The following is a text i have copied and pasted as a reminder for myself and others as myself as to the reasons why i apply self-forgiveness. It has been written by Aldin, an active Destonian, and I find that it reflects perfectly my own experience with writing self-forgivenesses, especially in regards to the motivational aspect of writing when it comes to the application of the tools brought about by Desteni (self-forgiveness). So, I have placed the text here in my blog, so that other as myself understands what it takes in order to do effective self-forgivenesses.
Self Forgiveness

How I apply Self Forgiveness:

If I find a Resistence due to applying Self Forgiveness I look at it and I FORCE me to apply it.

In other words, if I do not ‘want’ to apply Self Forgiveness I find it’s BECAUSE OF something, be it

– because of wanting to do something else
– because Self Forgiveness is boring
– etc.

and in this I know that it’s a Excuse/ justification and reason.

So I FORCE me to apply Self Forgiveness = I stand up AS my Physical Body, thus I stand up Physically and I take Paper or a CollegeBlock or whatever to write on and a Pen and I sit down and I start writing.

Just start writing something and Points to apply Self Forgiveness on will emerge, you will see.

Of course then I have to Forgive myself that I have not wanted to apply Self Forgiveness and then continue.

Thus in this I STAND AS THE PHYSICAL and ACT PHYSICLY = I stand up with and AS my Physical Body and MOVE me PHYSICLY to APPLY SELF FORGIVENESS.

How I motivate me?

Well motivation is a big factor I find, though it’s easy to be motivated by and through something outside of yourself like Wants and Needs and Desires you have.

Though SELF WILL is SELF WILLING SELF — in this there exists no outside thing/seperate thing to be motivated but only SELF AS ALL AS EQUAL AS ONE.

And SELF WILL implies SELF like in the words ‘SELF WILL’

So I/me/Self WILL me/I/SELF.

To give an example on how I motivate myself and WILL myself is as follows:

If I find a resistence due to Applying Self Forgiveness in every moment of breath when and as necessary to be applyed — then I take the ‘status’ of Existence into consideration — not only myself as how I experience myself at the moment, no I take ALL Life into Consideration — I ‘think of’ the Children who are being abused/molested/raped/murdered – who starve, etc.

I take into Consideration the animals who are being abused/killed just for Mans GREEDY and FUCKED UP NATURE of CONSUMMERISM — GREEDY PIGS AS MAN.

I take into Consideration the Dimensions and their ‘Work’/Dedication and Commitment to this Process/to LIFE — to get LIFE born from the Physical — to STOP the SYSTEM/CONSCIOUSNESS — to STOP WAR/MURDER/RAPE — To stop cruelty – to stop the rape/molestation/beating/killing/molesting of Children in this world.

I take LIFE into consideration as LIFE being ABUSED extensivly and I place myself into ALL these and AS ALL these beings/expressions and ‘forget’ about myself as ‘my LIFE’ ONLY — I ACT AS ALL — I ACT FOR AND AS MYSELF AS THE DIMENSIONS — as The Animal Kingdom –AS The Childs at the very moment being molested/raped/beaten/killed — The Childs who cry out of Pain – out of having nothing to eat — out of being raped — I ACT AS ALL LIFE — ALL LIFE TAKEN INTO CONSIDERATION and then I PUT myself into the SITUATION of when I DIE and STAND before ALL LIFE or even HERE STANDING before ALL LIFE and ask myself ‘What would I say – What shell I say because I did not unconditionally STAND up for ALL AS ALL and applyed the tools provided for me to stop the SLAVERY, to stop the cruelty in this world/reality/existence — Would I be ashamed of myself? Could I look all into the eyes and say and know that I have acted in every moment to the ULTIMATE to STOP what is HERE as SYSTEMS for LIFE to STEP forth to be DIRECTED by and AS SELF’

In this — There cannot exist any exuse – there cannot exist any reason and any justification — because I know what IS to DO and if I do not do it — if I do not act in every moment of breath to the ULTIMATE to STOP what is HERE — but consider and take only myself as ‘my Life’ into Consideration and act as EGO I will be ASHAMED of MYSELF LATER — this SHAME will not be Experienced IMMEDIATELY but as EVENTS open this SHAME will step forth and then What is my EXCUSE????

I KNOW that I will STAND before ALL LIFE — FACE MYSELF AS ALL LIFE — and in this I WOULD not LIKE to have to be FACED with the QUESTION Why I did not STOOD UP and ACTED in every MOMENT of BREATH to the ULTIMATE as I have had all the tools Provided but did not acted as I took only myself as ‘my Life’ into Consideration and gave a Fuck onto ALL others.

Then another ‘Motivation Factor’, to call it so is — if I do not want and/or experience a resistence to apply Self Forgiveness on because I take only myself as ‘my Life’ into Consideration is that I take into Consideration that WE ALL have ALREADY FALLEN 10 times till now, and that we are CURRENTLY in the 11th CYCLE of THIS PROCESS OF BIRTHING LIFE AS ALL AS ONE AS EQUAL.

And in this I TAKE ALL LIFE INTO CONSIDERATION AS MYSELF.

I ask myself if I would really like to experience all the shit again from beginning till now, over and over and over and over AGAIN — Loop yet AGAIN more than 350 Billions of Years to get to the Exact same point and see if I/WE WILL get through it this time?

I take into Consideration ALL of Existence not only myself to have to LOOP over again.

I put myself into the Situation as Standing before ALL of EXISTENCE — infront of ALL LIFE and being asked the question why I have had not STOPED AS I have had the Opportunity to, as ALL the tools were provided to and for and AS ME — and that BECAUSE of ME ALL HAVE FALLEN because I HAVE FALLEN and yet to LOOP ALL and EVERY THING from the very ‘Beginning’ again to get to the exact same point to see if we/I will get through this this TIME — ALL
EQUALLY AS ONE.

In this I SET my ASS into GEAR and MOVE/ACT no MATTER WHAT because I know what there IS to do and must be DONE — and so I ACT.

Sure there are moment where one says ‘Ah, man fuck it, I dont want anymore. It’s to hard’.

Sure, but I know that this is not me and I have to MOVE/PUSH through it and I have tools to assist me with and these Are SELF FORGIVENESS applyed within and as ABSOLUTE – BRUTAL SELF HONESTY AS SELF AS ALL LIFE AS EQUALS AND AS ONE –

Then SELF Corrective Application

Writing and Breathing — to MOVE PRACTICLY THROUGH the MANIFESTED CONSEQUENCES of THE PAST because I know that I have CREATED these Consequences which I have to WALK THROUGH otherwise I will FALL for EVER and NEVER be LIFE — experience myself AS LIFE and therefor no one will because ALL WILL FAIL because if ONE FAILS ALL FAILS — therefore I am RESPONSIBLE FOR MYSELF AS FOR ALL LIFE EQUALLY AS ONE.

So in this NO exuses – NO REASONS and NO JUSTIFICATION cann be and are valid — because I know what it is to be DONE and if I do NOT do it — I will FALL for EVER.

This I have to prectice over and over and over because there are some moments where you ‘forget’ about this and do take only yourself and ‘your Life’ into Consideration.

~ Aldin

Today, I came upon a problem that I’ve been experiencing lately as I came within the application of myself through writing. The problem that I’ve been having corresponds to the resistances that recently come up whenever I place myself in front of the computer so as to write within my daily commitment to write daily in my blog.

 

So, in order to address this issue, I decided to write a list of all the reasons why I do not want to write, and then to apply self-forgiveness on each of those reasons.

 

Here is the list of all of the reasons why I do not want to write:

–          I want to watch t.v. instead of writing.

–          I want to read a book instead of writing.

–          I want to go outside and have a walk, instead of writing.

–          I want to call a friend instead of writing.

–          I want to browse the internet instead of writing.

–          I want to watch a movie instead of writing.

–          I want to read the contents of a website I regularly visit, instead of writing.

–          I want to sit and relax instead of writing.

–          I want to smoke pot instead of writing.

–          I want to play a video game instead of writing.

–          I want to do exercises instead of writing.

 

Self-forgiveness statements in relation to the previous list:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want to watch television rather than applying myself in my writing application, whereas I have committed myself to write daily in my blog, so as to stop myself from participating within all aspects of the mind, which manifests themselves daily as I am still within the process of writing myself to freedom, which will take 7 years minimum before I’ll be able to stand equal and one with the physical as life – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to thoroughly apply myself within my writing application daily, within me committing myself to write daily in my blog so as to serve as an example to myself and others as myself, to what it means to apply oneself within the commitment made to change so as to act within the best interest of all life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire to read a book instead of applying myself within my daily writing application, whereas I often think of reading while I am within the process of writing, because of the fact that my mind is looking for something other to do than writing because of “wanting to get over with it” rather than actually focussing myself into the task at hand so as to make my self-forgiveness statements effective.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the thought of “wanting to get over with it” when I am within the process of writing in my blog, because of my mind diverting my attention away from the task at hand – which is writing – towards a task which doesn’t involve as much investment as the act of writing, because of the fact that the mind always looks/seeks for the easiest way out of a demanding situation, rather than directly facing what is HERE so as to change what is not in alignment with who we are as life, into that which is equal and one with the physical as life as who we truly are.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire to go outside and have a walk when I am writing, instead of focussing my attention towards the task at hand so that my self-forgiveness statements are effective. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that me wanting to go outside and have a walk instead of writing when I am within the task of writing myself out, is a desire of the mind as the mind always seeks to get “pleasure” out of a specific situation and that if the mind doesn’t get the pleasure it seeks from within a given task, that it will wander around within the task of trying to find a better activity which would guarantee more pleasure than the activity at hand – and that such a desire is in no way in accordance with who and what I truly am as life as the physical, since it only seeks to further the enslavement of self towards the mind, through the feelings that the mind seeks to experience as itself through experiences that the mind sees/deems as being “better than” the experience of writing.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to call a friend instead of applying myself to write, because of the still present desire to get something out of the experience of writing – such as an experience of a positively charged feeling/emotion – and that when I do not get what the mind seeks to get from the experience of writing, that the mind will automatically divert it’s attention towards some activity which guarantees self-gratification, such as spending time with a friend which more than likely will give out positive feelings, rather than the self-exploratory process of writing myself out to freedom throughout my daily blogs.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek/desire to browse the internet rather than sticking to the projected plan of writing myself out from within my daily writing application, whereas I sometimes stop within the application of writing and browse the contents of the internet for some “shock and awe” news so as to “lift myself up” from the feeling energy that I as the mind seeks, such as positive energy – instead of diligently applying myself within the task of writing without being diverted by the desires of the mind, such as the desires to get a specific energetic high, through me browsing the internet for some “shock and awe” news.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want/seek to watch a movie rather than diligently applying myself within the task of writing myself out to freedom, whereas I often think of watching a movie while within the act of writing myself out, because of the fact that the mind seeks to get instant gratification rather than complying with an application which doesn’t equate to “instant gratification” such as writing – instead of realising that the act of writing will be more helpful for me in the long run than the act of watching a simple movie, which only makes me more passive and gradually dissuades me in applying myself to change for what is best for all, whereas the application of writing myself out is me pushing myself to change in order to be equal and one with what is best for all life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the reaction of going to read the contents of a specific web site rather than continuously focussing on the task at hand, which is the task of writing myself out – thereby being constantly and continuously diverted within my attention making the task of writing even more difficult because of not being able to stabilise my attention to what is here within and as my writings, and divert my attention towards what is there within and as the preferences of the mind – instead of bringing myself back HERE within and as stability as myself as the physical, so as to stabilise my attention to the task at hand, which is writing, rather than giving the time of day to the desires of the mind which only seeks to further my enslavement towards the mind through the constant and continuous repetition of positive feelings which only enslaves me more to the system of abuse as the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to sit and relax rather than wilfully applying myself within the act of writing myself out, simply because of the fact that sitting and relaxing is a more passive behaviour than the active behaviour of writing myself out – whereas I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become passive within the main character of myself as the mind, where I constantly and continuously seek passive activities rather than active activities to occupy my time with – instead of realising that in order to change, that I have to actively apply myself within an activity which demands my full participation, such as writing, rather than continuously continue my self-allowed enslavement to the mind as the “passive character” – and therefore taking a stand as the new statement of myself I want to express out into the world, such as the statement that I will no longer accept and allow myself to remain passive within my behaviour.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to smoke pot rather than applying myself within the task of writing, because of still being addicted to the positive feeling/energy that was generated when I smoked pot, and therefore still having the mind reflex pattern of me thinking about smoking pot while within the task of writing myself out, because of the fact that the mind constantly and continuously seeks pleasure giving experiences rather than experiences which doesn’t necessarily equate as “instant pleasure” such as writing, even if the act of writing offers greater support than any other self-rewarding activities such as smoking pot, since it allows oneself to investigate oneself in order to see for oneself what oneself has accepted and allowed oneself to be and become as the mind, so as to give oneself the power to change so as to become life within gradually changing within the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the thought of wanting to play a video game while I am in the process of writing myself out, because of me as the mind being always within the pursue of “instant gratifications” through the generation of “instant feelings” such as the feelings which are generated through friction when I do accept and allow myself to participate within playing a video game – instead of realising that playing video games doesn’t change anything within what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the mind, and only thus continue the enslavement of myself towards the mind instead of stopping my enslavement towards the mind through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to do some physical exercises rather than writing, because of the thought of me actually seeing the differences that such an action makes upon me – such as the fact that the muscles grow bigger through physical exercises, which can be instantly verified just after workout – whereas the act of writing myself out doesn’t show such obvious evidence of change because of the fact that the application of writing works within layers of the mind which are more difficult to be aware of – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that change doesn’t have to be instantaneously recognised in order for change to manifest itself within oneself, such as what happens when one is within the act of writing oneself out – and that such a change operates within deep layers of the mind so as to make sure that the original point which is at the starting point of one’s behaviour, changes and allows a new behaviour to take it’s place, such as the behaviour of becoming equal and one with and as life, equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse of “I am too tired to write” for me not to apply myself within my process, whereas the fact that I am currently experiencing myself as being tired, gives me difficulties in writing – instead of realising that the difficulties that I now experience as myself are of the mind alone, and that I am able to push myself to write in my blog through me realising that I am not of the mind, but of and as the physical as the body as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate difficulties within the wording of my current sentences through this self-forgiveness entry, because of the fact that I am currently experiencing myself as being tired – whereas the words within my mind seems to be stuck in glue making it difficult to extract and use the words as my mind is lacking in the energy to do so – instead of realising that I am not of the mind, thus not of energy as the energy is only made in the image and likeness of life as the physical, but is not life itself as life is the physical as all as one as equal = life is not the experience of energy but the experience of stability as the physical as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be affected by the medication that I took this morning in order to help me sleep, wherein I now experience myself as being too drowsy to concentrate and to generate sentences because of the effects of the medication upon my nervous system – where I even have difficulties in using the keyboard in order to write, as the extent of the effects of drowsiness coming from the medication is so extensive that it affects my motor abilities. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for the experience of my inner self to be determined by the medication and the effects thereof upon my central nervous system – as I am still to this day, so extensively influenced by the mind that I still cannot overcome the effects of medication upon my system, as the actions thereof are so deep within the chemical reactions of my brain, that I still cannot change the effects of such an outside influence within and as my central nervous system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as being too lazy to write, as I am now so out of energy that the simple task of writing seems like a chore, as my mind is being pulled towards sleeping/slumber through the drowsiness effects of the medication that I took this morning in order to help me sleep – instead of allowing myself to go into the sleeping mode naturally, as I had a headache which made the task of sleeping all the more difficult this morning.

 

 

 

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by my environment, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be influenced by my environment, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

 

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

 

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “changing myself because of the darkness of a man made environment” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

 

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality sadness/depression, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of sadness/depression, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.

 

 

 

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Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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Today was the 4th day since I started applying myself in the “writing yourself to freedom” initiative. Although it has been more than 4 years since I first started writing myself to freedom through the Desteni principle, I haven’t yet done it in a regular fashion, like what I am attempting at doing nowadays through the “7 years to life” application. One of the main reasons why I haven’t yet been diligent enough in my writings is because of the belief that I am lacking in things to say or write about.

 

Today was one of those days where I questioned myself for points to consider writing about when I would be alone in front of my computer as is now the case. I went to a baseball game with my friend and spent almost all of the time attending the game, thinking about what to write about when I would be in front of my computer. There weren’t any points of interest which popped up in my mind as I was thinking of things to write about thus, I decided to write about this “lack of things to say” pattern that seems to pop up whenever I push myself to write about things in general.

I remember when I was growing up, I had a lot of difficulties finding subjects to write about as I was attending school. Writing has never been a strong point in my life, as I have a lot of trouble even respecting the basis of writing in itself, which is to write about a subject, verb and complement which thus generates typical sentences. The way my mind works is rather messy, as my thoughts run around in my mind without order or concision. I usually understand myself when I think to myself, however, when comes the time to share my thoughts or the processes of my mind to another, there is always this “blockage” that seems to arise. We can say that I have difficulties writing in the English language as it is not my primary language, being French. But even in my primary language do I find difficulties in making my thoughts concise to another.

For example, in order for me to portray the difficulties I have when attempting at writing myself out, I just went over a blank state in my mind, as I was at the end of the last paragraph, thinking of what else to say in order to make this entry as substantial as possible. Within me blanking myself out, I lost focus on what I was attempting to say simply because I do not know what to write about. I know that I want to make the necessary efforts for me to be able to follow through with my decision to participate in this “writing yourself to freedom” for the next 7 years, but I fear that it will be difficult for me at first, since the pattern of “having nothing to write/say about” is still very much present in my “psychological makeup”. Thus, to those who are reading my entries, I would say to please bear with me, as I am currently working out the pattern which has brought me to be passive in my process up to now, which is the “I do not know what to say/write about” pattern.

Thus, I will stop my ramblings here, and will go into the self-forgiveness statements regarding this particular point of “I do not know what to say/write about” pattern.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not have anything to say to another and within which I manifest this pattern because of the lack of self-discipline that I has been the makeup of my personality for a long time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lack discipline when comes the time to reprogram myself in order that I may be one with and as life as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to behave as if I have nothing to say or write about because of the lack of will to change me rather than to wait that someone or something other than me changes me first, which is impossible for there is nothing out there which will do the work for me as everything is me as all as one as equal as life as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself through the thought of “I do not have anything to say/write about” because of not being focussed enough within and as myself in order to get rid of those points which are within me but where I do not want to face because of the belief that I have nothing to say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have nothing to say through the belief that I am “more than” this process of self-forgiveness within which I delude myself into thinking that I am above the process.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am not above the process as the process is equal and one with everyone in this planet and that it takes 7 years, minimum for one to be able to free oneself from the grasp of the mind consciousness system, to which we are not as we are all one as all as equal as life as the physical, and not the mind.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the thought of me not having anything to say/write about is a trap of the mind trying to make me believe that I have nothing to write about because of the belief that I am above the process.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I have a lot of things to say/write about if I am to look at myself one point/day at a time.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that it is actually me as the mind which is “blanking myself out” because of the fear of having to “fix myself out as the mind” rather than someone else doing it for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for another to fix me rather than me taking self-responsibility for me as myself and from there, work through the mind one point at a time until I am silent within myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the process of self-forgiveness is a living statement that needs to be lived one day at a time as one thus becomes the principle of giving as life only through the trials of every day participation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose focus as the act of placing my attention elsewhere whenever I am trying to look for points within myself that are to be processed through the process of self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have nothing to say as an escape mechanism that I use to not be taken accounted for my own actions.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the pattern of me thinking that I have nothing to say is an escape mechanism that I as the mind equal and one, has used in order to make me “believe” that I am “above it all” and that I do not need to apply myself because of having reached a particular point of self-realisation which grants me the privilege of not having to “work on myself” because of the belief that I am already “free” – within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am “free of the work of the self-forgiveness process” because of the belief that what I lived through, spiritually, is enough to make me “better than” everybody else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am “better than anybody else” because of the level of spiritual awakening that I have reached throughout my life, not realising that spirituality was and is an escape mechanism of the mind which will not and cannot change the state of abuse in this world because of the lack of physical practicality that spirituality professes through actions which only supports the mind such as meditation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive and believe that meditation is an act that can change the state of the world through the medium of the “magical attributes of the unconscious mind” which is only a virtual representation of what LIFE is in all actuality, which is the physical equal and one with all living beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide within the silences of the mind so that I may continue on with the belief that I have nothing to say, all the while inhibiting myself from the depths of the mind to which I go to in order to keep on believing that I have nothing to say/write about.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that it is me that pushes myself back within the silences of the mind because of not wanting to take action in this world in order to bring about real actual change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to change things in this life because of the belief that I am too small and unimportant to be able to change things in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am too small to bring about change in this world.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “lost of focus” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of guilt of ‘I must have something to say’, I stop, breathe, see if I have missed an opportunity to self correct into Oneness and Equality from which the guilt arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the guilt and self correct, if not I stop, self forgive my participation in guilt as an automated response to a pattern of self Abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about “not having things to say” and from judging myself and others as ‘having nothing to say’, through the use of thoughts and emotions, ideas and beliefs, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of Illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every Living Being.

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

And check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com