oppositesLa partie de moi qui “n’existe pas” est transportée par mon “esprit”, puisque ce dernier “n’existe pas” de façon empirique à l’intérieur de “l’univers observable”. Est-ce que l’on peut quantifier où localiser l’esprit dans le monde matériel? La réponse évidente est que non. La partie de moi qui “existe” par contre, est celle qui est transporté par mon corps physique, puisque ce dernier “existe” de façon empirique à l’intérieur de “l’univers observable”. Est-ce que l’on peut quantifier où localiser le “corps physique” dans le monde matériel? La réponse évidente est que oui.

Ces deux parties, soit la partie “visible” – le physique – et la partie “invisible” – l’esprit -, participent CONJOINTEMENT et SIMULTANÉMENT à la CRÉATION de l’univers observable qui nous entoure. L’acte de créer, vue selon une perspective de “cause-à-effet” ou systémique, prend d’abord son origine dans la demeure “invisible” de l’existence, soit le monde “spirituel/esprit”, et se transmet/transpose naturellement vers le monde “matériel/physique” par l’entremise du “corps physique” – soit l’endroit exact où l’invisible – l’antimatière – rencontre le visible – la matière. Ce point de rencontre entre le visible et l’invisible, créé le corps matériel à travers lequel s’exprime les mouvements engendrés par l’expression de ces 2 oppositions.

Mais la réalité est que l’un ne vient pas avant l’autre, où plutôt que “l’invisible” ne vient pas “avant” le “visible”, puisque les 2 sont mutuellement joint et ne peuvent en aucun temps être dissocié l’un de l’autre, simplement puisque “l’un” – l’invisible – permet “l’autre” – le visible et que puisque l’un « EST » de façon éternelle – soit l’invisible – l’autre l’est également. Dès que l’un est “nommé”, l’aspect de lui-même qui l’oppose se voit automatiquement relégué aux “oubliettes”, afin de permettre l’avènement de “l’un” qui “l’oppose”.

Contrairement à ce qui est perçu, ce n’Est pas parce que nous percevons qu’un seul coté de la manifestation des choses que “l’envers” de ces dites choses disparait instantanément. Autrement dit, ce n’Est pas parce que nous percevons la partie  illuminé d’un objet que son ombre disparait. L’ombre – ce qui oppose une “chose” nommé ou défini par la raison – est indissociable de la chose/définition/nom qu’elle permet de composer et se retrouve toujours de « l’autre côté » de la « face » de la chose que nous observons. Sans l’ombre, il n’y a pas de côté illuminé – tout comme sans “ombre”, ou partie “cachée”, il n’y a pas de “partie dévoilée”, ou de “choses visibles”, “nommées” ou “définies”.

L’ombre véritable des choses est ce qui est reléguées aux oubliettes, soit ce qui ne peut absolument pas être “dévoilé”, puisque dès lors que “l’ombre” se “dévoile”, elle n’est alors donc plus dans “l’ombre” ou les “oubliettes” et perd donc instantanément de sa qualité étant nécessaire à la création des choses, soit sa qualité intrinsèque d’être à jamais dans “l’ombre”.

 

Ainsi, donc, la raison pour laquelle ces 2 aspects de toutes choses se DOIVENT d’exister de façon simultanée, soit que l’aspect qui est “visible” et l’aspect qui est “invisible” se doivent de s’exprimer mutuellement et ce au même moment – est que l’un permet l’autre et que dès lors que l’un s’exprime, l’autre s’exprime également mais dans un sens qui est et demeurera à jamais « invisible » à l’un qui l’oppose. Ceci est dû au fait que l’envers d’une chose est toujours son « absence totale ». Dès qu’une chose est nommée, elle appartient instantanément au domaine de « ce qui est », soit ce qui n’est pas absent, et se voit donc simultanément extraite du domaine de « ce qui n’est pas », soit ce qui est absent. Par exemple, lorsqu’une personne exprime de la « joie » dans un moment donné, la « tristesse » qui l’oppose sera manifestée instantanément dans  l’aspect « inconscient » de cette personne, puisque c’est invariablement le « contraste » entre les 2 qui permet à l’autre d’être « exprimé » ou d’exister. Le contraste original est et sera toujours celui qui existe entre « ce qui est » – ou la matière – et ce qui « n’est pas » – ou l’antimatière, donc, tout ce qui est rendu visible appartient au domaine de « ce qui est », alors que tout ce qui demeure invisible appartient au domaine de « ce qui n’est pas ».

L’invisible sera toujours et à jamais caché de toutes les découvertes faites par l’homme, puisque dès l’ors qu’une découverte sera effectuée en relation à l’origine de toutes choses, cette “découverte” exprimera un aspect de “l’invisible” qui sera soudainement rendu “visible” et que, pour cette simple raison, l’essence même de ce qui est “invisible” demeurera insaisissable, puisque dès l’ors qu’on croit le saisir avec une nouvelle définition des choses, son essence nous échappe puisque ne pouvant jamais être saisis à l’intérieur d’une définition quelconque, puisqu’une définition enlève tout de ce qu’elle tente de saisir, soit le « non-définissable ». Puisque ce qui est saisissable – la matière – est éternellement présente autour de nous en tant que formes matérielle, l’insaisissable l’est également et mutuellement puisque ce dernier PERMET l’existence de la matière qui l’oppose – et vice-versa. Sans l’un, il ne peut y avoir l’autre et que puisque l’un existe de façon éternelle – le rien – l’autre existe simultanément – le tout – mais de façon temporelle à l’intérieur de l’éternité.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need a universe where polarity exists in order for me to experience myself as who I am truly, where I have created a world and a universe where polarity exists in order for me to experience myself as a particular point within the spectrum of polarities, only so that I can have the opportunity to experience myself as the point of perspective within creation which sees itself as being “different” from another “point of perspective” within creation, and that I have especially created a system of the mind which have counterfeited the basic polarity which is at the heart of the creation of this universe, wherein I have created and manifested within myself, judgment so that I have the power to decide whether an experience is “good” or “bad” for me, while strictly basing my observation on the limited perspective of my mind’s conditioning which have been birthed out of my innate tendency to copy/mimic those that have come before – where I have never questioned or considered that the perspective that I have copied from those who have come before me, is fundamentally biased and can never represent the true nature of who I am within life/universe, such as who I am truly HERE within the absolute acceptance of who I am within this very moment HERE, so that I STOP judging the experiences that who I truly am as life has set out before me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging an experience as being “good” or “bad” that I am to immediately remind myself that all experiences that I live are willed by who I truly am as life, so that I relinquish the tendency to judge life, so that I can realise myself as who I truly am as life – where no judgements exists but only the joy of being HERE as life as the physical remains.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret as “good” or “bad” a manifestation of an event/experience in my life, because of the judgments that I have towards that experience as being “good” or “bad” for me – instead of stopping myself from judging an experience as being “good” or “bad” for me, through the realisation that I cannot exist without that which is “contrary to who I am”, as “that which is” cannot exist without the existence of “that which is not”, and that if I am to “judge” an experience as being “good” or “bad” for me, that I am simply limiting the expression and experience of who I truly am HERE within the manifestation of myself as this physical entity, because of the filters of my judgments which filters reality so that it complies to the limited nature of my judgments, and thus, where I have no opportunity to truly know who I am here as the physical as life, because of the self-imposed limits that I have accepted and allowed myself to have as judgments, out of having accepted and allowed myself to “believe” that which I have been thought of being, by those who have come before me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging an experience that is here for me to experience as a specific moment in time, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within the patterns of judgment, through firstly breathing, so as to bring myself back HERE as who I am within the physical as life; then apply the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a self-abusive robot as a figment of the mind consciousness system, and re-script myself as who I truly am as life here, where no judgments exists which disables me from appreciating the experience of who I am here as life, one and equal with all living beings.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the patterned behaviour of judgment towards a particular experience that I have, to immediately remind myself through breathing, that I am not the mind, but here as the physical as life, and that any and all judgments that I may have about a person or a situation, is merely a filter that disables me from experiencing myself as who I truly am as life.

I commit myself to remind myself that all experiences that is manifested for me to have by my true nature, is exactly what I need to experience in any given time or context – and that all I have to do is to say “yes” to the experience, so that I may realise myself as who I truly am as life = where there is no judgments as filters limiting our perception of who we truly are as life.

I commit myself to remove all filters as judgments towards myself, life, or any events in-between, so that I may come to fully realise who I truly am as life, so that I become an example for all as myself, as what it is to be a responsible human being in this world.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want/need to please another when I am with the company of another, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self-responsibility as a responsible human being in order to become whatever it is that is asked of me by another, so as to make sure that I please another even if in disregard of that which is best for all, such as being and becoming that which another wants me to be, because of the fear that I have of not pleasing another when I am with the company of another – instead of stopping myself from participating within such enslaving behaviours through the usage of the tools of writing, in order to sort myself out, self-forgiveness in order to free myself from the mind constructs which keeps me enslaved within the mind, self-honesty so as to see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a mind robot, so as to eventually free myself from the enslavement of who I am within the mind, and release who I am as life so as to eventually change what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as humanity in order to bring about a new system which honours life and gives dignity to all living beings on this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate who and what I am within the practical knowledge and common sense of who I am as life, because of having accepted and allowed myself to do whatever I can within my power to make sure that when I am with the company of another human being, that that other human being remains happy as much as possible, even if the behaviour expressed within the manifestation of happiness disregards whatever negative consequences as outflow, because of only being concerned with the happiness that is expressed within the self alone – instead of stopping myself from exerting such behaviour when I am within the company of another, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to re-program myself from a self-interested robot into a self which acts within the interests of all life, one and equal to all living beings.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not pleasing another human being when I am with the company of another human being, especially when I am with the company of friends and acquaintances, because of the fear that I have of being alone with myself, even if I have learned through life that all that I am and all that I ever will be is alone, and that when I am with the company of friends or acquaintances, that I am willing to abdicate the common sense within me – common sense within the sense of acting within the interest of what is best for all life – only to make sure that I “fall into” what another wants me to be, so as to make sure that that other remains “happy” within my company, even if that means that I have to abdicate my responsibility towards life and act within limited frames of awareness, such as changing my eco-conscious behaviour into a non-eco-conscious behaviour because of being with acquaintances and friends which are not as eco-conscious as myself – instead of remaining loyal to the principle that I stand for, which is the principle of being “life aware” such as acting upon my awareness of the state of the world, in order to make sure that I won’t reproduce the errors of the past so as to bring about the establishment of the foundations upon which I will stand in order to bring about a world which is best for all – and that if I am to find myself continuously acting within the limited ecological and humanitarian awareness of those who are around me, that I am to immediately apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from constantly and continuously reproducing behaviours of abuse towards life, and reformat my behaviours within what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so as to eventually constantly and continuously act within the awareness of bringing a world which is best for all life.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “fantasising about a girl” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “sexual fiend”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “sexual character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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Earth’s Journey to Life

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ImageI forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that to be a vegetarian is to be a better person than those who eat meat, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within games of polarity such as being “better than” those who eat meat while I perceived those who eat meat as being “less than” those who didn’t eat meat, instead of realising that my accepted and allowed participation within the polarity of the mind only reinforces my enslavement to the mind from within which I separate myself further into separation, rather than stopping myself from being enslaved by the mind through me stopping participating within such polarity manifestation through the tools of self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, so as to become one and equal to the physical as life where there is no participation within whatever forms of polarity as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have judged those who eat meat as being “bad” because of the perception that this choice of lifestyle is in detriment to the animals and thus a detriment to life, because of the fact that one is not obliged to eat meat in order to survive, being that vegetarianism is a viable alternative to eating meat, whereas one can find all of the necessary proteins and substitute within being vegetarian and that eating meat is not necessary in order to survive in this world, instead of realising that being a vegetarian is not something which everyone in this world can afford as those who doesn’t have money and or are not in a position to be vegetarians have no choice but to eat meat in order to survive – such as the poor living in third world countries – and that the act of eating meat is not a “bad” thing as it is oftentimes the only available resource of food for the most of humanity. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that to be a vegetarian is reserved to the “elite” of the world, whereas only those who have the money or who are in a favourable economic system can be vegetarians, because of the realisation that not everyone can be a vegetarian as most of the population suffers from hunger and that the only available resource for food is meat. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to place myself within the shoes of another, such as the poor living in the third world countries who have no choice but to eat meat – wherein the hunger they are experiencing is so extensive that they will eat almost anything that is presented to them so as to relieve themselves from the hunger which is making their lives a living hell, and through realising that within equality and oneness, no one is better or worse than another  because of one’s eating lifestyle as we are all equally and one responsible for what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become within this reality as the abuse of physicality in order to satisfy what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become as constant consumers of life as the act of being a vegetarian or being a meat eater is equal and one within the perspective that both need to eat life as the physical in order to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel better about myself when I eat food based in vegetarianism instead of eating food based on the meat industry, because of what I have seen through the internet regarding what really happens within the meat industry – where it is seen just how extensive the abuse towards life as the animals is accepted and allowed to continue within the meat industry – and that from watching these videos such as “the earthers”, that I have decided to be and become a vegetarian only because of my desire to fuel positive feelings within and as the act of eating, because of the perception that being a vegetarian is “better than” eating meat, because of the fact that I do not at least participate within the abuse of life as the abuse of animals when I eat food based in vegetarianism – within this, I forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me seeing myself as being “better than” those who eat meat because of me defining myself as being a vegetarian, that I thus automatically accept and allow myself to judge those who eat meat as being “less than me”, thus accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarities of the mind, such as the games of superiorities and inferiorities, wherein I only further the “cancer of the world” as consciousness as the absolute separation from who we are as Life HERE within and as the physical, instead of stopping such participation within the mind as separation through me applying the tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to become one and equal as the physical as life here within oneness and equality, so as to change my expression from one where I am conditioned/programmed by the mind to one where I am equal and one with the unconditional expression of who I am as the physical as Life eternal.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad when I see an animal which is caged, because of the projection of myself within and as the animal whereas I project my sense of liberty within and as the sense of liberty of the animal, making me sad about the fact that my liberty would be confined to the limited space of a cage if I were to be the animal which is caged, instead of realising that because of me feeling bad/sad for the animal which is caged, that I thus automatically participate within feelings of goodness/happiness/high energy when I see an animal which is not caged, thus making me still subject to be controlled by the limited confines of the mind, such as the cage that I as the physical as life am in within and as myself, through the continuous participation within polarity such as feeling good and feeling bad which only furthers my enslavement to the mind as the illusion of myself, rather than stopping such participation within the inner limits of the mind through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to be and become the unconditional expression as life as me acting within the perspective of what is best for all life wherein no mind exist but only self-expression as life unconditional remains.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to love animals more than I love humans, because of the perception that animals give unconditional love whereas there is no condition placed by the animals for the attention/care/love they express to humans, instead of the conditions that humans place on the attention/care/love that they give one another, as the conditions of loving someone for their “beauty” or their “intelligence” or their “personality”, instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to “love” animals more than I love humans, that I thus only further the separation as the selective mind through me accepting and allowing myself to “love animals MORE than I love humans”, thus still allowing myself to participate within the polarities of the mind as MORE THAN and LESS THAN, and that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within such polarities of the mind, that I will only further the system of abuse in this world through me generating friction as conflict as spite/blame/justification that I hold against humanity for not “loving/caring” for one another like the unconditional “love and care” that I see the animals giving to humans.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from humanity as what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become as the system of abuse of the world, because of me seeing/perceiving myself as being “better than the rest of humanity” because of having defined myself as being a vegetarian, instead of realising that I am not “better than” the rest of humanity simply because i still continue to participate within the polarities of the mind such as “more than” or “less than” which only furthers the system of abuse as separation instead of stopping such participation within separation through me self-investigating what I have programmed myself into being as the mind as separation, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to become the real expression of myself as all as one as equal as the physical as life, Equal and one with all living beings.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind polarity such as feeling good or bad for the status of animals through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as games of polarity, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling good or feeling bad” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of an animal lover, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of high/positive energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have participated within the idea of killing myself because of not finding anything good for me in this world, whereas the fact that I have spent most of my life alone with myself has built within me and over time, the notion that I am not wanted in this world, and through this that I would be better off dead rather than to have to live alone and by myself in this world, instead of realising that the perception of being alone such as that which is interpreted by the mind as being separate from all and everything as life as the starting point of the desire to kill myself, is not who and what I am as who and what I am is always and in all ways equal to and one with the principle of oneness and equality as life as the physical and that from within the starting point of who I truly am as life, no desires of dying exists as what I truly am as life as the physical is forever fulfilled and can never die. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself as the mind from the physical as life, and that through me accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the physical as life, that I thus automatically invite such desires as that of killing myself because of becoming the principle of separation as the mind as that which perceive itself as being separate and finite, instead of remaining united within and as life as the physical wherein no desires of death is existent as the physical as life is infinite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to kill myself because of not having any girlfriends to share my time with, whereas I sometimes nourish thoughts of killing myself because of having associated positive energetic experiences with the fact of being with a girlfriend, from within which I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the positive energetic experiences that I experience within myself when with a girlfriend is enough to remove all desires of killing myself as those desires have been spawned through the time where I have been without a girlfriend which is extended, and that through this extensive time spent alone with myself, that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the negative energies of the mind because of not having what I as the mind has associated with positive energetic experiences such as being with a girlfriend. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value being with a girlfriend as being above life, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to think about killing myself only because of not having a girlfriend, which proves to me that I have conditioned myself to value being with a girlfriend as being above the value I have given to life, simply because of my acceptance and allowance of the thought/desire of killing myself, instead of realising that the thought of me killing myself is actually me as life stating that I want to STOP participating in the mind as death through me killing/stopping my ego/mind possession so as to come back to who I am HERE as life as the physical as all as one as equal as life eternal where only the will to live exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as being inferior to a woman/female/girlfriend because of the “more than myself” value that I have given to the woman/female/girlfriend in this world, whereas the desire to touch and be with the body of a naked woman is perceived as being superior to the fact/act of touching and being with the body of a naked man such as what I am as myself – as I am always in touch with myself as my male physical body and that because of the perception that I have of the female physical body as that which I lack as my male physical body, that I have generated this desire of being/touching with a woman so as to possess what I lack as my male physical body, and that if this desire of possessing/touching a female’s naked physical body is not constantly fulfilled, that I am constantly lacking in what would make me experience myself as being fulfilled because of continuously and constantly living within the desires of the mind as separation – instead of realising that whenever I accept and allow myself to participate within the energies of the mind, such as the positive energies that I experience when with a female/woman’s physical body and the negative energies that I experience when I am not with a female/woman’s physical body, that I am constantly and continuously enslaving myself in the system of abuse as the energies of the mind rather than stopping myself from participating within such systems of abuse through BREATHING, self-investigating through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to kill myself because of not wanting to work for a living in this world, whereas the thought of having to work and thus be physically enslaved to the system is enough to make me desire erasing myself from this existence because of the fear that I have of actually having to face the system as myself through me exposing myself within the rules/games of the system instead of remaining blissfully hidden from the social obligations such as working and earning a living, instead of realising that I am equal and one responsible for the system and that it is through my active participation in the system towards the goal to change the system for a system which is best for all life, such as the system of Equal Money, that I will be and become a responsible human being in this world who acts in order to bring what is best for all life, as the current system of abuse in this world only stands for self-interests which can never stand for oneness and equality as life because of self-imposed self-separation from the rest of self as all as the universe as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire killing myself because of the belief that it is better in the hereafter, whereas I have conditioned myself to be-LIE-ve that everything would be better in the afterlife from within the thought that because of me being a good person, that I would be granted a high position within the hereafter where I would experience unnameable spiritual freedom because of the belief that everything is better in the hereafter, instead of realising that this perception of the hereafter is only but a dream which has no foundation within reality as what is busy happening within this physical existence, and that the only way that such a vision of the hereafter can exist is through me changing my ways within and as this life, through me stopping my accepted and allowed participation within the mind so as to reveal myself as who I truly am as life as the physical and from there bring about a life which is best for all, Equal and One with all living beings, such as through the advent of the Equal Money System – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the dreams of a hereafter are a copout from the real LIFE responsibilities such as to change what we have accepted and allowed as humanity as the system of abuse which dishonours life, into a system that honours all life equally so that HEAVEN may become REAL in FACT.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within ideas of killing myself, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as the thoughts of killing myself, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy from within which the desires to kill myself originates – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as life as the physical.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “wanting to kill myself” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of being rejected by life, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of wanting to kill myself, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

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Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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I will publish a re-introduction to who I am here as I have now completed my first DIP assignment where I have been asked to introduce myself. It will give further perspective on the How I have come upon the Desteni material and what happenned next as my first experience with the material. So, here goes:

So, my name is Alex Parkinson, and I have been aware of the Desteni material ever since the beginning of the year 2008. How I came into contact with Desteni was something of a coincidence, as I kind of stumbled upon a video made by sunette as I was looking for something else in youtube.

Within the month of January 2008, I was within a particular state of mind from within which I was brought to a video made by sunette on youtube. The state of mind I was in at the time made me perceive myself as being “more than myself”, wherein I was within what I later realised as being a mind possession of an energetic entity where I felt and experienced myself as being “extremely more than” what I normally was/am. I have to state that this feeling of experimenting myself as being “extremely more than” what I normally experienced myself as, was brought to my consciousness as a side effect of what I have been defined/diagnosed as being, which is bipolar – and that such an experience of myself as that of the feeling of a “extreme high energy” was a consequence of my predicament as that of being a bipolar according to the psychiatrists of this world. Ever since I have been diagnosed as being bipolar, I never really perceived myself as being ill or being defined as being bipolar, but that this definition was only the result of the assessment that a psychiatrist made of me, after having experienced a first episode of a manic experience, back in June of the year 2003. So, ever since that time, I have cyclically and regularly experienced myself as being “high” within and as the experience of me. This being probably due to the fact that I had overwhelmed myself within such an experience of high energy back in the year 2003, that it created an addiction within and as my nervous system, and that I did nothing within my power to stop such an experience within myself, as I was so enthralled within the new perspective that the “high energy” brought unto my perception of existence, that I didn’t want to let go of it. Thus it became an addiction of some sorts, but an addiction which had its own life as it came and left within cycles after having first experienced this type of manic energy in 2003.

So, this explains the mind state that I was in as I first got introduced to the Desteni material. Now, concerning the hazardous events which brought me to get to know Desteni and its message, I kind of stumbled into a video made by Sunette in youtube, as I was looking for videos about spiritual subjects – to which I do not exactly remember the specificities of. However, as I was looking for videos in youtube – probably regarding the subject of life after death but I am unsure of this – my attention was brought to a thumbnail-video which was on the side of the youtube page I was looking at at the time. I saw the face of Sunette in the thumbnail, but what really caught my attention was the subtitle that was under the thumbnail-video. I do not remember exactly what was said under the thumbnail-video, but it evidently caught my attention, as I felt the urge to view it. As I was watching the video for the first time, I remember that I have experienced within myself a feeling of liberation as if I was expanding within myself as I was watching the video. I think it was about the subject of the atlanteans, but my memory of this event is failing me, so I cannot exactly tell if it was the first video that I saw of Desteni or if it was a subsequent video that I saw later on. Needless to say that essentially, what brought me to further investigate Desteni after the first video, was directly related to the “feelings” that I experienced within myself as I was watching my first video of Sunette/the dimensions. It was thus the feelings that I experienced within myself that brought me to further my investigation on the Desteni material. So, after this first encounter with Desteni, I followed the link to the Desteni web page, which was under the domain www.desteni.co.za at the time. What followed was a descent into a deeper state of manic episode, as I was so mesmerised by what I stumbled into, that I became caught within feelings of even higher states of mind, as I was completely under the spell of the fountain of relevant information that I stumbled into at the Desteni web page.

So, I started watching and watching and watching videos made by Sunette whereas I spent entire days and even nights doing that sole task – as I was completely hypnotised by the information that was revealed by the videos about the history of man, the universe and the self as was described by Sunette within her videos. In fact, my hypnotism with the Desteni videos was so great, that at one point, I became completely obsessed by my desires to watch all of the videos that had been made by Sunette. I remember that the number of videos that Sunette made at the time, was a little bit above 900 and that I had made it a goal of mine to watch them all within the shortest time span as possible.

At one point however, my desires to watch all of the Desteni videos available, in order to get as much “spiritually” relevant information as possible became so obsessive that I was eventually forced out of my home by the police. Now, this may sound extreme but let me tell you what brought the police to intervene within this particular predicament I was in with regards to the Desteni material.

As I stated earlier, the act of watching the first few videos had opened a door within and as my mind where I became completely obsessed within the goal of watching all of the Desteni videos within the shortest time span possible. In fact, I wanted to watch the videos so badly, that I made it a goal of mine to watch in sequence, all of the 900 and + videos as in a marathon. What was particular within what followed was that my mind became like a sponge, where I metaphorically speaking, drank all of the information as if it was the fountain of spiritual/esoteric knowledge. It became so intense that I started doing what was suggested in the videos, as I went through phases where I first changed my voice as I was talking in order to talk “without any energetic consonances” as it was said within some of the videos, that we had been preprogramed by the annunaki to react to specific sounds within our verbal expression of ourselves which only furthered our enslavement to the mind. It was also suggested that this programming made by the Annunaki was so “perfect” that a solution hadn’t yet been discovered by what I believed was Jack – the dimensional being. My memory is not that clear as to the details of that fact, but I remember clearly that I brought it unto myself to find the solution in order to bypass this programming. What I thus found was to talk in monotonous fashion so that I wouldn’t reinforce this programming within myself and others as myself from within my relationship with others. So, I began speaking in monotonous tones with all those with whom I had a relationship with at the time – and I stuck to this application as long as I could, which was until the policemen intervened and brought me to the hospital in order to “check my mental stability”.

The reason why I was brought to the hospital was not exactly because of what I just explained, but it was mostly because of an even more extreme behaviour that I adopted as I watched, in sequence, as most videos that I could – or until the exact moment where the policemen removed me by force from my computer in order to place me in an ambulance. Now, the reason why the policemen forced me out of my home, was because the roommate that was living with me at the time, became extremely concerned about my wellbeing, as at one point, I was so into the idea of bypassing the programming made by the Reptilians, that I merged within my mind, personal beliefs towards what I was witnessing in the desteni videos. My mind became a bundled mess. At one point I actually believed that I had to metaphorically “restart my birth sequence” so as to purify myself from the programming made by the Reptilians. So, I followed this “idea” of restarting my birth sequence in order to purify myself whereas I went to the extremes of placing all of my belongings, which included all of my clothes, in garbage bags as I was under the influence that I had to get rid of all of that which made me relate to my past so as to start anew. So, what happened next was that I was completely naked in front of the computer screen as I was watching the remaining videos of Sunette, whereas I have placed all of my belongings in garbage bags and placed the garbage bags in the living room so as to eventually throw everything away.

As I was doing this, my roommate was seeing me do this all in front of his eyes – whereas I kept on telling him that he had to trust me, that I knew what I was doing – lol, to which I clearly wasn’t now in retrospect. So, seeing me behave in such an extreme fashion brought my roommate to call my mother for support. So my mother came and as she saw me naked in front of the computer screen, not being able to put some sense into me, she called the police wherein I was eventually brought to the hospital for treatment.

So, without going into too much more details about what happened next (as I just realised that I have written more than 4 pages already), let just say that this was my introduction to destiny and its material. Needless to say that I have since changed my views regarding my fear of what the reptilians did to us, Desteni, the process and its material, but this was actually what happened in my life as I first got introduced to Desteni.

So, I will leave it at that for now and will continue walking my process until my next assignment.

Edit: Concerning my 7 years to life process commitment, I decided on my own accord in the month of May 2012 that even if I was banned at the time from joining the Desteni community through the forum, because of my precarious past with Desteni, that I would take it unto myself to apply myself in the process even if I would not be supported in doing so. So I made the decision to commit myself to the 7 years to life process because I came under the realisation, as even if I had been banned many times in the past by Desteni because of abusive behaviours, that the Desteni message and principle was altogether the only source of practical information that was actually making common sense throughout all of the different idealogies/philosophies/books that I have read throughout all of my life. I came under that realisation because like I said, even after having been banned many times by Desteni, it’s message lingered within my mind to such an extent that I couldn’t pull myself out of the Desteni movement even as I was banned from the community, as I knew within the depths of myself, that everything that Desteni stood for was actually everything that I also stood for within myself, but that I had not yet allowed to become real within and as myself through consistent practical application. So, after continuously reading the Desteni materials throughout the time where I was banned – continuously watching videos of destonians and reading blogs – it became obvious to me that I had to apply myself at all cost, even if I was to be forever banned from the Desteni community, because it became absolutely obvious/clear to me that everything that Desteni stands for is exactly as that which Desteni claims, which is the stand for life as that which is best for all life – and that it is only me within and as what I have accepted and allwoed myeslf to be and become as the mind, that can change myself and stop my participation within the mind = no one else but myself will come and save me from myself. I actually didn’t even consider the possibility of rejoining the community when I first started with my 7 years to life blog, as all that mattered to me was to apply myself consistently through the 7 years to life process. I wanted to do this for myself as a clear and definitive statement of my commitment towards life as the physical as who we truly are, equal and one. So, I made the commitment with myself to, for the first time in my life, commit myself to myself and make a real and actual stand for life so as to live the new statement that I wanted to make of myself – which is to forever stand for that which is life and no more accept and allow myself to participate within the illusion as the mind.

Cheers,

Alex