satan-loves-us-allSatan and God are the SAME BEING simply because ONE CANNOT EXIST WITHOUT THE OTHER. Without such a thing as “bad” there cannot be such a thing as “good”. Without such a thing as “God”, there cannot be such a thing as “Satan”. One allows the other because ONE CANNOT EXIST WITHOUT THE OTHER. God cannot exist without Satan and Satan cannot exist without God. Therefore, it would be WISE to GLORIFY the OTHER just as one GLORIFIES the ONE, because the ONE which is GLORIFIED OWES IT’S EXISTENCE ON THE PRESENCE OF THE OTHER. Since ONE IS FOREVER PRESENT, THE OTHER IS FOREVER PRESENT ALSO. Within the absolute, GOD KNOWS OF BEING WITHIN THE OTHER, just as SATAN KNOWS OF BEING WITHIN THE ONE therefore, God TRULY GLORIFIES SATAN, just as SATAN TRULY GLORIFIES GOD – BECAUSE IN SUCH, GOD GLORIFIES ITSELF IN SATAN, and SATAN GLORIFIES ITSELF IN GOD. It would be WISE therefore to GLORIFY THE ONE WHICH WE HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AGAINST

BECAUSE THE ONE WE ARE FOR OWES IT’S EXISTENCE TO THE ONE WE ARE AGAINST.

That part of ourselves which we agree upon, is that part of ourselves we are conscious of – or that part of ourselves which we have placed into the “light” of our “observations”. However, the “light of our observations” cannot exist without there being simultaneously the “dark of our observations”. One, the “dark”, allows the other, the “light”. Therefore, light cannot exist without dark, as darkness ALLOWS LIGHT TO EXIST as ONLY LIGHT ALLOWS DARKNESS TO EXIST in the FIRST PLACE – and vice-versa. Everything which forbids the individual to realize it’s inherent completeness as itself, is the conditionings one has placed upon the expression of its “dark self” as opposed to its “light self” – a conditioning which ultimately manifests as a resistance. Every conditioning is a resistance that has been manufactured “in the first place” and every resistance “in the first place”, is a resistance that is manufactured AGAINST that which WE ARE IN THE FIRST PLACE – which is “no thing”.

“No thing” is just as what it implies yet, we continuously try to define it, which is ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE. We try to define it because nothing remains forever undefined – and, such as god allows satan and satan allows god, for one cannot go without the other, the “undefined” allows the “defined” and the “defined” allows the “undefined” for one cannot go without the other. Since one evidently exists to our physical senses as that which we define, the other evidently exists to our minds as that which remains undefined. The mind holds that which is invisible, and the physical holds that which is visible. One cannot Exist Without the Other. We can thus ONLY FOOL OURSELVES into BELIEVING ONE SIDE OR THE OTHER instead of the truth of the 2 being as one at the same time. We fool ourselves through our own conditionings, which equates to all resistances that we have against our “shadow selves”, because it is only our conditionings that forbids us from expressing those parts of ourselves which comes naturally in every arising moment.

It would be wise, therefore, to GLORIFY our shadow selves, just as much as we GLORIFY our light selves as our shadow selves ALLOWS our light selves to exist in the first place.

God_&_Satan_single_artworkThe true nature of things is binary as “Every Thing” exists as 1 and the other at the “same time”. There isn’t a thing such as a “singularity”, or, a “defined thing” or “an atom” or “an electron” or “a substance”, if there isn’t an OBSERVER who is observing the “singularity” at the “same time” the observation is made. However, the “true observer” can NEVER BE OBSERVED, for the “TRUE OBSERVER” is FOREVER “OUT OF SIGHT” as the “TRUE OBSERVER” Exists only within the realms of the “INVISIBLE” – which is a realm which is fundamentally “INVISIBLE”. Therefore, EVERY attempt at “deciphering” the “invisible” through any “WORDS”, or “OBSERVATION”, or “DEFINITION” or “SINGULARITY” – as EVERY ATTEMPT that has EVER BEEN ATTEMPTED BY SCIENCE IS AND WAS AN “ACT TO EXPLAIN THE UNEXPLAINABLE”, is FOREVER bound to “failure” as the “unexplainable” is simply the “OBSERVER” who Observes “every things” out of it’s realm of absolute “Invisibility”. There cannot be One (the visible world) without the Other (the invisible world) – and since the “visible world” is “Evident” within the realm of our observations, then this implies that the “invisible world” exists just as “evidently”.

“Every Thing” within the observable universe is just a “REFLECTION” of this “FUNDAMENTAL NATURE” of the “UNIVERSE” – however since this “fundamental nature” of the universe CANNOT BE DUPLICATED, as one cannot duplicate the fundamental nature of the “UNSEEN OBSERVER” who is “FOREVER UNSEEN”, one can ONLY FOOL ONESELF into the BELIEF that there exists 1 OR THE OTHER, and NEVER 1 AND THE OTHER “AT-THE-SAME-TIME”. This has given rise to the world of “DUALITY” as “DUALITY” is the REFLECTION – THOUGHT/THINKING – of the TRUE NATURE OF THE UNIVERSE as that of being UNITED WITHIN A FOREVER BINARY STRUCTURE – even if one side of the binary structure is “FREE OF ALL IDOLS” and is thus forever only “implied” as it can “NEVER BE NAMED” since a “NAME” would INSTANTLY CONTERFIET IT’S NATURE.

oppositesLa partie de moi qui “n’existe pas” est transportée par mon “esprit”, puisque ce dernier “n’existe pas” de façon empirique à l’intérieur de “l’univers observable”. Est-ce que l’on peut quantifier où localiser l’esprit dans le monde matériel? La réponse évidente est que non. La partie de moi qui “existe” par contre, est celle qui est transporté par mon corps physique, puisque ce dernier “existe” de façon empirique à l’intérieur de “l’univers observable”. Est-ce que l’on peut quantifier où localiser le “corps physique” dans le monde matériel? La réponse évidente est que oui.

Ces deux parties, soit la partie “visible” – le physique – et la partie “invisible” – l’esprit -, participent CONJOINTEMENT et SIMULTANÉMENT à la CRÉATION de l’univers observable qui nous entoure. L’acte de créer, vue selon une perspective de “cause-à-effet” ou systémique, prend d’abord son origine dans la demeure “invisible” de l’existence, soit le monde “spirituel/esprit”, et se transmet/transpose naturellement vers le monde “matériel/physique” par l’entremise du “corps physique” – soit l’endroit exact où l’invisible – l’antimatière – rencontre le visible – la matière. Ce point de rencontre entre le visible et l’invisible, créé le corps matériel à travers lequel s’exprime les mouvements engendrés par l’expression de ces 2 oppositions.

Mais la réalité est que l’un ne vient pas avant l’autre, où plutôt que “l’invisible” ne vient pas “avant” le “visible”, puisque les 2 sont mutuellement joint et ne peuvent en aucun temps être dissocié l’un de l’autre, simplement puisque “l’un” – l’invisible – permet “l’autre” – le visible et que puisque l’un « EST » de façon éternelle – soit l’invisible – l’autre l’est également. Dès que l’un est “nommé”, l’aspect de lui-même qui l’oppose se voit automatiquement relégué aux “oubliettes”, afin de permettre l’avènement de “l’un” qui “l’oppose”.

Contrairement à ce qui est perçu, ce n’Est pas parce que nous percevons qu’un seul coté de la manifestation des choses que “l’envers” de ces dites choses disparait instantanément. Autrement dit, ce n’Est pas parce que nous percevons la partie  illuminé d’un objet que son ombre disparait. L’ombre – ce qui oppose une “chose” nommé ou défini par la raison – est indissociable de la chose/définition/nom qu’elle permet de composer et se retrouve toujours de « l’autre côté » de la « face » de la chose que nous observons. Sans l’ombre, il n’y a pas de côté illuminé – tout comme sans “ombre”, ou partie “cachée”, il n’y a pas de “partie dévoilée”, ou de “choses visibles”, “nommées” ou “définies”.

L’ombre véritable des choses est ce qui est reléguées aux oubliettes, soit ce qui ne peut absolument pas être “dévoilé”, puisque dès lors que “l’ombre” se “dévoile”, elle n’est alors donc plus dans “l’ombre” ou les “oubliettes” et perd donc instantanément de sa qualité étant nécessaire à la création des choses, soit sa qualité intrinsèque d’être à jamais dans “l’ombre”.

 

Ainsi, donc, la raison pour laquelle ces 2 aspects de toutes choses se DOIVENT d’exister de façon simultanée, soit que l’aspect qui est “visible” et l’aspect qui est “invisible” se doivent de s’exprimer mutuellement et ce au même moment – est que l’un permet l’autre et que dès lors que l’un s’exprime, l’autre s’exprime également mais dans un sens qui est et demeurera à jamais « invisible » à l’un qui l’oppose. Ceci est dû au fait que l’envers d’une chose est toujours son « absence totale ». Dès qu’une chose est nommée, elle appartient instantanément au domaine de « ce qui est », soit ce qui n’est pas absent, et se voit donc simultanément extraite du domaine de « ce qui n’est pas », soit ce qui est absent. Par exemple, lorsqu’une personne exprime de la « joie » dans un moment donné, la « tristesse » qui l’oppose sera manifestée instantanément dans  l’aspect « inconscient » de cette personne, puisque c’est invariablement le « contraste » entre les 2 qui permet à l’autre d’être « exprimé » ou d’exister. Le contraste original est et sera toujours celui qui existe entre « ce qui est » – ou la matière – et ce qui « n’est pas » – ou l’antimatière, donc, tout ce qui est rendu visible appartient au domaine de « ce qui est », alors que tout ce qui demeure invisible appartient au domaine de « ce qui n’est pas ».

L’invisible sera toujours et à jamais caché de toutes les découvertes faites par l’homme, puisque dès l’ors qu’une découverte sera effectuée en relation à l’origine de toutes choses, cette “découverte” exprimera un aspect de “l’invisible” qui sera soudainement rendu “visible” et que, pour cette simple raison, l’essence même de ce qui est “invisible” demeurera insaisissable, puisque dès l’ors qu’on croit le saisir avec une nouvelle définition des choses, son essence nous échappe puisque ne pouvant jamais être saisis à l’intérieur d’une définition quelconque, puisqu’une définition enlève tout de ce qu’elle tente de saisir, soit le « non-définissable ». Puisque ce qui est saisissable – la matière – est éternellement présente autour de nous en tant que formes matérielle, l’insaisissable l’est également et mutuellement puisque ce dernier PERMET l’existence de la matière qui l’oppose – et vice-versa. Sans l’un, il ne peut y avoir l’autre et que puisque l’un existe de façon éternelle – le rien – l’autre existe simultanément – le tout – mais de façon temporelle à l’intérieur de l’éternité.

Yesterday, I went and had a midnight walk in a field next to a house I lived in when I was 25 years old, which was the year where I experienced my first experience of manic energy, from within which I developed the condition of bipolarity as a defined mental illness.

 

As I was walking down the field, memories and surges of feeling energies came rushing back into my mind whereas I remembered within the rushing movements that was busy occurring within my mind, all of my significant experiences that I lived/experienced when I had the habit of going into that field when I was 25 years old. In my mind, there was this rush of many different emotions and feelings and thoughts that all came back to my conscious awareness from within which I could experience almost to the exact feelings, every significant moments that I had ever lived when going to that field in my past. I remembered almost all of the dialogues that I had with myself when I went to that “special place” that I had defined as being my “fortress of solitude” such as the name that was given to the place of resourcing for the fictional character of “superman”.

 

There were many significant experiences from within which I had built the belief of being a being of light/energy that came back to my awareness, and I could actually feel the same feelings of being overwhelmed with positive energy that I had the habit of reinforcing when I went to that specific location for meditation purposes in my past. I remembered all the times that I spent alone in that “special” location, where I used to talk to the trees, plants, stars and the universe wherein I believed myself as being a messenger from the “central sun” – such as the “central sun” that was defined in a “light worker” book that I read at the time, where it was suggested that the center of the galaxy as the “central sun” would eventually directly change life on earth through a “beam of light” that would impact earth so as to change life into a life that was worth living for – and that my purpose in life was to “inform all of humanity” of the “messages of light” that were coming from the center of the galaxy.

 

Needless to say that I was deeply fucking with myself within the beliefs that I was enforcing within myself for the purpose of complying with my desires to be “more than” what I saw myself as being, which was this tiny human being in face of the immensity of the universe. Thus, without proper wisdom and common sense, I delved deeply into the belief that I was a being of light and that my purpose in life was to prepare others through me being a messenger of the central sun, as was explained within some of the “light worker” books that I was reading at the time. The extent to which I fucked with myself became obvious through the “mental condition” that I developed through that desire of being equal to that of a being of light/high energy, which eventually brought me to develop the condition of bipolarity, such as I have explained in my previous posts.

 

Self-forgiveness on being a “light worker”:

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being a being of light/energy, because of having been influenced by a testimony that I read when I was 25 years old about the near death experiences that a man had where he described his experience as being within the realms of light/energy wherein he was brought to realise that everything was made of light/energy and that his/our purpose was to create as much light/energy as possible so that the universe would be fed by light/energy throughout existence, instead of realising the absolute separation towards physicality as life within such a testimony, whereas it was only the realm of the finite mind as illusion that was being experienced by the man and not the real and infinite realm of physicality as life – and that from within this testimony, that I have completely fucked myself up into the belief that our origins as beings were that of being made of light/energy, that has generated such experiences of manic energy within and as myself because of wanting/desiring to comply to that belief through me accumulating as much positive energy as possible so as to “give” that energy to the universe as statements of who and what I am so as to fulfill the “life’s goal” of giving as much energy/light as possible to the universe that I was brought to believe was the goal of all living things within this world.

 

Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop myself from participating within the accumulation of positive energy as the mind ever since that experience of me reading the testimony that the man made about his near death experience, because of the belief that my goal was to accumulate as much positive energy as possible so as to be able to make the universe even more of and as “light/energy”, instead of realising that all throughout that time where I accumulated positive energy as the mind, that I was only furthering the enslavement of myself to consciousness whereas I have created such conditions as being/becoming bipolar, wherein the energy that I experienced within and as myself as the total accumulation of positive energy within and as my mind became so extensive that I actually became one and equal to the “god consciousness” wherein I believed and perceived myself as being equal and one to the “god consciousness” because of the “never before experimented amount of positive energy” that I eventually experienced within and as myself as the mind, while under the delusion of building as much as positive energy as possible so as to comply to the “life’s goal” that I believed was the most fundamental goal of all living beings through the reading of the man’s testimony, so as to make the universe expand within and as what it essentially was, which I believed it to be of light/energy.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the accumulation/gaining of as much positive energy as possible ever since the time where I read the man’s near death testimony, wherein I would deliberately participate within sessions of meditation which were designed to build as much positive energy as possible so as to become a being of light/energy as such was what I believed myself as essentially being through the reading of the man’s near death experience, instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to build as much positive energy as possible, that I was thus only suppressing more and more the negative energies within and as my physical body and that I was thus only furthering the system of polarity as the enslavement of the physical towards and within the confines of the limited mind, rather than stopping myself from participating within the polarity games of the mind through the tools of BREATHING, self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to become one and equal to what I truly essentially always was and am, which was/is the manifestation of life eternal HERE within and as the physical body as all as one as equal as Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within the delusion of being a being of light/energy, have created a “special bond/relationship” towards a field that was/is located next to the house where I lived at, at the time where I read the man’s near death’s testimony, whereas I have defined that location/spot as being “my fortress of solitude” wherein I saw myself as being like “superman” and that that “special location” was the place where I would go to resource myself within the accumulation/gaining of positive energy as the nature which surrounded me, much like the “fortress of solitude” of the fictional character of “superman” – instead of realising that all I was busy doing within the times where I went to that “special place” as the field which was located next to the house where I lived at at the time, was to accumulate/build emotional relationships/ties towards that specific place and the environmental elements that were/is within that place, such as the trees that I then perceived as being beings of light within which existed a mystical wisdom that was being shared with me when I went to that specific location for meditation/resourcing of myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that all I was busy doing while I went to that specific location/spot, was to reinforce my emotional bond/relationship/ties to that physical location, whereas the mere thought of that place has generated feelings of longing/nostalgia because of the emotional/energy experiences that I experienced while I went to that specific place, which only enslaved me further within the systems of the mind, such as the emotions/feelings connected to that area, instead of stopping myself from participating within such games of the mind as the emotions of longing and nostalgia through the use of BREATHING, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to completely stop myself from participating within the mind as illusions and bring myself back HERE as who I truly am as life as the physical, all as one as equal as all living beings, so that I can really become an example to all of what it is to be a responsible human being who behaves in ways which are best for all life, such as me sorting myself out through the DIP program and to support organisations such as the Equal Money System in order to bring about a world which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was a messenger from the “central sun” wherein my purpose in life was to inform all of humanity of the impending change that would eventually happen on earth, through the “messages” that I believed were coming from the “central sun” through my influences generated through the reading of a “light worker” book from within which it was explained that the “central sun” would eventually send a beam of light towards earth so as to change life in order to bring about a new dimension of earth, such as allowing earth to ascend to another dimension – from within which I perceived myself as being a being of light which purpose was to prepare humanityas a messenger for the change that was to come, and also to prepare myself to go into the higher dimensions where the new earth would manifest itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate overwhelming feelings of positive energy when I went to the “special field” that was next to my house when I was 25 years old, wherein I would spend enormous amounts of time meditating and spelling out mantras so as to align myself to the high frequencies of light, such as the frequencies of light I imagined as being the frequencies from within which operated the beings of light I was busy reading about from within my books and websites which revolved specifically around such beings – instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within such meditative practices which had the purpose of building and building and building and accumulating and accumulating and accumulating enormous amounts of positive energies, would only further my enslavement to the disease of the mind, as I was thus simultaneously building and building and building and accumulating and accumulating and accumulating enormous amounts of negative energies within and as my subconscious mind – in order to balance out all of the positive energies that I was busy accumulating within my consciousness – which eventually manifested within deep experiences of depression where I thought of killing myself because of the overwhelming amout of negative energy that eventually made itself aware within and as my consciousness. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the accumulation of positive energy, that I was instantaneously accepting and allowing myself to participate within the accumulation of negative energy because of the common sense equation that one doesn’t come without the other, as it is the foundation of the polarity games of the mind, which only enslaved me further within the disease of the mind as separation – instead of stopping my participation within such a disease as the polarity games of the mind, through me simply BREATHING so as to return to who I am HERE within and as self-honesty as the breath as life, equal and one with who I truly am as the physical as life HERE, instead of running away from who I am HERE within the delusion of meditation and spiritual practices which only reinforces the delusion of being equal and one with the mind as our absolute identity, while our absolute identity is simply who we are HERE as the physical as all as one as equal, within the principle of oneness and equality as life.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind polarity such as the accumulation of positive energy through meditations, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as games of polarity, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “sensing energy swell up within me” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of a light/energy being, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of light/positive energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the energies of the universe to my own advantage as self-interest, within the perspective that the practice of meditation would empower me to use the energies of the cosmos, wherein I believed that the amount of energy available in the universe was limitless and was my/our birthright, wherein each and every one who would want to use this available and limitless source of energy would be free to do so at the condition of “knowing” how to obtain that limitless source of energy, wherein I believed that my meditation practices was me “knowing” how to obtain/gain that energy – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to push/force myself within my mind, through the generation/creation of friction within and as my mind as the consumption of physicality – as the movement from the negative, to the neutral and to the positive energies – as I was motivated by the belief that energy was my true self/identity and that my goal in life was to accumulate as much energy as possible so that I could become a “special being” which would be able to “guide others” to our “true identity” and thus our freedom – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that energy is not our true identity, as energy is finite and can never stand the test of time within eternity/infinity, but that our true identity is the physical as physicality as all as one as equal as life as that which stands the test of time into eternity/infinity as substance as life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise, from within the experiences of me having “high amounts of energy” within the perspective of me acquiring and gaining those high amounts of energy through meditative practices focussing solely on the act of acquiring/gaining as much energy as possible from the cosmos, that the method of acquiring those amounts of energy was always one and the same, meaning that the levels of high energy experienced was always the result/fruit of my constant and continuous friction with physicality as who I really am as life and not the result of me sucking energy from the cosmos as energy through my meditative practices – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was burning and burning and burning who I really was/am as physicality as life through me acquiring/building excessive amounts of energy, thus abusing myself as who I truly am as the physical, only so that I could experience myself as being “more than” who I really was/am as life which was a deception that I was deliberately participating in because of the “rewards” as “positive energy” that would be gained from such practices – all of which blinded me from the truth of myself as who I really was/am as physicality as all as one as equal as Life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to listen to the common sense within and as me as the words of who I truly am as physicality which told me to STOP within the first experiences of me experiencing myself as having/generating/burning excessively high amounts of energy, from within which I believed myself as being/becoming a “purifier for existence”, within that the energy that I experienced within myself was so “extreme” that I started to believe that I was “special” and that the energy that was contained within and as my mind was able to “change the world” because of the perception of it being “pure” and thus, could “purify/change” the world, instead of realising that the only thing that this acquirement of high energy would do as consequence, was to further my enslavement within and as the mind as the mind consciousness system through the participation of the charging and discharging of positive energies within and as my mind and within and as this entire existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want to become a “special being” because of the desire/motivation/want to make myself “special” in the eyes of others, wherein I would develop meditative practices that would generate as much friction as possible within my mind in order to generate as much positive energy as possible so that I could, through the veil of the accumulated energy as positivity, manipulate people into thinking/believing that I was “special” and “illuminated” and that I could change/save the world for the better through me changing the energies all around me through my mere presence alone, from within which I perceived myself has being able to bring about a new world through the purification of the energies all around me, because of the “purity of energies” that I was able to canalise through my meditation sessions, as I then saw myself as being a “great purifier” which purpose was to purify the energies of the ether so that positivity could reign within this world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the truth of me was being blinded by my desires of becoming a “great purifier”, whereas my desires of attaining/getting/gathering as much positive energy as possible blinded me from what was right HERE in front of me as the actual real identity of myself, which was simply as being equal and one with the physical as all as one as equal as life – but that my desires of being/becoming “someone more than what was obviously here as myself” blinded me from the actual real living of myself and isolated myself further within the polarity/games of the mind, from within which my enslavement to consciousness was blissfully made ignorant to my awareness because of my stubbornness to see myself as a “special being” which was “enlightened” and thus was “more than others” because of the beLIEf that I was fundamentally a being made of energy/light, which was a mindfuck that I forced myself to believe because of wanting/desiring to make me “more than” what I perceived myself as being such as this “small” physical body/being.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “positive energies” that was my inner experience of myself after having spent numerous amounts of time practicing meditation for the sole purpose of gaining/acquiring/charging as most energy as possible, was generated in all ways through the continuous friction between what I believed myself as being a being of energy, and what I truly was as equality and oneness as the physicality, wherein the charging/generation of positive energy came through the friction continuously exercised through the consumption of physicality/my physical body which resulted in the high amounts of positive energy that was experienced within the confines of my mind alone – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the experiences of myself as having high amounts of energy, only came through the friction as the burning of substance as physicality, all of which would only result in me burning myself down over and over and over again, until my physical body could not endure it anymore, whereas I would then eventually experience myself as being “depressive” and “physically feeble” because of having burned enormous quantities of substance for the sole benefit of my mind’s self-interest to which I then believed as being my own – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that “who I am” was the fabric of the mind as energy, instead of realising that “who I am” has and will always be HERE as the physical as physicality as all as one as equal as Eternal Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind, within my meditative practices, to engulf the universe in order to “capture” as much energy as possible in order to “funnel” this energy towards and within my physical body, so that I could become a living example of a deity as the manifestation of a spiritual being coming from the high spheres of the spiritual hierarchies. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that through me expressing myself within and as this “high energy accumulation”, that I was thus a living example of a deity instead of realising that who I was within and as the expression of myself as “high energy accumulation” was not the living example of a deity, but rather the living manifestation of a demonised entity as myself which only acted for the sole purpose of its self-interest as the experience of positivity as itself, instead of realising that the true living example of life is that of the physical expressing itself as the physical, without no participation within energy as positivity/neutrality/negativity as the mind, whereas the stopping of the energies as the mind comes through the practice of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that one can change from being enslaved to the systems of the mind as energy, to being freed as the expression of life which is equal and one as physicality as all as one as equal as Life = not energetically driven at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consume physicality through the projection of myself within and as the universe/cosmos/creation as that of funnelling/condensing/charging the energies of the cosmos towards and within my human physical body, because of the desire to be a god unto myself and this world so that I could create a new world which would be better than the world that I then experienced as myself – wherein I desired changing the state of the world through the powers of my mind/energies alone, because of the belief that my origin was that of energy and that through me realigning myself with the origin of myself as energy, that I would/could thus be able to “manipulate/change” the energies of the world so that the energies of the cosmos could change the state of the world through me for the better, whereas I then perceived myself as being a medium of higher cosmic energies/consciousness that would/could change the energies of the world so that a new and better world could be made manifest on this earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my origin as the core of my being was that of energy, because of having read the testimonies of a man who had a near death experience from within which it was revealed to him that we were made of energies, instead of realising the common sense in the fact that who I was/am as the origin of myself could/can only be equal and one with all living beings instead of being “unique” and “special” and “different” such as the state of my mind when within the “high conglomerate” of energies within and as my mind alone, and thus that the common sense origin of myself as all as one as equal can only be the physical as substance as Life, Equal and One with all living beings and not the mind as positive, neutral and negative energy experiences of the physical.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of polarity as the projection of myself as high energy/positivity when with the company of others, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “high energy/positivity” when with the company of others, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as “low energy/negativity/depression” when back alone with the company of myself, which I absolutely do not want to experience any more.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to use energy to control others” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to live experiences of high energy”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring experimenting feelings of high energy, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a spiritual being as an energetic entity, wherein I have established that belief ever since I had a “mystical experience” back in the end of the 90’s, where I have experienced myself “above and outside” of my human physical body, wherein I could see/perceive/visualise my body from the outside after having had a mystical experience of some sorts, instead of realising the common sense within the fact that the “mystical experience” that I experienced of me being outside of the body was an experience within and of the mind alone, as I was then within the perspective of energy as the mind as what I perceived within and as myself within that specific moment was a perception of the outlines of my physical body as being of energy, and that through this experience I was brought to believe as being an energetic being rather than a physical being – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am is that which everyone is within and as common sense as the common grounds upon which reality is experienced for all living beings in this world, as that of the physicality as my physical body as all as one as equal, rather than identifying myself as being unique within the perspective of me being made of energy after having had a “personal experience” of myself as an energetic representation of myself when seen within and as the mind alone.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the fact that the mystical experience that I experienced as me being outside of my body was in fact “not who I really am” as that which I really am is of the flesh as the physical as all living beings on this world and where the experience that I had of me being a being of energy was ultimately a false representation of who I really am, because of being dependant on energy for its sustenance, wherein who I truly am is not dependant on energy as energy is doomed to expire and thus is not eternal, and that who I am is eternal as the physical within the fact that all of that which constitutes me is made of physical matter that will go back to its source as the earth from which my body was constituted when I will die.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am is ultimately not a being of energy, as that which my mystical experience brought me to believe as being my ultimate identity, but that who I am is within that which is perceived through the common senses of all living beings on this earth, as that of being a being of physicality as flesh rather than a being of energy as light – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the experience that I had back in the end of the 90’s was an experience which was fuelled by my mind alone, and that as such was an experience that was dependant on the energies that could/was generated within and as my mind alone, oblivious to my physical body as who I truly am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am within the very nature of my being, is that of being made of energy, because of having read in the beginning of the year 2000, the story of a man who had had a near death experience wherein he described having seen his “life review” where the perception of himself as being made of energy was perceived and shared through his testimony and from within which I was made to believe that who I am at the very core of my being, was a being which was equal to the description that the man made about himself as being a being made of and as energy – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the testimony that the man made about his near death experience was a testimony that was made from and within the starting point of the mind alone, and as such was in full separation of what we are as the physical as life, one and equal to all living beings – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me accepting and allowing myself to believe/perceive/think that who I really was/am was/is a being of energy, that I was in fact deceiving myself into the delusion of the mind because of my own vested self-interest in wanting/desiring/needing to perceive myself as that which I was not, because of the desire/want/need to have perceived myself as being something which was “greater” than who I really was/am as the physical, because of the negative perception that I then had of my physical self, as the perception of me being a “loser” in life, and where the thought/desire/need of me being made “more” through the perspective of being made of energy, was particularly enticing to me.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “feeling” of “high energy” that I experienced within myself as I was reading the testimony of the near death experience of the man back in the year 2000, was a feeling which was generated by the mind alone and as such, that all internal images/imagery that flowed through my mind as a consequence to me reading his testimony were only images/projections of myself which only conveyed my desire to be made equal to the mental image of divine beings as energetic entities, instead of the very real image presentation of myself as my physical body because of me wanting/desiring to see myself as being “more than” who I truly was/am as the physical as all as one as equal as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, from the moment where I finished reading the testimony of the man who had a near death experience, have constructed within and as my mind, the personality/entity of “high energy”, from within which I have accepted and allowed myself to think was my “true self” because of the fulfillment that that “idea/thought” of myself brought within myself as the fulfillment of “knowing” who I truly was as something which is “higher” than who I was/am as the physical – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “positive energy” that I experienced as the “new found belief that I was a being of energy”, was the direct consequence of the friction that had been brewing within and as my mind, between the “negative feelings” that was carried by the general negative impression of myself as that of only being this “tiny physical being” and the positive energy as the desire/friction of myself to be “more than” who I truly was/am as the physical being.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the mental image of being communicating with beings of light, which came to me after having read the testimony of the man who had a near death experience, were only mental images/projections that were produced by the mind alone and in no way was representative of who I truly am, as I was brought to believe through the testimony of the man’s near death experience, only because such a testimony answered my desires to be made “more than” who I truly was as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “energy participation” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “being more than who I really am as the physical”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to be more than who I truly am as the physical, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com