I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire that the teams/athletes that I support within the Olympic Games win within their respective events, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the games of the mind such as winning and losing, through me generating the same adrenaline rush, feelings and emotions within my own mind that comes through the act of winning, as if I am the one who is winning whenever a team or athlete that I support within the Olympic games win within their respective events – instead of stopping myself from participating within the constructs of the mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to bring myself back here within and as the physical as who I truly am as life, instead of remaining entrapped and enslaved within the mind, through my constant and continuous participation within the mind as energy.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the teams/athletes that I support within the Olympic Games lose within their respective events, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the games of the mind such as winning and losing, through me generating the same anxiety, feelings and emotions within my own mind that comes through the act of losing, as if I am the one who is losing whenever a team or athlete that I support within the Olympic Games lose within their respective events – instead of stopping myself from participating within the constructs of the mind, through the use of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to bring myself back here within and as the physical as who I truly am as life, instead of remaining entrapped and enslaved within the mind, through my constant and continuous participation within the mind as energy.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the competition character through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “fear of working” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “competition”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “competition character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate a feeling of ecstasy, such as the feeling of positive energy, whenever I win while playing a game with my friend, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain the feeling of energetic high, instead of stopping myself from participating within the mind as energy, through me, when I sense the movement of energy build up within myself, stopping my participation within energy as the mind, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to re-program myself into a being which acts within the interest of what is best for all, instead of constantly and continuously acting within the interest of the self, such as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, through me imitating what I have learned from those who came before me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feeling of positivity whenever I win a game with my friends, such as any board games that I have accustomed myself into playing with my friends, whereas my behaviour changes from that of being silent and stable within and as myself, to a behaviour which is unstable through me becoming ecstatic thus me becoming subject to any movements of energy within and as myself, thus being controlled by the movements of energy within and as myself, instead of stopping my participation within energy through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to gradually stop myself from participating within energy as the mind so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical, so as to become equal and one with life as it should have been from the very beginning.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feeling of negativity whenever I lose a game with my friends, such as any board games that I have accustomed myself into playing with my friends, whereas my behaviour changes from that of being silent and stable within and as myself, to a behaviour which is unstable through me becoming introverted, whereas I turn and churn within my mind out of being frustrated for not being able to win, thus me becoming subject to any movements of energy within and as myself, thus being controlled by the movements of energy within and as myself, instead of stopping my participation within energy through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to gradually stop myself from participating within energy as the mind so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical, so as to become equal and one with life, as it should have been from the very beginning.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within backchat whenever I play a board game with my friends, whereas I plan and manipulate what I say to others as myself which are playing the board game with me, only so that I can protect my self-interested goal of winning the board game, all the while still participating and continuing my enslavement towards and within the mind, through my accepted and allowed habit/participation of using the secret mind in order to plan and manipulate whatever is around me so that I can manipulate the situation in my advantage – all the while participating within spite and blame and justification within my own mind, so as to justify my position of “winner” or “loser” whenever I am involved in playing a “board game” or any other games of the mind based on winning and losing, instead of me applying myself within my commitment to stop the mind through my active participation within the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change myself IN FACT, so as to stop the system of abuse I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the systems of the mind, and birth myself as a system of LIFE from within which my actions would reflect that which is best for all life, such as being honest with myself and others as myself whenever I am involved in a mind game, such as playing a board game with my friends, and thus change my behaviour so as to stop all of my self-allowed characters of the mind, so that I become equal and one with the only character which acts for the interests of all life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to appreciate winning whenever I play board games with my friends, whereas I have developed a dependency to the adrenaline rush and positive energy that overpowers me whenever I win a board game or any other game that I play with friends, as I thus become possessed by the desire of gain whereas my behaviour changes from being stable to being unstable through the constant flow and movement of positive energy that occurs within and as myself when I win the games that I play with my friends, such as board games – instead of me constantly applying myself within the act of stopping my participation within the system of abuse as the mind of energy, through me applying the tools of breathing – so as to stop the movement of energy within whenever they occur -, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to eventually birth myself as life from the physical and thus become equal and one with life and all living beings.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the energetic rush that occurs when I “win something”, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “feeling an energetic rush that occurs when I win a game” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “winner or loser”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “winner or loser character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about quitting the 7 years to life process because of currently having difficulties in finding subjects to write about within my 7 years to life process blog, whereas I tend to think that I am going in circles because of not finding relative subjects/points to write about, wherein I seem to revisit points which were relevant to what I was going through within past posts instead of finding new points/subjects which are relevant to the current moment – instead of realising that it is not about writing about new and different subjects from posts to posts, but to write about what is busy occurring within and as myself at a given moment in time even if that means that I have to revisit a point that was previously visited upon, because of the realisation that a point can resurface from one moment to another, within that a new facet of a point may resurface from one moment to another, from layers to layers whereas a new layer always present a new perspective from within which the point can be explored/self-forgiven on – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that points are multi-layered within and as myself, and that the effective release of a specific point can take a lot of self-forgiveness and time to get through.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am going in circles within my 7 years to life process blog, because of the belief that I am currently stuck within my process whereas I seem to revisit points that I have already written self-forgiveness on, instead of the realisation that it does not matter if I revisit a point that I already visited in the past, because the purpose of myself writing myself out to freedom through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, is not to invent new points that are not relevant to what I am currently busy working on within myself, but to write about the points which are directly relative to what I am experiencing within and as myself as the mind at a specific moment in time, even if that means that I have to revisit a point, because the mind works in cycles whereas patterns are set within and as myself as the mind, and that through me facing myself as the mind, that it inevitably means that I have to face myself as the patterns as the different facets of a point that I have constructed within and as myself as the mind. I now see realise and understand that a point is multi-layered within and as myself as the mind, and that the depths as the different layers of a point may be revealed within another moment whereas different patterns within the point may emerge depending on the time and circumstance of me facing the point.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that a point as that which I face as myself as the mind, is a pattern which have been constructed as and within different dimensions of the self, whereas I may one day face a specific dimension of a point within the limited depths of what I allow myself to face within that specific day as that which is relevant to the self in a given day, while I face within another day, another specific dimension as another layer of the depths of the same point which is relevant to the self in another given day – as the points are always multi-layered and that it takes time, self-commitment, self-devotion and  self-discipline in order to work out all of the depths and layers of myself as a specific point as myself as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about quitting my 7 years to life process blog, because of the time it sometimes takes me to write about my daily entries within my blog, whereas it sometimes takes me an hour or more to write about my self-forgiveness statements or any other subject that is faced as myself within my blog, wherein I would sometime get discouraged about writing because of the time it takes me and because my mind would find it difficult to remain focussed within such time frames, whereas I would think of other “more pleasurable” things to do such as watching television or playing video games – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “things” which are occupying my mind as I write my self-forgiveness statements or any other subjects of concern within my blog, are mostly things which are birthed from the addictions of the mind as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the illusion of self, such as the addictions of participating within games of energy as polarity manifestations within the mind, such as watching an “entertaining” television program or playing an “entertaining” video game – wherein the “entertainment factor” would be determined by the amount of positive energy I would allow within myself through my active participation within entertainment -, instead of realising that each time I accept and allow myself to participate within the polarity of the mind as the “positive energy”, I also accept and allow myself to participate within the “negative energy” as the mind, whereas the opposite energy will be experienced as soon as the positive energy will have run out. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the mind’s game in existing within the polarity of positivity and negativity and defining such a polarity existence of the mind as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire doing more “entertaining things” than to write daily in my blog, such as watching television, playing video games or going outside with friends, instead of devoting myself entirely to the process through me being fully invested within the act of writing, without no back-chat wherein I would tell myself to hurry up so that I can/could go and do some more “entertaining things” than to write in my blog – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the best gift I could/can give to myself is the gift of self-forGIVEness, wherein through me forgiving myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, I am giving myself the gift of LIFE, as the process of writing through self-forGIVEness is the process of giving to myself the power to CHANGE so that I can become a living example for all, showing to all as myself what it is to be a responsible human being who acts from within the starting point of that which is best for all, for that which is best for all life is best for myself, Equal and One with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire quitting before reaching the end of my 7 years to life process because of the thought of “it’s going to be long before the end of the process” from within which I discourage myself because of the apparently lengthy amount of time required for the process of re-programming oneself to LIFE – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that it’s going to take time, more or less 7 years, before I will have re-programmed/re-scripted myself into that which is best for all life, because of the fact that I’ve been programming myself as the mind ever since I was born and that it will take time to deconstruct that programming so that what remains is me HERE as who I truly am as the physical as that which acts for the interests of all life, Equal and One with all living beings.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to quit” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to quit before the end”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to quit before the end, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out entertainment as a means to live strong emotions, such as watching a television sport program or going to the attraction park, wherein I would deliberately indulge into superficial entertainment activities, rather than applying myself within regaining the power that I have given away to my feelings/emotions/desires through me actively stopping such participations within addictions of the mind, through the simple tool of BREATHING in order to remain HERE stable within and as the physical body, wherein I would regain the power to decide/direct my actions in full awareness and responsibility within the destination/outcome of acting within the interests of that which is best for all living beings in this world, so as to act in accordance to the will of the physical through the strict consideration of what the physical needs within this world in order to ensure a dignified life for all.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to question the desires/wants/needs which pushes/controls me to act in accordance to the will of the mind, such as the desires to live/experience high emotions with whatever means possible, wherein the only interests in mind would be that of self-interests alone, instead of aligning myself to change within self-honesty through the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that my actions may reflect that which is best for all life within the consideration of the needs of the physical alone, such that my actions may come to fulfill the direct needs of the physical as life, such as changing my behaviours so that I may act in accordance to what I need to do as a responsible human beings in this world – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to completely change within the act of completely stopping my participation within the polarity of the mind, through the application of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, wherein the simple act of BREATHING would replace me HERE within and as the BREATH as who I am in self-honesty, so that from within the starting point of BREATH, my actions become one and equal to life as that which needs to be done in order to change this world so that heaven may be real, in fact, for all living beings in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge within activities propagated by the inner workings of the mind, such as all activities which are motivated by emotions, feelings, thoughts and ideas that I copied from those who came before me within what they perceived as being “activities which were worth my while” through my relationship within the identities in the mind (parents, teachers, authority figures of the world), rather than question/delete/change such inner motivation through the realisation that those inner motivations are not motivations which comes from who I really am as the physical as life, but that are motivations which comes as manipulations of the mind in order to ensure the full enslavement of who I really am as life to/towards the control of the limited mind as that which I have come to accept and allow myself to be/believe – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am as the totality of myself, is not some mystical idea that is constructed from my thoughts/beliefs/ideas about my true self, but that my true self is simply that which is perceived/experienced as my human physical body alone, which is One and Equal to all living beings in this world, as the true image and likeness of life as physicality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to copy the behaviour of my father, as the behaviour of spending endless amounts of time in front of the television, seeking for entertainment and diversions so as to keep my mind occupied, while those who are in control – the elite of this world – continue their abuse and misuse over the resources of the world for the sake of the survival/upgrade of their self-interests alone while the totality of this world goes to shit – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to wake up from the dream which is induced by the few who are in control of this world, whereas the world goes to shit as I keep myself entertained/enthralled within the addictions of the mind as the participation within polarity, rather than stopping such dream like slumber through me becoming a responsible human being as a custodian of this world, through the tools of stopping the mind through BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I may become a living example of what is best for all life to others as myself, One and Equal to all living beings as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend enormous amounts of time playing video games, through me keeping my mind occupied and preoccupied while those who are in charge of this world, continue their abuse and misuse of the world resources rather than stopping such occupations and preoccupations so that I may become a responsible human being who acts for the interests of what is best for all rather than continuing on this dead end path of acting for the sole purpose of the self-interests.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire to get entertain myself through games of polarity” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “wanting to entertain myself at all cost”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to be more than who I truly am as the physical, through the participation within the addictions of the mind as the games of polarity, thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as a living example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people like me more when I am happy, wherein I would deliberately manipulate my behaviour so that I would project an image of myself as that of being happy, while being dishonest through feeling otherwise within myself, instead of realising that I am not here to make others feel better about themselves through me projecting an image of being happy, but that I am HERE to express who I am unconditionally within self-honesty so that the results of my actions would benefit all and everyone as that which is best for all life, is best for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek/desire/want others to feel better about themselves through me manipulating my expression so that I would project “high energy as myself” towards others, instead of realising the dishonesty in such expression as the expression would only be made existent in order to manipulate the feelings of others so that they could feel happy about themselves – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play with the feelings of others through me exerting myself as having “high energy”, because of the desire to see others as being happy around me, even if that would mean the suppression of the self-honest expression as myself because of being manipulated by my wants/needs/desires to make others feel happy about themselves, rather than expressing myself as who I am HERE in self-honesty – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that whenever I express myself within “high energy”, that I am expressing myself as being “superior” to another which I then silently within backchat perceive as being “inferior” to myself, from within which I suppress the feeling of inferiority within myself so as to project the image of superiority towards another, instead of stopping such participation of “superiority” and “inferiority” within myself, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others like me more when I am within the state of being manic, as the state I am in whenever I feel an excessive amount of energy within and as myself within a specific moment of self-expression, through me acting and behaving excessively within the presence of others, wherein I would exaggerate the meaning of what I would be expressing within the energetic flux and flow of my expression, instead of acting and behaving in accordance to who I am within and as stability, as the consequence of me remaining stable within and as the BREATH so that my expression becomes that of life, so that the words I speak and the expression of myself remains unhindered by energetic sub currents such as the energy that I am usually possessed of when I am within a state of manic/high energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people like me more when I have high energy, where I would take substances such as coffee only so that my expression becomes more energetic, wherein I would feel more confident about myself through communicating with another only if I would experience myself as having “high energy” such as the energy which is present within myself when I take substances such as coffee or sugar – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate my expression so that it would carry an high amount of energy, so as to feel as being in control of the situation through the confidence that the “high energy” brings into me, instead of realising that whenever I act in accordance with my desires to express myself through “high energy”, that I reinforce the accepted and allowed participation within my mind, such as the accepted and allowed participation within friction as spite/blame as the energetic origins of my expression, instead of stopping such expression of myself as they are games of the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for all as what is best for all is best for me, One and Equal.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am is not a being of energy, which is contrary to what I started believing in when I first discovered spirituality 12 years ago, but that who I am is the being as the physical as life, Equal and One with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel more confident within myself whenever I express myself through the flux and flow of “high energy”, because of the learned behaviour/belief that I only have a short amount of time to express myself whenever I am within the flux and flow of a conversation with another being, wherein I would force myself to express as much as I could within a “short time span” – because of the belief/perception that others would only allow/grant me a “short amount of time for my self-expression within a given conversation”, where I would “cram” as much information as I could within the perceived “window of opportunity” as the “short time span” that I perceived I was allowed to express myself within a given conversation – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “talk as fast as I could” and thus to “expense as much energy as I could” whenever I had the opportunity to express myself within the perceived “window of opportunity” that I believed others would grant me within a conversation, instead of realising that the act of me “talking as fast as I can” is the act of talking without awareness of who I am/was within the HERE moment, and thus, that I was dishonest within my expression – only expressing myself so that I could give out as much knowledge and information and energy as possible within a short time span, while remaining oblivious to the expression of myself within the HERE moment, which is/was a dishonest expression of who I really am HERE as the BREATH – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that knowledge and information without practical application is useless and thus, that my self-expression within and as knowledge and information only is useless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk as fast as I can when I have an opportunity to talk within the span of a conversation with another being, because of the perception that I only have a short amount of time to express myself when within a conversation with another being, because of the imprinted programming that I have accepted and allowed within and as myself as that of not being considered by others when within a conversation – unless my expression is swift/fast enough so that I could/can take the “window of opportunity” within a given conversation, so as to make my expression heard by others – instead of realising that who I am as an honest expression of myself, is not an expression of “swiftness” but is an expression of stability as calmness as who I am HERE within and as the BREATH within and as every moment in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately manipulate my expression when I am with the company of another, so that I would be perceived as having a lot of energy, because of the belief/perception/illusion that others only like/appreciate/love me when and if I express myself through the filters of “high energy” or happiness – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that whenever I allow myself to be manipulated by energy through the desire to have others like/appreciate/love me, that I accept and allow myself to participate within the polarities of the mind and the games of winners and losers wherein I would project myself as being a “winner” through the association/relationship/belief that only “winners” have “high energy” as “positivity” and that only “losers” have “low energy” as “negativity” – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that in order for me to express myself as a winner as “having high energy”, that I have to simultaneously suppress myself as a loser as “having low energy”, wherein that suppression as the “loser” as “having low energy” as myself will always return to my consciousness within another moment, thus making me manipulated by my emotions because of through me accepting and allowing myself to be the “winner as having high energy”, I also simultaneously accept and allow myself to be the “loser as having low energy”, wherein the “loser” will ultimately end up expressing itself as myself within another moment, as soon as I allow myself to express the “winner” as myself – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me expressing myself as the “winner” as the one “having high energy”, that I will automatically express myself as being the “loser” as the one “having low energy” within another moment as myself, instead of stopping such participation within the polarities of the mind through me returning to myself HERE within and as the BREATH, as the self-honest expression of who I am within any given moment.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire of making others happy” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the thought of “I need to make others feel happy about themselves so that I could feel happy about myself”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring to make others feel happy about themselves through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

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Earth’s Journey to Life

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