I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to play video games out of boredom
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fall into the video game trap by thinking/perceiving it to be a way to ‘kill’ some time
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to ‘want to kill time’ out of boredom and hopelessness
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I play video games because I am hopeless for my future
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to neglect my future in the past by playing video games just so that I keep the illusion alive that everything is still like it was when I was younger and care free
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to hide from my self responsibility in the sake of playing video games to keep me hidden within my own head and to continuously push my self-responsibilities aside for a later time
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that by “pushing my self-responsibility aside” all of my life that ‘everything that I didn’t want to face then’ is now coming back to me ten folds
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to hide from myself
Till here no further
I do not accept and allow myself to be bored – life is not bored
I am life
I am directness
I am confidence
I speak me
I write me
I am life as equal as all as one
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