I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self-responsibility because of having fallen for the trap of smoking pot again, even if I know that smoking pot only reinforces the control of the mind over myself, because of having accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by my desires of “wanting to have some fun” wherein I have abdicated my self-responsibility towards myself and others as myself, only because of having allowed the desire to “have some fun” have precedence over my will to stop myself from entertaining the constructs of the mind, such as the “inner chatter” and “sense of relaxation” that pot enables me to experience within myself – instead of stopping myself from smoking pot and from participating within the constructs of the mind that pot enables, through the application of breathing, so as to return to who I am here whenever I sense the desire of smoking pot rise again within my mind, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the “slave of the mind” so that I realise myself as who I truly am as the physical as life, which is one and equal with all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about smoking pot when I have nothing to do, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain the idea/thought of smoking pot whenever I find myself unoccupied, because of the still present desire of “having some fun within my own mind”, rather than stopping myself from participating within the mind as desire, through the application of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to stop myself from repeating the same pattern of self-abuse such as the pattern of smoking pot, on an on and off pattern, and so that I can change from the abusive nature that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so that I release myself from the stronghold of the mind and realise myself as life as one as all as the physical HERE, instead of remaining THERE within the patterns of abuse of the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for smoking pot, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain negative thoughts about myself because of having allowed myself to smoke pot again, thereby participating within the polarity manifestation as the mind, rather than stopping myself from participating within the polarity as the mind through the application of writing, breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to really change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, and rebirth myself as life as the physical, so that I can really start living and change the abusive nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as humanity, and rebirth ourselves as life, one and equal with all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for stealing the pot of my sister’s boyfriend, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my sense of self within my mind, through the awareness of the fact that my sister’s boyfriend knows that I have stolen his pot for personal use, knowledge which have brought me to seek to evade and feel uncomfortable within the presence of my sister’s boyfriend – instead of stopping myself from participating within the constructs of the mind as the “feelings” and “emotions” that keeps me locked within the confines of the abusive mind, rather than stopping myself from participating within the constructs of the mind such as feelings and emotions, through the use of the tools of writing, so as to see myself for who I am within my own mind, breathing so as to bring myself back to who I truly am HERE as life as the physical, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the slave of the mind, to who I truly am as the creator and created as the physical as life, where no mind is necessary to exist.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by my friend’s abusive behaviour of smoking pot, wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to “fall back” within an abusive nature towards and within myself through me smoking pot again – instead of stopping myself from smoking pot, through the awareness of the fact that smoking pot never has led me anywhere that is constructive, having always experienced nothing but deception through smoking pot – and that if I am to find myself entertaining the desire of smoking pot again, that I am to immediately apply the tools of breathing, so as to stop myself from entertaining the desires of smoking pot, writing so as to see myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become within the mind, self-forgiveness so as to release myself from the points which keeps me locked within my own mind, self-honesty so as to reveal myself to myself without hiding anything from myself and self-corrective application so as to change myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, so that I can rebirth myself as life as the physical, where no mind is necessary in order to function/live within this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the feelings that I have associated with the act of smoking pot, such as the feeling of “vastness” and “openness” that I have deluded myself into having through the act of smoking pot, and that if I am to find myself entertaining thoughts and ideas about smoking pot again, that I am to immediately stop myself from participating within those thoughts, through the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so as to change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the abusive nature of the mind, and eventually rebirth myself as life where no mind is necessary.
I commit myself to stop myself from participating within the act of smoking pot through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to smoke pot, that I will never get anywhere in life, as it has been clearly shown to me, throughout my numerous experiences of smoking pot in the past, that pot leads to nowhere, as the only place that pot leads to is greater confusion and greater states of self-abuse.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the polarity manifestation of the mind through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to be controlled by my mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to stop my participation within energetically charged experiences through me, whenever I experience the movements of positive or negative energies within me, immediately stop such participations through the BREATH/BREATHING and place myself HERE within and as the physicality as me. If an opportunity to self-forgive arises, I apply self-forgiveness aloud or within myself. I remind myself that the energetically charged experience/thought/feeling/emotion is a pattern that I no longer want to participate in and as the mind.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “wanting to participate within the act of smoking pot” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “pot addict”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the “pot dependant character”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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