Self-forgiveness on the “sales scam” that I was apart of yesterday.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel stressed when the spokesman for the anti-virus company told me that I had a virus problem with my computer, whereas he used iffy sales tactics in order to convince me that I needed the anti-virus program that he was proposing to me, while it was obvious to me that there wasn’t anything wrong with my computer but that because of the fact that I felt stressed, that I allowed myself to fall for the trap that the corrupted salesman wanted me to fall for – whereas the simple fact of me feeling stressed about the fact that my computer was apparently problematic because of an apparent virus that was supposedly corrupting my computer, was enough to manipulate me into believing the corrupted salesman because of being thusly emotionally controlled by my own emotions regarding what I believed was the corrupted status of my computer. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me allowing myself to become possessed by my negative emotions such as the stress that I was experimenting while the corrupted salesman tried to influence me into buying his anti-virus software, that I was within that specific moment controlled by my own emotions regarding the apparent status of my computer wherein I believed it was corrupted because of what the corrupted salesman showed me through remotely controlling my computer wherein he opened up the services program within my computer operating system in order to show me random error messages – that were ultimately not problematic since they were only messages informing me that there were errors within unnecessary services applications within my computer – but that the corrupted salesmen used in order to instil fear within and as me so that I would fall for his sales pitch wherein he then convinced me that I needed his anti-virus software for the price of 99$ because of telling me, through lies, that my computer was risking to be fatally corrupted because of such random and insignificant errors – instead of listening to the common sense within me whereas I told myself that the representative was only trying to “hook” me into his scam strategy rather than honestly wanting to help me for my computer problem, which was not even a problem in the first place but where I was brought to believe that it was a problem because of falling within what the salesman showed me through being controlled by my emotions of fear that he instilled into me, instead of stopping such scam through me remaining stable HERE within and as the breath, within and as self-honesty so that I would have acted in accordance to stability as myself HERE rather than acting through instability as the fear that was thus instilled into me because of my allowed participation within fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by my own fears, wherein I feared that my computer would be forever corrupted because of believing what the corrupted salesman told me about the status of my computer and status of the services that were running in the background of my computer, as he told me that they were corrupted – wherein I was thus open to the manipulations that the corrupted salesman intended on using against me just so that he could “have a sail”, instead of listening to common sense and personal experiences in such a situation, where I knew within me that i was being led astray but that I allowed the salesman to continue with his scam sales tactics because of having fell into his premise where he told me that because I was a certified windows user, that I was thus eligible for his “free” help, but turned out not to be free at all when I realised that his “free help” would cost me 99$.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to trust myself before trusting the corrupted salesman, wherein I knew about the fact that the “errors” that the salesman guided me to “see” within the active services within my operating system, were in fact bogus and where not dangerous as they were just “informative” in regards to unnecessary services that were running in the background – wherein I realised after the call with the salesman ended, through me investigating through the internet about my doubts concerning the “errors” that were found within the services application of my operating system, that the “errors” were not at all problematic as they only concerned inactive services that were absolutely of no concern for the well being of my computer operating system as a whole, and that I should have taken self-directive principle of me within the “fears” that were instilled into me by the corrupted salesman, through me stopping the conversation short as I intended and thus stopping such participations within fear as the essential element of control within and as my conversation with the corrupted salesman.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite/judge/blame the corrupted salesman for attempting to sell me a product that I didn’t need, within the realisation that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the friction that is generated through spite/judgments/blame, that I accept and allow myself to be manipulated by the mind, such as was shown through me being manipulated by the fears that emerged within and as me as reactions towards what the corrupted salesman told me – instead of realising that as long as the world will continue as is, that the system of corruption that was/is being represented/reflected through the intentions of the corrupted salesman, will also continue as is, and that what needs to be done is to stop such participation within such a system of abuse as the current system of the world, through the tools of Breathing, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to bring about a system which honours and dignifies life for all living beings, so that heaven on earth may become REAL in fact and so that all systems of abuse may be forever removed from existence.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of mind control such as being controlled through fears that are instilled into me through corrupted beings, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as games of fears, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “fearing the worst through what another as myself is telling me” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of an “fears”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of fears, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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