I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I fear talking because of the difficulties that I am currently encountering while I am in the process of speaking to another being, whereas I experience difficulties within the mechanisms of speaking, such as having a slight speech impediment that renders the simple task of speaking difficult for me, all because of the side effects of the medication that I am currently taking where I am experiencing slight difficulties in recalling and speaking words – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to “force myself out of this situation/rut” through me forcing myself to speak even if I fear that another will find my speaking strange because of the fact that I have difficulties in speaking because of the side effects of the medication that I am forced to take.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the back chat of the mind, where I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself within internal conversations where I internally project myself as being handicapped because of the fact that I am currently experiencing problems within the simple act of speaking, problems which have started after the times where I started taking the medication that have been prescribed to me in order to, apparently, treat my “mental condition” even if such medications are generating negative side effects that translates to me having difficulties in speaking to another because of the fact that the medication that have been prescribed to me, acts as a filter within my brain/mind region through the effects that the medication has on the chemical nature of my physical brain – and that instead of me fighting my way out of the side effects of the medication, that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self-expression whereas I remain silent when in the company of another instead of speaking “my mind” – and that instead of me remaining silent within such circumstances, that I should force myself to break free from the limiting nature of the medication that I am forced to take, through me actually forcing myself to speak to another, even if that means that I will thus be open to criticism, and that if I am to be afraid of speaking when in the company of another, that I am to apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to break the pattern of me participating within the fears of the mind, and return to who and where I truly am HERE within and as the physical as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depreciate who I am because of the fact that I am currently experiencing difficulties in my speaking abilities, whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within negative energetic reactions such as depreciative words that I muster against myself within the silences of my mind, because of the fact that I am constantly and continuously doubting my self-expression because of the fact that through the effects of the medication that I am forced to take, my speaking and wording abilities have been dramatically hindered whereas I experience frequent pauses, stuttering and “looking for words” ever since I started taking the medication about 1 year ago – and that if I am to be able to free myself from the doubt and fear that I have of talking to another, that I am to consider stopping taking my medication or that I am to simply continue on with my application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, even if that may not be sufficient to remove the negative psychosomatic effects of the medication because of the fact that the medication acts on very tangible physical components of my physical body, such as the chemicals within my own physical brain, that, whenever modified or altered, automatically generates a change within and as the physical body simply because of the fact that such medication directly alters the state of the chemical dynamics within my physical brain, wherein such an effect cannot just be removed by magical thinking.

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “anxiety or nervousness to speak” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “fear of speaking”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “troubled speaker”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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To be continued tomorrow

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I do not have hair, that people will find me ugly and will reject me, wherein I would feel bad/depressed about myself because of the accepted and allowed relationship with others, within which I have programmed myself to be defined by what others think of me, rather than realising that who I am is not to be influenced/defined by another’s perspective of me, but that within the principle of oneness and equality as who I really am, that I am the self-directive principle of me in my world, whereas I direct me within my world within self-honesty, from within which I do not accept and allow myself to be defined/influenced by what others think of me – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad/depressed when another judges me as being ugly and thus rejects me, instead of realising that it is me who judges and rejects me through my acceptances and allowances in regards to the power/influence that another has upon me instead of releasing that power and giving it back to myself within self-investigation through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be the self-directive principle of me in my world, through me being influenced by what others think of me, instead of realising that what I allow within myself when another judges me is my own reactions as judgments/spite/blame that I hold against myself – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within myself when another judges me – within which the reaction only shows me that I am still judging me as being “inferior” to another, thus still participating within the games of the mind as polarity, instead of releasing myself from this game of the mind from within which I do not want to engage any more, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others will think of me if I am to be seen without my hat, wherein I would fear others judging me as being “less than them” because of apparently being perceived as being “ugly” without my hat – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being ugly without my hat, thus perceiving myself as being “less than another” because of the values that I still have regarding my physical appearance as the picture presentation of myself that I project unto others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me perceiving myself as being “less than another” because of not having or losing my hair, that I show myself that I still participate within the polarities of the mind that I no longer want to engage in – within which I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within “superiority”, that I immidietaly invite the opposite polarity of “inferiority” within me, thus generating a battle within me between the two polarities of “superiority” and “inferiority” from within which I would do all in my power to supress the polarity of “inferiority”, not realising that the more that I supress the feeling of “inferiority” within me, the more I give power and control to those who want to control me – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me allowing myself to participate within games of polarities of the mind, such as superiority and inferiority, that I become a puppet which can easily be manipulated by the elite/those who are in power in order to be controlled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that no one would want to be with my company if I do not have hair any longer, because of the imprinted impression that I programmed into my being from within my teenage years, where I would deliberately think, over and over and over again, that I would rather be dead than not having any more hair, because of the fear that I had of showing myself without hair to cover the big forehead that I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the “big” forehead that I have is to be forever hidden from the sights of another, because of the stigma that have been imprinted within me from my formative years, where I was regularly teased, ridiculed and rejected because of being judged as being “less than the cool ones” because of my physical appearance – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to love me for who I am as an unconditionnal expression of myself as life, instead of seeking to “love me” according to the limited conditions of what “love” is culturally defined as, such as the conditions of being loved only if physically attractive to the opposite sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the love I have of myself through the interactions that I have with the opposite sex, wherein I would define myself as being loved and loveable and thus experiencing the feeling of love within myself, only if I would be loved/cared for by a member of the opposite sex, instead of realising that real love is yet to be existent within this world, and that the love I have for myself is not to be defined by another, but to be made real through self-investigation as writing, self-forgiveness and self-correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the gaze of another when I am seen without my “protective hat”, because of the fear I have of seeing the same disgust that I have against myself, through self-hate/spite and blame, when I look at myself in the mirror – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the game of comparison whenever I look at myself in the mirror, within which I would deliberately compare my picture presentation to that of another being perceived as superior or inferior to myself at a given moment of comparison – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I play the game of comparison whenever I look at myself in the mirror, whereas the only reason why I would feel bad about my image is because of my accepted and allowed participation within comparison, instead of realsing myself from such a game of the mind through stopping my participation within comparison, and that as soon as I see/perceive myself as participating within comparison through me experiencing highs or lows when I look at myself in the mirror, that I immediately stop, BREATHE, realise that it is a game of the mind I no longer want to engage in and apply self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application through writing or through saying it out loud until the point gets released from within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed because of having just cut my hair short, which was long before and where I had received positive remarks from others, wherein I now feel depressed because of not finding the way I look as “beautifull” as it was when my hair was longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being not as beautifull as I was when I had longer hair, wherein I now judge myself as being less attractive as I was prior to the time when I cut my hair, remembering the bad remarks/judgments from  others that I had when my hair was shorter – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fell “less than who I was when I had long hair” because of the judgment that I make towards my physical appearance as being “less attractive” than what it was when my hair was longer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate breauty with long hear, and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate “ugly” with short hair – wherein I now feel myself as being “uglier” than what I was when I had longer hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people will find me less attractive now that I have short hair, instead of realising that what I fear is not the judgments of others towards myself, but my own judgment as the feeling of “inferiority” within having short hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value my physical appearance, such as having long hair, as being more important than the value I have towards life, instead of valuing life as being of the utmost importance as the greatest value one can have – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value long hair as being more important than the value of life.

I forgive myself that I  have accepted and allowed myself to fear going out with a girlfriend because of the belief that she will find me ugly now that I have short hair, as I felt more confident within myself when I had longer hair than when I have shorter hair – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the feeling of “confidence” that I experienced within and as myself when I had longer hair, was a feeling that was the result of my accepted and allowed participation within polarity of the mind, as I then associated confidence with “superiority” towards how I look in comparison to the “past images” of myself and where the “past images of myself” as the images of me with short hair, was perceived as the “inferiority” point within myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, now that I have short hair, judge me as being less than who I was when I had long hair because of the negative remarks that I got from others when I had short hair as opposed to the positive remarks that I had from others when I had long hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the fact of having short hair as the inferiority point within myself, within the comparison of myself as the image of myself within a given moment as opposed to the image of myself within a past moment, and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as being “inferior” now that I have short hair, because of the value that I have towards and within the current image of myself as being less valuable than the image that I had of myself when I had long hair – instead of realising that the utmost value that I should have is the value of life as the unconditionnal expression of myself as life as the physical. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the fact of having long hair as the superiority point within myself, whereas I would feel superior to others as myself when I had long hair, not realsing that I was then accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity of the mind, through me feeling superior when I had long hair as opposed to feeling inferior when I  had short hair – and now that I have short hair, that I feel “less than” who I was when I had long hair, because the polarity game that I unconsciously played when I had long hair – as the game of perceiving myself superior to what I was when I had short hair – now became all of a sudden conscious, as the judgments that ressurfaced after I had finished cutting my hair short.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge me according to how I look physically, from within which I would silently judge myself instead of releasing myself from such judgments, through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the game of judgments that I silently played within and as my mind were automated through unconscious addictions of playing the games of energy where I experienced myself as having more positive energy when I had long hair than the negative energy that I experienced when I had short hair. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I was participating within games of energies when I looked at myself in the mirror when I had long hair as opposed to when I looked at myself in the mirror when I had short hair, instead of stopping such participation within the polarities of the mind through stopping such participation with BREATHING, the tools of self-forgiveness, self-corrective application, writing and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to built self-trust and self-love within and as myself, which are not dependant on what others judge me as being, but which is only dependant on my honest expression of myself, and that if my expression is not honest, to apply the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application so that my self-trust and self-love is internally driven rather than externally dependant.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “fair of losing my hair” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of fear as the thought of “I am losing my hair”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the fear arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the fear game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in fear as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about fearing losing my hair through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the fear of judgment and stop judgment within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I do not feel anything special within myself as a point to consider writing about within self-forgiveness, that I have nothing to write about, that I have nothing to face within and as myself, instead of realising that as soon as I place myself HERE within and as the moment, that points naturally emerges within and as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be/become as the mind – such as the point that I am currently facing of thinking/believing/feeling that I have hit a wall within my daily self-forgiveness application because of having difficulties in recognizing what I am currently facing as a point within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider not writing today because of not feeling/sensing/perceiving a specific point to write about within my daily self-forgiveness application, instead of realising that the very act of thinking about not having a point to write about within my daily self-forgiveness application, is a point within and as myself as what I have accepted to be/become as the mind – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the very reason why I do not specifically think of a point to face/consider/write about is because of my accepted and allowed participation within laziness, where I have accepted and allowed myself to hide myself from myself-as-the-mind because of the want/need/desire that I have to perceive/believe myself as being accomplished instead of realising that I always have a new point to consider within and as myself within self-honesty – such as the current point of “hitting a wall” in my process.

I forgive myself that I haven`t accepted and allowed myself to see/understand/realise that the 7 years to life process is a process that is to be applied daily within what emerges as points within and as myself as the mind – and that as long as I have not yet completed the 7 years to life process, that I still have a lot of points to face/consider daily within writing myself to freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish the process to be over because of the difficulties i sometimes find myself in finding specific points to write about within my daily self-forgiveness application, whereas I sometimes wallow within my mind in order to find a specific point to write about, instead of realising that the very act of “wallowing within my mind to find points to consider” is a point within and as itself that is in need of attention and correction through the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself when comes the time to face a new point which seems ambiguous to me, such as the point of “hitting a wall” that I am currently facing within and as myself, instead of realising that the very ambiguosity that I experience is a point to consider within writing myself to freedom, through the application of the tools given by Desteni of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application which helps me build self-trust, self-intimacy and self-love which are the basic foundations upon which CHANGE will become REAL.

i forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to trust myself within the process of finding points to write about, wherein I would go and have a look at what other Destonians have written in their blog so as to give me external inspiration, instead of trusting whatever is occuring within and as myself internally, within a given moment, as points that are asking for self-correction through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the state of mind I am in within any given moment, is an ambiguous point which can be transformed into a specific point to consider writing about within the tools of writing myself to freedom through the application of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application – within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worship ambiguosity/vagueness as being the nature of me, wherein I would deliberately define my beingness as something which is ambigous and vague because of having associated myself within my past, as being the very essence of the present moment which can never be defined within an absolute definition because of the very nature of the present as being always CHANGING, within which a specific definition can never be true because of the fact that as soon as I define a moment to be as such, the next moment will bring about a new perspective/definition that will force myself to redefine the present – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that within the act of redefining the moment, from within the perspective of the present moment as never being alike the previous moment, exists new specific points to consider as the new and ever changing definition of the present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continuously look at the number of words I express through the application of writing myself to freedom, so as to verify/judge if my application is good enough to be published because of having associated a good post as being a post which have at least 1000 words written in contrast to a bad post which is a post which has less than 1000 words written – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarities of the mind, as the game of writing a “good post” versus writing a “bad post”, where I would deliberately write “more” whenever I would write a post about a specific point that I am considering within a moment, in order that I would reach the definition of a “good post” even if I have nothing left to write about within a given moment of written application – within this, i forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am participating within the polarity games of the mind, such as the game of gaining positive energy through me attaining the self-defined definition of “being good” – such as writing a post which has at least 1000 words – versus the self-defined definition of “being bad” – such as writing a post which has less than 1000 words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the “number of words written game” when writing posts about my process or when writing about any other subject that I desire, because of having been imprinted/conditionned throughout my formative years – school years – to reach a specific number of words per document so as to make my documents valid as an accepted evaluation by my teachers, which is the act of writing in self-dishonesty because of wanting to write only to reach a specific number of words, rather than writing from the starting point of self-honesty through me writing about what is relevant to any given point/subject which is being faced and sticking to the relevancy of what is written alone, instead of writing only to fill the empty spaces with irrelevant words – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to “re-program” my impressions/conditionnings concerning the act of writing within itself, through the application of the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to REDEFINE who I am within the act/application of writing so that it becomes the unconditionnal expression of myself as myself, where the number of words written becomes irrelevant and where the expression of myself as self-honesty as what is relecant becomes the only relevant aspect to consider.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become an example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “hitting a wall” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that I always have a point to self-forgive myself about and that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of doubt as the thought of “I don’t know what to write about”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the doubt arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the doubt game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in doubt as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about doubting myself through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the fear of judgment and stop judgment within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act differently in front of those that I perceive as being “different than me”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within judgments as the backchat that occurs within me when I see a person that I perceive as being in another class than me, such as a person which is fatter than me, a person which has a different colour of skin than me or a person of a different gender than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within games of polarity based on the physical differences between me and another, such as the physical differences in weight, height, colour of skin and gender, rather than acting equally the same as the principle of oneness and equality towards and with all beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deem a person who is heavier than me, such as an overweight person, as being less important than another less overweight being – such has having thoughts within backchat where I would diminish the relationship with an overweight person so as to not express myself unconditionally towards them but conditionally within the self-imposed limits within my expression towards them – such as not looking at them in the eyes or not considering them as equals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge an overweight person as being “less than me”, thus expressing the consequence-outflow of that judgement as limiting my self-expression towards them as a contrived expression of being uncomfortable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be uncomfortable in front of overweight people, where I would deliberately experience negative energies within myself through looking at an overweight person because of the accepted and allowed conditioning of myself as the mind from within which I perceive overweight people as being physically uncomfortable-looking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my sense of discomfort towards people who are overweight because of the belief and culturally accepted perception that an overweight person is a “disgust” and therefore is “disgusting” to look at.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel disgusted when I see/look/perceive a person as being overweight, from within which I experience feelings of negatively charged energy because of me placing myself in their shoes through the filter of the mind alone – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my mind possession as ego towards and within people whom I perceive/see/look as being overweight, and from within which I manifest within and as myself, the negatively charged energy because of me placing myself as them through the perspective of the mind alone, thereby projecting and living within and as myself as negative energy, my own fears of being overweight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my own fears towards and within people whom I deem as being overweight – from within which the fears that I project are culturally born and reinforced through my active participation within and as the mind as separation as spite, blame and judgments towards and within those that I perceive as being different than me – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me judging a person as being “less than me” because of being overweight or different than me, I thus place myself as being “less than me” from within which I experience negatively charged energies within and as myself because of me “projecting” my sense of self towards and within another being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my sense of self towards and within other beings, not realising that the mere act of projection manifests within and as myself, the energetically charged entities that are correlated with the culturally/mind consciousness, accepted and allowed perception of another based on their physical attributes such as weight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act differently when I am in front of a women.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act differently when I am in front of a man.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act differently when I am faced with a women whom I perceive as being overweight because of the picture presentation of themselves which I perceive, through the filter of the culturally induced perception as the mind, as being “unattractive” thus experiencing within myself, the feeling of “unattractiveness” as the temporal possession of negative energies that I experience as myself, when I put myself inside the shoes of an overweight women.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act differently when I am within the presence of a woman whom I perceive as being beautiful, through the transformation and manipulation of myself as the modification of my behaviours, stances, glances and mannerisms, only so that I can be positively perceived by the women/girl whom I perceive as being beautiful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act differently when I am within the presence of a woman whom I perceive as being unattractive, through the transformation and manipulation of myself as the modification of my behaviours, stances, glances and mannerisms, only so that I can be released from the negative energies that I experience within and as myself because of me projecting my sense of self towards and within the women that I perceive as being unattractive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automate the judgments I express towards other beings, such as the automation of the “back chats” that occurs whenever I silently within my mind, judge another person/being as being “unattractive” thus “less than the positive experience of myself” rather than stop my participation within judgments as backchat so that I can free myself from the mind possession and transform myself to what is best for all, one and equal to all life and all living beings.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as being equal and one with all beings that I encounter in my world/life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to remain stable, within and as the physical, whenever I encounter/exchange/participate within another being in this world – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become instable, such as letting myself be possessed by positive or negatively charged energies whenever I am within the company of a being whom I perceive as being “more than” me or “less than me”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within games of “more than” and “lesser than” whenever I participate within the act of exchanging with another being – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be-LIE-ve that who I am as self-expression is the result of energy – that who I am as life expression is energy which is never stable but remains forever manipulated by the ups and downs of experiences – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am as life is not of energy which is never stable, but who I am as life is the physical, which remains forever stable HERE within and as life as the principle of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that who I am as life, is the principle of Oneness and Equality, as it is common sense that all living beings are equals through and as the needs of the physical – all living beings share the same fundamental needs from within the grounds of equality as physicality as life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I as who I am truly as life as the physical, does not judge or separate or participate within games of winners and losers as the mind, but remains stable, unmoved by the energetic possessions of the mind, HERE, one and equal as life as all living beings in the world.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “judgments of those who are different than me” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of judgment towards others, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the judgment arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the judgment game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in judgment as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “judging others” through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being a reject because of not having any girlfriends or that many friends to spend the time with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the fact that I do not have any girlfriends as justifications, blame and spite towards and within myself as the judgment of being a reject.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as who I am now, based on the interactions and experiences that I had when I was a teenager growing up in this world, within which I would regularly experience being bullied by my classmates because of the fact that I looked different to what was perceived as being normal by those who were bullying me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power to those who were bullying me, within which I would grant them permission to treat me as and within abuse where I would regularly be teased at, thrown stuff at, be ridiculed in front of others – and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined by the interactions I’ve had with those who were bullying me, rather than defining myself according to who and what I am as life as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into my mind, as a means of protection from those who were bullying me, from within which I would spite, blame, accuse those who were bullying me from within the silences of my mind as backchat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire that those who were bullying me would die before I would, from within which I would entertain surges of positive energy towards and within the thought that I would “outlive them” as a desire of self-gratification from within which I would use the thought of “me outliving them” as being a grounds for my “superiority” as being “more than them” simply because of the possibility of having outlived them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to make myself as being “more than others” because of the overwhelming feeling of being “less than others” which was generated within myself every time I was being teased at throughout my teenage years.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within games of “energy” as I would, from that moment on, seek to find ways to make me feel “more than others” as being “more than those who bullied me” through me participating within games of “energy vampirism” where I would later on in my life, practice specific techniques of meditation only so that I would feel “more than myself” as a consequence-outflow from being teased at when I was a teenager.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the game of energy I was participating in as the game of acquiring energy through meditative practices, would generate a “personality suit” of a positively charged entity within and as myself, which would, from the moment where I allowed myself to participate within the game of “positive energy build-up” grow and grow within and as myself up to the point of becoming uncontrollable as the manifestation of the “mental illness” as bipolar disease.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “close my eyes” as the act of deliberately shutting down the words of common sense that were busy manifesting within and as my mind as I allowed myself to let the manifestation of the “positively charged entity” take full control of my body, as I would deliberately stop taking care of my physical body for the expense of the “manic experiences” that would be generated within and as me through the “positively charged entity”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the “positively charged entity” take full control of my body, where I would deliberately shut my ears to the common sensical words that would be coming from my physical body as I would enclose myself within the “positively charged entity” so as to experience the temptation as the reward as the positive energy that the “positively charged entity” would make me experience within and as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by the desire to live an experience of “high” as the experience of “flying high within the mind” as I was experiencing my first manic episode from within which I would deliberately close my eyes to the physical consequences of my mind possession because of being too much enthralled by the experience of “flying high” from within which I would deliberately forget about my physical body’s needs only so that I could continue on with my dependency of “flying high” as the accumulation of positive energy within and as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek experiences of “highs” through meditative practices only so that I could suppress the “lows” as the experiences of being bullied as I was a teenager growing up in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the act of seeking positive energies as the highs that I experienced through meditative practices only suppressed the negative energies as the lows that I experienced within and as myself as I was a teenager growing up in this world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the act of seeking positive energy through my active participation within meditative practices only suppressed further and further down the depths of my being, all of the negative energies that I experienced through being bullied as I was a teenager – and within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the suppression of me as the negative energies of me only accentuated the grounding of and as the mental disorder that was later on diagnosed in me as being bipolar.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was and am not responsible for the creation of the mental disorder that I am now experiencing as being bipolar, because of the belief that the disorder was genetically passed on to me from previous generations – and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take full responsibility of my mental condition and bring about a cure within and as myself, throughout an active participation within the process of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait until the “final minute” before taking action from within which CHANGE will be made possible through my active participation within writing myself to freedom through self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I do the exact same thing to those that I judge as being “less than me” from within which I project unto them my own feelings of rejection – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I treat those that I reject the same way that I was treated with those who rejected me, thus continuing the abuse without making a stop to it.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I abuse those that I reject the same way that I was abused by those who rejected me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stop my participation within the abuse of another through the act of rejection.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that no one is rejected within the greater picture of life, as life does not reject anyone but allows everyone to exist, one and equal to all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “fear of being rejected” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of fear of being rejected, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the fear arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the fear game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in fear of being rejected as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “rejection” through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

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Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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Today I want to do something different within my blog. I will specifically have a look at the word “Arrogance” and how it plays out within and as me – how I am currently living the word, what definitions and values I have attached to it. In the end of the blog, I will write self-corrective statements to correct my living expression of this word, so that It would reflect a new definition that is best for all.

I will use a technique that has just recently come to my awareness through the Earth’s journey to life blog, to which has come to my awareness through the reading of a destonian’s blog which have applied the practice. The technique essentially consists of the act of redefining words so that they would reflect a new definition within and as self, as the starting point of change as the words that self uses in order to create this reality, one word/action at a time. Through the application of various methods which are described in the Earth’s journey to life blog, one is able to redefine words that one uses as self-expression so that the word may be free of any polarised charges. For more information on this particular technique and how you can apply it to yourself, just follow the following links:

1)     Day 4: Redefining words – Part 1

2)     Day 5: Redefining Words (Part 2) – Playing polarity games

3)     Day 6: Redefining words (Part 3) – Experience of the Polarity game

4)     Day 7: Redefining Words (Part 4)- Redefining words as living words

5)     Day 8 – Redefining words (Part 5) – How to redefine words – Gathering Information stage

6)     Day9: Redefining Words (Part 6) How to redefine words – Investigate the word

1. Gathering Information stage

a)       Establishing Self’s Allocation point:

I always perceived this word as being a word that would place the one receiving the word in a “upper” or “greater than” position in relationship to the one giving the word out. Within my personal experiences with this word, the giving aspect of this word mostly manifests itself within “backchat” where I internally tell myself “he/she is so arrogant” as reactions towards the words/actions/deeds that another directed unto myself. On occasions where I have expressed this word outwardly, such as when I would perceive the behaviour of a sports player that I didn’t approve, I would yell out “I ate him because he is arrogant” within which I would experience myself as being “less than” the being I would define as such.  What strikes me now is that I have mostly used this word within the enclosure of my mind as backchat – not having expressed it outwards that many times towards others. Thus, the giving out of the word “arrogance” is mostly done unto myself within and as my mind, thereby being at the same time, the receiver and the giver of the word “arrogance”. When I am at the receiving end of this word, such as when another tells me that I am arrogant, I usually experience myself as feeling conflicted between the negative charges and the positive charges that are culturally associated with this word. On the positive charge, I then see myself as being “greater than” the person telling me that I am arrogant, because I have associated this word with the state of being “overly confident” or of having “greater confidence” in relationship with another. On the negative charge, I simultaneously see myself as not being a “good person” because of the negative associations I have made towards and within the word arrogant – I do not see myself as being a good person because of having seen arrogant people as being individuals who act for their sole self-interests without any care whatsoever for the consequences of their actions towards others. Thus, either by me being the one giving or receiving the word arrogance, the one constant is that this word generates friction within and as myself which manifests as a feeling of being conflicted between the positive charges of the word – I am greater, more confident than the other – and the negative charges of the word – I am not a good caring person towards the other.

b)      Dictionary Definition:

Definition of ARROGANCE:

(1)     An attitude of superiority manifested in an overbearing manner or in presumptuous claims or assumptions.

(2)     An insulting way of thinking or behaving that comes from believing that you are better, smarter, or more important than other people

c)    Sounding of the word – Arrogance: 

“Arror Gance” = Error Glanced – where one glances at a behaviour which is a fundamental error between human’s assessment of each other, being that one’s glance into another’s behaviour is fundamentally flawed because of only considering what is perceived within the moment as the basis upon which the assesment is made rather than considering the entirety of the person’s past within the assessment. When one asses someone as being “arrogant”, one is committing an error of human judgment through perceiving another at a glance, without taking into consideration all aspects which motivates their behaviour. One is arrogant when one acts without full consideration of another’s past within one’s judgment – acting at a glance rather than acting as awareness.

2. Investigating the information of the word that has been gathered :

Determining whether the definition within the different aspects that I have gathered as information of the word, carry a polarity charge (is made “good”/”positive” or “bad”/”negative”)?

a)      My own personal experience with the word arrogance:  

As I was growing up in this world – as a child – I never really was introduced to this word as it wasn’t a word that I was accustomed at using or seeing. Although in retrospect, I have seen behaviours which I would now describe as being arrogant, I wasn’t then aware that the behaviours that I was witnessing represented arrogance. I generally saw arrogance as the natural behaviour of my father, however not seeing him as being arrogant per say, but rather confident as the authority figure in our household. Within the fact that the word arrogance wasn’t present within my vocabulary as I was growing up, I can still say however that I have experienced the meaning of the word in some particular instances later on within my formative years. One particular experience that I remember where I was at the giving end of arrogance came as I was a teenager. I remember that I was constantly teased by other classmates whom presented themselves as being “more than me”. The way that they would claim that they were “more than me” concerned that they would present themselves as “having more than me”, through games of comparisons and competitions where I was perceived as being the “loser” and them the “winners”. They would allow themselves to bully me through giving themselves the allowances to treat me as if I was “less than them” because I accepted and allowed seeing myself as being “less than” them. I remember that some of the factors which played out in my mind to which they and I used in order to determine that I was “less than them” was the fact that I have brown skin and that I was skinny looking as I was growing up. We both used these facts as determining factors from within which we gave ourselves the statuses of the bully and the bullied. I remember that I was afraid of being left alone with them because of the ways that they would treat me, such as pinning me against my locker and calling me derogative names. Later on in my life, I started using the word arrogance when I perceived within another’s behaviour, the same traits that I have associated with those who bullied me as I was a teenager. Specifically, the traits which brought me to judge another as being arrogant revolved around one’s facial expression. When I would see someone look at me or look at someone else with eyes and smile that would make me reminisce those who bullied me, I would judge them as being arrogant within which I would experience myself as the same feeling that I experienced when I was bullied, which was the feeling of being “less than another”. Even when I was at the receiving end of the word arrogance, as was the case when another would call me arrogant – as it was the case a few times when I was within a competitive activity with a friend – I still generally experienced myself as being negatively charged within and as myself. The only few times when I didn’t experience a negatively charged reaction within myself through another calling me arrogant came when I was actually seeing myself as being “more than others”. Such instances generally came when I experienced manic episodes – a symptom of my condition of being bipolar – or when I actually felt as being the “winner” in front of another. So basically the word arrogance was mostly negatively charged throughout my lifetime.

b)      Self-Forgiveness on the word arrogance : 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear arrogance within the belief that I am always on the giving end of the word arrogance within the relationship with another – from within which I experience myself as being negatively charged, or “less than” another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as being “less than another” whenever I hear the word arrogance through me still holding onto the negatively charged experiences that I lived as I was a teenager in this world, where I was regularly bullied by others through our tacitly agreed upon statuses as the bully and the bullied.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “less than” those who present themselves as “having more than” me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I am now is a manifestation that is emerging from the starting point of separation and thus, everything I do and say supports separation which means that I cannot do freely what I want but instead I have to take self-responsibility in establishing myself within the directive principle of living what’s best for all within the realization that I am not separate from anyone or anything else but am one and equal to all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel “less than” another because of the tone of my skin or the appearance of my being and through this, having blamed life and myself for the predicament that I am in within and as my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself and life as my physical body for the judgments of others towards me – and within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the judgments that others have against me are the same judgments that I have against myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold a grudge against my physical body and life in general for having given me the physical attributes which others use in order to make them “more than me” through the act of arrogance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into hiding within my mind whenever I hear/see someone who is behaving in ways which are arrogant and within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to act as CHANGE in my behaviour whenever I am in the presence of someone who express the traits of arrogance towards me or someone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear expressing myself against the behaviour of someone who exhibits arrogant traits because of the underlying belief that the person is right in his ways of arrogance because of me seeing them as being “more than me” and me seeing myself as being “less than them”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as being “less than” those who exhibit traits of arrogance – and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep silent whenever I experience the feeling of being “less than” another which allows the abuse to continue through arrogance.

c)       New definition: 

Arrogance is the behaviour of someone who is acting without consideration of the consequences of its actions towards others as itself. A person is arrogant – Error Again – when it expresses behaviours which are based on the perceived possessions of that person as being “more than” those of another, which is an error that is repeating itself as long as the person participates within games of “winners/haves” and “losers/have nots”.

d)      Self-corrective statements in how I practically will walk the stoppage of arrogance within me: 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “arrogance” – Error Glanced – pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of arrogance “I am more than another” or “I am less than another”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the arrogance arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the arrogance game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in arrogance as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “arrogance” through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to stop “glancing” at the behaviour of another and from there, stop judging another according to a “glance” without the consideration of all of the person’s past within my perception of another.

I commit myself to stop using arrogance in front of another, as the act of perceiving myself as “having more than” or “being more than” another, while basing my perception on what separates me from another, such as what I have that the other does not, rather than perceiving me as that which is equal and one with another, as the physical as life.

I commit myself to stop looking at the possessions of another in my assessment of another.

I commit myself to stop any and all experiences of wanting more than I can handle where within that I first stand in complete clarity within myself and my immediate environment.

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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This morning when I woke up, I still felt overly sleepy as if I hadn’t had enough sleep during the night – which seems unreasonable since I usually sleep in the vicinity of 10 hours per day since about 8 months or so. The reason why I am sleeping as much is in direct relationship to the medication that I have been taking for the past months. I have been diagnosed as being bipolar – to which I have already commented on some of my previous posts – and am forced to take medication in order to control the condition.

However, one of the side effects of the medication is that I tend to oversleep because of the induced sensation of drowsiness that comes with the intake of the medication. I usually do not feel the effects of drowsiness when I wake up, primarily because I allow myself to sleep as long as I feel sleepy – being that I currently do not have a job or any social obligations that would force me to wake up at predefined moments. However, I am currently planning on waking up sooner than what I have accustomed myself to for the past few months, being that I usually wake up around the vicinity of 1 pm. I want to wake up sooner because I am planning on re-joining the working environment shortly. The problem that I am thus facing concerns the fact that the medication that I am taking makes me sleep more than what would be sufficient.

I never liked taking the medication that has been prescribed to me in order to treat my mental condition. Ever since the first prognostic of bipolar disorder back in 2003, I have passed many years without taking the medication. The fact that I didn’t perceive my condition as being an illness played within my decision to not take the medication. Also, I wasn’t followed by the medical corps within the years prior to the end of last year, meaning that I wasn’t regularly checked by any psychiatrist prior to the end of 2011. This situation has changed however, since I now am ordered by court to have regular visits to my psychiatrists in order to ensure that I take my medication. Thus, I currently have to take the medication even if I feel physically worse with my medication. So, the problem I am now facing is that in order for me to function properly within society, it has been deemed by the medical corps that I have to take my medication in order to control the bipolar disorder. The side effect of that is that, like I said earlier, I feel generally drowsier when I wake up, not discarding that I also feel less energetically active with the medication running rampant within my system.

Coming back to the drowsy feeling that I experienced when I woke up today, what I experienced was due to the fact that I forced myself to wake up before I completely felt fresh and awake – to which I will have to enforce as the day will go along because I am planning on reintegrating the working environment soon. Thus, the problem I am facing is that I have to take the medication even if it makes me feel sleepy when I wake up. The fact that I want to wake up earlier in order to instil a new habit of sleeping comes into conflict with the reality that is generated by the medication that I have to take. Thus, since I have to take the medication, I’ll have to force myself to awake sooner and sooner until I reach my goal of waking up at around 8 am before I’ll feel comfortable in re-joining the working environment.

What the situation that I experienced this morning has brought to my awareness however, concerns the act of sleeping in itself. The fact that I usually oversleep, even if it is induced by the medication that I have to take, shows that I am in a way, having a will to hide from my responsibilities as a human being, preferring to remain in bed rather than face what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind. Thus, I will have a look at the act of sleeping itself throughout the application of self-forgiveness in order to release myself from the unconscious desire to not face what needs to be faced if I am to be consistent with my commitment to bring about what is best for all life.

Self-forgiveness on sleeping/oversleeping:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to oversleep because of the unconscious desire to remain in bed rather than facing my reality for what I have accepted and allowed it to become as my world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the act of oversleeping is an act of abuse and dishonesty because through this act, I am stating that I do not want to change who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become which is a being of abuse through the constant participation in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “not want to change” through me oversleeping or staying in bed even if I am consciously aware of being awake – and within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the act of oversleeping means that I “do not want to change” thereby stating that I prefer remaining engulfed within my own little bubble of dreamlike fantasies rather than opening my eyes up through the bursting of my little bubble in order to see/understand and realise what needs to be done in order to bring about a world that is best for all life, equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the medication as a justification that supports the condition that I do not want to partake in any longer, although stating through the mere act of waking up late that I still want to partake in the condition that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me staying in bed late, I am being dishonest with my statement of change because of continuing within the patterns of “shutting my eyes at the world” rather than bursting my bubble of comfort so as to bring about real effective change in my life and in the world at large.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use sleep as a means to hide myself form my responsibilities towards myself as the physical as life, thereby wallowing within worlds of fantasies rather than waking up from the slumber and hypnosis of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear sleeping less because of the fear of having too much time on my hands, now that I am currently out of work/job, if I am to wake up sooner within my days.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that by sleeping less and less, that I will have more opportunities to self-correct through self-forgiveness because of having more “awake time” on my hands, from within which new perspective/points will emerge for me to apply self-forgiveness in order to bring about real effective change for what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to favour sleeping over waking up in the morning because of the fear of having to spend more time alone with myself in full awareness, not realising that the more time I have to face myself as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the mind, the more I will have opportunities to CHANGE for what is best for all life – through the process of self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I only need between 4 and 6 hours of sleep per night in order for the physical to feel refreshed and ready to face the day.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the reason why I prefer sleeping than being awake is that I fear the day as the moment where I have to make decisions and actions for the survival of the lifestyle that I have accustomed as being my own.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel drowsy when I wake up sooner than I usually do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose myself within this current self-forgiveness statement because of having difficulties in finding specific points in regards to the act of oversleeping – whereas I become redundant and repetitive within my statements just so that I may reach the point I have set out for myself which is to write as much self-forgiveness statements as possible just so as to show that I am applying myself – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that it is not about the quantity of self-forgiveness statements that I can make, but the quality as the “real” as the true “self-reflecting points” of self-forgiveness rather than points that are not the expression of what is currently HERE as the honest expression of myself HERE within and as the physical as what emerges from moment to moment.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to remain true to the points which are emerging from moment to moment as points of self-forgiveness, even if they are not perceived as being related to the subject that I am focussing on at a given moment of self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that sleep is not necessary as it is the expression of the desire of mankind to not face what it is that we globally create within this world – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sleep as a systematic mechanism that represents the will of mankind to let things as they are, meaning to let the abuse of life continue as it is without us intervening in order to change this system of abuse towards a system that dignifies life such as the equal money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sleep more than what is necessary just because I “like” being in a dreamlike state – and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “like” a mind generated state which is abusive in nature for it allows abuse to continue in this world while I remain silent and inactive within the grasp of slumber and sleep.

I commit myself into bringing about a world where life is dignified and where money serves life rather than life serving money.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “oversleeping” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of oversleeping as “I am too tired to wake up”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the slumber arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the slumber game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in slumber as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “sleeping” through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com