I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone with myself in the near future, because of the fact that the couple who are currently living with me, will leave my apartment in about a week or so, which will make it so that I will find myself alone again – after having spent the last month in their company because of having offered my help towards them, as they were then looking for an apartment to go to because of the fact that they have been booted from the apartment where they were previously living -, wherein I fear that I will become depressed through the transitional period because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to “feel” comfortable in their company, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to nurture and “appreciate” their company while they were with me – and that now that I think about the reality of the fact that they will leave me in about a week, that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “depressed” about the idea that I will find myself alone again, whereas I have forecasted a “return” to hold habits and a “return” to a solitary way of life, which – in contrast with what I have lived when with the company of the couple – is making me “feel” depressed because of the thought that I won’t have a life which will be equally interesting as when I was living with their company – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to nurture the thoughts which are associated with what I forecast my future to be like as that of being a return to a “negative way” of living, and stop those patterns of thinking within me so that, as they arise within me, I am able to stop myself from furthering my fall within the mind through the use of breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-honesty so as to change the patterns of thoughts within me, which are only interested in protecting my own self-interests, into a pattern of thinking/acting that will be reflective of a being who is one and equal with life as the physical, so that my focus remains within where I am as HERE as life as the physical within all given moment in time, such as to become an example of what it is to be a responsible human being in this world, which actually and in fact cares for all life as one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sexual experiences with the “girl” in the couple who is currently living with me, because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain secret desires within the secret mind as she was living with me for the past month or so – where I have accepted and allowed myself to use the fact that I have seen her countless amounts of time in her underwear, to nourish and nurture the secret sexual desires within me – where I have accepted and allowed myself to fantasise about her being naked in front of me, where I would be able to touch and caress her naked body – where I would allow myself to let the sexual tensions built up within me – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to fall within the energetic tensions that built up within me as I am and was within her company, through the use of breathing so as to remind myself that all that is occurring within myself within such instances is of the mind and not me; writing so as to see myself, in writing, through the patterns and mind constructs that are at the foundation of my enslavement towards the mind and it’s patterns; self-forgiveness so as to release myself from the points of separation within me, which manifests themselves whenever I find myself in a situation where I am within the same vicinity of a girl/women that I secretly physically desire/appreciate; self-honesty so as to actually truly see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and self-corrective application so as to change myself from the patterns of the mind which only enforces my relationship to the illusions of the mind so as to change myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and rebirth myself as life as the physical, so that I will be able to stop acting within the sole perspective of the mind and it’s self-interested patterns which are responsible for the state of separation the world currently is in, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am as the physical here, so that I can be an example to all and myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being who actually cares for life on earth and does whatever it takes to bring back life as equality and oneness for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sex with the girl who is currently living with me whenever I look into her eyes, and where I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to “manipulate her” into wanting to have sex with me through the mere eye contact, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to try to manipulate my sexual energies towards her, so that I could be able to “influence her” into wanting to have sex with me — where I would project the sexual energies towards her through my imagination, within my secret mind – instead of stopping myself from attempting to secretly manipulate her into “desiring me” through the use of “mind tricks” that I have stated above – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of trying to manipulate her with my sexual energies whenever I am within a moment where I am communicating with her, that I am to immediately stop myself from furthering such a patterned behaviour within my mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to release myself from the grasp that I have accustomed myself into being subjected to whenever I find myself in a situation where I am within the company of a girl/women that I secretly desire, so that I remove the cloud which obscures my observations in order for me to remain stable here within who I truly am as the physical as life, so that I may be able to realise myself as life as who I truly am here as the physical and become an example to all and myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being who actually truly ACT within the perspective of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive the experience of me being alone with myself, as being a “negative thing”, wherein I would accept and allow myself to be manipulated by the thoughts, ideas and memories which comes to mind whenever I think about the times where I was alone with myself,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the times that I have lived while the “couple” was living with me in my apartment, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to “judge” the times spent with the “couple” as being “entertaining” thus “good”, while judging the opposing experiences, such as the experiences of me being alone with myself in my apartment as being “bad” even if that was not the case when I was living alone with myself – only because of having accepted and allowed myself to use the experiences that I have lived while living with the couple in my apartment, as a contrasting point within myself, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to “judge” the past experiences of me living alone with myself in my apartment as being “bad” even if that was not the case – instead of stopping my patterned behaviour of “judging” my experiences in contrast to other “past experiences”, only so that I may continue with my patterned abusive behaviour of labelling my experiences as being “good” or “bad” even though I am aware of the fact that it is those judgments that are responsible for my instability in life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within such a patterned behaviour of judgment, that I am to immediately stop myself from entertaining the self-abusive path where those patterns are leading me to, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from being trapped within the mind through its self-inflected patterns of abuse and enslavement which are responsible for the state of the world as it currently is, and change myself from being an irresponsible human being to being a responsible human being who actually and in fact cares for the state of the world and work/act in order to bring about a world which is best for all life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the feelings that emerged within me as I was thinking about the fact that I will probably find myself back as being alone in about a week or so, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to become “depressed” about the idea of returning to living a life of loneliness and boredom, even if that was not the case when I was living alone with myself, only because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached to the way of life that has been my own ever since the “couple” started living with me about a month or so ago – instead of stopping myself from being manipulated by the feelings within me, through the realisation that I am not my feelings, thoughts or emotions, and through the constant application of tools such as breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, so as to methodically change all the points within me which keeps me enslaved to the conditionings of the mind, and rebirth myself as life HERE as the physical, where the mind is only burdening my perception of life as who I am truly and is therefore, completely unnecessary.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging my life as being negative because of the fact that I live alone, to immediately stop myself from participating within such a destructive and abusive pattern through the use of breathing, so as to STOP myself from falling within the mind and remain here within the stability of myself as life as the physical and act in order to bring about real change in my life.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining secret sexual desires within the secret mind whenever I find myself within the company/vicinity of a woman/girl that I secretly appreciate, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to, when I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “fantasising about having sexual experiences with a girl”, change the patterned behaviour which keeps me enslaved to the mind’s constructs, and rebirth/rescript myself so as to be and become one and equal to who I truly am as life as who I am within and as the physical here.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of having my thoughts/perception of myself be influenced by the inner feelings that I have about a changing situation, immediately stop myself from participating within the thought pattern which emerges from those feelings, through – if possible – immediately going in front of my computer or finding a piece of paper and a pen in order to write about what I am currently going through, so as to see the patterns in front of myself so as to be able to remove the cloud within my mind which keeps me enslaved to patterns of enslavement and abuse of the mind, and change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application throughout my writings.

I commit myself to actually write daily in my blog so as to reinforce the patterns of change that I want to instil into me, through the constant and continuous daily use of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, and stop making self-commitment statements that I am not committed into making through the actual application of “small” self-commitment statements that I am actually able to commit myself to.

I commit myself to stop myself from making judgments about being alone as being something which is inherently negative, through the perception that I have copied from society and those that have come before me, and actually realise that I have always only been alone within myself and that there never was “another” within myself throughout all of the experiences that I have lived through in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the patterns of judging myself based on whether I am or am not alone with myself, to immediately stop myself from participating within such patterns through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a “mind program”, and re-establish life as who I truly am as the physical HERE, where no judgments or mind is necessary.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within a pattern of judgment, to immediately remind myself that such a pattern filters my perception to the point of extreme limitation where the ability to enjoy life is hampered – and to stop myself from the act of judgment through the realisation that all judgments made are only further limiting myself within my own mind, where who I am as life as the physical remains forgotten.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need a universe where polarity exists in order for me to experience myself as who I am truly, where I have created a world and a universe where polarity exists in order for me to experience myself as a particular point within the spectrum of polarities, only so that I can have the opportunity to experience myself as the point of perspective within creation which sees itself as being “different” from another “point of perspective” within creation, and that I have especially created a system of the mind which have counterfeited the basic polarity which is at the heart of the creation of this universe, wherein I have created and manifested within myself, judgment so that I have the power to decide whether an experience is “good” or “bad” for me, while strictly basing my observation on the limited perspective of my mind’s conditioning which have been birthed out of my innate tendency to copy/mimic those that have come before – where I have never questioned or considered that the perspective that I have copied from those who have come before me, is fundamentally biased and can never represent the true nature of who I am within life/universe, such as who I am truly HERE within the absolute acceptance of who I am within this very moment HERE, so that I STOP judging the experiences that who I truly am as life has set out before me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging an experience as being “good” or “bad” that I am to immediately remind myself that all experiences that I live are willed by who I truly am as life, so that I relinquish the tendency to judge life, so that I can realise myself as who I truly am as life – where no judgements exists but only the joy of being HERE as life as the physical remains.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret as “good” or “bad” a manifestation of an event/experience in my life, because of the judgments that I have towards that experience as being “good” or “bad” for me – instead of stopping myself from judging an experience as being “good” or “bad” for me, through the realisation that I cannot exist without that which is “contrary to who I am”, as “that which is” cannot exist without the existence of “that which is not”, and that if I am to “judge” an experience as being “good” or “bad” for me, that I am simply limiting the expression and experience of who I truly am HERE within the manifestation of myself as this physical entity, because of the filters of my judgments which filters reality so that it complies to the limited nature of my judgments, and thus, where I have no opportunity to truly know who I am here as the physical as life, because of the self-imposed limits that I have accepted and allowed myself to have as judgments, out of having accepted and allowed myself to “believe” that which I have been thought of being, by those who have come before me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging an experience that is here for me to experience as a specific moment in time, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within the patterns of judgment, through firstly breathing, so as to bring myself back HERE as who I am within the physical as life; then apply the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a self-abusive robot as a figment of the mind consciousness system, and re-script myself as who I truly am as life here, where no judgments exists which disables me from appreciating the experience of who I am here as life, one and equal with all living beings.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the patterned behaviour of judgment towards a particular experience that I have, to immediately remind myself through breathing, that I am not the mind, but here as the physical as life, and that any and all judgments that I may have about a person or a situation, is merely a filter that disables me from experiencing myself as who I truly am as life.

I commit myself to remind myself that all experiences that is manifested for me to have by my true nature, is exactly what I need to experience in any given time or context – and that all I have to do is to say “yes” to the experience, so that I may realise myself as who I truly am as life = where there is no judgments as filters limiting our perception of who we truly are as life.

I commit myself to remove all filters as judgments towards myself, life, or any events in-between, so that I may come to fully realise who I truly am as life, so that I become an example for all as myself, as what it is to be a responsible human being in this world.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear working in order to learn a living in this world, because of the fear of having to expose myself for who I am physically within professional relationships with other co-workers in a prospective working environment, whereas I constantly and continuously feed the fear of having to expose myself to other co-workers as myself within a working environment, because of the fear of being judged within a constant manner by those with whom I will potentially work with, wherein I have had negative past experiences in my past where I was negatively judged by those with whom I worked with because of the way I looked and behaved – instead of stopping myself from participating within those fears of re-living past experiences where I was teased and ridiculed for being me within a working environment, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to realise that I am not defined by my past fears/experiences, so that I may come to eventually work in a potential environment where I would allow myself to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use past experiences where I was teased and ridiculed within a working environment, as a definitive factor from within which I have used the excuse of the “fear of being ridiculed by others” as myself as an excuse that I have used in order to justify my lack of interest towards working, even if those experiences rarely and almost never occurred within my past experiences of working within a working/career-like environment, but where I have only used this excuse as a justification in order for me to continue as is, which is to continue within my current status of unemployment, rather than start moving my “weight” in this world and to start contributing to society within a job which suits what I have studied within my education so as to become a network analyst – even if such a job/work doesn’t necessarily stand for what is best for all as a reflection of the current system of abuse of the world, but that I nonetheless have to participate within so as to earn a living in the current status of the world system, before a new system which honours life in all ways is erected as the only viable system of the world as that which we at Desteni are currently busy bringing into fruition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the experience of fear within the perspective of having to “move my weight in this world”, within the prospect of having to actually work within the current system of abuse in the world – from within which I have used the excuse of “this current system of abuse as the world” to manipulate me into wanting/desiring not working in the current system of the world, because of the hypocritical stance of me not wanting to work in this world as it currently is, because of the fact that if I do work in the world as it currently is, that I am allowing myself to participate within the abuse as the current system of the world, which is hypocritical because of the fact that I am already responsible and accountable for the current system of abuse as the world, through all of my acceptances and allowances from within which I have believed myself to be and become such as the limited expression of me as the mind as the participation within energy and polarity manifestations such as “good” or “bad” – instead of realising that I am equally as all as one responsible for the state of the world as it currently is as the system of abuse, through my participation within the mind of abuse and illusions, and that in order for me to actually stop this system of abuse from being manifested in this world, that I have to first and foremost stop my participation within the activities of the mind, through the use of BREATHING, self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to CHANGE what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, so that I can reshape myself into an expression as life as that which is best for all life, so as to eventually bring about a system as a world which is best for all life, as the REAL heaven on earth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear showing myself to others within a working environment, whereas I secretly feed within the secrets of my mind, the personal fears that I have of actually having to show myself to others within a working environment, without the apparels as the specific clothes that I wear in order to distinguish myself from others – which won’t be allowed within a working environment – and to allow me to protect myself from the possible negative reaction of others within the fact of seeing me without my “protective apparels” wherein I would thus be perceived as what I fear to be perceived by others as myself, which is to be perceived as being ugly – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by my fear of being ugly, within the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by that fear whereas I fear being seen by others without my hat, because of the fear of being judged as being ugly through the fact that I am losing my hair, and through this, that I fear of being rejected by others as myself and where I will have to spend most of my time alone within the working environment, such as was the case in the past with some of my working experiences.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged by others as being ugly, because of the fear I have of being rejected by others, and thus the fear of having to spend my time alone in a corner within my working environment, as was the case in some of my past working experiences because of not “fitting in” with the “working crowd” – instead of stopping my obsessive fears of the mind of being perceived by others as being ugly thus being rejected because of my appearance, through the tools of breathing, self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to CHANGE what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become through the filters of the mind, so as to release myself from the fear of being rejected by others because of my appearance, and to allow myself to express myself unconditionally within the presence of others within a working environment, so as to stop myself from being controlled/manipulated by the fears of the mind, and to actually become the self-directive principle of me in my world for the first time, within my re-alignment to who I truly am as life as the physical as the self-honest expression of who I am HERE within and as stability as the physical as life, equal and one with all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the image of a prison to the experience of working within a working environment, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the working environment as being a prisoner from within which my actions are limited to the extremes of only complying to the allowed behaviours of the limited scope of a working environment – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define “freedom” as being equal to the expression of myself without limits or constraints, such as the limits and constraints that comes from working within a working environment, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being a prisoner when I am to be found within a conventional working environment – instead of stopping my participation within my definitions of what freedom is, through stopping myself from separating myself from the word “freedom” through me becoming equal and one with the physical as life, through stopping my participation within the mind of illusions and separation, through the tools of Breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to re-program/re-script myself into behaving and acting within the scope of what is best for all life, so as to finally CHANGE the system of abuse that we are all equally as one responsible for – through our acceptances and allowances in our participations within the mind of illusions – and to finally bring about a system where every living being has a dignified life within the principle of oneness and equality through birthing ourselves as life from the physical, so as to finally bring about heaven on earth, as what it should have been from the beginning.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the fear of working, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “fear of working” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “fear of being judged by others”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “fearing being judged by another”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com