I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my future, because of the belief that I will have a hard time when I will be in a working environment, as I am currently unemployed and looking for a job, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine my future out of the foundation/starting point of fear – instead of stopping myself from accepting and allowing myself to participate within the fear of the mind, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from being controlled by my fears, and re-script myself so that I become the self-directive principle of me in my world, where no fear will be allowed to control me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will have a hard time when I will find myself in a working environment, because of having accepted and allowed myself to base my fears out of my past experiences as a “worker” in society – instead of realising that I am not the same person as I was when I was working in the past as I have changed through time and through the application of the “process” in my life, and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “fearing to be in a working environment”, that I am to immediately stop myself from being controlled by my fears, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the “fruit of the mind” as illusion, into becoming one and equal to who I am truly as the physical as life, where I will stop allowing myself to participate within the fear of the mind so that I become the self-directive principle of me in my world – and not my fears – so that I may become a living example for myself and others as myself as to what it is to be a responsible human being in this world, which acts within the interest of all life so as to bring about a world which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of projecting myself into the near or distant future through the lenses of fear, to immediately stop myself from entertaining the idea that I will experience something which I have deemed as being negative, through the realisation that I have in fact changed since the last time I worked, and that if I am to see myself live experiences that are akin to those that have formed the belief that I “fear my immediate or distant future”, that I am to immediately stop myself from further reinforcing the belief within me, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application – so as to change the patterns that I have accepted and allowed myself to be equal to as the mind, and re-birth myself as life as the physical where no fears exists, but only the self-directive principle as me in my world, so as to be able to ACT according to the principle of oneness and equality, so as to bring about a world which is best for all life in this world.

 

I commit myself to actually write daily in my blog so as to reinforce the patterns of change that I want to instil into me, through the constant and continuous daily use of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, and stop making self-commitment statements that I am not committed into making through the actual application of “small” self-commitment statements that I am actually able to commit myself to.

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need a universe where polarity exists in order for me to experience myself as who I am truly, where I have created a world and a universe where polarity exists in order for me to experience myself as a particular point within the spectrum of polarities, only so that I can have the opportunity to experience myself as the point of perspective within creation which sees itself as being “different” from another “point of perspective” within creation, and that I have especially created a system of the mind which have counterfeited the basic polarity which is at the heart of the creation of this universe, wherein I have created and manifested within myself, judgment so that I have the power to decide whether an experience is “good” or “bad” for me, while strictly basing my observation on the limited perspective of my mind’s conditioning which have been birthed out of my innate tendency to copy/mimic those that have come before – where I have never questioned or considered that the perspective that I have copied from those who have come before me, is fundamentally biased and can never represent the true nature of who I am within life/universe, such as who I am truly HERE within the absolute acceptance of who I am within this very moment HERE, so that I STOP judging the experiences that who I truly am as life has set out before me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging an experience as being “good” or “bad” that I am to immediately remind myself that all experiences that I live are willed by who I truly am as life, so that I relinquish the tendency to judge life, so that I can realise myself as who I truly am as life – where no judgements exists but only the joy of being HERE as life as the physical remains.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret as “good” or “bad” a manifestation of an event/experience in my life, because of the judgments that I have towards that experience as being “good” or “bad” for me – instead of stopping myself from judging an experience as being “good” or “bad” for me, through the realisation that I cannot exist without that which is “contrary to who I am”, as “that which is” cannot exist without the existence of “that which is not”, and that if I am to “judge” an experience as being “good” or “bad” for me, that I am simply limiting the expression and experience of who I truly am HERE within the manifestation of myself as this physical entity, because of the filters of my judgments which filters reality so that it complies to the limited nature of my judgments, and thus, where I have no opportunity to truly know who I am here as the physical as life, because of the self-imposed limits that I have accepted and allowed myself to have as judgments, out of having accepted and allowed myself to “believe” that which I have been thought of being, by those who have come before me – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of judging an experience that is here for me to experience as a specific moment in time, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within the patterns of judgment, through firstly breathing, so as to bring myself back HERE as who I am within the physical as life; then apply the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a self-abusive robot as a figment of the mind consciousness system, and re-script myself as who I truly am as life here, where no judgments exists which disables me from appreciating the experience of who I am here as life, one and equal with all living beings.

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the patterned behaviour of judgment towards a particular experience that I have, to immediately remind myself through breathing, that I am not the mind, but here as the physical as life, and that any and all judgments that I may have about a person or a situation, is merely a filter that disables me from experiencing myself as who I truly am as life.

I commit myself to remind myself that all experiences that is manifested for me to have by my true nature, is exactly what I need to experience in any given time or context – and that all I have to do is to say “yes” to the experience, so that I may realise myself as who I truly am as life = where there is no judgments as filters limiting our perception of who we truly are as life.

I commit myself to remove all filters as judgments towards myself, life, or any events in-between, so that I may come to fully realise who I truly am as life, so that I become an example for all as myself, as what it is to be a responsible human being in this world.

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 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear applying myself towards experiences and patterns of myself that I have defined as being “good”, because of the fear that I have of losing that which I have defined as being “good experiences” in my life, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without “the good experiences” or without that which I have defined as being “good for me”, that I will find myself in a state of constant sadness and/or depression because of the belief that I will thus only be defined and/or confined within the “bad” in me – instead of stopping myself from participating within the polarity manifestation of the mind, through the application of writing, so as to see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a surrogate of the mind; breathing, so as to bring myself back here as who I am within and as each moment; self-forgiveness, so as to relieve myself from that which is keeping me locked within the mind through various states of emotions; self-honesty, so as to truly see in fact that which I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a product of the mind and self-corrective application, so as to bring about a new pattern that will honour life within the expression of myself as a physical being.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the pattern of thinking about past experiences that I have judged as being “good” whenever there is a time where I find myself living a moment of melancholy or nostalgia, whereas I find myself wallowing within my mind because of a “feeling” of “loss” of whatever form – instead of stopping such a patterned behaviour of “sinking-deeper-into-the-mind-in-the-hopes-of-finding-some-form-of-relief-through-past-experiences-in-relation-to-the-loss-that-have-just-been-experienced”, through the immediate application of, firstly, breathing so as to STOP myself from focussing my attention within the mind in search of “good-times-gone-by”, and re-focus my attention to who I am HERE as the physical as life, where no influences of the past should control or direct me; then writing so as to clear the mind from any wallowing thoughts that keeps me locked within myself in search of “good times gone by” in the hopes of finding something from my past that would give me a sense of “comfort” as a deceptive support coming from the mind’s perspective of the situation; self-forgiveness so as to forgive myself from the self-created habit that keeps me locked within the same self-abusive pattern of seeking help within the mind’s perspective of a situation, as a return to past experiences that I have judged as being “good” in order to attempt a balancing act between the moment of melancholy/nostalgia and the feeling of “goodness” within me; self-honesty so as to truly realise who I am within what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and self-corrective application so as to instil a new pattern within me where I would not allow myself to fall back within the same traps of the mind, such as the pattern of wallowing within the mind’s past in order to find “peace” within a moment of hardship, and re-align myself towards a new self that would not give the mind a precedence over who I am as life as the physical, as the true self-directive principle of who I am within this world.

 

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “seeking help from the past” whenever I find myself in a situation of hardship, immediately apply the simple tool/reaction of BREATHING so as to at the very least, stop myself from participating within the downward spiral whereas I suck my attention inwards in search of something from my past to “make me feel better” about a situation; through the realisation that I only thus empower the mind to have control over me, such as being emotionally unstable, and that there is no one other than me that can do anything to CHANGE the situation – that I am the sole director of my life and that whatever is happening to me within the confines of my mind, that I am the sole one who is responsible and that only I alone can change me.

 

To be continued tomorrow…

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take mind modifying substances whenever I feel “bad” about myself, wherein I look for specific mind altering substances that would make me “feel better” about myself because of the “addiction” that I have accepted and allowed myself to have towards “feeling good at all costs”, which has led me to consume substances such as alcohol and drugs, only so that I could “feed the addiction” further, not seeing or realising that through doing this, that I only deepen my dependency towards outside influences rather than being the self-directive principle in my life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “looking for an outside source/influence that would make me “feel better” about myself”, that I am to immediately stop my train of thoughts through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to return my awareness HERE as who I truly am as life as the physical, where no mind is necessary to experience what it truly means to live as life, one and equal with all living beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “let myself down”, within the perspective of having allowed myself to “fall back” within patterns of abuse, through me allowing myself to consume mind altering substances only for the sole interests of satisfying my selfish desires of seeking “pleasure at all cost”, even is such a cost is the disrespect and destruction of life within my surroundings – because of having accepted and allowed myself to be mesmerised by the creation of the mind as illusions, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to place the illusions in the forefront of life where illusions are given more credentials than life itself – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the pattern of “seeking pleasure at all cost”, that I am to remind myself of the REAL costs of such a participation, such as the disempowerment of myself as the true authority of myself and the development of a dependency which would only further the enslavement of myself towards the mind and it’s addictions – and to immediately stop myself from further participating within the train of thoughts which are birthed from such a desire, through the constant application of tools such as breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, until such a pattern of thinking is completely removed from a reaction based response mechanism, so as to eventually stop myself from the pattern of self-abuse, and bring myself back to who and where I am here as life, so as to change my actions from a self-interested starting point only, to a starting point where I would consider all life before putting a thought into action, so as to become an example for all, as to what it is to be a responsible human being.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from participating and empowering the thoughts within me which seeks only pleasure as self-gratifying experiences, such as the thoughts which lead me to consume mind altering substances, through the realisation that as long as I will allow myself to be a slave to such desires, that I will remain trapped within the mind and forbid myself to express myself as life through my own allowances as an abuser of life – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the intention/desire to “take mind altering substances for the sole purpose of pleasure seeking”, that I am to immediately stop myself from further participating within such a train of thought, through the use of breathing, so as to break the pattern of thinking within myself and bring myself back HERE within and as the physical as myself; self-forgiveness; self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to IN FACT CHANGE who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind, and rebirth myself as life as who I truly am HERE as the physical, as who we really all are within common sense.

 

I commit myself to, whenever I see myself move or about to move into the pattern of “desiring to consume mind altering substances in order to reach the goal of “feeling better about myself””, remind myself that I am only thus allowing myself to fall further within the pattern of enslavement to the mind’s addiction, and thus stop myself from participating further within the thoughts that are linked to such an addiction through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop the patterns of abuse within me, and re-align myself to the expression of patterns which dignifies life and are life affirming, where I take full responsibility of who I am as life within the context of living with all other beings in this world, so as to act within the best interest of all life, and stop acting and limiting my perspective to that of my own self-interests, and thus take into consideration all living beings before deciding to act on a specific situation.

 

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire taking drugs because of the belief that drugs will help me like my life more, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to desire taking drugs because of the appeal to have an “extraordinary experience” in relation to how I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive my reality, such as that of being a “boring” reality because of the fact that I judge my life as “not entertaining enough”, instead of stopping myself from seeking and desiring to take drugs through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a slave to the mind’s programming, and from there, stop myself from participating within the patterns of the mind through the tools stated above, so that I can change what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as a slave of the mind, into becoming one and equal to life as the physical, where no mind is necessary to function.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by past experiences where I have taken drugs, because of the pattern of me looking for “extraordinary experiences” that would make me perceive my life differently, wherein I would look into my past for experiences that suit my prerequisites so that I could find something somewhere that would allow me to experience my life “differently” because of the lingering feeling of boredom that overshadows my perception of my reality, instead of stopping myself from participating within the patterns of the mind where I would look into reproducing past experiences for the sole purpose of “entertainment” – discarding all the care in the world for the consequences of such an abusive behaviour – through me using the tools of writing daily in my blog, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a  CONSISTENT fashion so as to make sure that I do not fall back into past abusive behaviours and re-align myself into becoming a responsible human being who stops acting only for the purpose of self-interest, and start acting within the interest of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “try” a drug that I have “taken” in my past because of my inner desire of wanting to “experience something out of the ordinary” that would take me out of my “feeling of boredom” and into a “feeling/perception” of a “drug induced alternate reality” where I would see and feel my life differently than that of being bored, instead of stopping myself from participating within such a destructive behaviour through me applying the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a CONSISTENT FASHION so that I change my ways IN FACT so that i stop myself from allowing myself to take such substances in the future as they are dishonest and abusive in nature and are not one and equal to LIFE. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within behaviours which are abusive towards the physical as life as who I truly am, only because of the lingering programming within my mind which seeks to only satisfy the sole interest of myself, wherein I would disregard the consequences of my actions at large, because of the appeal of “self-gratification/pleasure” that is at the heart of the mind’s programming, and thus CHANGE what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind who only reproduces the “sins of the fathers” that have come before me, so that I become equal and one with life as all as one as the physical, where the abusive mind as that which I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become through copying and imitating those that have come before me, and re-birth myself as life as the physical so that I become a responsible human being IN FACT, where my actions would be made within the consideration of all life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be misguided by my feelings of boredom, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to fall back within past abusive behaviours, such as taking drugs, because of my lack of self-will and self-dedication towards myself as life, where I would allow myself to think of myself as not being able to CHANGE MY ABUSIVE WAYS because of the fact that everyone around me continues on with their abusive ways, regardless of the progress that I might have made within the application of the process – and that if I am to see myself move or about to move within the desire of reproducing a behaviour that is abusive in nature, through me allowing myself to “forget” about the “common sense” of a dignified living, because of allowing myself to be influenced by those who are around me – instead of stopping myself from allowing myself to be influenced by those around me who are not applying themselves in order to change, and to continue applying the tools of writing, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in a CONSISTENT FASHION – day in and day out – so that I truly and in fact change all of the abusive patterns that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into, and stop myself from reproducing them cyclically within my life, and re-align myself to a pattern of living which is supportive towards life, so that I may return to who I truly am as life as the physical, so that I may serve as an example to others as myself of what it is to be a responsible human being who acts within the interest of all living beings, so that a dignified life for all may become a reality for all.

To be continued tomorrow…

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I have been diagnosed as being bipolar ever since 2003, where I then experienced my first psychosis. There are a lot of self imposed definitions that came from that diagnosis when I was 25 years old. Today, I have to live with the hinderance of medication since I have been court ordered to take medication. I will do self-forgiveness on the beliefs that I have associated with the medication that I take to treat my bipolar disorder.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need medication in order to equilibrate my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the meditation that I take are slowing my mind down as that is what I have been told by the psychiatrist in regards to the antipsychosis medication that I have to take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the “slowing down of the mind” that I experience while taking the medication as the antipsychosis drug that I am imposed to take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to end my life because of having to take medication for the next 3 years as ordered by the court within which I fear having to live as a dumbed down version of what I am through the dumbing down effects of the medications upon my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to live as a dumbed down version of myself because of the belief that if I am to be “less than who I was” prior to the time where I was medicated, that life will be too difficult for me to handle because of not being able to express myself the same way as before because of the “expression blocking inducing effects” of the medication that I am forced to take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to express myself through the filter of the medication through the belief that the medication do in fact slow the processes of my self-expression down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the medication take effect upon my mind as the effect of me being slowed down through the processes of my self-expression as the medicated effects of the medication that i am forced to take.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to die because of having been imposed to live the next 3 years through the experienced difficulties of self-expression that I currently experience because of the medication that is acting within my body/mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to live through the inherent difficulties that the medication imposes upon my self-expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to kill myself because of not living the life that I want to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience confusion within my mind as I am expressing myself when within the influence of the medication because of the belief that the medication has an effect upon me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the medication have an effect upon my expression from within which I allowed myself to want to kill myself because of the excuse as the effect of the medication that it has limited my self-expression which makes me feel uncomfortable being me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable being me because of living as the effects of the socially imposed medication from within which I feel as if I am but a shadow of what I was before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be distracted by the mind when I am standing up as myself through the application of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to watch television, play video games and or read dimensional articles to which I use as excuses for me not to apply myself through self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place self-forgiveness in second fiddle when I actually know that my regular activities, which are somewhat still considered as being primordial, are supporting the suppression of me instead of supporting the honest expression as me
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stop participating in the activities which are supporting my self-dishonesties through continuing in the participation of passivity instead of stopping within and as the passivity/apathy and stand up within and as myself and apply myself within and as self-forgiveness as me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and think that I am not well spoken and intelligent enough to apply myself within and as self-forgiveness with regularity
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not being intelligent enough to apply self-forgiveness effectively – thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a constricted condition as intelligence as the ability to express myself with clarity and directedness within and as the application of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a condition within and as myself for me to “fit into” if I am to express myself through Self-forgiveness and that if I do not “fit into” the condition within which have classified self-forgiveness within me, then I am not worthy of applying self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that it is me that I am judging as being unworthy of myself when I feel that I am unworthy of self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition my self-expression so that it “fits into” a condition that I have placed before me within and as my perception of what self-forgiveness is through comparing myself with others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare me towards another human being who is expressing himself as “directedness” and “clarity” while I see/perceive myself as being unclear and undirected
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define clarity as being the ability to express myself in a rational and logical manner which is the way I perceive those that I judge as being clear and direct as being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from who I am as a rational and logical being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define logical as the ability to interpret one’s own life with clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to be one and equal to clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from clarity, efficiency and directedness
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to express clarity, efficiency and directedness, only when I have met the conditions I have set within me for me to perceive myself as being the definition of what clarity, efficiency and directedness is
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define clarity, efficiency and directedness as what I experience when I find myself in a higher level of consciousness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define “higher level of consciousness” as being what I experience after moving through internally perceived levels of mind which only comes through the application of a meditative method that I have believed to be my personal “stairways to heaven”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have developed a special method of meditation that enables me to connect with the higher realms of consciousness, thus allowing me to express myself with confidence and assuredness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to express confidence and assuredness as me only when I have “reached” the perceived “higher levels of mind” which only comes after I move within myself through a meditative practice which implies the conscious and deliberate movements of energy throughout my body
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and perceive that I am within a special moment now, because of having had a flash of “déjà vu” in this moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to define myself as being special because of being able to connect to inner awareness of greater expression which comes through as an expression of myself which exerts a greater confidence and a greater assuredness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being special because of being able to connect to higher realms of consciousness through my meditative practices
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the practice of meditation grants me special powers
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive meditation as being necessary for my well being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the trap that is meditation as the practice of greater inner peace while closing my eyes to what is actually going on in this world within and as the outer REAL ALL ity as war, famine, abuse, rape and murder of me as all as one as equal
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seclude myself within the dishonesties of the mind as the practice of meditation while closing my eyes to what is actually going on in this world as who I am as all as one as equal as life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from others when others as myself experience situations that I haven’t personally experienced myself
I forgive myself that I have allowed to define myself solely based on the experiences that I have lived and to thus separate who I see myself as being from the others as myself who have lived or lives through experiences that I do not have experienced or are experiencing within and as this here moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am based on the mind consciousness system
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that who I am is HERE and that who I am not is THERE as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become through the past, present and future of the mind consciousness system
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that all that I am and all that I can ever be is HERE allways in all ways and includes all of existence as me within and as the breath as life as me HERE in self honesty
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project myself within the expectations and souvenirs of the mind instead of staying HERE stable and constant as who I truly am as all as one as equal as life
Friends of the past:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear coming face to face with a friend of the past
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project anxiety towards the moments where I meet acquaintances and friends of the past to which I haven’t seen for a long time
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to define myself as a loser when comparing myself to the friends and acquaintances of the past
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am based on society’s definition of success and failure
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I am participating within the ego of the mind when I accept and allow success and failure within me. I do not accept and allow success and failure to influence me. I do not accept and allow success and failure within me. Life is not defined by success and/or failure. Life is undefined. I am undefined. I remain undefined thus I am not defined by success and/or failure. I am life. I am here as life as all as one as equal. I breathe.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear meeting people whom I knew in the past, because of the fear of their reactions if I were to tell them that I do not work, that I do not have a family, that I do not make money and that I still live with my mother. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear the fear of the mind, through me participating in the fear of the mind of being ridiculed for being who I am as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I fear becoming that which I hide from others as myself if I were to meet someone that I knew in the past, and tell them what I have allowed myself to become as who I am as the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the mind consciousness system. I am not the mind consciousness system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear revealing who I am as what I keep from others as my current lifestyle because of the belief that I will be ridiculed and laughed at and rejected for leading such a lifestyle. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I have become which is an illusion thus I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that all that I ever was and that all that I will ever be as perceived through the mind is an illusion – who I am is HERE in self-honesty as me, in all ways and always.