment as the game of polarities of the mind seek out balancing acts in order to balance out the play outs of my participation within energy – where the expression of myself as positive energy automatically generates a counter movement going from the positive to the neutral to the negative energy, in order to balance out the inequalities between both energies within and as my mind, instead of realising the abuse in such participation within energy as the mind and stopping such participation within abuse. If and when I see myself participating within energy as the mind, I stop, BREATHE, see if I have a point that I have missed or haven’t considered forgiving myself about, if so, I self-forgive my participation within such a point and apply the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application until such points gets released from my physical body as that I remain STABLE HERE within and as myself within and as the BREATH as who I am in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish the impression of myself within that I allowed myself to experience myself within negative energy as the deception that I experienced within myself when, from within the past few days, I was waiting for her to call me, wherein the call never came until today where as I was waiting for her to call me, I allowed myself to experience myself as depressive because of the feeling that I had of being rejected by her, because of my past experiences with girls where the outcome turned out to be negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ecstatic about myself now that I have received the call from the girl I was expecting to call me, wherein I felt a release within and as my solar plexus when I received her call just a few moments ago, as I felt the energy swell up within myself, going from the negative to the neutral to the positive, so that it reached the state of the feeling of ecstasy within myself – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in such a way that the feelings were generated automatically within and as myself, through my accepted and allowed participation within feelings ever since I was born, instead of realising that life is not a feeling as a feeling is a programmed emotional response to an outer stimuli for the purpose of the enslavement of beings. I now see/realise/understand that who I am is not a positive or negative feeling and that if I see myself participate within such construct of the mind, that I stop, BREATHE, see if I have a point that I have not yet considered within self-honesty, apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective application so that I stop such participation within the mind and become a living example for what is best for all, Equal and One with the physical as Life.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “energy participation” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting for a girl to be with me”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to be with a girlfriend through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

 

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Yesterday on tv was a show about how people obey to authority. It went to show through a scientific experiment that even if the act imposed by the authority figure goes against the values of the person executing the act, the person is more than likely to execute the act and go against its innermost fundamental values.  This experiment was made in France where a group of select individuals were placed within a situation of pressure that would challenge their values regarding the act that they were ordered to commit against another human being.

The principle of the experiment was that the people that were selected to make the experiment were given questions that they had to address to an individual that remained hidden from their sight. They were placed in an environment of pressure that was acting as a determining factor that would push/pressure the individuals to commit acts that went against their values.

The selected individuals were place in a false television set, where they were led to believe that they were participating in a television show that was named “shock effect”. They had to give electrical shocks that grew as the questions went along, to an unseen individual that they could hear. When the hidden individual would commit faults to questions that the select individuals were ordered to ask him, they were ordered to give electrical shocks through a panel that had ever increasing voltages switches that was in front of them. Each time the hidden individual would commit faults to the question asked, the selected individuals would have to press ever increasing switches that would administer electric shocks to the hidden individual.

Even though the set-up of this experiment was false, meaning that the individual that was answering the questions was an actor and would only mimic being electrocuted as the question went along, the participants of the experiment acted as if everything was real and we were able to see the reactions that they expressed as they had to shock the unseen individual to ever increasing voltages. About 80% of the individuals that were selected to make the experiment followed the direct orders that were given to them by the fake animator of the television program. That meant that only about 20% of the individuals went against the orders given to them by the authority figure, which in this case was the false animator of the false television program. The factors that played within the heads of those who were participating within the experiment were the fact that they were in a believed television program – they were in a real studio with real cameras and a real audience throughout the experiments – where each and every of their actions were perceived by those who were attending the false show as much as the show’s host, who remained stoic throughout all of the questions that they had to ask the hidden individual.

The fact that the majority was able to obey to the animator that was pushing them to ask the questions even if they would hear the hidden individual scream as he received ever increasing electrical shocks through false answers, shows just how much we are conditioned to obey to authority figures even if the act of obedience itself goes against the most fundamental values of what it is to be a human being in this world – at least towards the values that were programmed into us through our participation within our different upbringings.

As I was watching the television show, I kept asking myself if I would go all the way if I was in the place of those who were executing the orders of the television host. I know that I do not handle pressure well thus I believe that the amount of pressure that would be around me if I were to have been chosen to make this experiment would have played in my decisions to pursue or stop the experiment.

I remember that when I was young, the principal authority figure in my world was my father. I used to obey him out of the fear of the consequences that would happen to me if I were to do as I please instead. This impression of the authority figure as my father has been projected outward throughout all around me as I was growing up in this world making it so that I saw a piece of my father within each and all person of authority in this world.

The main ingredient that pushes one to execute the orders given by an authority figure is the fear of having to face the consequences if one is not to obey to the authority figure. Just like I feared the reactions of my father for not obeying his orders – he used to beat me when I went against his will – I also feared the reactions of those whom I perceive as having an authority upon me as I was growing up in this world.

Self-forgiveness on obedience:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly obey to a figure of authority in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the reactions of those which have the status of authority in this world, through me be-lie-ving/projecting the unconscious image/behaviour of my father upon those that share status of authority in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear disobeying to the authority figure in my world – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear disobeying the mind as the perceived authority of me in my world, as it is only the mind which perceives statuses of authority or subservience within beings in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow my mind as the authority figure of me in my world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I have internalised the presence of my father as the prime example of the authority figure in my world, within my mind, whereas I follow and obey to my father as the internalised presence of authority within and as my mind throughout my participation in this world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the mind as that which I follow is the authority in my world towards which I obey out of the fear of having to face the consequences that awaits me if I am not to obey my mind throughout my participation in this world – just as I feared the dire consequences of my actions if I were to disobey the orders/commands of my father as I was growing up in this world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the mind has become the authority of me in my world, rather than realising the common sensical evidence  that the only authority of me in my world is the Physical Body as it is the only entity which has true power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself as what I believe as being as the mind from my physical body as what I truly am, within the statement of “the physical body is the only entity which has true power over me” – thus not realising that within this same statement exists the foundation of my separation towards myself as what I truly am as the God of my existence which is my physical body, equal and one with and as existence itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the consequences of my actions as the reactions of my mind if I am not to obey the orders that I give to myself through my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the reactions of my mind if I am not to follow its orders, such as the negative feelings, negative thoughts, negative emotions within which the experience of negative energy pushes/pressures me to follow the mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions just as the participant of the television show (see above) follows the orders of the fake television host because of the pressure they feel to obey even if the act of obedience goes against their values.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the orders given to me by the mind, such as smoking pot, drinking alcool and smoking cigarettes even if such orders goes against my nature as the physical body – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my body through the taking of substances such as pot, alcool and cigarettes only because I fear disobeying the perceived authority in my world as the mind, within which the act of disobedience generates negative thoughts, feelings and emotions within me as negative energy that pushes/pressures me to act according to the mind’s orders so that I may experience positive thoughts, positive feelings and positive emotions as positive energy once more – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the positive energy as the feeling of flying high experienced is only fleeting and the positive energy consumes the very life essence of me as the physical until there is no more physicality to consume within which I experience crashes as falling down thus re-experimenting negative energy – within this I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the pursuit of positive energy invites the pursuit of negative energy and that within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I entrap myself as the physical as the god of me within an endless cycle of positive to negative energy as the consumption, destruction and abuse of the physical as life continues.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to completely stop my participation within this endless cycle of abuse of the physical as life through me continuing with my “pursuit of happiness” through orders given to me by my mind for the pursuit of my self-interested happiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to work for the pursuit of my happiness while shutting a blind eye at the dire consequences of that pursuit towards my fellow living beings as each and every living being in this planet.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to question the mind as the authority in my world, so that I may deconstruct, see and realise that that which I blindly follow as the mind is not who I am, but a parasite which feeds on the physical as me until there is no more substance/physicality to consume.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly follow the mind without realising that through my obedience towards my mind, I ensure that I as the physical will continuously be consumed by my mind until there will be no more physicality to consume as death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a limited existence that is only existent so that the mind as the parasite of me as the physical body continues its abuse of life as the continuous consumption of physicality through the energetic possessions as the mind.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “obedience” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of blind obedience as “I have to act in accordance to the pursuit of my happiness”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the blind obedience arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the blind obedience game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in blind obedience as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “blind obedience” and from blaming myself and others as “authority figures in my world” while the only authority in this world is the physical, through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

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Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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