I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone with myself in the near future, because of the fact that the couple who are currently living with me, will leave my apartment in about a week or so, which will make it so that I will find myself alone again – after having spent the last month in their company because of having offered my help towards them, as they were then looking for an apartment to go to because of the fact that they have been booted from the apartment where they were previously living -, wherein I fear that I will become depressed through the transitional period because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to “feel” comfortable in their company, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to nurture and “appreciate” their company while they were with me – and that now that I think about the reality of the fact that they will leave me in about a week, that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “depressed” about the idea that I will find myself alone again, whereas I have forecasted a “return” to hold habits and a “return” to a solitary way of life, which – in contrast with what I have lived when with the company of the couple – is making me “feel” depressed because of the thought that I won’t have a life which will be equally interesting as when I was living with their company – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to nurture the thoughts which are associated with what I forecast my future to be like as that of being a return to a “negative way” of living, and stop those patterns of thinking within me so that, as they arise within me, I am able to stop myself from furthering my fall within the mind through the use of breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-honesty so as to change the patterns of thoughts within me, which are only interested in protecting my own self-interests, into a pattern of thinking/acting that will be reflective of a being who is one and equal with life as the physical, so that my focus remains within where I am as HERE as life as the physical within all given moment in time, such as to become an example of what it is to be a responsible human being in this world, which actually and in fact cares for all life as one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sexual experiences with the “girl” in the couple who is currently living with me, because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain secret desires within the secret mind as she was living with me for the past month or so – where I have accepted and allowed myself to use the fact that I have seen her countless amounts of time in her underwear, to nourish and nurture the secret sexual desires within me – where I have accepted and allowed myself to fantasise about her being naked in front of me, where I would be able to touch and caress her naked body – where I would allow myself to let the sexual tensions built up within me – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to fall within the energetic tensions that built up within me as I am and was within her company, through the use of breathing so as to remind myself that all that is occurring within myself within such instances is of the mind and not me; writing so as to see myself, in writing, through the patterns and mind constructs that are at the foundation of my enslavement towards the mind and it’s patterns; self-forgiveness so as to release myself from the points of separation within me, which manifests themselves whenever I find myself in a situation where I am within the same vicinity of a girl/women that I secretly physically desire/appreciate; self-honesty so as to actually truly see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and self-corrective application so as to change myself from the patterns of the mind which only enforces my relationship to the illusions of the mind so as to change myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and rebirth myself as life as the physical, so that I will be able to stop acting within the sole perspective of the mind and it’s self-interested patterns which are responsible for the state of separation the world currently is in, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am as the physical here, so that I can be an example to all and myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being who actually cares for life on earth and does whatever it takes to bring back life as equality and oneness for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having sex with the girl who is currently living with me whenever I look into her eyes, and where I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to “manipulate her” into wanting to have sex with me through the mere eye contact, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to try to manipulate my sexual energies towards her, so that I could be able to “influence her” into wanting to have sex with me — where I would project the sexual energies towards her through my imagination, within my secret mind – instead of stopping myself from attempting to secretly manipulate her into “desiring me” through the use of “mind tricks” that I have stated above – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of trying to manipulate her with my sexual energies whenever I am within a moment where I am communicating with her, that I am to immediately stop myself from furthering such a patterned behaviour within my mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to release myself from the grasp that I have accustomed myself into being subjected to whenever I find myself in a situation where I am within the company of a girl/women that I secretly desire, so that I remove the cloud which obscures my observations in order for me to remain stable here within who I truly am as the physical as life, so that I may be able to realise myself as life as who I truly am here as the physical and become an example to all and myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being who actually truly ACT within the perspective of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive the experience of me being alone with myself, as being a “negative thing”, wherein I would accept and allow myself to be manipulated by the thoughts, ideas and memories which comes to mind whenever I think about the times where I was alone with myself,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the times that I have lived while the “couple” was living with me in my apartment, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to “judge” the times spent with the “couple” as being “entertaining” thus “good”, while judging the opposing experiences, such as the experiences of me being alone with myself in my apartment as being “bad” even if that was not the case when I was living alone with myself – only because of having accepted and allowed myself to use the experiences that I have lived while living with the couple in my apartment, as a contrasting point within myself, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to “judge” the past experiences of me living alone with myself in my apartment as being “bad” even if that was not the case – instead of stopping my patterned behaviour of “judging” my experiences in contrast to other “past experiences”, only so that I may continue with my patterned abusive behaviour of labelling my experiences as being “good” or “bad” even though I am aware of the fact that it is those judgments that are responsible for my instability in life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within such a patterned behaviour of judgment, that I am to immediately stop myself from entertaining the self-abusive path where those patterns are leading me to, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from being trapped within the mind through its self-inflected patterns of abuse and enslavement which are responsible for the state of the world as it currently is, and change myself from being an irresponsible human being to being a responsible human being who actually and in fact cares for the state of the world and work/act in order to bring about a world which is best for all life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the feelings that emerged within me as I was thinking about the fact that I will probably find myself back as being alone in about a week or so, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to become “depressed” about the idea of returning to living a life of loneliness and boredom, even if that was not the case when I was living alone with myself, only because of the fact that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached to the way of life that has been my own ever since the “couple” started living with me about a month or so ago – instead of stopping myself from being manipulated by the feelings within me, through the realisation that I am not my feelings, thoughts or emotions, and through the constant application of tools such as breathing, writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, so as to methodically change all the points within me which keeps me enslaved to the conditionings of the mind, and rebirth myself as life HERE as the physical, where the mind is only burdening my perception of life as who I am truly and is therefore, completely unnecessary.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging my life as being negative because of the fact that I live alone, to immediately stop myself from participating within such a destructive and abusive pattern through the use of breathing, so as to STOP myself from falling within the mind and remain here within the stability of myself as life as the physical and act in order to bring about real change in my life.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining secret sexual desires within the secret mind whenever I find myself within the company/vicinity of a woman/girl that I secretly appreciate, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to, when I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “fantasising about having sexual experiences with a girl”, change the patterned behaviour which keeps me enslaved to the mind’s constructs, and rebirth/rescript myself so as to be and become one and equal to who I truly am as life as who I am within and as the physical here.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of having my thoughts/perception of myself be influenced by the inner feelings that I have about a changing situation, immediately stop myself from participating within the thought pattern which emerges from those feelings, through – if possible – immediately going in front of my computer or finding a piece of paper and a pen in order to write about what I am currently going through, so as to see the patterns in front of myself so as to be able to remove the cloud within my mind which keeps me enslaved to patterns of enslavement and abuse of the mind, and change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application throughout my writings.

I commit myself to actually write daily in my blog so as to reinforce the patterns of change that I want to instil into me, through the constant and continuous daily use of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, and stop making self-commitment statements that I am not committed into making through the actual application of “small” self-commitment statements that I am actually able to commit myself to.

I commit myself to stop myself from making judgments about being alone as being something which is inherently negative, through the perception that I have copied from society and those that have come before me, and actually realise that I have always only been alone within myself and that there never was “another” within myself throughout all of the experiences that I have lived through in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the patterns of judging myself based on whether I am or am not alone with myself, to immediately stop myself from participating within such patterns through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a “mind program”, and re-establish life as who I truly am as the physical HERE, where no judgments or mind is necessary.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within a pattern of judgment, to immediately remind myself that such a pattern filters my perception to the point of extreme limitation where the ability to enjoy life is hampered – and to stop myself from the act of judgment through the realisation that all judgments made are only further limiting myself within my own mind, where who I am as life as the physical remains forgotten.

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Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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Desteni.org

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a lonely character, where I become depressed through being alone, whereas I experience negative energy within and as myself because of not having anyone with whom I can exchange/communicate with but my own “consciousness”/mind – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the activity of communicating within my own mind/consciousness, wherein I have created a character within and as my mind from within which I participate within the exchange of energies between the “me” character and the “consciousness” character, through me participating within the acts of “communicating” with a character that I have created within my mind such as the “consciousness” character, with whom I communicate with whenever I am alone wherein I have created an invisible character such as the consciousness character in order to keep me “entertained” within and as myself, through the exchange of energies with another “entity” as the “consciousness” character so that I do not “feel” lonely with myself, so as to always have the “illusion” of “being with someone” within the act of “exchanging/communicating” with another “being” than myself – even if that “being” is created within my own mind, such as the “consciousness” character – so as to remove me from the feeling of being “lonely” so that I can keep myself within “positive energy” so as to not feel depressed for being alone with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “lonely” within and as myself, such as the feeling of negatively charged energies, whenever I experience myself “alone” with no presence of a physical entity to communicate/exchange thoughts with – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel so depressed within myself for the fact of being alone with myself, that I have gone to the extreme of creating an “invisible character” for me to communicate with such as the “consciousness character”, whenever I am “alone with myself” such as when I find myself with no other physical entity other than myself, whereas I have created an illusionary entity within my own mind from within which I have separated myself from, only so that I can/could maintain the illusion/delusion that I am not “alone” with myself, such as the creation of a “consciousness entity” through the act of separating myself as different compartments within my own mind, from where one compartment acts as “another being than myself” and the other compartment acts as myself within my own mind, so that I can entertain myself within the illusion/delusion of communicating with another being when another real physical being is not present within my company – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me creating a consciousness character within my own mind, from within which I experience myself communicating with “another entity” as “another compartment” within my own mind, that I have thus created a separation within my own mind which only furthers the enslavement of the mind within the self-interest of “being with someone other than myself at all cost”, because of not appreciating being left alone with myself, with no other physical/real entity to communicate/share intimate relationship with – instead of realising that the intimacy that I am looking/aiming for, is the self-intimacy that comes from the tools of writing so as to build self-trust through self-investigation which will allow me to finally understand myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to become within the separation of myself which feeds the mind consciousness system as the feeling of loneliness/yearning whenever I am alone with myself, rather than realising that I am and always will be alone within and as myself and that as long as I don’t experience silence as stability within myself within all circumstances, that I am thus still controlled/directed by the mind, and that it is up to me to stop such control/participation with the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty, self-corrective application and breathing, so as to stop/interrupt my participation within the emotions of loneliness within the mind, and re-stabilise myself as who I am HERE within and as stability as the physical as life as equal and one with all living beings, so as to finally become a responsible human being in this world and bring about real CHANGE so as to bring about a world which is best for all life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to yearn to be with someone other than myself alone, because of the feeling of loneliness and boredom that I experience within and as myself whenever I find myself alone for a too long period of time, whereas I accumulate and accumulate and accumulate the negatively charged energies which are related to me being alone with myself, so much so as to generate depression within and as myself from within which the will to live becomes less and less and less present because of the gradually overwhelming feeling of the negatively charged energies as loneliness – instead of me stopping myself from building and building and building and accumulating and accumulating and accumulating negatively charged energies whenever I find myself alone with myself and through time, through the simple tools of stopping the negative reactions with myself through the act of BREATHING so as to interrupt the process of accumulating negatively charged energies and re-focus my attention to who and what I am as the physical as HERE within and as the breath as me, wherein no negative or positive energies remain, but silence as stability as who I truly am remain HERE within and as stability as the physical as life as who I truly am within the principle of oneness and equality as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build and build and build and accumulate and accumulate and accumulate positively charged energies whenever I find myself within the presence of another physical being, and thus to have allowed myself to participate within the polarities of the mind, from within which I thus automatically and instantaneously accept and allow myself to participate within the accumulation of negatively charged energies whenever I find myself alone with myself, instead of stopping such participation within the polarities of the mind where I experience positively charged energies as myself whenever I am with another physical entity and where I experience negatively charged energies as myself whenever I am not with another physical entity, through the use of BREATHING so as to interrupt the experiences of the accumulation of negative or positive energies within and as myself, so as to stop myself from being manipulated/controlled by the mind and return to the self-directive principle of me in my world as the physical as life as one and equal to all living beings, and to from HERE, express myself within the principle of what is best for all life, so as to bring about a system/behaviour which is best for all life.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within positive energy when I am within the presence of another being, and to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within negative energy when I am not within the presence of another being, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling lonely/generating negative energy for being with alone with myself” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “feeling depressed for being alone”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “depression for being alone with myself”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel different than those my age group because of not having what those my age group generally have/possess, as I do not have a job or a girlfriend or a personal family, wherein I thus separate myself from those my age group because of seeing myself as being different within my possessions in relation to what those my age group generally possess, instead of realising that that feeling of being different originate from the judgements/blame that I hold towards and within myself for not “fitting in” through me not possessing what those my age group generally possess, and thus that I can stop that feeling of being different through me stopping myself from participating within judgments/blame towards and within myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/blame myself as being inferior to those my age group because of not possessing what those my age group generally possess, such as a family and/or a job, and that from within this judgment, that I generate feelings of uneasiness within and as myself because of having accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned through the beliefs/thoughts/perception that has come from others as myself, wherein it is generally perceived that those who do not have a job or a girlfriend when reaching my age group, are generally sad and depressive people. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe/experience myself as being sad and depressive because of having subconsciously associated the fact of being alone at my age with the feelings of depression.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate feelings of negative energy within the fact/act of being alone, such as not having a girlfriend/family at my age group, instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within those feelings of negative energy within the fact/act of being alone at my age group, that I thus automatically generate feelings of positive energy that automatically emerges within the depths of me when I do have a girlfriend and/or family, which makes me thus a slave to the energies of the mind through me being directed/controlled by the emotions/feelings within and as my mind, instead of stopping such separation and becoming the self-directive principle of me in my life through me stopping my participation within energies as the mind through the tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate feelings of positive energy within the fact/act of being with someone, such as having a girlfriend and/or family, wherein those feelings of positive energy fuels my addiction to energy and thus only furthers my separation within and as the energy as the mind, instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within those feelings of positive energy within the idea/projection of myself being with a girlfriend/family, that I thus automatically generate feelings of negative energy that automatically emerges within the depths of me when I do not have a girlfriend and/or family, which makes me thus a slave to the energies of the mind through me being directed/controlled by the emotions/feelings within and as my mind, instead of stopping such separation and becoming the self-directive principle of me in my life through me stopping my participation within energies as the mind through the tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the games of the mind, such as the games of superiority and inferiority, through me comparing myself with the adults my age group – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the game of comparison with those my age group, wherein I would compare physical attributes and possessions between me and those my age group so as to “identify” my position within a spectrum of “good or bad” wherein I would judge myself as being “good” when I have “more than” what another person from my age group possess, and where I would judge myself as being “bad” when I have “less than” what another person from my age group possess – instead of stopping such participation within the polarity of the mind through the tools of self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my interpretation/appreciation of myself on the possessions that I have or do not have, wherein I experience positive energy within and as myself whenever I have possessions that are perceived as being positive within one’s life at my age and where I experience negative energy within and as myself whenever I do not have what is perceived as being positive within one’s life at my age.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be content within and as myself as I continuously seek to be with someone in order to generate the experience/feeling of contentment within and as myself, instead of realising that who I am as life as the physical is naturally content, not needing anyone to complete what is naturally complete within and as myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so extensively controlled by my mind, that I only feel content when I am with another. I now see/understand and realise that this natural contentment comes from and through the tools of self-investigation, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to release myself from the cultural conditioning from within which I have placed conditions to the experience of myself as being content, so as to release my natural inborn contentment of being who I am and thus express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind polarity such as the game of “haves” and “have not”, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as games of comparison, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling depressed because of being alone” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of being rejected by those my age group, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of loneliness, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed today because of the accumulation of days passed where I was alone in my home, whereas I have spent all week alone with myself with no one with whom to communicate with, instead of realising that I am always alone with myself, whether I am with someone or not – that I am never more than alone with myself and that as long as I do not feel comfortable with myself, whatever circumstances, that I am thus still controlled by the perception of the mind as being made of energy where I seek/need to feed the energetic entity as personality within myself so as to feel “secure” and “comfortable” and “positive” whereas I participate within the exchange of positive energies when I am in a relationship with someone and that I don’t participate within the exchange of positive energies when I am alone with myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to feed myself through the intake of “positive energy” through the relationship with another, whereas I participate within exchanges of energy when I am with someone else, rather than realising that whenever I accept and allow myself to participate within the positive exchange of energy with another being, that I am permitting through my acceptances and allowances as my participation within the exchange of positive energy with another, that I am thus permitting myself to experience myself as “negative energy” whenever I find myself being alone with myself, without the supportive exchange of positive energies that I experience within myself when I am with another.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive the accumulation of positive energy that occurs when I am with the company of another being, as being something which is supporting me, instead of realising that what the company of others supports within myself in such circumstances, is only the belief/idea that I am of the mind as being a being made of energy, and that such a perception is truly not supporting who I really am as the physical as life and that as long as I believe/perceive/feel the experience of myself as positivity when I am with another being, that I am thus reinforcing the illusion of me as that of being the fruit of the mind as energy, instead of releasing myself from such an illusion through the stopping of all of my participations within the exchange of positive energies with another, so that I stop myself from being controlled by feelings/emotions/thoughts and to become a real human being which is equal and one with and as the physical as life as who I truly am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to energy, to the extent where I feel bad/negative within myself when I do not experience the positive charge of positive energy, whereas I have become addicted to energy to the point where I experience myself as being “negative/depressive” whenever I do not experience positive exchange of energies within myself, such as when I am with another person – instead of realising that because of my addiction to positive energy experiences, that I automatically invite negative energy within myself so as to balance out the energy equation that gets unbalanced as  I participate within the exclusivity of positive energy, and that in order for me to stop experiencing negative energy within myself, that I have to stop all my participation within positive energy through me returning to who I am HERE within and as the breath as that which doesn’t need energy to exist/survive as the eternal foundation of myself as myself as physicality/life.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that because I accept and allow myself to participate within the positive exchange of energies when I am with someone, that I thus automatically will experience myself as being negative when I am alone with myself – because of the balancing act that occurs within the energies as the mind within myself, where my mind automatically seeks balance wherein as I experience myself as being positive in a moment, that I will automatically experience myself as being negative in another moment, and that because I accept and allow myself to “swell up” as the accumulation of positive energy within myself when I am with someone else, that as soon as I remove from the equation the fact of being with another person, I will eventually surely experience myself as being negative within myself when I am to be found alone, because of having associate the surge of positive energy when I am with someone else which automatically associate the release and dispersing of positive energy when I am alone with myself, thus experiencing myself as being negative when there is no one around and with me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like if there is a ball of negative energy within and as my solar plexus area when I am alone with myself for a too long period of time, because of the accumulative effect of negativity which compresses and compresses and compresses within and as my subconscious/unconscious mind/physicality as the accumulation of time when I am alone with myself, which results in me feeling like shit when I have accumulated too much negative energy which is experienced when I spend too much time alone with myself – such as the case of this week when I have passed more than 5 days all alone with myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be fulfilled within myself as I should be within and as the physical alone = without the interference of the games of the mind of positive and negative energy exchange – but that I am not because of my allowed participation within the games of the mind as the exchange of positive energy when I am in a relationship with another person and the release of negative energy when I am alone with myself = no direct relationship with another person.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like shit within myself when I am alone for too long with myself, where the accumulation of negative energy becomes so overwhelming, that I “fall” towards and within the negative energies within myself so that to become depressive with the company of myself all alone – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am always alone with myself and that the feeling of negativity that I experience within myself when I am alone without anyone to exchange energies with, is only a symptom of my participation within the games of the mind as the exchange of energies with others, and that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within such games of the mind, that I will remain enslaved to the mind as the mind will remain the self-directive principle of me in my world, as the abuse and misuse of physicality/life will thus continue – unless I stop myself from participating within such games of the mind, through me stopping myself from experiencing positive energy when I am with another person, through the tools of breathing, self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application. If and when I see/experience myself about to move into the feelings of positivity when I am with someone, I stop, breathe and I remind myself that it is a game of the mind that I no longer want to participate in and apply self-forgiveness in the moment within and as self-honesty as who I am as the breath.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be comfortable within self-intimacy as myself when I am alone with myself, instead of continuously seeking to be with someone so as to satisfy my culturally inserted definition of intimacy and thus feeling bad/depressive within myself whenever I am unable to satisfy the conditions of that self-imposed definition of intimacy, instead of building my self-intimacy up from within the starting point of self as all as ONE as Equal – whereas the full realisation is absolute within the fact that I am and will always be alone as self – through the tools of self-investigation, writing and through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, whereas the more I apply myself within those tools, the more I will build self-intimacy and self-trust as myself and return to the innate comfort of being with myself alone, rather than my comfort and self-fulfilment being dependant on others, which is only furthering my enslavement towards and within the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/perceive/believe that to be alone = to be sad and depressive, because of the copied perception of others as those that educated and influenced me as I was growing up in this world, instead of releasing myself from such erroneous programming through me applying the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, so as to see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the programming as the mind, so that I may, from oneness and equality as myself as the mind, understand what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind and stop my participation within such programming and return to who I truly am as life as the physical, so that I may act within the interest of what is best for all, instead of continuously acting for the sole interest of myself as separate from everything else, wherein I am only concerned to reach the goals of my personal interests, instead of working/acting in order to ensure the happiness of all living beings in this planet, as we are all as one as equal as life as the physical HERE.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite life for the predicament I am in as that of being alone with myself, whereas I spite life for giving me attributes which seemingly makes me undesired by others, because of the perception that I am not entertaining or good looking enough for girls to be with me, instead of realising that no one outside of myself will change and stop the feelings/energies/negative thoughts that I have when I am alone with myself, and that the only one who can change me by stopping such reactions of the mind is myself alone and that the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application gives me the tools in order to build self-trust, self-intimacy and self-love of myself so that I may CHANGE myself so that to become comfortable with myself, whatever the circumstances, so that I may act unchained and free of the controls of the mind so as to bring about a life that is dignified for all through actions which will become one and equal to who I truly am as life as the physical, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind polarity such as the experience of myself as being positive when I am with someone and being negative when I am alone with myself, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as positivity/negativity, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling depressed when I am alone” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of depression as the reaction of negative friction experimented when realising that I am alone with myself, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of depression, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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