I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value into my physical appearance, especially my facial appearance, whereas I spend enormous amounts of time looking at my mirror reflection just so that I can make sure that I look good enough to be presentable – all the while worrying about how others would perceive me and thus making sure that I won’t be judged negatively by others – instead of stopping my participation within worrying about how others perceive me, through me simply allowing myself to breathe and remain stable as who I am here as an expression of life rather than as a picture presentation of life, which is subject to be judged by others as myself – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the fear I have of other’s judgments against me are my own judgments that I maintain against myself within the secret mind – where I worry about others discovering the “bad angles” of my picture presentation of myself, instead of remaining stable HERE within and as the physical through breathing through those feelings of worrying so as to stop all participation within the movements of the mind as worrying, and focus myself as who I am HERE within and as each moment of breath as life as who I am HERE within self-honesty.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about my facial appearance, especially the “bad angles” that I have defined as some of the angles to which I may be perceived by others, as I constantly and continuously worry about being seen by another as myself, through the angles that I have judged as being “bad” for me, whereas I perceive myself as being “less than myself” when seen through those angles thus becoming unstable as the feeling of insecurity overwhelms me, instead of stopping my participation within the feelings of insecurity which I have associated with the “bad angles” of my facial appearance, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop myself from moving within my mind within feelings and emotions, and start moving as the physical as life so as to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feelings of insecurity that I allow to overwhelm me when I worry about being perceived through the “bad angles” of my facial appearance/presentation, whereas I churn within my mind within the fear of being perceived by others as myself as being “ugly”, from within which I become “less than myself” through the generation of negative emotions/energy which locks me into the insecurity feelings, rather than me taking a stand within and as myself and stop my participation within feelings/emotions/energy in relation to how I am or may be perceived by others, so as to release myself from the mind, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, and finally express myself as who I am HERE within and as stability as the self-honesty expression of who I am here as life as the physical as all as one as equal.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within negative energy through me participating within the idea that I am “ugly” when seen through specific angles, instead of me stopping myself from participating within negativity as a polar manifestation of the mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to bring myself back HERE as who I truly am as the physical as life as the unconditional expression of who I truly am, rather than limiting my expression to the limits and illusions of the mind to which I participate in whenever I allow myself to participate within the generation of negative energy such as the feeling of insecurity which is manifested when I perceive myself as being “ugly”.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within positive energy through me participating within the idea that I am “pretty” when seen through specific angles, instead of me stopping myself from participating within positivity as a polar manifestation of the mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to bring myself back HERE as who I truly am as the physical as life as the unconditional expression of who I truly am, rather than limiting my expression to the limits and illusions of the mind to which I participate in whenever I allow myself to participate within the generation of positive energy such as the feeling of security which is manifested when I perceive myself as being “pretty”.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity of the mind, through me allowing myself to participate within negative energy when I am seen or when I perceive myself as being “ugly”, and through me allowing myself to participate within positive energy when I am seen or when I perceive myself as being “pretty”, instead of stopping myself from separating myself within the polarity of the mind, through stopping all of my participation within energy through the simple tools of breathing so as to stop my focus within energy as the mind, and re-focus myself to who I am HERE within and as the physical as life as who I truly am so as to finally express myself as Life as the unconditional expression of who I truly am as all as one as equal as the physical as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that who I am is determined by how I look, whereas I have spent enormous amounts of time defining myself according to how I look or to the picture presentation of myself, having thus spent and participated within tremendous amounts of energy where I have fuelled and energised myself towards and within the thought of the picture presentation of myself, rather than stopping my participation within the properties of the mind, through me applying the simple tool of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to relieve me from the mind and return to who I truly am HERE as the physical as life as all as one as equal.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within energy, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “worrying about my appearance” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “worrying about my facial appearance”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “worrying about my appearance”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to my friend’s behaviour while we were watching a baseball game in a stadium in Toronto, where I reacted to my friend’s behaviour of watching the pictures that he had taken through using his camera instead of watching the baseball game, where I used the excuse of projecting blame towards him because of the fact that he wasn’t paying attention to the baseball game wherein I wanted him to pay attention to the baseball game instead of paying attention to the pictures that he had taken through using his camera – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anger/frustration within and as myself through me witnessing that he wasn’t paying attention to the baseball game that we paid to attend to, seemingly being more interested to watching the pictures that he had taken through his camera instead of giving attention to the baseball game that we had both paid money to attend within the context of our trip/vacation to Toronto.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want to control the behaviour of my friend, whereas I wanted him to watch the baseball game instead of watching the pictures he had taken through the use of his camera, and that because I wasn’t able to control what my friend was doing, such as watching the pictures that he had taken instead of watching the baseball game, that I accepted and allowed myself to react within friction as blame/spite/judgments towards my friend for not abiding to my desires of him placing his full attention on the baseball game rather than placing his attention on the pictures he had taken – instead of realising that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within the reaction as frustration for my friend not placing his full attention on the baseball game, that I was thus being controlled by the emotions within and as my mind thus furthering my enslavement to the illusions of the mind instead of stopping such sterile participations within the mind, through the tool of BREATHING, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to return myself to HERE as who I really am, as that which remains stable within and as self-honesty as BREATH HERE as the physical as life. I now see/understand/realise that whenever I allow myself to participate within frustrations towards the behaviour that another as myself has within a given situation, that I thus accept and allow myself to be controlled by the systems of the mind, which makes me a puppet to energy wherein i thus remain enslaved to the mind rather than realising myself HERE as the unconditional expression of who I am as the physical as life, within remaining stable HERE within and as self-honesty as the unconditional expression of who I am HERE within and as the physical as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this “ball of energy” swell up within and as my throat area when I told my friend that “I didn’t care about his pictures” as a reply to him telling me that he was “deleting the pictures that he didn’t like within his camera” – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within blame/spite/judgments towards my friend’s remark when he told me that he was “deleting the pictures that he didn’t like within his camera”, because of the “feeling” of “frustration” that I accepted and allowed myself to participate in within my mind, as I was frustrated that he was looking at his pictures rather than looking at the baseball game – telling to myself as an excuse within my mind that he could do this in another moment than the moment we were sharing together as the moment we shared within the baseball stadium.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the reason why I was frustrated that my friend was looking at his pictures within his digital camera rather than looking at the baseball game was, within self-honesty, because of the insecurity that I experience within myself when someone near me plays with a camera, because of the feeling of insecurity that I experience towards the possibility that such a person may use the camera in order to take a photo of me – as I feel insecure about seeing myself in a picture because of the belief that I am too “ugly” to be seen in a picture – and that this feeling of insecurity generated frictions of blame/spite/judgments towards my friend because of the fact that i feared him taking a picture of me, and that I hid that fear from him and myself through me projecting blame/spite/judgments towards my friend for “playing with his camera rather than not playing with his camera” just so that I could continue “hiding” my fear of being taken a picture of, through me using the excuse of blaming/spiting/judging my friend as being “bad” for him not placing his attention on the baseball game rather than placing it on his camera – Within this, I forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to not participate within the emotions of the mind, such as the emotion of being frustrated because of the fact that my friend was playing with his camera, wherein I accepted and allowed myself to participate within the illusions of the mind as the feelings of frustrations only because of the fact that I feared that my friend would eventually decide to take a picture of me, as the feeling of being uncomfortable within the moments when my friend was playing with his camera, built and built and built and accumulated and accumulated and accumulated frustration within and as me as spite/blame/judgments that I have towards the camera for not giving “good pictures of me” such as pictures that others as myself would eventually say “he is so beautiful/charming” – and that because such a reaction is so rarely the case towards me, that I have built a strong feeling of frustration towards and within the camera within itself, for not generating pictures of me that others would qualify as being “good/pretty/nice”. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the frictions of the mind, such as the generation of the emotion of frustration, that built and built and built and accumulated and accumulated and accumulated and thus eventually exploded within the act of me saying to my friend, through a “loaded/charged” answer that “I didn’t CARE about his pictures or camera” while having this loaded/charged answer/remark/reaction being directed at my friend only because of the frustration that I have towards the fact that he was playing with his camera and through me interpreting that behaviour as meaning that he gave a lot of value to the camera and it’s pictures, which made me feel insecure about myself because of the idea/thought/belief that when I am placed within the format of a picture, that I am not perceived as being “valuable” by others as myself, as me as a picture of a camera has never received any form of desired accolade from others as myself, through others telling me that I am “pretty in a picture”, and that because of that, that I entertain within the silences of my mind, negative relationships/energy towards every camera or behaviour of someone playing with his camera because of feeling sad about myself not getting good accolades from others when I am seen within the format of a picture.

 

Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within feelings of insecurity within myself when I am within the presence of a camera, because of the fear that I have of someone eventually taking a picture of me and the possibility of that someone as myself to react negatively to that picture of me while within my presence, because of me not wanting to hear negative things about my image as I am still insecure about the picture presentation of myself – instead of STOPPING all feelings of insecurity of myself as a picture presentation, through the tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to CHANGE my reactions so as to become equal and one with the unconditional expression of myself HERE, wherein no reactions occurs as I remain STABLE within and as the BREATH within and as the physical as life as all as one as equal, whatever the reactions of another as myself may or may not have in regards to the picture presentation of myself here. Within this, I forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am is not limited to a picture presentation of myself, but that who I am is unlimited within the unconditional expression of myself as the physical as life as innocence as who I truly am HERE within and and self-honesty.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within emotions of frustrations towards a camera as fears of facing myself as the picture presentation of myself, instead of stopping my participation within fears through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to stop myself from participating within all fears so as to become the unconditional expression of myself here, and thus express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of fears such as the fear of seeing myself in a picture, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as games of fears, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “fearing looking at my picture/me” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “fears”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of fears, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

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Applying Self Forgiveness now to delete the particular fear of being called ugly to which I have described yesterday.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being called ugly.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “less than others” whenever I was judged as being “ugly” by others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am ugly when others judge me to be so.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being “less than another” whenever I see another as being “pretty”.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “inferior” to another that I judge as being “more pretty” than me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose confidence in myself whenever I am with someone whom I see and perceive as being “more pretty” than me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my self-expression whenever I am with someone whom I perceive as being “more pretty” than me.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am as life is an expression that is free from judgements, thoughts, emotions and the mind and within this, that I have allowed myself to “lock myself into” the mind whenever I feel “threatened” by the presence of another.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “hide” within the confines of my mind whenever I feel “threatened” by another being’s presence to which I judge as being “more than” me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive others as being “more than me” whenever I judge another as being “pretty”.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my self-expression to superficial judgements of the mind as an image presentation rather than a self-expression as life as one as equal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fee ignored by those around me whenever I find myself in a situation where I partake in a social activity with others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am ignored by those around me whenever I find myself in social situations with groups that are new to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reject myself.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to love myself for what I am as an expression as life as one as all as equal as the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel rejected when I am with the company of others that I meet for the first time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being “less than” others whenever I find myself within groups for the first time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into mind chatter whenever I am with people that I meet for the first time – within which I judge others within my secret mind as being less than me or more than me according to the way they present themselves to be as a mind picture presentation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a value into a mind picture presentation rather than to value the source of life as the physical as all as one as equal as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for how I feel – rather than realising that I am responsible for my emotional states and reactions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the mind whenever I feel threatened by the presence of another being.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the mind through me acting out the behaviour of “hiding within my mind” whenever I feel threatened by another being in my world.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am not the mind, but life as the physical as that which is standing HERE as all as one as equal as LIFE whereas the mind is always “there” within places which are NOT REAL.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to honour life through me standing here, one and equal as the physical, rather than me “hiding out” in the mind through the fear of being judged for who I portray myself to be.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged for who I portray myself to be because of the value that I place in the “mind picture presentation” rather than in life as the unconditional expression of who I am HERE as one as all as the physical as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a greater value within the “picture presentation” of myself rather than the unconditional physical expression of myself as life as one as equal as the physical HERE.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that HERE is where I AM as LIFE rather than “there” as the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live out the pattern of me hiding within my mind whenever I am threatened by another – within which I started participating in when I was a young child in the presence of my father who used to beat me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project the pattern of “hiding within my mind” towards those that I judge as being “more than me” because of me unconsciously projecting my father figure unto others that I perceive as being “more than me” through their picture presentation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty of being me whenever I think that I am “more ugly than another”.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “fear of being judged ugly”, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of guilt of ‘I must be ugly’, I stop, breathe, see if I have missed an opportunity to self correct into Oneness and Equality from which the guilt arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the guilt and self correct, if not I stop, self forgive my participation in guilt as an automated response to a pattern of self Abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about ugliness and from judging myself and others as ‘having done something wrong’, through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of Illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every Living Being. 

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For what am I afraid of being judged? I am afraid of being judged ugly by others because of having been judged ugly when I was a teenager growing up in my world. As a teenager, I was often teased and ridiculed by my peers for being different, within which my differences were primarily portrayed by the colour of my skin and the aspect of my face. I remember a particular incident where I was in computer science class and where a group of students stood near me, as I was sitting down in front of a computer, and where they were calling me all sorts of names all the while looking at my face intensely, as I tried to avert their gaze by looking at the computer screen. Within this moment, I sought to hide from their presence through me going into my mind so that I could escape the reality that they were presenting to me.

Through their name callings – mainly telling me that I was ugly – I felt ashamed of being me, as if I was something that was to be kept hidden because of not being in tune with what was accepted as a “beautiful/normal human being” from their judgments. The instinctive reaction that came up, was that of wanting to hide from their gaze, but since I couldn’t do so in a practical sense, I had to “hide within the scope of my mind” because there were simply nowhere else to go, as I was in class at the time. I remember that there was about 3 of them (not really sure if my memory is right or not) and they all stood in an upright position as I was in a sitting position, blankly looking in front of my computer screen as to make it seem that I was busy doing something, whereas I wasn’t doing anything but listening to their remarks and trying not to understand what they were telling me. The feeling of smallness overwhelmed me from within that moment because of the way they were looking at me and of the words they were throwing my way.

I remember that within moments where I felt uncomfortable, such as the moment I am currently describing here, that I had the tendency to go and hide in places where I wouldn’t be seen by those who made me feel uncomfortable. As an example, I used to hide in the school’s bathroom whenever I felt the near presence of those who bullied me. Thus, within this mind frame of “hiding” whenever I faced trouble, I sought to hide within this moment but since I wasn’t practically able to, because of being within the context of a class that was mandatory for me to attend, I rather sought to hide away within my mind.

This pattern of “hiding away within my mind” whenever I face uncomfortable situations has been with me ever since childhood, where I used to hide in the basement when I was alone with my father. I feared my father because he had the habit of beating me whenever I did something that wasn’t approved by him. Thus from early on, I learned through self-programming that the best solution was to hide whenever I was faced with a situation where I felt threatened. I never really learned to face a threatening situation head on, because of fearing the reactions of others.

I usually saw those who were threatening me as being a projection of my father. Within this, I saw them as I would see my father: an authority figure, someone who is more knowledgeable than me, someone who is better than me, someone who knows what and who I am, someone who is stronger than me, someone to which I have to abide to because of the fear of the consequences that would follow if I were not to answer their orders. Whenever I was in a situation where the solution of hiding in a physical place was not permitted of feasible, I would hide within the confines of my mind.

I realise that, within the subject of fearing being called ugly, that I also do the same thing that others did to me as I was a teenager in this world, within that I tend to judge others according to their physical appearance as a means to judge if the person is worthy of my company or not. Thus, I do exactly as those who judged me as I was growing up, within that I judge others on the basis of their physical appearance as a benchmark that I would use to determine if the person was/is worthy of my company or not.

When I was judged as being ugly, the primary emotion that was running through my veins was guilt within that I felt guilty of being me and through this guilt, I sought to hide away so that others would not be able to see the subject of my guilt, which was myself – within this experience. Thus, I sought to hide myself from the gaze of those who bullied me, but since this was not possible within this particular situation, I instead hid within the confines of my mind. Through this act of hiding myself within the confines of my mind, I reinforced the idea that I was the mind rather than the physical body. The sensation of me as who I am, thus began to be reinforced through me “hiding who I am in my mind” from the gaze of the bullies. Thus, “who I am” began to be a set of characteristics which were akin to the mind rather than to the physical body. Since I wasn’t able to physically hide from the gaze of the bullies, I hid what I thought to be me within the mind – thus, each time I hid within my mind, I reinforced the idea/belief that I was the mind rather than the physical body. The mind allowed me the space that I needed in order to “hide the abstract characteristics of me” within its confines – however, since I wasn’t able to physical hide my physical body from the presence of the bullies, but was able to “hide the sense of who I am within my mind”, I reinforced thus to perceive the mind as being who I truly was.

I realise that I do the exact same thing to others whenever I am faced with someone that I do not know and that I see for the first time – where I look at the person’s face, and judge the person worth on the symmetric harmony or disharmony of its facial structures. Yesterday, for example, as I was at a concert with a friend of mine, I was constantly judging the persons who were presenting themselves on the stage rather than unconditionally listening to what they had to say through their songs. This, I realise, is the exact same behaviour that I was internally fighting against as I was a teenager – I judge others as others judged me and through this, participate in the mind rather than be here physically, one and equal as life as all.

Within this, I have built the belief that I am unworthy of others unless I can show an image which is acceptable/pretty enough to be liked by others. Thus, I spend tremendous amounts of time in front of the mirror just to make sure that my physical appearance is good enough to avoid being called ugly by others. Through this, I have defined myself as being unworthy of other’s presence unless I feel comfortable enough through my physical appearance, a feeling that usually comes after I spend tremendous amounts of time in front of the mirror so as to make sure that I am the prettiest person that I can possibly be at a particular given time.

I will do self-forgiveness on the issue of being called ugly as I sense that there are a lot of points that I need to deconstruct before this point gets released from my physical body. I will do self-forgiveness tomorrow as I currently need time to properly think about all the points which are related to that point.

 

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