I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to control others with my mind, whereas I would modify the frequencies of my mind through me practicing meditation within the goal of controlling my brainwaves, wherein I would when able to change the frequencies of my mind, control the reactions of others within the control of my energies – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was deceiving myself and others as myself through me manipulating my brainwaves in the goal of changing the perception others had on me through me changing their mind state as mirrors to the mind states I was busy manipulating/changing within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind/energies to control other’s mind/energies around me, wherein I would express myself through laughter and excessive reactions only so that I could influence the reactions of others when with my presence, whereas I would present myself as having “high energy” through me modifying the state of my mind when with the company of others, while when alone with myself I would experience myself as having “low energies”. The contrast between my behaviour when with others and my behaviour when with myself would mean that I was deceiving myself and others as myself through the false projection of myself when with others, in comparison to who I was when with myself alone, which were different expressions because of the desire to “control how others would think of me” that manifested within myself when with the company of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want to control how others feel/think about me, wherein I would spend tremendous amounts of time in meditation in order to learn how to control my brainwave states so that I could control the brainwaves states of others, only because of the fear I had of knowing what others truly felt/thought about me – wherein I would practice meditation only so that I could learn techniques in how to control others through the mind, within the only goal/SOUL purpose to eventually be able to control others – all the while being driven by the fear of knowing what others truly thought/felt about myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the driving force behind my motivation to meditate was so that I could learn techniques to control others through the control of my mind state because of the fear of being “rejected” and unloved by others, instead of realising that effective self-trust and self-love is built and comes through self-honest self-investigation through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty wherein I apply myself to CHANGE so that my behaviour reflects what is best for all instead of what is best for only me as myself alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to control the mind of others through the modification of my mind states wherein the control occurred within the mirroring of the behaviour/reflections of others towards my mind state, wherein I would project a dishonest image of myself because of the forced projection of myself to others as myself as something which I am/was not in fact as I was not in fact “high in energy” when with my company alone, but that this projection of myself as “high energy” was manufactured through the countless amounts of hours that I spend in meditating only so that I could reach levels of control of my own energies/frequencies within the only goal to eventually control others.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of polarity as the projection of myself as high energy/positivity when with the company of others, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “low energy/negativity/depression” when back alone with the company of myself, which I absolutely do not want to experience any more.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to use energy to control others” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to live experiences of high energy”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring experimenting feelings of high energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to control how others would feel about themselves when within my company, whereas I would deliberately project myself as being happy, whatever the circumstances, only to ensure that others around me would feel happy too, because of being dependant on the energies of others wherein I usually mimic the emotions/feelings/behaviours of others in order to have a “feel” on how I “feel” within my relationship with others around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest within how I present myself to others, wherein I would usually present myself as a false image of what I feel within myself only to make sure that I would fit within what was expected out of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the “energy mind game” with others when I am within the company of others because of wanting/desiring that others see me as being a “good/happy person” because of the belief that if I am not perceived as being a “good/happy person” when within the company of others, that others would reject me because of not having a lot of things to give of myself other than the “good feelings” that I would manipulate myself into being only to ensure that others would perceive me as being a good/happy person, while I would feel like shit when I would be back alone with myself – wherein I would feel the reverse effect of the projection of myself as being a “good/happy/energetic person” through me becoming all of a sudden “sad/lonely/negative energetic person” because of having used all of my energies to make others feel good about themselves through burning high amounts of physicality as chemical substances within my mind, wherein I would give “all  of myself as energy” only to realise that, when back with myself all alone in my apartment, that the effects of this participation within projecting myself as “high energy/good/happy person” generated the feelings of “sadness/depression” because of not having been given the amounts of energy I gave out to others and thus realise when back with myself, that I have burned myself out for others while not receiving the same amount of energy in return.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was playing within the polarity game of the mind through me projecting myself as having/being “high energy/good/happy person”, not realising that through me participating within this game of positive energy/projection as the mind, that I would experience the negative side of this projection as the “low energy/depression/sadness” that I would feel within myself when back with myself, all alone in my apartment through the realisation that I have burned myself out for other’s perception of me, which was all for naught because of always returning to the “low energy/depression/sadness” that I would experience within myself as being alone in my apartment with no one to share my energies with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the best that I have to give to others as the “high amounts of energy” that I can muster within myself for the benefit of generating a “good atmosphere” when around with others, wherein I would “energise my mind” prior to the moments where I would be seen with others, only to ensure that I would be perceived as having “high amounts of energy” as I have defined that state of myself as being the “best that I can give to others as myself” as a gift that I would force myself to project unto others, for the benefit of their good feelings and perception of me as being a good/happy/special person who has high energy thus is a good person to be around with.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the desire to be perceived as being a good person to be around with, manipulates and controls me form within so as to become the projection of happiness/high energy even if that isn’t how I normally experience myself from within – only manifesting myself as having “high energy” when within the company of others to ensure that I have the best chance as being perceived as being a good/happy person that is beneficial to be around with, because of my unconscious desire to be “loved by others” and that the only way that I have found to be loved by others, is through me exerting myself as “high energy/positivity” at the cost of the deception as sadness that I experience within myself when back as being alone with myself – wherein I would feel depressed within myself after having expended high amounts of energy when with the company of others, only to realise that it was all for naught, as I am still to be found all alone with myself when back in my apartment – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me exerting/projecting myself as having “high amounts of energy” through me manipulating/energizing my mind prior to the moments when I am found with others, that as soon as I am to be back with the company of myself alone, that I will immediately experience myself as being negative/depressive/sad because of the re-occuring state/realisation that it was all for naught, as I am still all alone with myself, with no one to be around with within the intimacy of my home – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have my state of mind be dependent on the presence of others, as I feel happy when with the company of others and sad when back alone with myself, instead of realising that what I have to do first is build self-intimacy, self-love and self-trust first through the tools of investigating myself as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the mind, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I stop my participation within the cycles of “high energy” that I project of myself when with the company of others, and “low energy” that I experience within myself when back alone with myself, and CHANGE effectively so that I stop participating within these patterns of the mind and bring myself back HERE as the physical as life as that which is best for all as what is best for all is best for myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that every time that I accept and allow myself to project myself as having “high energy” when within the company of others, that I will automatically experience myself as having “low energy” as negativity/deception/depression when I will be back and alone with myself because of the secret mind desire as self-interest to “attract” a “female” to my home, wherein I would feel depressed/deceived/negative every time that this desire is not satisfied, which is almost all the time – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that every time I accept and allow myself to participate within such games of energy as the positive projection of myself as “high energy” in order to satisfy the secret desire to “attract a female to my home”, that the negative experience of myself as the realisation of doing all of this mind game manipulation for nothing, accumulates over and over and over and over again within and as my subconscious mind, whereas I experience the accumulated and layered negative polarity charge of this mind game which manifests within and as myself as deep levels of negativity/depression/sadness through the realisation that I have yet again failed at bringing a partner with me to share and live intimate experiences with at my apartment, whenever I find myself again and again and again all alone with myself, with no one to share my life experiences with.

Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me participating within such games of “mind projections” as me projecting myself as having “high amounts of energy” only so that I have the possibility to attract a female to my home so that I may not be alone anymore, is a game/pattern of deception that I maintain within and as myself because of deceiving others as myself within the projection of myself as being of “high energy” which is ultimately false as I normally am calm and stable within and as myself when I am alone with myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise the pattern that I keep on participating within as the cycle of “high energy as forced happiness” turning into “low energy as forced depression” and then going back to “high  energy as forced happiness” only to return to “low energy as forced depression”, going on and on and on as cycles in my mind that I accept and allow myself to participate in because of the subconscious driven desire to attract a female back to my home, even if I know of the low chance of me succeeding, wherein I press the “reset” button every time a new opportunity of attracting a female to my home presents itself to me, because of the hopes that “this time will be the good one” even if my life has proven to me that “this time will be the good one” almost never happens. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to not realise that all of this is a pattern that I have enclosed myself within and as the mind as a pattern of self-abuse that I keep on participating in because of the desires/hopes that I will eventually find someone to share my life with, within which I would deliberately manipulate myself and others as myself from within so as to project the best image of myself as possible so that others may feel good about themselves when within my company, only to realise over and over and over again, that it was all for naught as I almost never get anything in return for the burning of my energies engineered to attract others to myself, whereas at the end of the day, I always find myself back alone with myself with no one to share my existence with in intimacy – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be self-intimate with myself, through self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to with self-intimacy, be able to take back the control of my life and stop being manipulated by the games of the mind that I know of being all for naught.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from entertaining others as myself through me projecting a false image of myself as that of having “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others, while I would always experience myself as the direct opposite of that projection as soon as I would be back and alone with myself, whereas the negative energy as depression would always be experienced in full force every time I would be back and alone with myself – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/understand/realise the futility in me participating in such games of energy with others, through me being self-honest with myself through the time and time again realisation that I do this for nothing in return, whereas I only get nothing in return of all of my expenses/burning of myself/physicality to “please” others. I forgive myself that I  haven’t accepted and allowed myself to listen to common sense through me stopping such destructive/abusive behaviours to and towards myself through me stopping projecting myself as “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others because of the constant realisation that I do all of this for nothing as I only burn myself/physicality for an energetic experience that never comes.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that as soon as I participate within feelings of high energy/positivity/happiness when with the company of others, that I automatically generate the feelings of low energy/negativity/depression when with the company of myself alone – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I absolutely do not want to experience myself as low energy/depression/negativity and that the only way to stop me from experimenting myself as low energy/depression/negativity is through me stopping my participation within high energy/happiness/positivity when with the company of others.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of polarity as the projection of myself as high energy/positivity when with the company of others, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “low energy/negativity/depression” when back alone with the company of myself, which I absolutely do not want to experience any more.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to use energy to control others” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to live experiences of high energy”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring experimenting feelings of high energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to controls others, wherein I would use the energies within my mind in order to control how others would perceive me, as I was able to attain levels of energies which were extreme from within which my “presence” alone would be able to mesmerise others!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind’s energies in order to control others as myself, as through me experimenting high levels of energy as high positivity, I would at the same time control the levels of energies that others as myself would “feel”\experience within themselves as they mirrored my own, wherein the levels of energies I would be experimenting within myself within that time as high energy/positivity, would be enough to modify the levels of energies within those who contacted me, as they would thus reflect within themselves, the “high energy/high positivity” that was “my own” – Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/perceive that the “high levels of energy/positivity” that I experienced within myself within those “special” occasions were my own, wherein I would experience the levels of high energy within myself after having “moved myself” as energy from within the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define those experiences of me experimenting/living high levels of energy as being “special” within which I would “place upon a pedestal” the “experiences of high energy/positivity” because of perceiving the experience of me living out extreme levels of high energy, as being the “goal” of my life, as the “goal” upon which all other achievements are measured.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as my potential, as being equal and one with the experiences of “high energy/positivity”, instead of realising that my “potential” is not something to attain, as some “special” energy which propulses me within spheres of “high consciousness”, but that my potential as Equal as One as LIFE as physicality, is already HERE – all that I have to do, is to stop being “there” as the mind as that which I experience whenever I ride the waves of “high energy/positivity” and use the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application to stop my participation in such patterns of enslavement to energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind as energy to control others through me exerting myself as my mind as high energy to others as myself, wherein I would deliberately participate within sessions of meditation where I would specifically exercise my mind to perform such “acts of control”, as I began to be aware after experimenting such a high for the first time, that I was able to manipulate the behaviours of others through changing my own – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have wanted/desired to control others through the energies of my mind, wherein I would deliberately “play” with the energies within my mind, in order to attain “high levels of energy” as I was addicted to the experience after the first time where I experienced such a degree of level of high energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mermerised in front of the experience of me living out “high levels of energy” for the “first time”, wherein I would be so high within the energies within my mind, that I would be mesmorised by what was always busy occuring in front of me as the flow of time as now.

To be continued tomorrow…

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to use energy to control others” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to live experiences of high energy”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring experimenting feelings of high energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use substances such as drugs, alcohol and sugar because of the desire/need/want to experience myself as being “more than” who I am as an energetic entity/experience of “positivity”, instead of realising that the experiences gained from the intake of such substances are completely illusionary and that nothing coming from those experiences is real, because of only happening within the confines of my mind – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within polarity as the mind and that I have used such experiences as definitions of who I am. I now see, understand and realise that the energetic expressions of myself as the positive experiences coming from the accumulation and discharge of the “positive energy” coming from the intake of such substances, are illusionary and only keep me enslaved within and as the mind, instead of releasing myself from such addictions of the mind, and return HERE as the physical within and as the BREATH as who I truly am within self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my physical body through me not considering the quality of the food that I take, whereas I regularly eat fast food and food which are not of high quality which often results in physical feelings of being nauseated, wherein I would discard such warnings of my physical body and continue eating that which my body is directly telling me as being offensive to my system, because of only being interested in the experience of eating food which makes my mind “feel good”, not considering the input of my physical body which is clearly showing me the mistake that I make in eating such foods through the pains and nausea that I often experience after eating such poor quality foods – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the desires of my mind to experience the good feelings that comes from eating junk food, wherein I would oftentimes experiment pain and nausea within and as my physical body because of having a hard time digesting those types of food, wherein I would discard those warnings and continue eating the junk food only for the purpose of satisfying my addictions as energetic highs coming from eating such food, instead of listening to the warnings that my body is giving to me through the pains and nausea that comes after eating such poor quality foods, and thus to stop myself from continuing eating those foods because of clearly not being best for my physical body.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that my physical body is the only one who knows what is good for my body, and that what the television, adds, publicities and media tells me as that which is good for my physical body is mostly bullshit because of only being interested in self-interest as the profits it seeks to gain from the gullible human beings, and that whatever those mediums are telling me as being good for me is mostly garbage – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my authority away as that which knows what is best for me, to those who project themselves as authority figures in my world, whereas the only authority of myself is myself, as I am the only one who is always with myself and that I know what is good for my physical body simply because my body tells me what is good for me, and that whatever some media is trying to sell to me as being good for me should come second to what my body is telling me, such as stopping eating foods which hurts my physical body even if it pleases my mind, because the true author as the one “who knows” is my physical body, not my mind.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the pains that i experience within my physical body after eating too much sugar, or after eating too much junk food, is me telling me that the food I eat is not good for my physical body – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop eating whenever my body tells me that what I eat is harmfull to my physical system, wherein I would continue eating even through the physical pains because of wanting/desiring to fulfil the addiction of “sugar” or the addiction of “good feelings” that comes with eating junk food – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “good feelings” that comes with eating junk food/sugary foods is a pre-programmed design, designed by the system to keep me enslaved to the consumerism mentality, whereas I would seek to satisfy the desires to consume more and more even if that would mean to harm my physical body in the process.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to eat junk food” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to eat food which my body tells me is bad for me”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to eat junk food, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about quitting the 7 years to life process because of currently having difficulties in finding subjects to write about within my 7 years to life process blog, whereas I tend to think that I am going in circles because of not finding relative subjects/points to write about, wherein I seem to revisit points which were relevant to what I was going through within past posts instead of finding new points/subjects which are relevant to the current moment – instead of realising that it is not about writing about new and different subjects from posts to posts, but to write about what is busy occurring within and as myself at a given moment in time even if that means that I have to revisit a point that was previously visited upon, because of the realisation that a point can resurface from one moment to another, within that a new facet of a point may resurface from one moment to another, from layers to layers whereas a new layer always present a new perspective from within which the point can be explored/self-forgiven on – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that points are multi-layered within and as myself, and that the effective release of a specific point can take a lot of self-forgiveness and time to get through.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am going in circles within my 7 years to life process blog, because of the belief that I am currently stuck within my process whereas I seem to revisit points that I have already written self-forgiveness on, instead of the realisation that it does not matter if I revisit a point that I already visited in the past, because the purpose of myself writing myself out to freedom through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, is not to invent new points that are not relevant to what I am currently busy working on within myself, but to write about the points which are directly relative to what I am experiencing within and as myself as the mind at a specific moment in time, even if that means that I have to revisit a point, because the mind works in cycles whereas patterns are set within and as myself as the mind, and that through me facing myself as the mind, that it inevitably means that I have to face myself as the patterns as the different facets of a point that I have constructed within and as myself as the mind. I now see realise and understand that a point is multi-layered within and as myself as the mind, and that the depths as the different layers of a point may be revealed within another moment whereas different patterns within the point may emerge depending on the time and circumstance of me facing the point.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that a point as that which I face as myself as the mind, is a pattern which have been constructed as and within different dimensions of the self, whereas I may one day face a specific dimension of a point within the limited depths of what I allow myself to face within that specific day as that which is relevant to the self in a given day, while I face within another day, another specific dimension as another layer of the depths of the same point which is relevant to the self in another given day – as the points are always multi-layered and that it takes time, self-commitment, self-devotion and  self-discipline in order to work out all of the depths and layers of myself as a specific point as myself as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about quitting my 7 years to life process blog, because of the time it sometimes takes me to write about my daily entries within my blog, whereas it sometimes takes me an hour or more to write about my self-forgiveness statements or any other subject that is faced as myself within my blog, wherein I would sometime get discouraged about writing because of the time it takes me and because my mind would find it difficult to remain focussed within such time frames, whereas I would think of other “more pleasurable” things to do such as watching television or playing video games – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “things” which are occupying my mind as I write my self-forgiveness statements or any other subjects of concern within my blog, are mostly things which are birthed from the addictions of the mind as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the illusion of self, such as the addictions of participating within games of energy as polarity manifestations within the mind, such as watching an “entertaining” television program or playing an “entertaining” video game – wherein the “entertainment factor” would be determined by the amount of positive energy I would allow within myself through my active participation within entertainment -, instead of realising that each time I accept and allow myself to participate within the polarity of the mind as the “positive energy”, I also accept and allow myself to participate within the “negative energy” as the mind, whereas the opposite energy will be experienced as soon as the positive energy will have run out. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the mind’s game in existing within the polarity of positivity and negativity and defining such a polarity existence of the mind as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire doing more “entertaining things” than to write daily in my blog, such as watching television, playing video games or going outside with friends, instead of devoting myself entirely to the process through me being fully invested within the act of writing, without no back-chat wherein I would tell myself to hurry up so that I can/could go and do some more “entertaining things” than to write in my blog – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the best gift I could/can give to myself is the gift of self-forGIVEness, wherein through me forgiving myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, I am giving myself the gift of LIFE, as the process of writing through self-forGIVEness is the process of giving to myself the power to CHANGE so that I can become a living example for all, showing to all as myself what it is to be a responsible human being who acts from within the starting point of that which is best for all, for that which is best for all life is best for myself, Equal and One with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire quitting before reaching the end of my 7 years to life process because of the thought of “it’s going to be long before the end of the process” from within which I discourage myself because of the apparently lengthy amount of time required for the process of re-programming oneself to LIFE – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that it’s going to take time, more or less 7 years, before I will have re-programmed/re-scripted myself into that which is best for all life, because of the fact that I’ve been programming myself as the mind ever since I was born and that it will take time to deconstruct that programming so that what remains is me HERE as who I truly am as the physical as that which acts for the interests of all life, Equal and One with all living beings.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to quit” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to quit before the end”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to quit before the end, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out entertainment as a means to live strong emotions, such as watching a television sport program or going to the attraction park, wherein I would deliberately indulge into superficial entertainment activities, rather than applying myself within regaining the power that I have given away to my feelings/emotions/desires through me actively stopping such participations within addictions of the mind, through the simple tool of BREATHING in order to remain HERE stable within and as the physical body, wherein I would regain the power to decide/direct my actions in full awareness and responsibility within the destination/outcome of acting within the interests of that which is best for all living beings in this world, so as to act in accordance to the will of the physical through the strict consideration of what the physical needs within this world in order to ensure a dignified life for all.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to question the desires/wants/needs which pushes/controls me to act in accordance to the will of the mind, such as the desires to live/experience high emotions with whatever means possible, wherein the only interests in mind would be that of self-interests alone, instead of aligning myself to change within self-honesty through the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that my actions may reflect that which is best for all life within the consideration of the needs of the physical alone, such that my actions may come to fulfill the direct needs of the physical as life, such as changing my behaviours so that I may act in accordance to what I need to do as a responsible human beings in this world – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to completely change within the act of completely stopping my participation within the polarity of the mind, through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, wherein the simple act of BREATHING would replace me HERE within and as the BREATH as who I am in self-honesty, so that from within the starting point of BREATH, my actions become one and equal to life as that which needs to be done in order to change this world so that heaven may be real, in fact, for all living beings in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge within activities propagated by the inner workings of the mind, such as all activities which are motivated by emotions, feelings, thoughts and ideas that I copied from those who came before me within what they perceived as being “activities which were worth my while” through my relationship within the identities in the mind (parents, teachers, authority figures of the world), rather than question/delete/change such inner motivation through the realisation that those inner motivations are not motivations which comes from who I really am as the physical as life, but that are motivations which comes as manipulations of the mind in order to ensure the full enslavement of who I really am as life to/towards the control of the limited mind as that which I have come to accept and allow myself to be/believe – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am as the totality of myself, is not some mystical idea that is constructed from my thoughts/beliefs/ideas about my true self, but that my true self is simply that which is perceived/experienced as my human physical body alone, which is One and Equal to all living beings in this world, as the true image and likeness of life as physicality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to copy the behaviour of my father, as the behaviour of spending endless amounts of time in front of the television, seeking for entertainment and diversions so as to keep my mind occupied, while those who are in control – the elite of this world – continue their abuse and misuse over the resources of the world for the sake of the survival/upgrade of their self-interests alone while the totality of this world goes to shit – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to wake up from the dream which is induced by the few who are in control of this world, whereas the world goes to shit as I keep myself entertained/enthralled within the addictions of the mind as the participation within polarity, rather than stopping such dream like slumber through me becoming a responsible human being as a custodian of this world, through the tools of stopping the mind through BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I may become a living example of what is best for all life to others as myself, One and Equal to all living beings as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend enormous amounts of time playing video games, through me keeping my mind occupied and preoccupied while those who are in charge of this world, continue their abuse and misuse of the world resources rather than stopping such occupations and preoccupations so that I may become a responsible human being who acts for the interests of what is best for all rather than continuing on this dead end path of acting for the sole purpose of the self-interests.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to get entertain myself through games of polarity” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to entertain myself at all cost”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to be more than who I truly am as the physical, through the participation within the addictions of the mind as the games of polarity, thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as a living example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire experiencing the “emotional high” that comes from smoking pot, whereas I would experience an emotional high within and as my mind through the act of smoking pot, not realising that prior to the desire of smoking pot, the act of experiencing an high would bring about an experience of a “low” right after the moment where the experience of the “high” would be experienced, thus making me bounce around within and as my mind within the energetic experiences of highs and lows, instead of stopping such participations within and as the mind, through me applying the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, to stop myself from participating within the act of smoking pot so as to stop behaving within self-interest alone and start behaving as what is best for all life through me remaining HERE stable within and as the BREATH as myself in self-honesty, where no pot is necessary for me to experience myself as who I truly am as the BREATH as LIFE as the PHYSICAL. I now see/understand/realise the mind polarity games that I accept and allow myself to participate within as the mind whenever I accept and allow myself to smoke pot, wherein the experiences coming from such act is never “mystical” or “special” or “more than who I am” for the experience of smoking pot is only an experience that exists within the confines of the mind and never is a true/honest representation of who I really am, for only thus reflecting on the disease as the mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions while who I am as life as the physical, gets abused through such acts of selfish unawareness.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that smoking pot is not an act of “mystical properties” or of “connection with an higher self” as the effects of smoking pot is never the reflection of reaching a domain of higher spiritual awareness, such as the domain where I believed myself to participate within as the “connection with an higher self” when I allowed myself to smoke pot, but is rather an act of dishonesty through me accepting and allowing myself to reinforce the separation further between who I am as the physical as LIFE which requires NO REFLECTION/THOUGHTS/EMOTIONS, all of which being consequential outflows of smoking pot – and with who I am as EGO as the mind as that which divide who I am as life as all as one as equal, for the sole purpose of self-interest and the living of self-interested dreams/desires/needs which are only of the mind alone and  not of LIFE as acts which are for LIFE are acts which are best for all life as one as all as equal, wherein the act of smoking pot only furthers the disempowerment of self towards the mind where no directive principle exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire smoking pot, because of the lingering thought/idea/emotion that such an experience would be beneficial for me, because of only thus seeing/perceiving the experience from within the starting point of self-interest as the desire to experience myself as being “more than” who I truly am – which is self-dishonest because of the fact that all experience of myself as through the energetic highs of taking drugs such as pot, will bring about the experience of myself as the energetic lows and through such, would only enslave me deeper within the depths of the polarity games of the mind through my own accepted and allowed participation within the mind as the highs and lows as the flux of the experience of myself as an energetic entity – instead of realising the common sense within the fact that who I really am is not of the mind, but is of the physical as the physical is life as it is common sense to realise that all of that which is one and equal with all living beings, is the physical as life – not the mind, which is rather the illusion of life as the thoughts/ideas/emotions/feelings which are all illusions that keeps us deluded and enslaved to the interpretations of the mind towards reality as the physical, rather than being equal and one with the physical as life, as what it should have been from the beginning.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to smoke pot” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to experience the highs of smoking pot”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to be more than who I truly am as the physical, through the use of drugs such as pot/marijuana, thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com